A group for TTC#1 and had more than one loss?

[Ladyfog]

Soop, well done for being patient, it's so hard sometimes! At least if you can wait you know one way or another and you can spend a fortune on HPTs if you're not careful!

I had a nice easy day today - went in for 10 and left about 3.30 and had a 2hour lunch break in between! I had a presentation with everyone in my department and they got me some lovely smellies from M&S, some really cute bibs for my little lady and also a £50 boots voucher so I was really touched! It's a crazy feeling to know I don't have to go back to work until next July and it's even more crazy that I'm going to be a mummy very soon. This whole pregnancy has flown by and it's showing no sign of slowing down!

Hope everyone has good Fridays - almost the weekend everyone!

 

[patiently]

Hi ladies this will be a long one so im warning you all from now.

LF yay for mat leave hope you relax hun and enjoy last weeks of freedom before the little lady arrives

NSN how are you doing lovely lady?

Soop gl this month hope you get your bfp!

Lexi hope your scan goes well hun

Nicki gl hun and to you hope June is your month

Thurl i hope its a bfp if not then hope June is your month

Miswish congrats h&h9 months

Wookie hope you get your bfp hun!

Emme glad all is ok yay!

Anyone else i have missed im so sorry to have missed you...

AFM WOW! My intuition is so on the mark. Today i had this sudden urge to go to see my OH and ask what his problem was etc. All week i havent had this feeling but then suddenly today i did. I prayed the whole way there and asked God to show me why he is acting this way and give me the strength to deal with whatever he shows me. He wasnt in. So i went to the room and i didnt even know where to start looking for answers but straight away i headed for the draw's in all honesty i was looking for a number or a picture or something along those lines. I opened the second draw and there were condoms all around the draw. I got those condoms just after my operation when he refused to come to the hospital with me. But some were missing...i know the packet was very full because i remember the nurse saying "do you want more?" and there was already tonnnes in there...so i laughed thinking how much sex does she think i have lol.. there was also a few loose ones. I know everyone will say thats not enough proof but for me it is. He didnt expect me to come round unannounced so he didnt have time to fix things.

I also checked his computer history and there was songs asking for forgiveness and very sad love songs, so its either he really loves this other woman or he's feeling guilty. Either way he can Fuck himself. After everything ive been through. I tried to call him but he still didnt answer. So i took the remaining condoms and left. Part of me wishes i wrote a note and put in in place of the condoms and said "ASSHOLE!! GET YOUR OWN" How could he cheat with those condoms too? that i got? that we were meant to use? And where? in our bed? In her bed? Who is she? etc the questions keep coming but i havent cried i think im more angry than anything, angry that i lost one tube and three babies to this man and this is how he treats me.

im so mad though, so hurt its beyond words. I just need him to tell me why. Give me an explanation and he isnt even willing to do that. I know now my baby plans are on hold and i hope that in the near future i wil still go on to have my baby with a REAL MAN. I will write in my journal but stay away from other threads because BFP's and ttc will really hurt atm. But wishing all the ladies on those threads the best of luck. Hope you all get your bfp!

 

[Nicki123]

Sweet lovely Patiently.... Will send you a message in your journal but for now massive

 

[wookie130]

Oh, Patiently...for your sake, I do hope you're jumping to conclusions. I'd hate to find out that your DH has been messing around on you...that would be positively awful.

 

[Emmediva]

Oh no Patiently, I really hope it is not so... Just playing devils advocate here, maybe he gave some condoms to a friend? I know you know him best but I really hope he is not such a jerk to have cheated on you, especially now that you need him the most. Many to you

 

[Sooperhans]

Thanks Thurl, Nicki and Lady...trying to be strong and hold out, arggghh he's going this morning and my fmus will be in the house by myself, ooh the temptation! I will hold out, like you say Lady, I don't want a false neg if that's the case or to waste my moolah on hpts.

Nicki - yeah he's the best, last night we were chatting and I said can he in any way imagine it of we were, he said he thinks I will look really beautiful and it would be amazing to have this lo to take care of, to hold in his arms. Bless him, I hope so too xx

Lady, oh I'm please you had a nice last day. Now sleep, lol x

 

[Sooperhans]

Patiently WTF????? Nooooooo I hope this isn't the case!!!! If he has cheated on you, waste no time in kicking him to the kerb, there's no going back after that betrayal. Oh I hope it isn't. How has he been acting then, sounds like you've felt suspicious? I'm so sorry xxx

 

[lexi374]

Just a quick post .... patiently im sorry hun, i reallly hope he hasnt cheated on you but i know he has been acting like a jerk anyway. You are very strong after everything you have been through. I dont know what to say... xxxx

Thurl just to let you know digis are not very sensitive dont usually show up til a couple of days later than other tests, as never said asda are good ive used them a few times x

 

[thurl30]

Patiently I don't know what to say, I am so sorry to hear this, you have been through so much, keep strong and sending you lots of hugs xx

 

[Neversaynever]

Patiently... sweetie. Please get as best facts as possible regarding your man...I really hope he's not cheating on you because you really don't need that on top of everything else

Happy Friday and weekend all

XxX

 

[thurl30]

Lexi congrats on becoming a plum another milestone xx

Wishing everyone a nice weekend xx

 

[Misswish]

Oh no sorry to hear that Patiently. I really hope that he hasnt cheated on you. Would be so horrible thinking that. You have been through so much. Sending you lots of hugs. I hope that you can find out the truth very soon. take care and be strong. Remember you are a good person and you will get through this.

Sorry to Thurl and lexi on the wrong birthday wishes!! Sounds like you got some lovely presents Thurl
Yeah the test looked positive from the pic. sorry about the bfn but I would take it again to make sure. Hoping its a BFP for you and goes well.
Ladyfog it sure would feel surreal. So happy for you that your dreams are coming true and you are soon going to meet your little lady. Glad your last day of work went well.
Soop goodluck with the testing i hope you get your bfp.
I had lunch with some girlfriends yest. Was lovely as one of my friends is 28weeks & glowing. I also found out my best friend is 9& half weeks so thats lovely & exciting. I havent yet told her that I am pregnant as I want to wait a bit longer yet to make sure everything is going well. I have 4 pregnant friends at the moment. Dont know how I would have coped if i wasnt. I just pray my baby is developing and growing properly. Its so hard not to be scared all the time. I have my 7 week scan booked in 29th june. Ive just started having slight nausea on and off.
Also the progestrone pessaries are a bit gross but hey if it helps it all worth it.

 

[patiently]

Lexi happy 12 weeks!! Wohoo!!!!

Soop good luck testing

Emme glad things are all well hun...

Misswish glad all is ok too....Not long till your scan!!! so exciting.

Hi to everyone else!

Thank you for all of your support ladies. OH called me and explained everything that has been going on. He said he's never cheated and he would never do that to me, especially after everything i've been through. He said that he gave a condom to his friend, which in all honesty i do believe him. The way he explained himself and the things he said really made sense to me so i think i may have been wrong and jumping to conclusions. But after the way he'd been treating me i couldnt even think rationally. We have seen each other but things are still so distant. He said he would like to take things slow and build our relationship back to how it was before all the baby talk and the arguing etc. To some degree i see his point but i'm still so angry with how his attitude towards me has changed. I feel like he's in control of the whole situation. I dont even know what to do anymore. I'm just going to do what makes me happy, Its hard coz i love him and i want a baby but going back and forth with him is so stressful especially after what ive been through with him. Its so hard to think I was pregnant for him three times and this is where we are.

Well hope everyone has a lovely sunday xxx

 

[Nicki123]

Hi everyone, hope you're having nice weekends. I am having a very relaxing weekend doing NOTHING. Bliss.

Patiently, hope you're feeling a bit better. I have written in your journal.

Soop! Tomorrow is test day. I'm so excited, I hope today goes quickly for you. Fx

Misswish hope the nausea doesn't get too bad and that the time before your scan doesn't drag too much.

I'm 3dpo and have a feeling this 2ww is going to go slowly...

 

[Sooperhans]

Lexi, happy 12 weeks and wishing you so much luck tomorrow. Have everything crossed for you xxx

Thank you Nicki and everyone for the GL for thinking of me, I'm starting to feel nervous but anxious to know now. So nice to see dh again, reunited this eve! Argh I want to know tomorrow so much but I did get the bfn fear earlier...boobs aren't as sore, which they have been for some time. Will report back when I know xxx

Patiently - so pleased you have had an explanation, the balance of the relationship is a worry to me though. I won't tell you what to do but you do need to feel like you are on equal terms. I hope you can resolve your issues hun xxx

Hoping for time to fly for Nicki in your 2ww and Misswish for your 7w scan. Lots of luck xxx

 

[lexi374]

Thanks hun

Do you have much in the way of s and s??

Im really hoping you see that bfp tomorrow!! x

Patiently ive replied in your journal

Hi to everyone else

 

[Sooperhans]

Thank you, hope so too xx

OK, in terms of s&s, I've had:
Light spotting on cd23
Proper achey/painful boobs (still sore but they have been really painful at times)
Sort of "pulling" sensation on and off, mainly on the left side
Lightheadedness at times
Faint nausea/hunger first thing - nit every day but a couple last week
Is sleeplessness one? I haven't been sleeping much, prob wondering if it's a bfp or not!

But who knows?! Will report back after test xx

 

[Nicki123]

Lexi - will be thinking of you tomorrow, I'm sure you won't need it but I have my fx
Tomorrow = big day for Lexi and Soop!

Ive had a blissful weekend doing diddly Squat.... I have watched so many films and had so much sleep - batteries are fully recharged.

 

[thurl30]

Just calling in on my way to bed, but wanted to say a massive good luck to Lexi and Soop for tomorrow, looking forward to catching up on everything after work tomorrow xx

to everyone else, Nicki good to hear you had a chilled out weekend, fingers crossed your 2ww doesn't drag by xx

Patiently I'm thinking of you, just make sure you do what's right for you xx

 

[notoptimistic]

Soop- the light spotting cd 23 combined with the other symptoms seems very promising! Do u you usually spot in between periods? Good luck tomorrow! I'm 10dpo today and have very sore boobs, constipation and some bloating but can't say I've never had these "symptoms" before.