3 failed IUIs. How do you cope?

[Bma11]

Stay hopeful- that sounds good! And what a relief about taxes and not having to borrow the whole amount!! I too got a huge chunk back and my DH is putting a big chunk down that I only have to borrow a little bit from my parents. Thank god. I applied for a cc but they won't let me know anything for 30 days and well I need to know before that. Luckily though we are covered and I can pay my parents back interest free!

 

[Jlh1980]

Great news, jl!

They said that if I have to cancel a cycle, we just start over. I pay per cycle and it goes unil egg retrieval, so if we don't make it to that and we have to start over it still counts as the same cycle monetarily. And we got good news about our tax refund today, we're going to get quite a bit back to put toward IVF. We'll still have to take out a loan, but not for quite as much.

That is really good news!!! Now we just have to get you to change your current feeling from sad , because things sound like they are headed in a good direction!

 

[Sunshine24]

Jlh! Congrats!!!!! Keep us posted!!!

Been off the boards for a few days, just catching up now, hi to everyone! I think about all of you daily.

A few of you asked how I was feeling--I feel good--exhausted ( which is a good sign! ), but good. Things seem to still going well and I have another blood draw and US on Tuesday to learn more. Still seems surreal sometimes--I'll be 6 weeks on Monday so it's still early days, but I have I'm staying positive and believing THIS IS IT.

And trust me, if this can happen for me , it will happen for all of us. I cannot explain the dark, dark place I was in just a few short months ago--I would have never believed this was possible. But it is! It is for everyone! Stay strong.

 

[Bma11]

Jlh- what dpo were you when you got your very very faint bfp?!?

Sunshine- glad you are feeling okay! Think about you everyday ! FYI- there is a blood test they do for downs, trich etc that can also tell you 100% for sure the sex of the baby like between week 12-15.... My client just had it done! How freaking cool

 

[Jlh1980]

BMA I got my first faint line 10dpo but that was also when I read it 9 hours after taking it, so really it was on 11dpo. However everyone is different, I had a friend who didn't get a positive until a week after her AF was due. Hang in there, I wish I could fast forward time for both of us! You are really young and healthy you are going to get your BFP soon ( I finally read through the beginning of your blog)

Sunshine, I'm so happy you are doing well. I'm about a week and a half behind you which is crazy to me! I keep saying prayers for all of us, to get us safely through 1st trimester and to bring on the BFP's for everyone else, and of course a safe delivery for Sash!

 

[CCClomidQueen]

Been off for a little bit. I had my Lap on Thursday it wasn't so bad, just really sore, but much better today. So... the doctor found scarring where I had my appendix out and my ovary stuck to bowel and surprisingly my left side opposite of appendix was worse, I had severe adhesions and hidden ovary! she was able to clean up everything 100% except the right ovary is still attached to bowel guess to risky to remove, but she seemed really happy with findings. I meet with her for my post op next week and can hardley wait since I was groggy when hearing the news.
thinking of you all!!

 

[Sunshine24]

Been off for a little bit. I had my Lap on Thursday it wasn't so bad, just really sore, but much better today. So... the doctor found scarring where I had my appendix out and my ovary stuck to bowel and surprisingly my left side opposite of appendix was worse, I had severe adhesions and hidden ovary! she was able to clean up everything 100% except the right ovary is still attached to bowel guess to risky to remove, but she seemed really happy with findings. I meet with her for my post op next week and can hardley wait since I was groggy when hearing the news.
thinking of you all!!

CCC! Awesome!! So happy they could find something. NOW is YOUR time! Rest up honey!

 

[CCClomidQueen]

Been off for a little bit. I had my Lap on Thursday it wasn't so bad, just really sore, but much better today. So... the doctor found scarring where I had my appendix out and my ovary stuck to bowel and surprisingly my left side opposite of appendix was worse, I had severe adhesions and hidden ovary! she was able to clean up everything 100% except the right ovary is still attached to bowel guess to risky to remove, but she seemed really happy with findings. I meet with her for my post op next week and can hardley wait since I was groggy when hearing the news.
thinking of you all!!

CCC! Awesome!! So happy they could find something. NOW is YOUR time! Rest up honey!

Thank you so much! sounds like my left ovary was trapped and no way an egg could release right with all the adhesions ect!! I feel really positive and glad I didnt chicken out of procedure. Im greatful for this thread and everyones support!

 

[ttcbaby117]

Glad you are through the tough part and on the mend! Please let us know how your appt goes with the dr and what she recommends for you!

 

[Jlh1980]

CCclomid, glad to hear everything went well and they found what they suspected! Let us know what the next step is

 

[StayHopeful]

Glad everything went well, ccclomid!

 

[CCClomidQueen]

Glad everything went well, ccclomid!

Thank you Stayhopeful!

 

[SashimiMimi]

I'm so far behind on this thread! JLH a huge congrats! I'm so excited for you and it just proves even when we feel at our lowest and most frustrated that BFP can literally be right around the corner.

ClomidQueen I'm glad your surgery went well and that you are finally starting to get some answers. Sounds like now your doctor will know the right method to proceed going forward with the fertility treatments. Yay!

BMA and TTC, it feels like we have been talking about your upcoming IVFs for ages and I can't believe it's already here. TTC I hope you are feeling okay on the BCP... it definitely felt weird to be on the pill for me after being off of it for so long. BMA, I'm so excited for you to start IVF and feel so positive for both you and TTC!

Hope everyone had a good weekend. I had some very, very light spotting on Sunday and yesterday, so spent yesterday morning at the hospital. Everything looks fine, but I've been told to rest for a few days.

 

[ttcbaby117]

Yes it has been weird to be on the pill again! Does kinda feel counter productive but I must say a bit of a relief not to have to be tracking ovulation and DTD at the right time.

 

[Bma11]

Been off for a little bit. I had my Lap on Thursday it wasn't so bad, just really sore, but much better today. So... the doctor found scarring where I had my appendix out and my ovary stuck to bowel and surprisingly my left side opposite of appendix was worse, I had severe adhesions and hidden ovary! she was able to clean up everything 100% except the right ovary is still attached to bowel guess to risky to remove, but she seemed really happy with findings. I meet with her for my post op next week and can hardley wait since I was groggy when hearing the news.
thinking of you all!!

Ah.. Isn't it a relief to know what is going on. I'm glad you didn't chicken out.
Can't wait to hear what she says and your plan! Good luck!

 

[Bma11]

Sashimi- glad everything is fine with you & Levi. How I love that name!

Ttcbaby- Oh how I can not wait to not have to time everything to a T and then get in an argument. LOL.

 

[ttcbaby117]

LOL....I know I can say these last two weeks have been fairly stress free on the ttc front! I was in the gym this morning wishing I could take the pill for a bit longer, isn't that crazy! That is just my fear I guess of moving forward into the unknown! At the same time I am excited to be pregnant in a few short weeks!

 

[Jlh1980]

Sash glad everything is ok, hope you are feeling well, I have to admit I wish I could just jump right to the end of all this!

TTC and BMA, I feel really good about you two, this is it I'm sure! It's so nice that you two are going through it at the same time, and of course you have all of us to follow you along as well.

I got more bloodwork today and my HCG is 699 so everything looks good so far! I'm happy but really nervous about these next few months because I'm already feeling a lot of symptoms, just when you think you can stop worrying!!!

 

[SashimiMimi]

JLH once you get to the end of the first tri you'll feel a lot more confident! I was a worry wart and googled everything. I worried when I had symptoms and worried even more when I didn't. Once I got to second tri I really started to enjoy every second. Now I get annoyed when people tell me they have a feeling the baby will come early. I want my full 40 weeks!! Come on I paid through the nose for IVF and I want to enjoy every second!

I wonder if we worry more because we struggled to get here or if all first time moms go through the uncertainty?

 

[Bma11]

JLH once you get to the end of the first tri you'll feel a lot more confident! I was a worry wart and googled everything. I worried when I had symptoms and worried even more when I didn't. Once I got to second tri I really started to enjoy every second. Now I get annoyed when people tell me they have a feeling the baby will come early. I want my full 40 weeks!! Come on I paid through the nose for IVF and I want to enjoy every second!

I wonder if we worry more because we struggled to get here or if all first time moms go through the uncertainty?

I think every first time mom worries, with that being said I also think that we worry more because of the struggles and the fact that we did pay through the roof for our miracles! Once I am pregnant, I know I will worry until I am in the safe 2nd trimester. I want to enjoy every minute of it though. At least we have this site, apparently it is very common for symptoms to come and go, and thats a relief. Yet, I know when it starts to happen to me, I will come on here and get reassurance.

JLH~ Thank you! I am so glad your numbers are increasing, so happy for you.