AT LAST!!!!!!! Or maybe not.

[NellyVille]

Hi ladies. Haven't visited in sooooo long I doubt anybody even remembers me. Today I had a sort of "event" and just needed to share with someone that would understand. My friends are fantastic but none of them get it like you ladies will.

Mr Nellyville & I have been trying for 2 1/2 years. We've had all the testing available to us and there is nothing "wrong" with either of us that they can find. My cycles are generally around the 30 day mark, sometimes 1 or 2 days over, sometimes 1 or 2 days less. On Saturday I had the usual belly ache and figured would arrive by Sunday afternoon. She didn't. All week I've been prepared to see her and still no sign, other than the tiniest amount of spotting yesterday so today (day 35) when I woke up and found she STILL hadn't reared her ugly head I allowed myself to get a little bit excited and did a test.

I glanced at it and I swear I saw 2 lines . My eyes instantly filled with tears, thinking that all the waiting had finally paid off, should I tell hubby now or wait till he got home, oh my god we were going to have a baby - every thought I could possibly have had on the subject flashed through my mind in a split second ................but then I looked again and there was only one line. I have never been so devastated in my life.
I held it up to the light, definitely only one. I tried turning it and looking at it from different angles but there was definitely only one line.

appeared with a vengeance this afternoon. But I saw 2 lines. I know I did.

 

[Pinkie 33]

Sending you lots of hugs. I'm sorry you were able to get your hopes up for it to end that way

 

[stayinhappy]

I know your disappointment only too well...I had pretty much the EXACT same experience this month...and when the witch showed...I cried and cried and cried. I wish you the best of luck for the next month! And its ok....we gotta take the good days with the bad...and today...well she is a bad day. Wishing you a much better tomorrow!!

 

[tamithomas]

Didn't want r&r, sending you many hugs

 

[NellyVille]

Thanks everyone, I'm hoping maybe I'm a closet psychic and seeing the 2 lines was a premonition. Feeling much more like my normal self today. Wishing everyone well on their ttc journeys xx

 

[LoveCakes]

Aww, so sorry for you, hope AF is over quick and you can start next cycle.

 

[HearMyPrayers]

I'm sorry I had a similar experience in June and I swear the high was sooooo high but the low was just hard and cruel! hang in there the bright side is that there is always next month to try again! Keep your chin up!

 

[Melbram]

Sorry to hear your you got a BFN!

I an currently on day 40 and waiting for the witch to arrive - OH and I have been ttc for little over 2.5 years now and had failed IVF in August. Last month the witch arrived on day 31 - I am a little irregular so anything between 30-36 days is normal for me but now we are on day 40 - I was spotting a few weeks ago and have had a little today but nothing else - tested with an OPK 2 days ago and it was a BFN - I have a clear blue digital on standby but really dont want to get my hopes up that the OPK was wrong - also had a headache every day for the last 8 days - argh! hate LTTC!