anyone feel like giving up?!

[ineedaseed]

i am fed up of it..... it seems like a never ending story

every month/cycle is the same. i have five days of agony from my period, then a few days of "trying", 2 weeks of waiting and then back round we go again! like fecking ground hog day over and over.

i have had enough. i am dreading my fs appt next week am so scared she will close my case or do naff all.

i have stopped taking my metformin as it made me too poorly other than that i am still in the same position i was in 4 years ago....how depressing

am tired of it and just want my baby

 

[maaybe2010]

Yeah, I really wish I could turn off my longing for a baby.
It sounds awful but I would do it in a heartbeat, to much pain comes with LTTTC

 

[RayeAnne]

I'm sorry you feel so fed up.

I think we all do at some point, and the ONLY reason we keep on going is because we know what we are working toward. It's one of FEW things in life that we cant control. And thats hard.

Im pushing 1 1/2 years and on my 3rd round of Clomid, and even I feel like giving up. Last month, after taking the pills, the ultrasound shows I didnt even ovulate. I was so angry at first, I couldnt even go back to work. But then, It felt REALLY good to not worry about it for a month. It was some much needed weeks off from it all.

I wish you the best, stay strong and hang in there! You are stronger than you think, and unfortunately, you will probably find out just how strong you are through this whole process.

 

[sma1588]

it seems we keep running into eachother in some threads but i know exactly how you feel. ith the stress off ttc,the metformin,not O-ing all that good stuff thats not so good i know it sux and there are days i just cry to OH and think if i wasnt with him i wouldnt have this problem of ttc, but i love him and this is what we want because of my condition as well. i know its hard but keep ure head held high and lets just look at the outcome will be of what we work so hard for. it will pay off in the end

 

[Chris77]

Yeppers peppers.

Sometimes I really think to myself, "Well maybe a life without children won't be so bad. We'll be able to travel and we can buy dogs and spoil them rotten and our time will be all our own. We can spoil each other rotten at Christmas."

But in the end, I still keep trying because I know that I will never feel fully whole or complete unless there's children in my life. And in the end, I keep trying because I would GLADLY without a moment's thought or hesitation, give up any and all travel, free time and wonderful things at Christmas, if it would only mean I'd have children in my arms to love and give them everything within my means to do so.

I really do know how you're feeling hunni. I ask myself all the time, "Is all this worth it? Is all these IUI's and then spending thousands of dollars on IVF and be in debt again just as we're getting out if it, really worth it?" One thing about LTTTC is that it gives you soooooo much time to think and re-think and overthink things. You can almost talk yourself out of it! And yet there's that certain something inside of you that just keeps you from giving up....what's that saying....the goal is greater than your struggle?

Hang in there babes and I'm here if you ever want to talk.

 

[hopefulchick]

You took the words right out of my mouth. Found out today that we failed our second round of Clomid. I am gutted. Sorry I can't be of encouragement right now. I am just so lost. I really do feel the same way you do

 

[hopesforababy]

I am definitely down in the dumps with this whole LTTTC crap right now. I've been here so many times, but I always get my hopes up, only to be shattered again. All the decisions that need to be made are so hard, and then I always end up asking myself the "what if" questions. I have no control, which is hard enough, but then I always end up taking the blame for it, like I should have done something differently. I can only hope that I'm somehow able to make it through this low and that all of you are also able to make it through. I hate all the "sayings" and "advice" that we are given during these hard times, but at some point I have to believe in my heart that this will help me to become a better parent and that my child is just waiting for their perfect timing.

Wishing you ladies all the best.......

 

[sma1588]

Yeppers peppers.

Sometimes I really think to myself, "Well maybe a life without children won't be so bad. We'll be able to travel and we can buy dogs and spoil them rotten and our time will be all our own. We can spoil each other rotten at Christmas."

But in the end, I still keep trying because I know that I will never feel fully whole or complete unless there's children in my life. And in the end, I keep trying because I would GLADLY without a moment's thought or hesitation, give up any and all travel, free time and wonderful things at Christmas, if it would only mean I'd have children in my arms to love and give them everything within my means to do so.

I really do know how you're feeling hunni. I ask myself all the time, "Is all this worth it? Is all these IUI's and then spending thousands of dollars on IVF and be in debt again just as we're getting out if it, really worth it?" One thing about LTTTC is that it gives you soooooo much time to think and re-think and overthink things. You can almost talk yourself out of it! And yet there's that certain something inside of you that just keeps you from giving up....what's that saying....the goal is greater than your struggle?

Hang in there babes and I'm here if you ever want to talk.

i also would give everything up just to have that. also u said it exactly,ltttc does give us plenty of time to think but i dony like that beacuse it makes me think negative and really wanting to give up.... buuuuuuuut then again it will just make it more special when we have LO in our arms and will know how much they were wanted.

 

[ineedaseed]

Thanks ladies. It's horrid as we don't have any control and all the thinking time just makes things worse. If I knew I would fall pregnant in 3 years time I would feel content but it's the not knowing, the not knowing if it will ever happen for us. Xxx

 

[Whitbit22]

Was just going to make a post on this.. I am so sick of reading whines from people ttc 4 months or less that they can't go on. I am so sick of seeing bfp announcements that say Finally!! After 6 months we did it!

I mean really.. 3 years is starting to weigh on me badly. I cant imagine any more than that.

 

[dan-o]

anyone feel like giving up?!

Yes I do feel like that sometimes, but I know I could never really give up trying until it becomes too late.

 

[Mrs LB]

Do i ever feel like this - I'm due to go for lap & dye next month and really gave it everything last month - where did it get us - nowhere - again! This is now 15 months and I wish I could stop thinking about it all the time - building my hopes up to be knocked down again & again - poor DH is so good listening to my whailings but I really don't know how much more we can both take

 

[MrsF]

you've all echoed my thoughts ladies x x x

i've reached an all new low these past few weeks, have been struggling to get out of bed, eat, shower, leave the house, it's just consumed me completely.

i wonder if these feelings are the start of the road to dealing with not having children in mine & DH's lives I too feel the same that if i knew in X amount of months, years, whenever, that we will have a baby, then all of this would lift in an instant...

i agree with the control element too - i know some people (not here, in general) have a "well, if you can't control it, why worry" kind of attitude, and normally i do if i'm stuck in a traffic jam, or something mundane like that, but i just can't accept this.

it sucks. i truely can't think of another word that sums it up. Apart from unbearable.

i hope, with all my being, that we ladies get our much longed for BFP, i really do ladies x x x x x

 

[Bravemom]

Thanks ladies. It's horrid as we don't have any control and all the thinking time just makes things worse. If I knew I would fall pregnant in 3 years time I would feel content but it's the not knowing, the not knowing if it will ever happen for us. Xxx

Just found this thread and am so pleased to see your pregnant

 

[ineedaseed]

wow, this is an old thread!! but yayyyyy i finally got there
never give up ladies xxxx