Almost 44 final ttc journey -- buddies needed : )

[lunamoona]

Hey all, af came 4 days early yest I'm sure those ics were positive at the weekend there were just too many to be all evaps, ah well. We are away this weekend then it's back on the diet when I return, eating rubbish has totally messed with my cycle as well as making me put on weight! So that's it back on the wagon I go lol. Hope everyone is ok xxx

So sorry onwards and upwards eh? At least AF came early so it's not as long till your next cycle.

 

[peanutpup]

Hi Ladies

Sorry didn't mean to post before and then leave you ....just been so busy with everything this month....trying to keep from drowning and going completely insane.....I am finding it challenging to remain positive....my SIL just had a baby last week and my niece is due any day now.... so as we all do from time to time....I am feeling a bit sorry for myself this week but no worries I shall pick myself up and move forward once again.

I am starting a beginner yoga class tonight with DD.....have mixed emotions with this as I tend to be uncomfortable with anything new but think it will be good for me

 

[peanutpup]

Thanks Tara and Mel x I went for scan and they kept me waiting for 2 hours and then when they scanned me said I have a 2cm piece of retained placenta inside - great hey! I suppose at least I know what is going on ...... They said to watch out for infection and if it doesn't come out or I don't get af by 6 weeks I have to go back again. I'm praying it comes out .... it's a shame as we got back to dtd last night. Although I have to say dtd for fun rather than baby making for a while sounds cool xxx

Mel I swear by the cheap ics hun costs a bl**dy fortune for cb stuff! Sorry to hear about 44 day cycle hun. Any sign if it coming to an end?

Hope u did catch a good egg Tara xxx when will u test hun?

Becks hope you're ok hun.

Peanut and Spyrals how u both doing?

I am well--thank you for asking!!

Sorry Sunshine you have to go through this...really hope it moves along quickly! We truly learn to be so resilient when TTC.

When I had my MC at 12 weeks I had a scan to make sure it was complete and the DR looked at scan image and actually asked me if I knew for fact if I was pregnant I said yes I just went through 2 days of mc (I was 44 at the time) and she wanted me to get bw to check for HCG to see if I even was.....really??? I was speechless.....I was 12 weeks!!....needless to say the mc was complete the next day and I felt like maybe you need a picture to prove but that was the anger and hurt talking.....her words really went deep but I have learned to forgive as carrying around anger only hurts me more.

 

[peanutpup]

Oasis sorry AF got you.....I know all too well the bitter disappointment when you have all the same symptoms of previous pregnancies and you are determined to not get your hopes up but somehow "hope" worms it way into your heart and then you think "maybe??" ......and bam she shows up 6 days early....wtf?? But alas hope is what we all must have despite the rollercoaster she has us on

 

[peanutpup]

I am going the natural route so if it doesn't happen that way then it is the end of a dream to add a second child. I am taking the following supplements to help things along:

multi vit
CoQ10 600mg
Vit D3 4000-6000mg
Omega 3
folic acid 1 mg
B50 complex
probiotic
wheatgrass
vit c 500mg


I have about 20lbs to release so need to start working on me this month

I do not test anymore.....opk's or hpt's.....wasting too much money and just cannot take the heartache anymore.....I just listen to my body when it feels like the right time to BD and will only test if "she" is over a week late.....I have been on this rollercoaster far too long and have thought about giving up so many times but the little voice in my heart refuses to let me.....so I trudge along every month....ever hopeful but doing all in my power to remain neutral......I have been on the obsessive side and cannot go back as for me that was not living......it turned me into someone I did not recognize......over the last year I have finally found me again.....I still get sad on AF day but I shake it off and move forward as there are so many things to be thankful for

 

[InVivoVeritas]

Aw, I'm sorry to hear that, Becks. Those cycles are the most difficult, when you're sure that you've done it but shows up early to ruin everything. I've stopped testing early too, it just took too much out of me.

Mel, sounds like you're completely on top of your supplements. Your body has no excuse for not presenting you with that keeping baby! Hopefully will turn up soon so you can get started.

Peanut, good to have you back. I've had the same experience, an EPU asking me if I was sure I'd ever been pregnant. That's tough to hear, especially when you've walked into the scan room hoping against hope to see a little heart beating. In my case hCG was still pretty high so I was "vindicated", but they could all do with a little sensitivity training.

Hope everybody else is doing well. Carmel, how are you holding up back at work?

 

[lunamoona]

Peanut glad to see you back It's so much harder when you are surrounded by fertile people isn't it? Someone in my family had 2 children while I was trying to conceive my first, she's my age too. It didn't help that she's a very rude person as well, had to give myself a good talking to about it as I was feeling very bitter inside.

I took an OPK today and it looked very close to positive. If AF had turned up this cycle I would be ovulating around now. If my body decides to get back on track I will be due AF in about 10 days. Time will tell

Hope you are all well

 

[InVivoVeritas]

Mel, does that mean you're starting your 2ww? Missing AF doesn't have to mean that you miss this O too -- you could be starting to bake your next little bean right now.

Me I'm 10dpo and BFN today. I know it's early but it was a Superdrug test and they're even more sensitive than FRERs. I'm resigned to the idea that this cycle's a bust for me.

 

[Sunshine14]

Hey ladies hope you're all having a good weekend xxx

Tara sorry to hear you got a bfn there is still time to get a positive though hun as it's still early xxx fingers crossed for you hun

Peanut how was the yoga hun? Yoga is great for getting the blood flowing - you should ask them for some poses to help get blood to uterus you never know it might help xxx

Mel hope the big O happened hun xxx did you manage to get some bding in around that time? Just to let you know I've used soy isoflavones for the reasons you mention - 2 of my bfps last year were as a result of that the first was a cp and the second was a mmc. With the second I did a pregnyl trigger that my friend who was doing IVF gave me. I have one trigger that she gave me left in the fridge and will have to do it pretty soon as it goes out of date end November! I better get my cycle back before then lol. What is the cassava and where do you get it from hun?

Becks hope ur managing to enjoy ur time away hun xxx

I had a dramatic week. Had the scan Weds then Thursday my OH got really sick with chest pains, vomiting and he got so dehydrated that I had to take him to A & E. Nightmare and I could only stay with him til 11pm as had to get back for kiddies. Then they discharged him at 4am (!) They sent him out having been very ill and he had to get back on his own bless him. My boss gave me compassionate leave yesterday and let me work from home Weds pm and most of Thursday so I only went back to work for 2 hours Thursday -- it was a relief to go back in though as I had been dreading it but it was fine.

Hi to Wish4 hope ur ok xx

 

[InVivoVeritas]

Carmel, you poor thing -- what a rotten week!!

It's ridiculous how they discharge very sick people in the middle of the night when they have nobody with them. Glad your OH made it home, but that really wasn't fair.

I'm glad that your boss is being so resaonable and that being back at work wasn't as bad as you thought it would be. Now onwards and upwards.

Me, I had a BFN again today at 11dpo. That agrees with what I'm feeling -- I'm sure that I'm out this month. Just waiting for to show up now, then to next month.

 

[lunamoona]

Sunshine what an awful week you've had It's insane to discharge someone in the middle of the night, what were they thinking?

Invivo you are never out until the shows but of course the 2WW is just torture isn't it? If it doesn't happen this month then you are just one step closer to that golden egg.

I won't be TTC until December, hopefully my cycles will be normal by then, I'm having lots of close to positive OPK, lots of cramping but my temps definitely show I have not ovulated Roll on AF.

Peanut hope your ok

 

[Wish4another1]

girls I am still here reading along - but I am traveling for work (in Nashville till tomorrow then on to Little Rock) and I do not like updating from my phone as much as on a computer... Hoping I can get a proper catch up tomorrow once I get settled in Little Rock.


Ok I have made it to Little Rock and my computer is working so here we go!! My real name is Rachelle - although I have often wondered if I could change it to Wish - sounds much more hopeful

sunshine (Carmel) - I agree who discharges someone in the middle of the night and leaves them to find there way home??? that sounds crazy... I hope next week is better for you dear....

invivo (Tara?) - I am sorry about your BFN - I dislike waiting for the witch to show... but I hope she doesn't and you get a surprise

luna (Mel)- hoping for AF for you too - just so you can move on!! hope she doesn't take too long...

Peanut - I too hope you are doing ok... I am all natural too...

Oasis - sorry about the

I hope I got everyone - but if I didn't it wasn't on purpose
The witch showed up Thursday and is still lingering today... ugh... just go away already... Ill be here till Friday then home... so not much happening with me. I forgot my vitamins I really need to get back to a schedule!!!

Hope everyone has a great week!!

 

[lunamoona]

Morning ladies, hope you are all well.

Nothing much happening for me I think I have a positive OPK today but have not used them before so not entirely sure It's cycle day 50 today, just need this wackiness to end

 

[InVivoVeritas]

Mel, we're delighted to count down to December with you. In fact, that's my own deadline for taking my foot off the TTC pedal and grabbing back my emotional equilibrium before considering IVF. Let's hope it's a good month for both of us.

Rachelle, hopefully you're travelling for fun, or at least enjoying being on the move. I hate that . She showed up here today, exactly on schedule, though I was pretty sure she was on her way. Even so, it's never good to have her turn up as a reminder that another cycle's a bust.

Onwards to next cycle.

 

[Justme43]

I am 44 in October and feel like time is running out and I'm on the final stage of my ttc journey. I was hoping there might be some buddies around to chat with?

I have some hope left as we have been ttc for two years now and with my miscarriage that ended recently I saw a hb and it was the farthest we have gotten in 2 years so maybe the next one might be my sticky healthy bean!? I am taking coq10 to try to improve egg quality.

Thanks for reading x

Hello ladies,

I am 43 and recently miscarried my first baby. It's been nearly 3 weeks since my D&C and I am waiting to try again.

This would have been my first baby so at 43 it was a complete surprise, a welcomed one that ended in heartbreak. So I am hoping and praying that when the time comes that I will have a healthy pregnancy.

Still waiting for my first cycle then we'll stop taking precautions and simply let fate take over.

Nice to meet you ladies and I look forward to our journey together. Most importantly, I look forward to many many pregnancy related news.

 

[Justme43]

Hi ladies, I am 35 myself and TTC#1 but just wanted to give a word of encouragement as my mom had a baby at 48 naturally. She and her dh had 10 cycles of unsuccessful IVF before they gave up on it. A year later she conceived on her own. I'm not sure if IVF had anything to do with it but there you have it. I've got an 8 yo brother now
My dh is 45 and we've tried for 3 cycles with charting, temping etc and tried all up for about 7 cycles, 4 without charting, just OPKs. We're going to a fertility clinic next week to have him tested. One issue I've discovered reading online is that one of his meds, Amlodepine, can have an effect on male fertility. It's a very common blood pressure medication. So I'll bring it up and see if they recommend going off it.
What is hb? I haven't heard that before.
I've heard a bit about CoQ10 on the boards - will go do some research. Anyone heard about Robitussin to increase cm quality?
Anyway wishing you luck and thought I'd butt in! )

My mom was not in her 40's but she was 39 when she had my lil sister and 35 when she had my brother.

I was considered her early child at the age of 17 and then she took one heck of a break before having my siblings.

So here I am at 43 and after a miscarriage last month - I am trying myself. So there is hope...

Thank you so much for the encouraging post.

 

[Justme43]

Thanks Luna I'm still having 2/3 cups of tea a day but I have given up coke now, my guilty pleasure xxx

I know all about guilty pleasures. Since my miscarriage last month I've been working on getting back in shape. I've been walking 4-5 miles a day and cut out a number of my guilty pleasures (now this is a work in progress). I can work out all day, but giving up all my goodies is a challenge.

Here's to taking it one day at a time. or should I say "leaving it" on day at a time

 

[Justme43]

Hi Ladies

Sorry didn't mean to post before and then leave you ....just been so busy with everything this month....trying to keep from drowning and going completely insane.....I am finding it challenging to remain positive....my SIL just had a baby last week and my niece is due any day now.... so as we all do from time to time....I am feeling a bit sorry for myself this week but no worries I shall pick myself up and move forward once again.

I am starting a beginner yoga class tonight with DD.....have mixed emotions with this as I tend to be uncomfortable with anything new but think it will be good for me

I am sorry you are having such a hard time but I completely understand. I've been on a mission to get in shape since my miscarriage. Partly because it helps me keep my mind on something else. I started a 100 mile challenge at the beginning of this month and it has helped me refocus my energies, not to mention it is keeping me in shape. I walk 4-5 miles a day.

I have my days, but more and more they are looking brighter. I wish you a lightened heart honey.

 

[Sunshine14]

Hi ladies how are you all doing? Hope you're having a good week!?

Hope the girls who got af are getting ready to O soon?- is that Becks, Tara and Rachelle?

Mel you must be in the 2ww now? Everything crossed you get ur bfp hun xx

Peanut what stage are you at hun?

Welcome to justme sorry for ur loss hun x wish you luck with ttc

I'm cd23 today following mc and still getting the tiniest of a squinter line on pg test and my opks have some colour but not much. I think my body's completely out of whack and just have to be patient and wait for af (whenever she bothers to show up!). Have to say that now the dust has settled on mc I'm feeling a bit weird about ttc again. I thought about being pg the other day and actually felt a rush of fear that it would happen again - just pure panic at the thought. Is that normal ladies? It's so scary that there is just no control over what happens ...... I keep thinking am I healthy enough to get a good egg and what if aghhhhhh!!

Hope you're all good anyway xx

 

[Justme43]

Hi ladies how are you all doing? Hope you're having a good week!?

Hope the girls who got af are getting ready to O soon?- is that Becks, Tara and Rachelle?

Mel you must be in the 2ww now? Everything crossed you get ur bfp hun xx

Peanut what stage are you at hun?

Welcome to justme sorry for ur loss hun x wish you luck with ttc

I'm cd23 today following mc and still getting the tiniest of a squinter line on pg test and my opks have some colour but not much. I think my body's completely out of whack and just have to be patient and wait for af (whenever she bothers to show up!). Have to say that now the dust has settled on mc I'm feeling a bit weird about ttc again. I thought about being pg the other day and actually felt a rush of fear that it would happen again - just pure panic at the thought. Is that normal ladies? It's so scary that there is just no control over what happens ...... I keep thinking am I healthy enough to get a good egg and what if aghhhhhh!!

Hope you're all good anyway xx

Hey Sunshine,

I think your fears are warranted. Having so little control over what we think we have so much control over is mindboggling.
As I wait for my first AF all sorts of things go through my head as well. Especially since I've never had children and this last pregnancy was a complete surprise.

It feels like that was the one miracle that I was granted and I am not sure if I will have another chance. That one was not planned as I did not think it was possible.

Now that I've had the experience I can not imagine my life without my own baby - it's emotional torture. But I've dedicated my time since the mc to getting my body right.

I've walking 5 miles day, eating right and trying with all my might to stay positive. This time last year I did not think that getting pregnant was even possible for me. I've settled on the idea that I would be a mother to others and not my own,

Now I sit here and my thoughts are going in a complete different direction.

One thing for sure is that now that I am preparing myself, I will be healthier than I was although I wasn't unhealthy.

I guess being aware of our bodies, is a start. I know it is so hard to stay positive but I think that is an important ingredient in this process.

Baby dust to you.