Any SMEPers!!!! 43 Testers! 22 BFP!!!!

[Kdk24]

Where the hell is everyone?!

I was thinking the same thing!?!?

 

[armymama2012]

I'm here, being impatient and waiting for Monday so I can test.

 

[Kdk24]

Impatient... I went out at bought FRER today! Ugh!!! I know there's no way they can tell this early but it was comforting to know I had them ready!

 

[krystinab]

LOL, Monday will be here soon enough. There are so many testers on Monday!! I have my pap today, I wonder if they will give me a pregnancy test? I think the ususally do...I am about 12 DPO so we may have one tester today!

 

[snowflakes120]

Krystina - A girl on my one thread went for a pap and the OBGYN said she was PG bc her cervix was blue - anyways, she didn't believe him and sure enough she was!! FX for you!! Are you still charting??

One of us has to get a BFP. There are too many of us testing!

 

[jrowenj]

seriously! There has to be a BFP soon!!!! its a 40% success rate and there are so many testers and we havent had a bfp in a bit! FXXXXXXXXX

 

[krystinab]

Believe or not Lisa the RE told me to stop temping. But I decided to just finish out this cycle...may chart looks good but it always does. I will add it to my signature.

Jamie, blue cervix, WTH does that mean? I didnt even realize they could see in there...LOL let alone distinguish a color. Anywho we shall see, my appointment isnt until 3.

 

[snowflakes120]

Chart does look nice Krystina! I like the raise today! When they put the speculum in that is what they are looking at is your cervix. I guess it has color when you are PG. The girl thought it was a bunch of crazy talk but it ended up being true!

 

[krystinab]

Chart does look nice Krystina! I like the raise today! When they put the speculum in that is what they are looking at is your cervix. I guess it has color when you are PG. The girl thought it was a bunch of crazy talk but it ended up being true!

Thanks and thats crazy...sorry I was reading so fast I thought Jamie wrote that! How are you feeling? Any symptoms?

 

[BamBamsMaMa]

How's everyone? Wishing all testers luck this month. I am anxiously waiting to O. So frustrated as DH hurt his back and knee so he has a hard time being on top when we BD. Last night I had to get on top and lots of swimmers came out when I tried to hop off. I have done everything trick in the book... BD every night, BD every other night, BD every 3rd night, and nothing works!!!! I am so discouraged. I need some pep talk!

 

[threemakefive]

Ya kristina its blue bc of the blood flow or so they say....hope u test today!!

Can't believe all the testers comig up....we need a bfp!!

 

[mrsjoannak]

Wow it has been forever. Many things have changed in my life since I began my smepping adventure. After a long time trying I was put on clomid. I took clomid. Clomid made me crazy. Deep depression. We bought a house. We packed. More depression. Took clomid again. We moved. We became parents of a kindergartner. He got his first loose tooth. Got his first bike. LOADS of depression. Took clomid again. Found out my doctor is a complete hack. Anger is now setting in...maybe it has been here all along.

3 months ago my OBGYN decided to put me on clomid. She ordered a sono to make sure that a previous cyst I had months before had cleared up. She said it was gone so it was all systems go here is your clomid take it cd 5-9 have sex every other day beginning cd10 come in cd 21 for blood work. That sounded easy enough. So we did that. Each month I got the phone call that it is not working we are going to increase your dose. Now that I am on the max dose she has decided that there is nothing else she can do but send me to an REI- that my insurance will not cover. I was not happy with that and felt like she could do more so I started to look for a new doc. I called several in network that are close to my new house - opposed to the 45 minute drive I had before. I talked to reception at every office explaining my situation and wanting to know if this doctor would speak with me about treatment they explore before sending to REI. Every office said the doc would automatically send me to this infertility specialist over here... so why not just start there - after all he has been specializing in infertility for 34 years... So after a lot of tears I called and made the appointment. I went in yesterday and got load after load of bad news.

My smep journey is over for now until we know more at least. This doctor asked me questions that my other doctors had not. He wanted to know every minute detail of my menstrual life. When did you first start what where you monthly symptoms and to what degree mild or severe. Then we got into my menstrual life after my IUD. I explained that before I got pregnant with my son I had 28 day cycles and now it is more around 42-47 days. Went over symptoms I now have and how they have changed since I was a kid. Then we got into the blinding headaches I get when I am on my period or on clomid. I told him I feel like my brain is trying to force its way through my left eye socket and no pill will make it stop.
He stopped me right there and asked if I have had my pituitary gland checked. Apparently while it is not very common some women develop tumors on their pituitary gland and it causes blinding headaches anytime there is a hormone shift, stops ovulation completely, and causes erratic cycles. Check check and check. So ordered blood work.
Then he gave me an exam that seriously lasted all of 1 minute and then he said come on we are going down to sono. I hop on the table and the sono tech sees me for again 1 minute and she hops up and says she needs the doctor. She comes back and says he needs to see you so get dressed and he will be right back.

2 things. My fallopian tubes are closed. They are covered in scar tissue from past surgeries. I also have a mass on my right ovary. It is solid and the size of a soft ball. Fantastic. He said that most times cysts are somewhat transparent because they they have blood or fluid in them... not this one. It is 100% solid. He felt it just poking on my stomach. I want to know how the hell I did not know it was there. I grew a soft ball in 3 months and did not notice. My sono in July came back completely clean and now I have a soft ball.

I go in Sept 26 for MRI and Ct scan. I was in the middle of taking my clomid so he wants me to stop and wait for my hormones to go back to normal for an accurate test.

That is it I guess.

 

[snowflakes120]

Chart does look nice Krystina! I like the raise today! When they put the speculum in that is what they are looking at is your cervix. I guess it has color when you are PG. The girl thought it was a bunch of crazy talk but it ended up being true!

Thanks and thats crazy...sorry I was reading so fast I thought Jamie wrote that! How are you feeling? Any symptoms?

I'm honestly having a really hard day today. I am really down in the dumps and in a horrible mood. We got PG a year ago and nothing since. Just a bunch of BS. I'm just so sad. It is incredible how long this is taking. I just can't believe how horrible this journey has been. No, not a single SX.

 

[snowflakes120]

Joanna - We were posting at the same time. Oh man huns. I am so very sorry for everything. I know what it feels to take one step forwards but 2 steps back. I swear I am queen of it. I am glad you went to the RE and they are helping you and putting you in the best care possible. Trust them - they know what they are doing!!! I would think that it is quite possible that the Clomid caused the cyst to get bigger over just a few months time esp when they are increasing your dose. I developed a cyst on my last cycle and had to sit out to make it shrink. Had I kept doing med's it would just kept getting bigger and bigger. Will you be getting a lap to remove the scarring? or a HSG? Both?

My sister had a cyst the size of a softball removed in Feb. Bc her's was so big (and she's very small like me - we're both only 5') it was causing issues with her appendix as well. So they removed both the cyst and appendix.

Thinking of you and sending you hugs!

 

[jrowenj]

JoAnna - happy to see you back and posting but of course not so happy to hear the news. However, I am glad that you went to the RE and can now move forward to get these things resolved. Does the Dr say that you can still get pregnant after all this is said and done? Can they do anything about your fallopian tubes and the scar tissue??

I am so sorry you got such bad news and that you are depressed, hun... lots of hugs

 

[krystinab]

Goodness JoAnna, I am sorry for everything you are going though. Did the DR give you any suggestions of what you could do? Is IVF an option? Keep you chin up honey and make sure your take care of yourself.

Lisa, I feel you on being down...but maybe your sad mood is a symptom You have taken a BIG step this cycle and I am hopeful that it will pay off....damn TTC...I am always a mess around test time. Its like you are hopeful that this cycle will be the one...your on a emotional rollercoaster for 3 weeks, between OPKs, medications and temping...after O you are hopeful that you caught the egg and right when you think theres a chance fucking AF comes back...ugh...this has been my life for the last 15 months...goodness...the TTC life, what a biotch

 

[BamBamsMaMa]

Joanna - Thanks for sharing your story. I am sorry you have such bad news but I hope all is well after your MRI and CT scan.

Lisa - I feel the same as you. I am so down it hasn't happened yet and I feel like its never going to happen for me. Hugs!

 

[armymama2012]

Joanna-Wow, I'm sorry you are going through that. I'm still confused how you could not feel a cyst that size. I had a ruptured cyst 3 weeks ago and I felt horrible. They didn't tell me the size of mine though. I will be praying for you. Please keep us updated.

Krystina- I hope you are pregnant. Just try and relax!

AFM- My temp is still going up!

 

[Hayaddie]

Oh Joanna, I knew something was up when I saw your FB status. But I'm soooo glad you have finally gotten some answers and are no longer just sitting there wondering what the deal is! Praying that they get everything figured out and more babies are to come once they get your tubes cleared!

 

[snowflakes120]

So to make my day worse. I was just told I have a $3,500 bill coming to me for the ultrasounds & blood work & office visits from the hospital since I started going there on 7/23. I am sure my TTC journey is over now.