-x- Becoming Mrs O'Sullivan 11.02.17 -x-

[x_Rainbow_x]

Yeah Iv used the numbers and they keep falling over so had to prop them up lol

 

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Yes I agree they are very light! They will look lovely! I considered doing that too but couldn't be bothered

 

[Charlotteee]

Ok thanks for that!! I will have to use my noggin and think of what to use to weigh them down!! xxx

 

[Charlotteee]

Well Andrew goes to Prague on Thursday until Sunday. Not going to lie I'm already sad at the thought of him going. I know it's not long but he is my right arm.

It's two of his friends stag do, they are having a joint stag, and are each others best man, one gets married in March, the other in May. God help those two with what's planned!!

Gonna have to keep myself busy whilst he's gone or I'll mope around like a lovesick teenager haha.

Thursday and Friday i'll be in work and Saturday we are off to Farmer Parrs in Fleetwood for his cousins 1st birthday party. Then we've been invited round to my SILs Saturday night for drinks seeing as the men will all be out frolicking in lap dancing bars.

Then Sunday will be a day of getting the house in order and then he'll be home hopefully just after 7pm xx

 

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Sounds like you have loads planned to keep you busy. When DH sent on his stag to benidorm in June I missed him loads! Seemed like he was gone forever!

 

[Charlotteee]

Need to type this somewhere or i'm going to explode and facebook probably isn't appropriate haha!!

So Andrew went to Prague yesterday and I am missing him like crazy.

But last night i decided to google strip clubs in Prague, and apparently there aren't any rules, literally anything goes. I'm so upset. He's told me he's been in one before in benidorm before he was with me and there were no rules there and lets just say he had his hands everywhere, i mean everywhere.

What if he does it out there, for me thats cheating, if he gets a dance then yeah but if he touches at all then that's it for me, my heart would be broken.
I've dreamt of nothing but him cheating all night and it's killing me that I can't speak to him.
I know he wouldn't cheat but it's hard not to think when hes out there and he was drinking for 24 hours yesterday. Left at 4am went to bed at 5am this morning no sleep, so if he's been absolutely hammered who's to say he's not stupidly done something last night.

I hate the thought of him having his hands all over some skanky stripper and if the shoe was on the other foot he would probably hate it if I did it to some male stripper.

Mehhhh, stupid dreams have put me in a bad mood!! Roll on Sunday.

Staying at a friends tonight with Jenson. She has three kids and one is Jensons age, her fiancé is one of the stags on the stag do they are on, and then staying out tomorrow night and then he's home.

You don't realise how much you really love someone until they're gone for longer than you're used too.

xx

 

[x_Rainbow_x]

Need to type this somewhere or i'm going to explode and facebook probably isn't appropriate haha!!

So Andrew went to Prague yesterday and I am missing him like crazy.

But last night i decided to google strip clubs in Prague, and apparently there aren't any rules, literally anything goes. I'm so upset. He's told me he's been in one before in benidorm before he was with me and there were no rules there and lets just say he had his hands everywhere, i mean everywhere.

What if he does it out there, for me thats cheating, if he gets a dance then yeah but if he touches at all then that's it for me, my heart would be broken.
I've dreamt of nothing but him cheating all night and it's killing me that I can't speak to him.
I know he wouldn't cheat but it's hard not to think when hes out there and he was drinking for 24 hours yesterday. Left at 4am went to bed at 5am this morning no sleep, so if he's been absolutely hammered who's to say he's not stupidly done something last night.

I hate the thought of him having his hands all over some skanky stripper and if the shoe was on the other foot he would probably hate it if I did it to some male stripper.

Mehhhh, stupid dreams have put me in a bad mood!! Roll on Sunday.

Staying at a friends tonight with Jenson. She has three kids and one is Jensons age, her fiancé is one of the stags on the stag do they are on, and then staying out tomorrow night and then he's home.

You don't realise how much you really love someone until they're gone for longer than you're used too.

xx

You will drive yourself insane Hun. Try to relax. I got myself worked up when my OH went on his convinced myself of all kind of things mainly because of the ppl he's with and like you was worried he'd get so drunk he wouldn't realise what he was doing. I drove myself crazy that I ended up doing something silly.
He loves you. You no him and the fact he wouldn't do that so keep that in mind.

I get what you mean about them being away for longer periods tho.
It'l al be ok and hel be home soon

Xxxx

 

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[Charlotteee]

I'm more annoyed now though, I messaged him last night before I went to sleep and said good night, have a nice night love you, he's been online this morning and completely ignored it. It wouldn't kill him to say Good Morning and then i'd be ok for the day!! Instead i'm sat here thinking is he not messaging because he's feeling guilty or something??

 

[smileyfaces]

Aw don't be draft. Why would he do that? You said yourself you trust him and you don't think he would so why are you thinking these things?? Just relax. You will see him in a few days xx

 

[Charlotteee]

See i've calmed down now he has messaged me haha!!

I spent 3 years being worn down by my ex, and even though I trust him and don't think he would do that, those niggles are still there when I have time to think and i'm feeling down xx

 

[CRWx]

Fully understandable!

Glad you feel better now xxx

 

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[Charlotteee]

He messaged me again earlier. They went in a strip club last night, but he said he didn't pay for a dance, he said it was too expensive. He said put it this way one lad paid 18000 and to put that into perspective andrew took 8000 with him for 3 nights lol!!

Love him so much. Not long now and he's home.

He also asked me if he can change his stag do weekend lol. Yes if you like aslong as it doesn't coincide with my hen do haha. Nice to know he's wedding planning out there

 

[smileyfaces]

Love the change in your tone since this morning xxx

 

[CRWx]

How're you getting on lovely? xxx

 

[Charlotteee]

Hello, congratulations are in order I see!! Very happy for you!!

Plans are at a standstill at the minute, just waiting to finish paying A's mum off the loan she lent us 2 years ago. Finish that in June and then can crack on with suits etc.

Andrew got back Sunday night, he had a brilliant time and told me everything.

Had absolutely no reason to not trust him but when you've been in a volatile relationship with someone who used to wear you down and cheat on you, you do have little niggles xxx

 

[Charlotteee]

11 months on Friday. Going so quick and we are really busy up until the end of May!! Like every weekend is rammed full!! xxx

 

[CRWx]

Thank you lovely!

Eek, how exciting how much closer it's getting! Wow, you're going to be such busy bunnies xxx

 

[Charlotteee]

Wedding planning developed a little setback with my grandad being poorly and then sadly passing away. The funeral was yesterday so just trying to get back to normal life and normal things.

The bridesmaid dresses arrived from China on Tuesday so I managed to get two bridesmaids to try them on!! Just one left to try!! For £26 each and £17 shipping I am so so impressed.

The quality is unbelievable!! I'm so so pleased with them. They love them too which is a bonus!! Almost 10 months to go, need to crack on and get the save the dates done!! xxx