6 months + since mc and no luck getting pregnant... Come join me in the wait!!

[amanda111308]

Hi ladies my af is due tomorrow. No per menstrual cramps yet which I used to get two or three days before but not getting hopes up as cramps didn't start til a couple of hrs before af arrived last month.

Still getting funny twinges in breasts, not sore but hard to explain but definitely not a usual af symptom. Also really tired.

Was going to hold off testing til Wednesday but May have to give in and test tomorrow morning if af doesn't arrive as have one test lying around at home.

How about everyone else?

FF has me pegged to start AF today but my temps are still way up. I am pretty sure it has calculated me for today based on a shortened luteal phase I had last month. AF showed up 3 full days early! It was a 29 day cycle last month and today is cd28 so I will have some more hope if I make it to my normal cycle length which is 32 days without AF starting. Which is why I am trying not to test until Friday

 

[Anniebobs]

Amanda that chart is looking really positive!

Everyone seems to be having promising symptoms too. Really hoping for some more bfps in here this week

 

[amanda111308]

Amanda that chart is looking really positive!

Everyone seems to be having promising symptoms too. Really hoping for some more bfps in here this week

Thanks!

My son started saying the word baby a lot yesterday and this morning. I went in to get him and immediately instead of saying mommy (like normal$ he excitedly exclaimed baby! I have no idea if this means anything or what but it sure took me by surprise... Lol yesterday when he was saying it he would reach up in front of me and tap his hands on my belly and smile almost knowingly... It's strange

This morning I woke at 1:30am sweaty and busting to pee. Went back to bed after using the bathroom and slept until 6am (my normal temping time) went into work only to discover I do not open the shop today haha I close... Duh!! So I am back at home making some food to help with this nauseated feeling I have... On my way back in the door I started getting some light cramping on my left side and a wet feeling and I thought damn it AF is here! Sitting I the toilet now and it's just lots if watery cm...

Ugh the tww is gonna do me in...

 

[Smiler79]

Well my symptoms were just there to trick me as AF has arrived Imogen was napping when I discovered it so just sat on the floor and cried. I knew my chances were minute this month having only bd twice but I never get these symptoms before af mormally.

Don't think I can do this anymore. TTC is just too hard and emotionally draining. I have suffered with depression in past and I am sure it is back and TTC is only making it worse. Think I am going ot give up hope of number two and focus on Imogen.

Simon never wanted another one until the miscarriage so maybe this is natures way of telling me it is not meant to be.

I have always seen myself woth two children. But maybe as I had a daughter at 18 who I put up for adoption this is someones way of telling me I have two children even if I did make heartbreaking decision to give one up and this is my punishment for that x

Kepping my fingers crossed for you Amanda xxxx

 

[amanda111308]

Well my symptoms were just there to trick me as AF has arrived Imogen was napping when I discovered it so just sat on the floor and cried. I knew my chances were minute this month having only bd twice but I never get these symptoms before af mormally.

Don't think I can do this anymore. TTC is just too hard and emotionally draining. I have suffered with depression in past and I am sure it is back and TTC is only making it worse. Think I am going ot give up hope of number two and focus on Imogen.

Simon never wanted another one until the miscarriage so maybe this is natures way of telling me it is not meant to be.

I have always seen myself woth two children. But maybe as I had a daughter at 18 who I put up for adoption this is someones way of telling me I have two children even if I did make heartbreaking decision to give one up and this is my punishment for that x

Kepping my fingers crossed for you Amanda xxxx

Smiler, you have been incredibly strong. Don't be disheartened hun it will happen. Don't lose hope, at 18 giving your child up for adoption was the right answer for both you and the child. Think of how much you blessed that family the child was received into? I don't think for a second that God punishes those who bless others. Not by a long shot, keep your chin up hun. Until that wonderful rainbow shines through this haze of rain I agree it is best to focus on Imogen.

Tremendous hugs coming you way hun, keep hanging on!!

 

[Smiler79]

Thank you Amanda. I know you are right and I know there can be happy endings as Imogen is a rainbow baby but it is just all too much today. I miss my angel babies and I miss my big girl who is almost 15. Being a mummy is the one thing I am good at (most of the time) and I just want one more opportunity.

Imogen is desperate to be a big sister and has been talking about it non stop for the last few days which makes me feel like even more of a failure.

I am sure I will feel better in a few days but tight now I want to wallow but I can't as hubby will just think I am being silly.

On a more proactive note. If i was to use ovulation sticks this cycle w hen do I start poas?

 

[amanda111308]

I usually start my opks on cd10 test twice a day. They say not to use fmu and the best results seem to come at testing 11am and 4 pm.

 

[amanda111308]

As for me AF did not come yesterday like ff thought. Temps have creeped even higher today aswell. First thing I did this morning was sneeze a million times and then vomit... Still holding out I testing. Today is cd29 and 12dpo. My husband is almost certain I am pregnant especially after I told him about my meltdown at work yesterday. I am usually an extremely level headed person but yesterday I freaked out and then when it was over I was like wow what was all that about?? Lol friggin hormones!!

 

[Anniebobs]

Amanda I am so hopeful for you! When did you last test?

 

[amanda111308]

I last tested on Saturday which was 9dpo and there was not even a sniff of a line. Temps have gone up a bit more today... Starting to feel like something is up...

 

[Smiler79]

Reallly keeping my fingers crossed for you Aanda and thanks for advice about opks. Cant decide whether to forget ttc altogether this cycle and try and relax r whethe just to have a month of opks to see if we can get lucky that way. JUst so fed up of this ttc malarkey

Spent most of yesterday in tears. Woke up trying to be more positive but really hard as have bad af cramps so impossible not to think about it

 

[Anniebobs]

Smiler my cycle is fairly regular (25-27 days) so I normally start on cd10 expecting to get a positive around cd12-14. I'm odd in that fmu works best for me, I drink a lot of water during the day and think that's why. I also have a really short surge so tend to ovulate the day of my positive instead of the day after.

Amanda I've just had another peek at your chart it is looking really promising! 9dpo is really early for a positive so don't worry about the bfn. Even if this isn't your month (and I really hope it is) then at least your luteal phase is better than it was so you're one step closer to getting your sticky bfp.

 

[MrsKitty]

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[amanda111308]

Sending Smiler hugs I think I will be joining you soon.

Amanda, it is still looking promising for you!

How are you feeling Annie?

Natalie hows the wait going?

Everyone else??

I feel for sure I am out, AF is due tomorrow or Friday and all the signs are there (even though they were when got my bfp). Boobs are a teeny bit tender and I have that heavy feeling in lower ab. I did a ic and bfn. I am 11dpo or 10 according to my chart which changed the goal post. This is awful

Looks like I am in the same boat mrskitty my temp dropped by .3 this morning pretty sure AF will be here tomorrow. I always let my guard down and get excited and now I am beyond devastated

 

[MrsKitty]

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[amanda111308]

I am clinging to hope still a little thinking this may have been a one off temp and I certainly hope it is...

Anniebobs what has your temp been doing??

 

[Smiler79]

I know what you mean mrs kitty. I know I am very lucky to have Imogen but I am not looking forward to Mother's Day on Sunday as I should have been 32 weeks pregnant by now and getting ready for new arrival. We are going out for the day just the 3 of us to a local farm that are also doing a Mother's Day car very lunch but I am dreading seeing all the babies in prams x x x

Fingers crossed for you and Amanda as not out until af actually arrives x x x x

 

[amanda111308]

In Canada on Mother's Day it will also be my son's birthday (May 11th) I am soo hoping I still have a chance! I have no cramps or normal pms symptoms. I have almost no cm and the little I have is sticky/creamy, boobs are tender no break out at all which I usually ALWAYS get by now, sneezing like crazy and insomnia (insomnia was my first symptom wit my son) I am crossing my fingers so tightly but this mornings temp dip has all my tail feathers ruffled... please God I have suffered enough... Please please send me my rainbow!!!

 

[MrsKitty]

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[Anniebobs]

Sorry you think you're out mrskitty, I really hope that's not the case. PMS symptoms are such a tease, this tww drove me mad because even though my symptoms were different to normal they all could still have been pms.

Amanda that's not a huge temp drop so fingers crossed you're still in. When's AF due? I didn't temp this month so I can't help sorry. Temping stressed me out too much!

I understand about Mother's Day. My mmc was due 18th feb so I should have had a newborn by now, and once again I have to go through first tri. My second loss was at 5 weeks and my third loss was a chemical so on Saturday I'll have done better than my last two pregnancies (hopefully). I'm booked in with the doctors on Friday and will be begging for an early scan! I can't wait until 13 weeks again!