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Last night I woke up at about 3am and it was funny cause I don't usually wake up. Anyway I just started crying I mean really crying .I just did not understand, i knew it was over Ava but the time and way it was happening was funny.
My husband came up and saw me and said is that you crying, i thought it was the tv. He said what is wrong I said well what do you think, he just held me while I cried. I just kept saying i wanted my life back and I wanted to stop feeling this pain in my soul, it just never leaves me, ever..
I woke up and took my pill for my thyroid and I always check the day on the calendar so i always know I took my pill. I looked and went to check it off and realized it was the 3rd..It all made sense how funny my body would just know, today is 8 months since I lost Ava . I thought it was so odd that i was so upset and I couldn't figure out what this strange feeling was. My God it is 8 months since my little angel has left me. Why is it so bad, why am I still so very sad and so empty, why?
I asked God last night to just give me a sign that Ava was ok. I told God I would wait a day or till the day I died as long as he told me..
I miss this little gift so much, I feel so lost sometimes and so sad..
Thanks for listening to me..
My husband came up and saw me and said is that you crying, i thought it was the tv. He said what is wrong I said well what do you think, he just held me while I cried. I just kept saying i wanted my life back and I wanted to stop feeling this pain in my soul, it just never leaves me, ever..
I woke up and took my pill for my thyroid and I always check the day on the calendar so i always know I took my pill. I looked and went to check it off and realized it was the 3rd..It all made sense how funny my body would just know, today is 8 months since I lost Ava . I thought it was so odd that i was so upset and I couldn't figure out what this strange feeling was. My God it is 8 months since my little angel has left me. Why is it so bad, why am I still so very sad and so empty, why?
I asked God last night to just give me a sign that Ava was ok. I told God I would wait a day or till the day I died as long as he told me..
I miss this little gift so much, I feel so lost sometimes and so sad..
Thanks for listening to me..