~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[louandivy]

Yes I know what you mean, we just want our LOs to have a normal mum! I don't know about you but my ED made me secretive, mean, manipulative and distracted all the time, I really feel like I could ruin Ivys childhood if I gave into the disease! Hope you feel better tomorrow, remember 'feel the fear and do it anyway'

 

[Sarah10]

I will do anything to not let my LO not get this, i know it is less common in boys than girls but it still worries me alot. All my family have some form of mental problem (i don't mean that badly, depression, panic attacks etc) so it's no surprise i'm the way i am Jayden has started to watch me eat now, so i know when he is eating his meals etc i will have to do the same, eeek! x

 

[Louiseandbump]

Ive stopped gaining. Im scared. Ive not been doing well girls.
I havent gained in weeks, maybe a month.
I have eaten, but ive purged, so much.
I do replace when i purge with fruit etc.
But i cant get a normal balance.

I know im an idiot, but this is the first im admitting of this so please go easy on me.

OH has left me and things arent good.
He cant cope with my moods anymore and says its not working
(check my stats for thread if you want details)

I cant eat. I feel so sick and upset.
LO is kicking away i know shes ok.
But im scared i cant control this now.

 

[Groovychick]

You need to go hospital hun.

 

[Louiseandbump]

You need to go hospital hun.

Why do i need to go to hospital?

Im under alot of emotional stress which is making it difficut for me to eat.

I heard baby's heartbeat a few days ago and she is moving LOADS.

 

[louandivy]

Maybe not hospital, but you need to speak to someone about getting some support, you cannot afford to stop eating, have you spoken to your midwife about this? I had therapy throughout my pregnancy and it really did help.

 

[Louiseandbump]

I havent. The only one who knows about my ED is my OH.
Who has just broken up with me and triggered this.

He doesnt know ive been purging through my pregnancy though.
Im not purposely not eating now though, i feel too sick and upset to eat though.

You know that sick feeling in your stomach when something bad happened?
Ive got that 24:7 im too emotional to even think about food :\

 

[tasha41]

TMI post-- since I struggle w/ laxatives..

Spoiler

Took 2 senna pills, 4 intestinal cleanse pills, 2 hoodia, 2 vit B supplements this morning around 10am. Nothing happened until about 7, and then felt like crap since, have been to the washroom 3x since, I felt so uncomfortable this morning I was sure something would happen quick and I'd feel better, obviously it wasn't the need for a BM making me feel uncomfortable..

But since what came out was obviously not properly digested I am happy, even though I feel like shit and realize this is unhealthy behaviour. Threw up this morning also, just thought about vomitting and it came out.

I don't even feel THAT fat today, even though I know I am.. was thinking I must have like 50lbs to go to be happy. That being said my happy is under 100lbs.. which is not what women typically strive for.. I just don't know what to do. I feel like weight loss under 10lbs is nothing, since I believe you can't notice a change until 10lbs, so to look like I've lost 10lbs I must lose 20, I just dunno how to make this work.

 

[jen1604]

Sorry I have been absent girls,major relapse over here and didn't want to trigger anyone.
How is everyone doing?Louise how are you coping sweetheart?I'm going to PM you my number incase you ever need to talk to someone.
Tash,just for you.You do NOT need to get rid of 50lbs,its the disorder messing with you.How are you doing now? xxxxxx

 

[tasha41]

Jen eaten like a cow all weekend, stress of exams! I want to lose something, anything, by Christmas so I might start SlimFast shakes Thursday after my exams are done, even though they taste awful.

Haven't eaten yet today, but it's only 11am here. Wouldn't eat til dinner but need to so I can focus on my exam and so my stomach doesn't growl there. Saying that makes me feel like I am challenging myself to not eat now or dinner, because I know how good hungry can feel iykwim.

 

[louandivy]

Sorry I have been absent girls,major relapse over here and didn't want to trigger anyone.
How is everyone doing?Louise how are you coping sweetheart?I'm going to PM you my number incase you ever need to talk to someone.
Tash,just for you.You do NOT need to get rid of 50lbs,its the disorder messing with you.How are you doing now? xxxxxx

I'm so sorry about your relapse Pm me if you want to talk about it

 

[Louiseandbump]

Jen1604, i hope you are feeling better. Im here if you wana chat about it. Thanks for the pm too, really sweet.

Im still struggling to eat a little, but have done well today.
Appetite is coming back, and havent purged as ive been eating so little.
Just have to watch for purging as my appetite returns now!

Have booked to see midwife weds morning to check about the weight loss and stopping as this was before i relapsed. x

 

[Sarah10]

Hope everybody is doing okay.
Everything is triggering lately, why does it seem like everything is about starving/weight loss. Why does a trip round Asda feel like a task, i can't think of things i want to eat.
If i had it my way i'd never eat again.
Sorry for the nagativity

 

[ReRe]

Hey i am recovered from anorexia nervousa i spent a year in hospital with it and wud be more than happy to offer support to anyone that needs it or even if u just want to talk about whats on ur mind it is such a mis understood illness
lots of hugs to those of u currently sufferering
feel free to add me on
[email protected]
or private message me if u wud like my number
x

 

[tasha41]

Okay I said I'd eat before school today but didn't, and paid for it. Stomach growling during my exam and all the way home-- embarrassing! Came home and ate, not that much but felt so full so I guess I am happy. Had a 100cal bagel w/ margarine about 45 mins ago cause I was hungry again though..

Jen I meant to say earlier but had my nose in my book and was waiting for MIL. If you want to talk about it you can PM me.. or just put it under a spoiler with a warning maybe?? Hope this week is going a little better

 

[jen1604]

Thank you girlys
Tash and Louise I'm glad you're both managing to eat bits and pieces.
Sarah I know what you mean,how about drawing up a meal plan for the week so you know what you need to get?I always find figuring out what I *want* to eat hard too.
My poor teeth are really suffering from all the purging They are super sensitive and I think I need to get my first filling in one of them Hate doing this to myself.
DREADING xmas and all the food that will be everywhere. x

 

[aubreee]

hey girls

i just felt like sending some hugs to all of you

 

[Sarah10]

I've got such a headache, i'm fed up of constantly feeling like s**t all day everyday I did such a stupid thing today, bought a pair of jeans smaller than i already am, why o why? That's just going to encourage me to not eat :/ i wonder what planet i am on at times. x

 

[Sarah10]

Is anyone awake? I really do not want to go on anymore, i should for my baby. I just want to end it all. i really need to talk to someone.

 

[jen1604]

Sarah sorry I wasn't online,how are you feeling now hon?

Has anything in particular triggered all of this? xxxxxxxx