Any SMEPers!!!! 43 Testers! 22 BFP!!!!

[snowflakes120]

Congrats to you Stacer!! Such great news!! Happy & healthy 9 months to you!!

May - can't wait to hear the RE has planned for you! You better update after your appt.

Sunny- fx for the right follies to catch up!!

Brandy - hope your injections are going good for you - ER right around the corner.

Tasha - hope PG is treating you well!! Have you started the nursery yet?

Gemma - so excited for a little girl for you!! Any names picked out??

AFM, things are going great. Adjusting well to parenthood and I absolutely love being mommy!! He's already getting so big and time is already flying by!

 

[stacergirl]

May-I know this is a difficult time, no one ever wants to have to see an RE. It should be natural to get preg. But I'm just hoping everything works out and this is just what you need to get that BFP. Once you get that BFP you won't care what you did to get it, just that you got it. Please keep us posted!

Sunny-are you talking to that right ovary? We need her to get in the game!! Praying that some follicles grow on the right side! Sorry that you're dealing with the struggles of only one tube! Hope the SA comes back good! Fx for you!!

Snow-you're baby is adorable! Glad you're enjoying motherhood. Do you pronounce his name kell Ann? I love the name but wasn't sure if I was pronouncing it right!

Brandy-can't believe you got so many follicles. That's great. Your ER is so close!

Bride-how are you?

Manda-how are you?

Tasha-how are you doing? Due date is getting closer and closer!!

Thanks sooo much ladies for the congrats!! Means so much! Going in tomorrow for beta test and prating its high. I tested again today and got a BFP right away! I'm still I'm shock!!

 

[MandaAnda]

I'm ok, thanks. Saw a chiropractor yesterday for the SPD/PGP stuff I've got going on, which seemed to help; and I'm hoping it'll help more. Other than that, I'm really enjoying everything. We're having a repeat anomaly scan tomorrow, as they couldn't get the right view to measure his heart, although they didn't feel there was a problem.

Can't wait to see more BFPs in here - and we will! xx

 

[Tasha S.]

Stacer: How did your beta test go?!

Emily: I'm glad to hear that you're enjoying motherhood! No, I haven't started the nursery yet! I'm just finishing up two summer classes, so I'm essay-writing for now!

Manda: Ouch! I hope you find some relief for that pelvis!

Sunny: Any updates hun?!

Gemma: How are you doing?!

May: Two more days until your visit to the RE! Thinking of you! xox

Brandy: 34 follies?!?! That's TONS, no?!

AFM: I'm looking forward to finishing these classes and getting the nursery done, I think leaving it until this late is making me a little anxious! I'm having very regular practice contractions or Braxton Hicks (i.e. some days every 5-10 minutes), so my dr is already monitoring whether or not I'm dilated (thankfully I'm not!). I'm a tad nervous that I'll go into pre-mature labour and have nothing ready yet for when baby arrives!

 

[BamBamsMaMa]

Thanks for all the support girls! My RE appt is indeed in 2 days. A little excited, a little nervous... but after trying for 17 months, it's time.

For those who has seen a RE before, what is the first appointment like? Will they already do blood work, ultrasounds, etc. already? DH won't be able to go with me due to work, will that be a problem?

Wish I really can do this naturally. So many of my friends are pregnant and I feel so left out. I feel like our lives evolve around TTC and this sucks!

 

[stacergirl]

May-Good luck at your appointment. I think I finally saw my RE at 16 months. At my first appointment, they ordered a bunch of blood work (which they did on site) and did a vaginal ultrasound as well-that's when he determined I had endometriosis. They will also order DH a Sperm Analysis as well. They will take your thorough history, and your DHs history as well. The doctor will talk to you about your previous steps you've taken, etc. Most likely he wont have a diagnosis for you at this time but may have some ideas of what could be causing the problem. Then at your next appointment they will most likely tell you what the results revealed and what they suggest you do about it. I recommend DH going to that next one for sure (if possible-my DH went to the first but not the 2nd and it was fine). If you had tests done else where such as an HCG, I would get the results sent to your doctor. I hope you get some good news!!!

Tasha-hope you can get working on that nursery soon. School doesn't sound fun, I don't envy you at all! But at least you're getting it done. Any ideas on what you are dong to the nursery?

Manda-glad things are going well, hopefully you'll get some relief soon. that's got to be rough.

My Beta went great today, it was 350!! The nurse said that was a great solid number, so I'm excited. Going back again on Wednesday to ensure it doubles.
I took a picture of my dog in the backyard with a chalkboard hanging around her neck that said "Mom and Dad are promoting me to Big sister March 2014" and sent it to my parents. they were excited!! We also told 2 friends (whom are married) since they knew we were in the IVF process as well. holding off on telling everyone else for a while though. This is so surreal! I'm so excited!!

 

[Tasha S.]

May: Popping on here super fast to wish you the best of luck tomorrow!! I'm thinking of you and hope that you find what you're looking for in an RE. Please let us know how it goes! xoxo

Stacer: Let us know how your beta test goes too!

 

[Sunny skies]

May, just want to add that the first month with the Re I did an investigative cycle, where they monitored a natural cycle, I also did my hsg that cycle, but You've done one so they likely won't have you repeat it. I had a review after my first cycle to come up with a plan/ options. Not sure if its the same in US. Good luck.

AFM, I ovulated yesterday. Tomorrow I go in to confirm this but I had 3 follies on my left. Doctor's still say my right tube can pick up an egg from the left ovary, so there's still a chance. Unfortunately DH SA results are a little worse than last time... So upsetting as he's been taking all his supplements. I'm really getting tired of all this, we were thinking of iui but now I feel maybe I should just wait save up some money and go for IVF.
Sorry about the rant.

 

[stacergirl]

Good luck may!

Sunny-you're free to rant whenever you want!! Definitely talk to your doctor and see what they say regarding whether IUi or ivf is best! I'm thinking ivf will probably save you a lot of time but if your doctor is hopeful with IUi you could try one round of that? Sorry about the SA results. My doc said they can vary so much though so I wouldn't get too upset about that. Definitely thinking of you and hoping your ultrasound goes well!

 

[Jessica28]

thinking of you today, May. xo

 

[BamBamsMaMa]

Ok girls, this is going to be a looooooong post. I had my first RE appointment this past Weds (2 days ago) and I am overwhelmed by the information I got. I am so upset and confused. I really need to release some of my anger and emotions via words. Hope you don't mind.

Here's how the appointment went. The doctor and staff was great. He sat down with me to review the results of all the previous testing (blood, ultrasound, HSG) I have done with my gynecologist. All of my results were normal. I showed him the results of my husband's semen analysis done almost a year ago, and although the count and morphology is lower than normal, he said it wasn't too bad and I should still be able to get pregnant with those numbers. But because we have been TTC for 17 months with no luck, he seems to think the the problem lies solely with my husband, not me. He said that chances are, the sperms are either not reaching the egg or they might not be able to penetrate the egg. So his suggestion for us is IVF with ICSI. I asked him about doing IUI instead and he said the chances of a successful IUI is not good - we are only bringing the sperms closer to the egg but they will still have to reach and penetrate the egg on their own, something they couldn't do for the last 17 months. I am devastated. I don't want to go the IVF route. I am frightened at the thought of it.

So I reviewed my medical insurance coverage with him and told him that the insurance company will only cover IVF after 3 failed IUI attempts. So it looks like we will HAVE to do the IUI anyway. Then I told my Dr. that my cycle is irregular (ranging from 32-47 days at times). He told me that it is good I told him that because now he feels more confident that we will have a fighting chance with IUI. He said that due to my irregular cycle, the hormones produced might not be at the right amount it needs to be, which can prevent fertilization of the egg or implantation. He said if he can help me regulate my cycle and hormones, we might have a better chance at IUI being successful. That gives me slight hope.

I asked the Dr. whether or not it is necessary for me to go through the hormone injections if I already ovulate on my own each month. I told him I want to do this as natural and as non-invasive as possible. He said that we can do a cycle where he'll just monitor my follicles, and when he thinks it's time, he will give me one trigger shot so that we can time the IUI. He did say that doing the hormone injections will possibly give me more follicles/eggs to up my chances. So I don't know what to do. I am not good with needles and the thought of doing all those shots on my own really scares me. But I don't want to waste any time either. If we do this, I want it done right. My husband wants me to do it with the hormone injections. I am still undecided. What would you do? Do the first IUI without? Or start with all the injections?

Because my husband couldn't go with me, the Dr. wants my husband to come in for blood work and a new SA. Before I left, they also took my blood and urine for baseline testing. He said he is going to prescribe me Ovidrel in preparation of IUI. The problem is I have one of those horrible insurances that requires pre-authorization for everything. So now I am worried that will delay my treatment. I am supposed to go back around CD 2-4 for an ultrasound and more blood work.

I walked out of the RE's office feeling so defeated. I am happy we are being proactive and seeking help. At the same time, having a baby shouldn't be this hard. People do it everyday naturally without a problem. Why me? I started feeling a bit resentful towards my husband as well. I know I shouldn't and I feel bad that I do. But I am so angry that the reason why I have endure all of this is because of him. Because of his bad sperm. He is the cause of my heartache each month. He is devastated and is also upset at himself, but at the end of the day, I am the one who has to deal with the problem. Men really have it easy.

I really started to doubt whether or not I should proceed with treatment and whether I want a baby that bad. I had a heart to heart with my husband. He said on a scale of 1-10 (with 10 being the most), his yearn for a baby is at a 9. That surprised me. All this time he told me it's OK if we don't ever get pregnant - that we will still be happy with no kids. I didn't know he wanted it that bad. I told him that mine used to be a 9 as well, but after going through all of our troubles with TTC, it has now decreased to a 6-7. I asked him if I decided not to go through with the treatment, will he regret it 10 years down the line. He said he doesn't know.

So I laid all my feelings out on the table for him. For once, I really told him how I feel. I didn't want to spare his feelings any longer because I am hurt. I wanted him to put himself in my shoes for once and know what I am going through. Even though infertility is a couple's battle, the women are always the one who has to compromise their body and emotions more than men. It is just not fair. I wanted him to know that I love him and that there's nothing I want more than to have a baby that is his and mine. I just have these resentful feelings inside of me.

I tell him the reason why I have to go through fertility treatments, and to be poked and probed a million times, is all because of him. He is the reason why I have to go through this. I am just angry. I don't hate him. I don't blame him, he didn't do it intentionally. But I hate the idea that there's nothing wrong with me but I have to go through all of this. I hate myself for feeling this way but I can't help it.

For the past month, I have been eating cleaner and trying to get healthier. Doing whatever I can to make it happen for us. I expected my husband to join me because if having a baby is so important to him, why wouldn't he try to get healthier too right? Well, he has given me nothing but grief about how I am trying to deprive him of snacks and fatty foods, how I am trying to starve him. I just blew up the other night and told him if he want to be overweight and die of a heart attack, by all means, stop all the healthy stuff I am trying to have him do. BTW, I don't starve him or deprive him. Men are babies. I am on a reset diet where I drink lots of veggie and fruit smoothies as meal replacements and then we have healthy meals like stir-fry with brown rice, egg white omelets, salads, etc. His idea of me starving him is not letting him drink soda, eat hamburgers or have Doritos. I swear this is the healthiest he has ever been because of all the fruits and vegetables he's consuming. So he bitches about that. To top it off, I usually get up at 7:30am to get ready for work. Because I wanted to make sure he brings his smoothies and snacks to work each day, I have to now get up at 6:30am to pack his cooler for him. The night before, I spend an hour each day to make the damn smoothies for him and I. I am basically serving him on my hands and knees on a silver platter. And he's ungrateful and gives me a hard time. Am I right to be upset?

Then there's the whole thing of me putting him on Fertilaid and other supplements to improve his sperm count. I literally spend $100 each month on our supplements, along with more money being spent on OPKs, pregnancy tests, doctor's visit copays, etc. I also buy all of the fruits, vegetables, protein powder, ingredients to make the smoothies. All of which I don't ask him for money and it gets quite expensive. So I feel like TTC has been very one sided for us. Seems like I am doing all of the work, spending all my money and that I want it more than him but I don't. He wants it more but he isn't doing his share at all to help me. I told him he is selfish and never once did he put himself in my shoes. He's only there for me to cry on each month when we fail. He's there for me emotionally but no more than that. All he needs to do each month is have sex with me, which I am sure he's not complaining about, and take his vitamins every day. I just won't do this alone anymore. I told him that I already feel like a single mother, and that if I have to do all the work by myself after we have a baby too, I would rather choose not to have one. Truth be told, I know he will be a great dad and I feel bad being so hard on him now. But do you blame me?

So I told him he has to get his act together. Told him if he is not willing to participate, tell me now so that I don't have to put myself through the extensive treatments. I told him I want to know that my efforts and hard work is going to be worth it at the end because he will be there for me. He said he didn't know he was doing all of those things I said and that he promised me he will be more available for me. He said he will start packing up his cooler every morning and that he will start contribute to the expense of TTC, getting healthier, etc. So we'll see about that.

Now, I am emailing my Dr. with a long list of questions to ask him the details of our first IUI. I am a nervous wreck. I have a type A personality and I need to know what's ahead of me so that i don't stress out. I never thought it will be this hard. Thanks for listening.

 

[Sunny skies]

May, my heart goes out to you. It can be so overwhelming and I agree us women have to brunt the most of it and then also be sensitive to their feelings as well. It can be exhausting. As you may have seen in my post earlier this week my DH's SA is worse therefore they are recommending IVF with icsi. I know I only have one tube but I've been responding really well to meds and have had 2-4 follicles each cycle and still nothing. It's hard not to feel upset when your doing all you can do and feel your climbing the mountain alone.

In regards to iui you can definitely do it naturally or with only some meds. if you ovulate on your own they may still do a triggor for timing. The injectibles do give you a higher chance but it may not be necessary. I've released 4 follicles just on femara with no triggor, so this might be an option for you.

I'm sorry you are going through all this. Only you can decide what's right for you. My DH is struggling with the results and not sure if we are ready for IVF either. I have no insurance but some things are covered through health care. IVF would be around 7500 plus the cost of meds. Are the 3 iui's fully covered through your insurance? Who knows maybe the iui will work and you won't need IVF. Doctor's aren't always right. thinking of you.

 

[Tasha S.]

Dearest May! I can only imagine what you must be feeling right now! I think you're really brave for communicating how you're feeling with your husband and it sounds like it will turn out for the better. I really hope it will! I think you sound very rational and your reasons for being upset seem legit, and that putting it all out on the table was a wise thing to do. I'm cheering you on with whatever you decide! You're on my thoughts and in my prayers! xox

Stacer: Any news on your beta test?

Sunny: You're in the TWW, right? I'm keeping everything crossed for you!!

 

[BamBamsMaMa]

May, my heart goes out to you. It can be so overwhelming and I agree us women have to brunt the most of it and then also be sensitive to their feelings as well. It can be exhausting. As you may have seen in my post earlier this week my DH's SA is worse therefore they are recommending IVF with icsi. I know I only have one tube but I've been responding really well to meds and have had 2-4 follicles each cycle and still nothing. It's hard not to feel upset when your doing all you can do and feel your climbing the mountain alone.

In regards to iui you can definitely do it naturally or with only some meds. if you ovulate on your own they may still do a triggor for timing. The injectibles do give you a higher chance but it may not be necessary. I've released 4 follicles just on femara with no triggor, so this might be an option for you.

I'm sorry you are going through all this. Only you can decide what's right for you. My DH is struggling with the results and not sure if we are ready for IVF either. I have no insurance but some things are covered through health care. IVF would be around 7500 plus the cost of meds. Are the 3 iui's fully covered through your insurance? Who knows maybe the iui will work and you won't need IVF. Doctor's aren't always right. thinking of you.

You're right, Sunny. Doctor's aren't always right and it does only take one good sperm to make it happen. I was watching this girl on Youtube struggle with infertility, and all this time, it was because of her husband. The doctor told them IUI is not a good option and they conceived on their 2nd IUI and is pregnant with quads!!! She obviously did hormone injections.

My doctor emailed me back and said he will do one natural IUI for me starting my next cycle. He wanted to see if I will naturally produce a large follicle. He said if I do, the chances of doing it with hormone injections aren't too different. He did say that we only have a 15-20% chance of it being successful with IUI though so that's a bit disappointing. He also said that initially, he wanted to do it with hormone injections to get more follicles but I was against it. But now I asked him if he thinks I'll be wasting my time because if so, then let's just do it right the first time with hormones.

I don't think our men really knows how this takes a toll on us physically and mentally. Even though they are going through the same thing we are, they just won't ever know how we feel. Like your DH, mine is also pretty devastated at the news that it's him causing us the issues. But he wants it bad enough to go through the treatment. Problem is it's not him that's going to through it, it's me. I am hesitant. The only good thing is that our insurance does cover unlimited IUI and 3 cycles of IVF only after 3 failed IUIs. My expenses are copays to the doctor each time I go and copay for medications.

I wish you the best of luck, cause God knows, we need it!

 

[BamBamsMaMa]

Dearest May! I can only imagine what you must be feeling right now! I think you're really brave for communicating how you're feeling with your husband and it sounds like it will turn out for the better. I really hope it will! I think you sound very rational and your reasons for being upset seem legit, and that putting it all out on the table was a wise thing to do. I'm cheering you on with whatever you decide! You're on my thoughts and in my prayers! xox

Stacer: Any news on your beta test?

Sunny: You're in the TWW, right? I'm keeping everything crossed for you!!

Thanks, Tasha. I just couldn't hold it in anymore. All this time I knew he was one of the reasons why we are not getting pregnant but having a doctor tell you is more like reality slapped you in the face. I was just so upset that our problem has nothing to do with me. I wish that it's me that had the problem, at least then I can justify having to go through the fertility treatments. With that said, I don't want to give up because I will regret not going ahead with the treatments looking back later on. I just never imagined it to be such a long journey. Silly me, thinking that I can get pregnant when I want to get pregnant. I look at pregnant woman everyday and I say to myself, why me?

 

[Tasha S.]

May, I totally agree with what you said to Sunny: that men just don't go through it the same way as we women do. Going through the m/c last year and the following months of TTC was so tough for me, I always felt like my hubby just wasn't getting it!! After a few months of unsuccessful TTC and then seeing my SIL and my sister get pregnant in the meantime and all the ensuing baby-talk made me so depressed, I was actually considering stopping TTC, going back on the pill, and throwing myself headlong into my university studies. I remember talking to my DH about it and he said something like: "If you do want a baby, why go back on the pill? Why just not do your studies for now and forget about TTC and if it happens it happens, if it doesn't, it doesn't." I wanted to slap him so hard. When your heart is hurting, it just doesn't work like that. You either want the door wide open, or you want to shut it so that you can TOTALLY forget about it. He wasn't too happy about me getting the Fertilitea either (even if it was only 15$ lol) initially. If I remember correctly, we fought about it and I bawled my eyes out! Finally he gave in because I think he was tired of dealing with my tears! I just couldn't imagine going through that and knowing it was him who was the problem, and him remaining so calm/passive about it. We are so here for you girl!!!!

 

[BamBamsMaMa]

May, I totally agree with what you said to Sunny: that men just don't go through it the same way as we women do. Going through the m/c last year and the following months of TTC was so tough for me, I always felt like my hubby just wasn't getting it!! After a few months of unsuccessful TTC and then seeing my SIL and my sister get pregnant in the meantime and all the ensuing baby-talk made me so depressed, I was actually considering stopping TTC, going back on the pill, and throwing myself headlong into my university studies. I remember talking to my DH about it and he said something like: "If you do want a baby, why go back on the pill? Why just not do your studies for now and forget about TTC and if it happens it happens, if it doesn't, it doesn't." I wanted to slap him so hard. When your heart is hurting, it just doesn't work like that. You either want the door wide open, or you want to shut it so that you can TOTALLY forget about it. He wasn't too happy about me getting the Fertilitea either (even if it was only 15$ lol) initially. If I remember correctly, we fought about it and I bawled my eyes out! Finally he gave in because I think he was tired of dealing with my tears! I just couldn't imagine going through that and knowing it was him who was the problem, and him remaining so calm/passive about it. We are so here for you girl!!!!

Thanks, Tasha. That's exactly it. The men makes it seem so simple. Black or white. My husband always tells me that I stress to0 much and that is why it is not happening for us. Sure, stress is what's making us infertile. Uh huh. They just don't get it. At times, I really just want to throw in the towel and say, I am done! I don't want to do this anymore.

On another note, I emailed my doctor again. He must think I am a pain in the ass. I wanted to know even though I wanted a natural cycle of IUI for our first attempt, I asked if he thinks it's a good idea or if we should go head on with all hormone injections. He replied that we have the best chance with hormones and that we should go with that. I am glad he's putting his foot down. I sometimes really need an authoritive figure to tell me what needs to be done, and not take it easy on me. So next cycle, we are looking at IUI with injectables. I am so scared!

 

[Tasha S.]

May: HAHA!! I'm sure your dr doesn't think that!! He deals with hurting women all the time! I'm happy you're doing the injections! Was it Stacer who was happily surprised that the injections didn't hurt like she thought they would?! I say you go girl!

 

[BamBamsMaMa]

May: HAHA!! I'm sure your dr doesn't think that!! He deals with hurting women all the time! I'm happy you're doing the injections! Was it Stacer who was happily surprised that the injections didn't hurt like she thought they would?! I say you go girl!

I am sure I am a bigger wuss than Stacer. To top this off, I have to find ways to let my job know that I will be out a few days next month. I don't want everyone in my office to know my business but I don't want to jeopardize my job either. This is going to be tough.

So my Dr. tells me that if we do a natural IUI, the odds are 15% with us. If we do it with injectables, it's 20%. Either way, the odds are not good. I feel like we are losing the battle before we have even begun. But I am relieved we're not going straight to IVF before that really scares the crap out of me.

 

[stacergirl]

HI Ladies!!
May-I was eager to hear how your appointment went but was hoping for a little bit better of an outcome for you. I'm sorry you have to go through this. It SOOOO isn't fair. Trust me I know. Im fortunate enough to be pregnant now but know that this might be my only pregnancy ever so while my friends are going through their 2nd babies, I won't be able to...yet theres people out there with 6-8 kids. Its ridiculous. So I hear ya. The fertility world is NOT fair one bit.
Honestly, you got to remember that whatever you choose to do is your decision, not your doctors. And if you want to do IUI but you aren't ready to do it right now, then I would wait. A couple months wont hurt anything and maybe you'll be in a better place then. Getting news about infertility is definitely hard, no matter whos to blame. You have every reason to feel the way that you do right now. I think we have all been in your shoes at least once before. And you're right, men don't get it. My DH was gone the entire 2 weeks I was doing IVF injections and just showed up for the retrieval then went back to work after we got home thay day, then showed up for the transfer and went back to work after that. It wasn't hard but the fact is that I did it on my own period, even though I'm the one who was getting the treatment as well. Unfortunately I was the one to blame for our infertility issues (endometriosis and low ovarian reserve). Trust me when I tell you that I was pretty much down in the dumps for about a month after I found out it was my fault. DH didn't have to say anything mean because I was already being so hard on myself. I'm sure your DH feels horrible. I think it is good that you opened up to him, but I wouldn't blame him....its not his fault that he has a sperm issue, however the fact that he isn't trying to do anything about it is what would upset me the most. However....are they doing another sperm analysis on him? My DH first analysis came back with morphology and motility issues, but his second came back fine. Especially if his was a year ago, I would request a second analysis. Maybe it will come back better because he has been on all of that fertilaid and has been eating healthier? You never know. But I think that if you want to go the unmedicated way, why not try that first??? Sure your chances aren't as good, but even with IVF theres only a 40% chance that will even work. And when trying on your own there is only a 25% chance that will work. So of course nothing is guaranteed. So you just have to go with your gut. Plus going unmedicated once might give you time to take in all of the information and give you the push you need to begin medicated treatment if the first one is unsuccessful... just a thought.
Honestly, the injections aren't that bad at all, you kind of just do them without even thinking about it. Looking back now I can't believe I even did all of them myself! I kept telling myself everyday for about a month until I had to start that I could do it. I mean if diabetic people have to inject themselves, why shouldn't I be able to. Honestly, the needle is so tiny you don't even feel it penetrate your skin, its only about an inch long too, but I would ALWAYS ice just for peace of mind, then taking it out you don't feel it either. a little blood would come out sometimes but only like a dot, which of course you wipe with alcohol and put pressure on it and it stops in a little bit. But you really have to be dedicated to do injections, they have to be done during the same time frame each and every day and even twice a day sometimes. I did injections 2times a day for 9 days then 3 times a day for about 4 more days. Most women who respond don't have to do injections for that long, but due to my low AMH levels I had to stim for longer because I was a slow responder. And yes, you will need a lot of time off work. I too didn't tell ANY
ONE at work. Still to this day only 6 people know we did IVF (and only 6 know we got pregnant period). I totally know how you feel. But most of the time my appointments were at 730, 745 or 8am so I was able to go to them and then go straight into work so my boss didn't even suspect anything. I was at the doctors office every since day for an entire week (Monday-Friday) as we got closer to the egg retrieval. Trust me when I say this, but if you would've asked me 6 months ago if I would've done IVF, the answer would've been NO way! I was scared too. But it wasn't bad at all. the emotional stress is the worst part, but that is why you have to take one day at a time, don't look a head to much on the process because you'll just freak yourself out. The fact that we only got 6 eggs bothere me on ER day but I tried to stay positive and told myself, at least we got 6. The fact that only 3 fertilized bothered me, because we ony have 3 to work with, but hey, I tried to stay positive. Then the fact that we weren't able to freeze any embryos bothered me, and it still does because like I said this could be my only pregnancy if I don't have any eggs after this one is over to get pregnant again), but i'm staying positive and being thankful for the 1 or 2 embryos that are continuing to grow inside of me!! Because if theres 2, that would be awesome, but if there is only one, that one will be spoiled rotten and loved so much.

So in summary, its your choice. Give it some thought, if you aren't ready for medicated then don't do it just yet. Take all the time you need to think about this so you don't regret your decision. We're here for you and you can rant as much as you want. Keep us posted with what you decide.


Hi Tasha! How are you? hows school and the nursery coming? the 2nd beta was great, 957, so they are very positive about this. I go in for my ultrasound on July 19th to see the baby(ies) and hear their heart beat hopefully!!! I am so excited. less than 2 weeks away! I think that will really make me feel like this is real because I don't really feel pregnant yet, just a few side effects here and there but nothing absolutely out of the norm. I'm praying I don't get morning sickness as that will be hard to hide at work when the bathroom is always full evertyime I have to go...

Sunny-how are you doing hun?

Krystina-thinking of you, wondering if you got pregnant and forgot to come back and tell us!!