3 failed IUIs. How do you cope?

[StayHopeful]

FX for you, JL! And Sunshine, your numbers are great! I'm so excited for you

My bloodwork today showed I didn't o, so I've started on progesterone to induce a period. I'll try to do a natural cycle in April, but they'll have to induce a period pretty quickly if I don't o so we can time things right for IVF in May/June. And chances are good I won't o since I haven't the past two cycles and I'm on CD30 today.

 

[Jlh1980]

Stayhopeful, I'm so sorry you didn't O this month I hope AF comes quickly with the progesterone. I know you must be frustrated but you are one step closer to your IVF, and as long as you are on this thread its going to work. I really believe in positive energy and this thread has produced a lot of BFP's. We are rooting for you and will be with you every step of the way. My girlfriend has PCOS and she has 3 children from IVF, I know clomid never worked for her but she responded really well to the injectables (positive stories always helped me). Hope you feel better!

 

[Jlh1980]

For the first time ever, I saw two bright pink lines and I didn't have to squint. Its still very early and I'm going to go in for my REAL blood test on Friday but I'm remaining cautiously optimistic that I'm pregnant!

 

[Sunshine24]

jlh!!!!!!!!!!

 

[ttcbaby117]

ahhhhhhh, that is soooo awesome JLH!!!!!! Cant wait to hear your BETA numbers.

 

[Bma11]

Getting darker and darker is an awesome sign! Can't wait to hear the beta! I'm sure it will be a lot higher than 19!!

What did DH say?!?!

 

[fisher640]

For the first time ever, I saw two bright pink lines and I didn't have to squint. Its still very early and I'm going to go in for my REAL blood test on Friday but I'm remaining cautiously optimistic that I'm pregnant!

Horrrrrraaaaay!!!!!
Ps. I totally agree with you writing yourself a beta script, clearly the only rational thing to do ;-)

I am btw writing this from my hospital bed as my LO showed up 3/25. She was my first ever second line...

Also to whoever was debating about telling people early and worried about bad outcomes (I'm on my phone so I can't scroll back) I say your close family go for it because if something bad happens you will be glad for their support (my cousin had two miscarriages this year and that was her opinion, the first pregnancy she told tons of people and the second one she only told close people. I know I myself am guilty of not telling anyone anything for a looooong time. So really it's whatever makes you more comfortable.

Unfortunately there's nothing to be done that will influence whether something 'bad' will happen, and I tried really hard to love by that rather than my superstitions. I think after everything we've gone through to get pregnant though it makes it that much harder for us to believe it will all work out and well get a baby.

I had my LO 3/25 in the evening and I think there's still a good part of me in disbelief that they might let me leave with her today. Like to my house. With a baby. Who's mine? It just doesn't compute still...

 

[ttcbaby117]

Awww Fisher - huge congrats hun! I am sooo happy for you! I can feel your joy and contentment through your post! Shes all yours hun! You and her... a bond forever! Enjoy her....you deserve this!

 

[Bma11]

Congrats fisher!!! What a blessing.

 

[Jlh1980]

FIsher CONGRATS, enjoy your new family hope everybody is healthy and happy!!~ Thanks again for continue to support all of us who are still trying to get our LO. What is her name???

My beta test is tomorrow but so far the line is still getting darker and I definitely feel some pregnancy symptoms so hopefully all good signs. I'm still in shock, I feel like I need to be extra careful (even thought I don't know what that entails) like its going to fall out or something.

 

[Sunshine24]

Fisher! Congrats!

 

[Bma11]

Praying for a high beta jlh!!!

Sunshine- how are you feeling?!?

 

[Jlh1980]

Thanks BMA, I'm anxiously waiting they said probably not until 2pm (such torture). I was however surprised that she did an US too, she said my lining looks good and that one of my ovaries is still enlarged which is also good. Something about your progesterone staying high when you are pregnant which keeps the follicule large?

 

[StayHopeful]

JHL and Fisher, congrats to both of you!

I'm feeling a little more positive than I was a few days ago (though that's not saying much). One thing that really worries me going into IVF is that my body hasn't been responding well to the drugs. I overstimulated on only 25mg of Clomid, but the Letrozole, Menopur injections, and Metformin each didn't affect me as much as the doctor was hoping. It makes me scared that the gonal f will be the same way.

 

[Bma11]

Jlh- should be finding out soon!! Yay.

Stay hopeful- that's a bummer but they know you didn't respond like they has hopes so maybe they will try something different? With each ultrasound and bloodwork they'll be able to adjust how much to inject so hopefully the gonal will be what it takes for you!

Just make sure they have no qualms with canceling a cycle if you don't produce enough etc... And make sure what happens monetarily when they cancel a cycle??? See what number of follicles they proceed with and how many or lack of do they cancel a cycle. I hope I'm making sense

 

[Jlh1980]

Stayhopeful, I agree with BMA at least they know what hasn't worked and injectable medications are easier to control/manage. You can't control how your body responds so you have to just believe that they will figure it out, hopefully you trust them! Feel better, I know I've said this before but you don't feel like you need to be positive all the time or it won't work. For god's sake I threw the pregnancy test in the trash before reading it, requested my medical records, and made an appoitnment at another clinic because I didn't think it was going to work.........and low and behold it did! Just don't give up!

I just got the call, my HCG is 83 which is about 4 times what it was on Tues! So they said I'm definitely pregnant and have to return next Wed for more bloodwork.

 

[Bma11]

Although positive feelings are wayyyy better. It is so reassuring to know that it isn't the end all be all. And jlh I do remember you being less than positive! So, it's nice to know. Sashimi's SIL was the same way!!!

Can't wait to hear the results next week! Praying for ya!

 

[ttcbaby117]

Great news JLH!!!! Awesome!!!!

 

[Jlh1980]

LOL I would love to have Sunshine's unbreakable positive energy but I know my limitations. I was just told so many times to STAY POSITIVE that you start to feel like if you aren't it's not going to work.

 

[StayHopeful]

Great news, jl!

They said that if I have to cancel a cycle, we just start over. I pay per cycle and it goes unil egg retrieval, so if we don't make it to that and we have to start over it still counts as the same cycle monetarily. And we got good news about our tax refund today, we're going to get quite a bit back to put toward IVF. We'll still have to take out a loan, but not for quite as much.