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Mom of 5 (4 on earth 1 in heaven)
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After a very long hiatus during which I was so sure I was done with my 4 kids, my husband came around and said he'd like to try for one last baby. I wasn't even so sure if I wanted a 5th, because I just turned 39 last December and what with the world going mad these days.
I always wanted a 5th child, after my 1st girl was born back in 2018. But we were building a house back then. It took us 2 years and we hit a very bad spot in our marriage pretty much right in the middle of covid - July 2020. I didn't even know if our marriage would survive, let alone be able to have a 5th. We had a 1-year relationship lockdown during which we went for regular individual and couple therapy. I spent so much time with God and clung on to the Bible's promises of God restoring my marriage and changing my heart towards my husband. After literally going through the valley of the shadow of death, emotionally and mentally in my marriage, God really brought us through the other side. My husband came back to me and we could reignite our marriage again - That was around October 2021.
We live in Germany and there's so much volatility in the Russian-Ukraine crisis, so I know this is a terrible time to try for another babe. But I've waited sooo long! 3 years pretty much. The first 2 years, I struggled so hard to surrender my desire for a 5th to the Lord. I asked the Lord to take the desire away because my husband was adamant he didn't want a 5th anymore. But the desire still lingered, somehow.
I got a very early miscarriage last year when we were actively preventing! We only had unprotected sex once on day 7 shortly after stopped bleeding. When I was late, I took a HPT and realised to my shock and horror that I was pregnant. I was so worried that my husband would flip out!
He was surprisingly positive about my BFP! He was even happy, somewhat. He said that if I could get pregnant at a time when it was pretty much almost zero chance to be pregnant, then it had to be from God. I did miscarry about 4-5 days later, so that was pretty sad. But it got the whole ball rolling about trying for a 5th. My husband became more on board.
And when the time came to start trying for a 5th, I started chickening out! My husband is more on board now.
Anyway, that was a mouthful! Would love to get more TTC buddies! How are you all doing with TTCing with all that is going on in the world around us? Any large families too? We can encourage and pray for each other expanding our families in a crazy world. With God, all things are possible right?
I always wanted a 5th child, after my 1st girl was born back in 2018. But we were building a house back then. It took us 2 years and we hit a very bad spot in our marriage pretty much right in the middle of covid - July 2020. I didn't even know if our marriage would survive, let alone be able to have a 5th. We had a 1-year relationship lockdown during which we went for regular individual and couple therapy. I spent so much time with God and clung on to the Bible's promises of God restoring my marriage and changing my heart towards my husband. After literally going through the valley of the shadow of death, emotionally and mentally in my marriage, God really brought us through the other side. My husband came back to me and we could reignite our marriage again - That was around October 2021.
We live in Germany and there's so much volatility in the Russian-Ukraine crisis, so I know this is a terrible time to try for another babe. But I've waited sooo long! 3 years pretty much. The first 2 years, I struggled so hard to surrender my desire for a 5th to the Lord. I asked the Lord to take the desire away because my husband was adamant he didn't want a 5th anymore. But the desire still lingered, somehow.
I got a very early miscarriage last year when we were actively preventing! We only had unprotected sex once on day 7 shortly after stopped bleeding. When I was late, I took a HPT and realised to my shock and horror that I was pregnant. I was so worried that my husband would flip out!
He was surprisingly positive about my BFP! He was even happy, somewhat. He said that if I could get pregnant at a time when it was pretty much almost zero chance to be pregnant, then it had to be from God. I did miscarry about 4-5 days later, so that was pretty sad. But it got the whole ball rolling about trying for a 5th. My husband became more on board.
And when the time came to start trying for a 5th, I started chickening out! My husband is more on board now.
Anyway, that was a mouthful! Would love to get more TTC buddies! How are you all doing with TTCing with all that is going on in the world around us? Any large families too? We can encourage and pray for each other expanding our families in a crazy world. With God, all things are possible right?
don't think you are crazy at all 
