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2 Yrs TTC, BFN for my birthday this morning :(

Laurana

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Today is my birthday and would be the end of my cycle except for the prometrium I'm taking. I hadn't tested at all this month and was holding out for today- hoping for a birthday surprise. No such luck. Didn't really expect it. In fact I was a bit sad taking the test- just waiting for the BFN. Gone are the days of excited anticipation and expecting a second line. Testing has become depressing. The TWW board has become depressing- I keep finding buddies and they get their BFP and I don't. I'm having trouble being happy for them anymore.

I've had all the tests. Seems everything is working okay... Im 34 as of today, healthy, 135 pounds- nothings WRONG- Just no baby. I miscarried at just 5 weeks last march, but other than that- 2 years of nothing. Femara failed me already. Trying clomid and IUI this upcoming month but not sure how much more of these hormones I can handle.

I suppose I'm just venting... Hoping this board is a bit more comforting to me right now. Thanks for listening. I'm going to go eat a chocolate bar and try to smile now. Not good to be moping around on my birthday ya know.
 
That's not a very nice birthday present! :cry: :nope: I haven't been TTC as long as you, but I know how you feel, and so will the other ladies here. LTTTC is the worst, and it's very lonely. Seems like everyone around us can get preggers without even trying, and yet it's a battle for us. I haven't gone to the regular TTC boards in ages. It's too hard to watch those quick bfps.

I hope you and OH can do something fun for your birthday to make it a better day. :cake: And I hope Clomid brings you success and a sticky LO!

:hugs:
 
Hey Happy Birthday :hugs:

I'm so sorry that you did not get a BFP, I know exactly how you feel about not even being exited anymore, not really believing that it could be positive. I'm going trough the same...

I don't have many words to comfort you, I can't tell you it will happen, just keep trying because that is the worst thing to say and I have no idea. But I can tell you you are not alone, others are going trough the same. It would be lovely if we could be buddies if you would like. Having someone to talk to is nice.

And chocolate is always good in situations like this, and it is your birthday after all, you should have some cake even :D
 
Happy Birthday :)

I'm so sorry you didn't get a bfp but you really don't know what the next 12 months can bring you.

I've been ttc 3.5 years now with one bfp last year which sadly ended in mc on christmas eve at 7 weeks, I've had no luck since and myself and DH are starting to look at other options or maybe just a little break. I don't think anybody who hasn't been in the same postion can really understand how hard it is and whilst you don't want to be the miserable one its almost unbearable to deal with others getting pregnant. Trust me there are more than you think who sadly know exactly how you are feeling.

Just wanted to give you a bit of hope too, I started Clomid November 2012 and conceived on my first try of 50mg, I know I didn't have a happy ending but I really do have faith in clomid.

I hope you get your bfp soon but in the mean time enjoy your birthday and look forward to everything exciting thats to come x
 
Thank you all for the support... We've kept TTC quiet and no one knows... So it means so very much to me to have you guys on here. My hubby is great, but nothing quite like talking to women who get it.

I ended up having a pretty good birthday. The witch decided it was a great day to visit so I had that dark cloud over my head.

But then I kinda went off the hormonal deep end. I called my doctor and pretty much demanded we do everything possible (short of IVF) RIGHT NOW. I have heavy bleeding problems and I can't fix them while TTC - over 2 years of hell has been enough. She was very nice, I went in this morning, had an ultrasound and everything looks good- I have multiple follicles starting and will be doing Clomid 3-7, trigger shot, IUI, some med to thicken my lining (not sure of the name- haven't picked it up from pharmacy yet) and a lot of praying.

Here's to hoping it works!

Now enough about me... Where are you guys at in your journey? I'd love to keep in touch and chat from time to time. :)
 
I'm glad you had a good birthday :)

Looks like you did the right thing giving your doctor a call, sounds promising fingers crossed for you.

AFM I'm on CD28 and still getting BFN, I was so hopeful for this cycle and like you said it gets depressing waiting and testing. My husband got a call from the hospital Friday saying they will send a letter out with a new appointment for me so I can see where to go next. I've not been monitored on clomid and I think I should be so I think I might put my foot down.
 
I'm glad you had a good birthday :)

Looks like you did the right thing giving your doctor a call, sounds promising fingers crossed for you.

AFM I'm on CD28 and still getting BFN, I was so hopeful for this cycle and like you said it gets depressing waiting and testing. My husband got a call from the hospital Friday saying they will send a letter out with a new appointment for me so I can see where to go next. I've not been monitored on clomid and I think I should be so I think I might put my foot down.

Yeah- those last few days of the cycle are always the hardest. I think monitoring would be good- then you at least know if its working well! My doc wont give the script without an ultrasound each month. I'm only take 50mg clomid- is that what you are on also? I'm looking forward to my ultrasound this Thursday- hoping for at least one good follicle that's ready to go- better yet- hoping to get more than one! Not sure how I feel about twins, but I'm more afraid of no baby than too many babies. Lol
 
Hey Laurana, my birthday was 23rd July too! Happy belated birthday!

We've been ttc for a year and a half, no bfps in sight. I was also due to be ovulating on 23rd/24th July but me and OH ended up having huge row on my birthday and then I wasn't sure whether the stress delayed ovulation so I'm either 11dpo or 4dpo now - just have to wait for af to show at some point I guess. I feel the same as you now, testing isn't exciting, I have no hopes or expectations of bfps, it's just to get it out of the way so I can stop imagining crappy symptoms!

I'll keep my fingers crossed that your chlomid, etc, all work!!

x
 
Happy belated to you as well!

I hope your O fell wherever you BDed the most :)
I am on a roller coaster right now - not sure if its the stress or the hormones, but I'm swinging wildly from "I'm never going to get pregnant" to "maybe I'll find out its twins this month!"

The good news is my first clomid cycle is going well- I had at least 3 really good follicles and at least one more that might have caught up as of Thursday. BD Friday morning- negative OPK. Saturday morning ultrasound showed at least 1 egg released already and a couple big follicles ready to go at 25mm. Triggered and IUI that day as well as plenty of BD. based on pinching and pain and my ultrasound I THINK I released 2 eggs fri night and 2 eggs yesterday. My lining is nice and thick too. My doc says at least 20% chance, but with all that, I feel almost like its a sure thing. If it doesn't work I'm going to cry. This is my best shot at a BFP I've ever had.
 
Oh wow, that sounds really good!!! The main thing is to stay positive and I really hope it does happen for you this month but even if it doesn't I would still be happy that things are moving in the right direction! Fingers, toes and anything else all crossed for you :flower:

We did bd loads around the time I originally thought I o'd and not at all around the time I actually might have, but meh, who knows :shrug:

I used to hate the thought of twins, now I think I would happily take octuplets!
 
Yeah... I felt the same way- I figured twins would be hard on my body and our bank account, but right now they sound wonderful. With all those eggs, one HAS to be a sticky bean... It just has to!

Hopefully we'll both be moving over to pregnancy threads soon :)
 
I was on 50mg of clomid which worked the first time when I got pregnant but then the following 2 cycles after the mc clomid didn't even make me ovulate! So now I'm on 100mg which made me ovulate last cycle so I'm hoping for more luck now :) on CD 5 today so I've got a bit of waiting yet.

Thats great news from your doctor, its so hard not to get your hopes up especially when others do for you.

snickersbar- haha whenever anyone says muliple pregnancy I always just think twins, the thought of octuplets is sooo scary especially if they were all boys and like my DH
 
I know, can you imagine?? I just have images of me sat crying in the middle of a hoard of naughty little boys all running rings round me! He he.

Good luck to both of you.

xx
 
Multiples makes me think of a row of babies all down for a nap... And then one cries and they all do... Or grocery shopping! Oh my- it'd be impossible!
 
How on earth do you fit them all in the trolley....:shock:

Exactly!! I picture a mom with one in a back carrier, one in a front carrier and one in the cart... It's almost funny when I don't picture it as ME :haha:
 
I'm going crazy today. I'm obsessing. I'm searching the web for every statistic imaginable. I honestly have no idea how I'm going to survive this tww- I'm only 2dpo!!!
 
The tww is so bad. I used to drive myself insane, looking for symptoms, examining charts, argh!
 
I'm already plotting trips to the dollar store for a ton of cheapies and a big box of digitals. I REALLY want my BFP - RIGHT NOW. I'm losing my mind :wacko:
 

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