2014 January Rainbows

[Young414]

Okay Ladies.

I'm feeling very strange today.. I am sooo Happy to be preggers! BUT!

With the absence of any symptoms and my Appointment on May 16 with the knowledge that I won't even lay eyes on a doctor and knowing that they WILL NOT scan me until at least 16-20 weeks for the gender scan, makes me very sad/worried.

I feel like I do not want to get excited. I want to pretend I am not pregnant (other than the prenatal vitamins and the constant protection of my abdomen). I lost my first at 13 weeks. I feel like until I get to 14+ weeks, I am not allowed to be excited. I bought a doppler, but don't dare try to hear anything until at least 9 weeks..and I will be lucky to find a heartbeat then.

The doctors won't test my hcg levels. Basically the only proof they want is for me to go in, POAS and tell them how I plan on paying. But if I lose this blessing, hcg levels will still register on a stick..how can they (and more importantly, ME) be certain the LO is okay??

Sorry to be all ME ME ME..I just feel such a plethora of emotions that I need some advice before I drive myself batty.

 

[Lucy529]

young we are in the same boat i have to wait to get an u/s even though i had an ectopic and had been told i would be monitored way more this time the only thing that they have done hcg which did double but nothing else i have called and practically begged for them to scan me but they tell me that it's to soon and i won't see anything.

symptom wise mine are mild and come and go which freak me out too the one symptom that is really har to ignore is that am bloated as heck i was already over weight and now it just makes my tummy bigger lol but am ok with it as long as this baby is growing ok

i hate that the offices only worry about how we are going to pay they really have taken the joy out of being pregnant they have even gotten to the point where they made me cry

i hope that you are able to talk your doctor into giving you something more than poas that doesn't really do much like you said, praying for you and your little bean hun

 

[cloves]

I am sorry young that your doctor won't do a scan until later, I think after you lose one they should give you one to put your mind somewhat at ease. It is so hard to be excited after a loss until you know you are going to keep it.
Mojo great numbers.

AFM not as many cramps today, when I do have them they are only on one side. But I did have a c-section my last delivery, so I think it is pain from that. Going in Monday for hcg levels, will not know until Tuesday. Hoping they will do a scan the next couple of weeks, and will let me set up an appointment with the doctor.

 

[Young414]

Cloves- Let's hope they will give you a scan!! fx'd!

Lucy- Thank you for the encouraging words. They mean a lot. It's nice to have oher women who have an idea of what I'm going through. I try to relax. I pray everyday and silently talk to the baby. Hoping this one sticks. And I have the same hope for everyone else. We all deserve it!

 

[Lucy529]

Young I am constantly praying for this lo too. I talk to mine too I even began a journal telling her what I did that day or every few days it just makes me feel better. I m happy to be in this thread and have you ladies to share with I think I would be going mad if I didn't am praying for you all too

 

[mojojojo563]

Young I feel the sameway this time like I can't even let myself even think I'm pregnant for fear of being hurt. My symptoms come an go I thought for sure I loss my bean yesterday since wed night I had some light pink spotting freaked me out. So wed they did the hcg an today. Ill tell you I was scared to open my results today!! Hang in there were all in it together hugs!!!

 

[Megan252]

Young - like the other ladies said, I think we're all feeling the same way. It's hard to let our guards down after being through such heart breaking experiences. We're all in this together! Sticky beans for all of us!!

Lucy that's so sweet you keep a journal, I love it!!

 

[mojojojo563]

I agree Megan I think it's our guard it's like a barrier for me I can't let down for fear of being hurt.

 

[markswife10]

You ladies aren't alone. I have noticed myself being more guarded this time. I feel like I can't completely be excited about it for fear that something will go wrong. I am CONSTANTLY praying for this LO's safety. I have a feeling LO will make it, but the wait for confirmation that everything is OK seems like an eternity! Praying for all of our LO's to stay safe and sound

 

[markswife10]

Yay for getting your doctor stuff situated Lucy! I hope they do an early scan for you!

i thought i had but not yet lol Monday will be the day i find out which dr am going to be going to. How exciting that you are going to share the news that must be so exciting

i did want to tell my aunt she is my mothers only sister but hubs wants to wait until we have an ultrasound that shows that she's in the right place hopefully soon.

not much on the symptoms department for me bbs were a little sore but nothig much some twinges here and there but nothing major maybe soon

Well Fx'd things go well Monday! Sorry you have to wait until then to find out! We are so excited to spill the beans tomorrow night

I haven't had a lot in the symptom department either, mostly just sore boobs on and off and being tired. I hope more symptoms set in next week! Fx'd! It'd make me feel much more at ease

 

[mojojojo563]

Does progestrone make your bbs fuller?

 

[umbrella]

cautiously joining here i ve had 2 losses one in august 12 and another in january 13. Wasnt planning on getting pregnant but got a surprise bfp on the 6th May. I think Im due around 8th Januuary 2014.

 

[Sunnyleah]

May I join? Lost our first LO in October Mmc & d&c. Only 10 dpo today... Af due Monday, had brown & pink spotting yesterday & this am and wondered if possibly IB. guess it is!!

Super anxious though.... And at less than 4 weeks, still so early... First loss was at 12w5d measuring 9w (no hb at first scan) so until we have a positive scan I can't help but worry

My doctor doesn't do appointments until 8 weeks (because of high mc rates) but thinking I may go in earlier just for reassurance.... She's pretty awesome like that (doubt I'd get early scans but my thyroid levels were off last time and I have to see a specialist this time so going to use that to my advantage).

Will call Monday

Any advice?

Only symptoms so far (I know super early) but sore bb's (kind of tingly <--- was my first symptom last time too) and yesterday and today crampy (very low) like af is coming. But I do remember that too from last time....

 

[Megan252]

Welcome and congrats umbrella and Sunnyleah!!

Sunnyleah - My first appointment is on Monday (6 and a bit weeks) and all it will consist of is "confirmation" of my pregnancy....which is just POAS....done that many times already After that I won't see her until 10 weeks. So I can understand what you're saying about wanting to get in earlier for more reassurance!

Sending you both lots of sticky vibes!! This is a great group of supportive ladies

 

[xxemmyxx]

Welcome and congrats on your bfp's ladies!!

Last 2 days I have had diarrhoea almost immediately after I eat, I have even lost a couple lbs, I hope this isn't a bad sign, food is going straight through me, going GP on Monday so I will ask then. Anyone else had this? Sorry for the information over share lol!!

 

[Lucy529]

Emmy some women do get that some like me get freakin constipated lol but def ask your dr

Congrats sunny and umbrella !!

 

[Sunnyleah]

Thank you ladies but I think it might actually be a chemical . Had red spotting and when I pee all day. Popped into the doctor and she agrees. Says if no regular af then re test in a week. Come back either way in two weeks for either 6 w prenatal or referral for fertility specialist clinic since this month marks one year of trying.... Small chance that little will be ok. Back to ttc

 

[Lucy529]

Sunny hoping that its nothing and your little bean is safe in there

 

[JohnsonGirl]

Really sorry sunny, crossing my fingers for you x
Welcome umbrella- we are all really nervous.
Emmy- hope your tummy gets better soon. For me it's the other end and I seem to be sick all day!!!
Lucy- did u manage to get an early scan?
Mojo- I'm not taking progesterone supplements and my boobs are definitely fuller- I'm from the teeny tiny boob team- so it's great!!!
Megan- hope Monday goes ok
Hi to all the other ladies- hope everyone is ok xxx

 

[JohnsonGirl]

Forgot to ask- does anyone else feel like they can feel their uterus all the time? I know that sounds weird but I feel a low ache type of feeling all the time. It's not really painful just there- if u know what I mean!!
Is this normal?