Hi lioness, I'm always here on LTTTC, cause this is where I started out!
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Well, our issue was male factor, with very low, and I mean, VERY low sperm count. They advised us to do IVF with ICSI right off the bat, but we had 3 tries as IUI if we wanted. IVF/ICSI seemed too daunting for me, so we opted for the 3 IUI's. Being that his count was so low, none took, and we waited about 7 months before we decided to give IVF/ICSI a go. The first cycle was perfect, I was so pumped up and positive, we had some good eggs and the fertilized beautifully. I had 2 blasts (day 5) transferred which were the best quality and graded "A". And NONE took! I was so devastated, but we had paid for 2 cycles in case the first didn't work, so we went for the second cycle after a month or two of ovary rest in between.
Once the second cycle started, I did not feel as excited or pumped up as I had the first cycle. I kind of went through the motions and when ET came around, we were told our eggs had very poor fertilization rates (even with ICSI!) and none were really very good for ET. I hadn't had a good feeling about this second cycle all along, I didn't even feel bloated like I had the first time after EC, in other words, I felt like I really hadn't even had an IVF cycle because my body was acting like it was just a normal cycle. Right away I started crying when we were given the news and I figured that was the end of it. The RE said he would transfer the one best egg of the worse (how is that for being optimistic? lol!) but we had 2 frozen embies which were graded "B", so they weren't as great at my grade "A" embies from the first cycle, but he would transfer those two.
All throughout the ET I held back tears and felt so, SOOO negative and just knew it wouldn't work. If my 2 grade A embies hadn't stuck, how did I expect the 2 grade B embies and the one worst egg of the fresh cycle to stick?! I honestly was expecting a BFN. But, about 3 days before blood test I POA and it was positive! I kept telling myself it was my hcg trigger shot that wasn't out of my system. Once I went back to clinic and had blood drawn and beta levels at 100 confirmed pregnancy, I was just in disbelief!
So my second iffy cycle worked for me, while the first "perfect" cycle didn't. Sorry for making this so long, I just wanted to let you know that even when things may seem to be going bad, there is still hope and it's not over till the blood test confirms otherwise!
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to you and good luck for your EC and ET!