It's been 3 months! 18th October I had methetrexate for my ectopic. For the first month or so I was OK, just getting on with it, weekly blood tests, in and out of EPAU. The moment I was discharged from hospital it hit like a ton of bricks and I went on Fluexetine (anti depressants). I spent the whole of the latter months of 2010 feeling so sick, run down, just sleeping though my weekends, I barely talked to my grandparents cos they didn't know and I didn't want to have to explain why I sound down.
Christmas was really good, and New Years Day I went cold turkey on my anti depressants, decided I didn't want to take them after 6 weeks I was feeling better.
Yesterday I crashed! I am so angry I can't even tell anyone what is making me feel like this as I really don't know, so many little niggly things that are winding me up and I just cannot keep my temper. Had to go back on the tablets.
Does anyone else find this happening? Just hitting you like a ton of bricks after so long?
Don't get me wrong, I think of my baby every day, it's always in the back of my mind day and night. But I thought I was over the main bulk of grief
Christmas was really good, and New Years Day I went cold turkey on my anti depressants, decided I didn't want to take them after 6 weeks I was feeling better.
Yesterday I crashed! I am so angry I can't even tell anyone what is making me feel like this as I really don't know, so many little niggly things that are winding me up and I just cannot keep my temper. Had to go back on the tablets.
Does anyone else find this happening? Just hitting you like a ton of bricks after so long?
Don't get me wrong, I think of my baby every day, it's always in the back of my mind day and night. But I thought I was over the main bulk of grief