33 yrs young ttc#1...need buddies:)

[dovkav123]

I know we are dealing with an age here. My hubby's sperm is super, but who know what are the chromosomes?
This month we every other day and hopefully this will give us the best quality Probably it'll take 3 months to see an improvement. He is sure happy about this plan!

I was in the shopping mall a couple of days ago. A little girl 1.5 was walking back and forward with her dad. My hubby noticed she liked me, smiled at me. She wanted to stay around me, but her dad was taking her away. Finally she came to me, held my hand for a second, giggled and walked away.
My hubby told me this child really likesdyou. I told him this was our child, she was born to a wrong parents.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Those were the bittest thoughts I have ever had during this infertility journey. I hope I won't have them again.

 

[gloria33]

I know we are dealing with an age here. My hubby's sperm is super, but who know what are the chromosomes?
This month we every other day and hopefully this will give us the best quality Probably it'll take 3 months to see an improvement. He is sure happy about this plan!

I was in the shopping mall a couple of days ago. A little girl 1.5 was walking back and forward with her dad. My hubby noticed she liked me, smiled at me. She wanted to stay around me, but her dad was taking her away. Finally she came to me, held my hand for a second, giggled and walked away.
My hubby told me this child really likesdyou. I told him this was our child, she was born to a wrong parents.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Those were the bittest thoughts I have ever had during this infertility journey. I hope I won't have them again.

oh dov , its only natural dont let that weigh you down...

 

[ttcbabyisom]

I know we are dealing with an age here. My hubby's sperm is super, but who know what are the chromosomes?
This month we every other day and hopefully this will give us the best quality Probably it'll take 3 months to see an improvement. He is sure happy about this plan!

I was in the shopping mall a couple of days ago. A little girl 1.5 was walking back and forward with her dad. My hubby noticed she liked me, smiled at me. She wanted to stay around me, but her dad was taking her away. Finally she came to me, held my hand for a second, giggled and walked away.
My hubby told me this child really likesdyou. I told him this was our child, she was born to a wrong parents.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Those were the bittest thoughts I have ever had during this infertility journey. I hope I won't have them again.

Awe, i hear ya honey. You're allowed to feel this way from time to time. It's natural. (((HUGS)))

 

[dovkav123]

Thank you for supprot, you are the best ladies!
Today we received info about a sperm dna fragmentation. My RE put an extra brochure from the synlab and it states that the sperm dna fragmentation problem could be fixed with antioxidants! Hell, my hubby got mad on our RE! She stated it's not proven!

Anyway, I have drank alcohol every day since I found out our embryo didn't make it.
Tonight was the last 3 glasses of wine I drank, cos tomorrow will be the 3rd day of my cycle and my folilcle will start growing.

Few days ago we went to the art gallery to Heidelberg and we saw a beautiful painting and I was so sure I can paint it myself. The castle, the bridge and Necka river. My hubby's mother's birthday is on February and she always wanted a painting of Heidelberg. I want to do it for her. Today I bought the canvas for a painting and I realised I need to paint it for us. For me and my hubby cos we had our first romantic walk by the river in Heidelberg a night before my first IVF. I injected myself with HCG shot in the car, with the light of the street lights. And we were dreaming of big...maybe too big....

 

[panda fan]

Hi dov,

You've got a great husband to support you so much and do everything he can to make his half of the equation better. You will be great parents!

I'm sorry you are having a tough time emotionally. I feel our situations are very similar even if our ivf cycles have been different types so I definitely empathize with all your worries and what you are going through.

I did start panicking that my eggs were too low quality and that maybe I was already too old, but I was overanalyzing everything the doctors and nurses said in passing comments and assuming the worst. When I finally just asked my doctor, she was surprised I felt that way and didn't seem to think there was a quality issue with me at all and blamed the protocol for the 2nd IVF failure so def don't worry yet about your age or jump to conclusions. I spent a lot of time crying and freaking out because I thought these failures meant I was out of chances, but that's not true. As long as we've still got chances, we've got hope. All the best on your next cycle!!

 

[ttcbabyisom]

I think i'm back...i'm thinking 1 dpo today with my temp spike. i sure hope so. i'm tired.

Please check out my journal for the latest big updates. They are too long to post here. Mainly the entry about our big RE appointment to discuss next steps. I will go back and play catch up now!

 

[dovkav123]

TTC baby, happy for you! New year, new price and IUI! Sending you blessings, IUI buddy
Welcome to 2ww!

I had my contrast u/s today. My procedure took a very looong time! RE couldn't put catheter in.. (THis happened before in the other clinic, dr. quit the procedure and asked me to come back in two days). She wanted to use a baloon catheter but they didn't have it. She kept trying till she succeeded(3rd try) It was painful! More painful than an egg retrieval! The dye went throught the tubes, so my tubes are open. However, we don't know if my tubes are damaged from the pelvic surgery. Are they functioning?
My RE is sure we havn't found our healthy embryo yet, if she is right, we'll try IUI this month and hopefully we'll find it.
Anyway, Everything looks normal. My follicle on the left was 12mm. On Monday we may do IUI.
Sperm dna fragmentation we'll check when we know the result of this cycle.

I asked my RE about ureaplasma, mycoplasma in sperm(bacteria could cause dna problems). She told me it's always there, if you have too many you treat with antibiotics and in two weeks the bacteria comes back.
I don't know if we'll test for that.
I asked about the white blood cells in sperm. Durind SA they check that. DR. worry if they find a big number of those cells.

I'll sleep better tonight, the mystery is solved. My tubes are OK.
I wanted to cry after this test. Why are we both so perfect and why are we so infertile? How many other tests we should do to find out the reason?

Panda, I know we are super healthy, but when I don't know about my egg quality, I make everything up...I asked my RE can I have 5 in a row unhealthy eggs, she said yes!
I know you had a pelvic surgery too. Have you ever checked your tubes? You didn't do lap. How about HCG?
I read some info about dr. Sher advice to transfer one embryo at a time, cos immunity problems, dq match. Have you heard anything about it?
https://haveababy.com/fertility-inf...g-its-effect-on-reproduction-and-ivf-outcome/

 

[panda fan]

Panda, I know we are super healthy, but when I don't know about my egg quality, I make everything up...I asked my RE can I have 5 in a row unhealthy eggs, she said yes!

Yes, I do this, too. I get very worried, but I have had 15 eggs that didn't make it of all the mature eggs they've retrieved!!! only 1 of the total 16 made it to be frozen so that one's a maybe. And my doctor wasn't concerned about egg quality for me so I guess it happens a lot and women still get pregnant fine.

I know you had a pelvic surgery too. Have you ever checked your tubes? You didn't do lap. How about HCG?
I read some info about dr. Sher advice to transfer one embryo at a time, cos immunity problems, dq match. Have you heard anything about it?
https://haveababy.com/fertility-inf...g-its-effect-on-reproduction-and-ivf-outcome/

I had a full HCG and a saline sonogram. The full one was inconclusive with possible blockage one the left, but then the saline sonogram showed both tubes open so they are not sure if there was just some swelling or partial obstruction on the left the first time, but second test showed open. My doctor and I believe my surgery created adhesions around the actual ovaries making it difficult for the ovaries to drop the eggs into the tubes so that basically the ovaries and pull out of alignment and the eggs may be dropping and missing the tubes. She is unable to see if this is definitely the case without doing lap surgery, but doesn't want to do that and risk more scar tissue. I actually have to do another saline sonogram next week for insurance purposes (they make you repeat every year).

I shouldn't have any immune response problems since I am on Humira for Crohn's disease which happens to be one of the drugs they use to treat women who are having immune response problems in fertility cases. However, if this IVF cycle fails we will definitely switch REs and do more tests. My RE believes that we just didn't get the right egg the first time and that the 2nd cycle I had a bad response to the stims so she is switching to a gentler stim. I notice the immune testing is in Boston though and I am not far from there so we might try to get that done later.

It sounds like your RE is very thorough so that's good. I hope that the steps your hubby is taking help with his side of the next cycle. Mine is also trying to be healthier to make sure he's giving the best sample he can so we'll see! Maybe it's them!! lol But I think it might she be that difficult patience of waiting for the stars to align and they have to at some point!

 

[Squig34]

Hi girls, I thought I would chime in to this thread too since we are all around the same age it seems. Lots of chances coming up for you with IUIs and IVFs this month and next - I really hope that they create sticky beans for you (I noticed dov, ttcbabyisom and panda fan, sorry if I've missed anyone else's). DH and I are still trying naturally at the moment as there don't seem to be any physical problems - but I will be 35 next month, and despite DH's logical pointing out that my fertility doesn't just drop off a cliff edge then, I'm still kinda nervous about it since it's never going to get any easier! It's pretty disheartening still not to be parents by now, although I'm hopeful that it will happen.

Congratulations on your pregnancy Trolley dolly - hopefully yours is just the start of a flurry of 2014 BFPs!

 

[dovkav123]

Sqiug, I hope and pray we'll have our joy very soon!
I am so sorry about your losses. Your little angels guides you every single day.

Panda, I am sure this time your RE will do it right, cos egg maturity has to do with the right dose of stims and estrogen levels, if they crash, you may have bad eggs. I beleave ,it is an art to prescribe the right dose, RE has to have good intuition too, experience is not enough. My RE suggested to start with 150 and check first US on CD7. She expects 10 eggs from our IVF.
Panda, we are young, we are really young and nothing is wrong with us.
My dh is getting his sperm dna checked out. Also we'll check for heavy metals in his urine. If everything is OK, than we can focus on me and maybe do stim IVF very soon.


I went to my RE on Monday. I was hoping to see 20mm on my left size, but we found only 14,6mm. It grew only 2,6 mm in 4 days. However, my right size has a 13.6mm follicle!!!!!
What a suprise! This is crazy! I am excited!
But my RE is sure that we have only one follicle this cycle, cos another didn't grow enought and possible there is no egg. She insured me that it's not a cyst. My lining is still thin 7.2mm. It's growing along with a follicles. We are checking again on Wednesday.
I am going to be CD12 tomorrow and I am sure I'll O late this cycle.
This cycle is different, no spotting after AF. This cycle possible is a healthy one, maybe a healthy egg is growing slowly and cozy.(or maybe 2?)
I think that my body decided to grow two follicles. It slows down the left one that it catches up with a right one.
My grandmother has faternal twins. This is genetic and runs into families.

We asked RE about clomid, she wouldn't do it in this case. How funny, that my hubby came up with this idea, cos he is so against hormones.

Maybe IUI will be in the end of this week.
After IVF to IUI, I know we'are going backwards but I know many cases that a couple get preggo naturally after failed IVF. After the flush possible pregnancy in 3 month. Sticky uterus. We want to give a chance to this cycle.

 

[Trolley_Dolly]

Hi ladies firstly i just wanna say im so sorry ive been missing in action but... cut a long story short ive been hanging off the toilet since the 27th of dec,been in hospital 3 times...one being new years eve2 lots of bleeding and feeling and looking like absolute crapi got diagnosed with hypremisis (would not wish it on a worse enemy)i lost weight and im on strong anti sickness tablets which are given to people who have had chemotherapy...however there is light at the end of the tunnel as we had our 12 week scan today and everything so far is just perfect and the blood sweat and tears from the last 2 months has been so worth it!!

I am catching up with your posts but by the looks on this last page u are all still fighting strong and not giving up and i totally admire that...pls dont panick about age i know its easier said than done but we have a friend who was 42 before her ivf worked and she started trying at 34 she went through so much but she never gave up and now has a 7 year old son who is her world.

Happy 2014 to us all

 

[Squig34]

Aw glad all is going well with the baby trolley dolly tho sorry to hear about the hyperemesis! A couple of my friends had it too. I hope that it settles down for you really quickly in the second tri.

 

[panda fan]

Hi Squig! Glad to have you. I'm hoping this is your year, too. Looks like you've been through a lot on your journey.

Trolley, glad to hear from you! Have been thinking of you and hoping all is well. Sorry to hear of the hypremisis, but very very happy for your healthy 12 week scan. It sounds like the doctors will be watching carefully and taking good care of you. I hope it gets easier soon! Does that usually get better with 2nd trimester?

Dov, I'm happy for your 2 follicles. It would be nice for them to mature at the same time! Fingers crossed for you!

ttcbabyisom, i'm behind on your story! I need to read your blog to see where you are at. Hope this cycle is going well. And gloria, hope you are well.

My period is one day late now. Last month it was 4 days late so I don't really know why it's being this way, but I've had lots of spotting past few days so I'm just waiting now. No reason to test with the spotting because that usually means it's coming. I call doc to make appts when it arrives.

 

[bettybee1]

TROLLLLLEYYY!!!!!!!!! found you !! so happy for you sorry your suffering sickness is rubbish am 19weeks and still been sick yak !!! all worth it tho xxxxx

 

[castana]

Hi im new here im 33 and would like to try in august for my 1st..... feeling nervous

 

[Squig34]

Hi Castana!

Good luck to you when you start trying, hope you get your BFP quickly

 

[dovkav123]

Troley, you are a trooper! I am so happy you both feel fine now. Warm thoughts and wishes

Panda, I hope your period never came. What's the news?
It is no fun to do HSG once a year. You are super lucky that your insurance covers your IVF.
I beleave I have scarring around my ovaries too, but we havn't looked at them and we don't know. I am doing my castor oild packs for months now before my O. It may help to loosen up some scarring. To flush my tubes was my idea, cos this mystery drove me crazy for years.

I had my IuI on Saturday with 12mil spermies. It went very smoothly. We had 20.6mm on the right side and 13.6 on the left(sleeping one never matured), my lining was super thick 14mm.
My temp is up for 2 mornings now and I think I am 2dpo, I'll start my progesterone tonight.
I have hope;
1. I have never tried TTC after flushing tubes
2. I have never tried TTC with progesterone after O.
3. In 6 months I have never had my follicle growing so slow.
4. I didn't spot till O this cycle
I have heard many babybump stories about failed IVFs and natural BFP

 

[Squig34]

Sounds good Dovkav, fingers crossed for you!

 

[panda fan]

Hi Castana! Welcome. Good luck to you! Don't be nervous

Dov, that's all very interesting and positive things going on there! It's so encouraging to hear all the positive changes. Flushing tubes is always a good thing. I have 2 friends who couldn't get pregnant but did within 1-3 months after their tubes were flushed. Definitely sounds like your body is showing positive signs, too. I'm very hopeful for you!

I did get my period, just 2 days late this time. Had my day 3 bloods again and my HSG is tomorrow morning. After that we call financial to make sure insurance gets all the test info to them and approves us for starting meds for our March cycle.

I have Crohn's disease to watch for, too, so I just had a sigmoidoscopy and colon looked good and all my nutrition levels are good sooooo, so far in good condition to move forward. I'm hoping the different med protocol produces better results for me.

 

[Squig34]

Well I hope that you benefit from the HSG effect too Panda! I've heard the same thing from lots of people. Sounds like you have worked hard to get yourself in good shape for TTC, so I hope that your insurance is on the ball and approves everything for March, and of course a huge GL & FX for you on that!