LadyLovenox
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Yesterday I had my 12 week ultrasound. As soon as they put the scanner on my stomach, I knew something was wrong. Baby A looked huge, and was happily swimming around... Moving all about. Baby B looked like nothing. A lifeless blob. The ultrasound tech confirmed my fears.... Baby B didn't make it. She said it died at 7 weeks 6 days.... But this makes no sense because I had a healthy ultrasound at 10 weeks 2 days, and it was measuring right on track w a heartbeat of 144. She had no explanation for this. I no longer have twins. I sobbed. She had to leave the room, and give me time to compose myself. When she did return, and complete the rest of the ultrasound on baby A, she was so positively showing me that everything was right on track... And I couldn't even pay attention. I couldn't even care. I was/am so full of grief and sorrow. I feel selfish because I know so many people would die to have one baby, and I still have one baby.. And I should be happy. I feel guilty because baby A deserved for its mom to be so overjoyed and proud, seeing it on the screen... And I barely watched. Even though the doctor told me baby A would likely make it... I still feel no comfort in that, and feel like I could lose it too at any minute. I don't wanna get attached to this baby. I don't wanna count on it. I am so lost