@Suggerhoney i really hope this is our month I know I haven’t been trying as long as u but I have been there in the passed, was 12 months of trying with my son, but also not using protection for years before and no accidents. I think I have got impatient quicker this time because each month it’s like I feel I am getting one month closer to it taking a long time again. Honestly all the people since Xmas who announced pregnant I am so so happy for. One was a uni friend and we both chatted so much about starting to try near to us finishing uni. She cud jst stop the pill with me I had to get my implant out so she did get a heads start as the pandemic prevent me getting it removed she told me she was pregnant at 5 weeks and jst announced to everyone else today that she is pregnant. 4 people at work as well. I am over the moon for everyone but deep down wish it was me. I dream about it and day dream lol. I try all sorts to relax and do things to take my mind off of it. What keeps me going is looking at everyone’s tests on here lol. Nearly bath time and little mans bed time here so that will keep me from looking at stuff. Me and hubby have cleaned house and done all the washing ready for the week today.
It is hard hon. I think when I got to 6 months of trying it just felt forever and now its 11 months and will be 12 next month it feels like its never going to happen.
I get so down every month when AF shows.
But having such a long LP I always know I'm out by the time I hit 10dpo and BFN and definitely by 12dpo.
With all the chemicals and my son I had BFPs at 10dpo so when I get a BFN at 10dpo I get so down then I have to wait ages for AF.
I normally start bleeding at 16 or 17dpo but last cycle was 19dpo.
I got so low I broke out in coldsores.
Still have some now but they are clearing.
I'm trying to keep my mind occupied this cycle.
I didn't temp because I didn't want to stress but then I get the blaring positive OPK on the evening on cd9 my heart sank.
All day cd10 I got blaring positives to then that pain late in evening.
My AF started in the night and was supper heavy which is unusual because it normoly starts light or medium then gets heavier.
Still not sure if I had a 5th chemical or not.
Or if my body ovulated early because AF was 3 days late last cycle.
I do get happy seeing BFPs on here to but I also feel sad because I want it to be me.
I'm gonna try and keep busy now and just hope the early ovulation doesn't mean I'm already out.
Keeping it all crossed for you to hon.
Ttc is so hard and such a emotional rollercoaster.
Thanks ladies. I definitely had light lines the 6th and 7th so chalking it up to another chemical.
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Oh sweet
My chemicals in April and June looked just like ure tests unfortunately.
My other 2 chemicals my lines got darker and were clear to see esp the one I had in October my lines were so good at 10dpo and darker at 12 so I really thought it was going to be ok.
These was mine with my October loss.
But with the other chemicals my lines were much fainter but still there.
Enjoy ure drink hon and be kind to yourself.
Sending u really really big hugs .