**August 2020 Lucky Testers: 49 Testers - 16 BFPs**

[Alligator]

@Alligator your frer does look darker to me. I don’t blame you for being nervous, it’s just the nature of this whole thing. Being nervous means you care. So send all the warm loving caring energy to whomever is trying to settle in

@Deethehippy oh honey that sounds awful!! I’ve had a couple AFs like that in the last 6 months and it’s totally crazy. Also I have had enormous luck with spirulina tablets, I have been pregnant and/or nursing for almost 9.5 years now (!!!) and I struggle to keep my iron up. But spirulina does the trick every time. It must be a super absorbable source of iron cause in pregnancy it’s always gotten my iron way up (confirmed by blood tests) and I can feel a huge difference in my energy levels when I take it in general. It’s a must-have for me now, and the tablets are so easy to take.

Thank you so much - what kind words! I really appreciate it. Doing my best to focus on work today (clearly it's not working since I'm on here lol) to distract me but it's tough, first day back after holidays and I'm a bit scattered.

 

[MrsKatie]

Oof @Deethehippy i forgot about the IBS. I have a sensitive stomach and the spirulina never upsets it so I hope it won’t bother you if you try it. Good luck this cycle

i want to try and take my mind off the tww, 1/2dpo is like the worst!

 

[Alligator]

Just been wasting time googling and seeing other positive lines at 11dpo and I feel super down! I could even be 12dpo which makes it that much more unlikely. Feeling a tad crampy today too and worried AF will be here in a few days. She’s due Saturday-Monday, depending. Feeling really out today despite those earlier tests. I took a clear blue and don’t see a single thing (3 hour hold mind you).

I know I most seem so insane and ridiculous going back and forth. So thankful to have this place to unload all my feelings. I feel like I’m insane lol

 

[doggylover]

Just been wasting time googling and seeing other positive lines at 11dpo and I feel super down! I could even be 12dpo which makes it that much more unlikely. Feeling a tad crampy today too and worried AF will be here in a few days. She’s due Saturday-Monday, depending. Feeling really out today despite those earlier tests. I took a clear blue and don’t see a single thing (3 hour hold mind you).

I know I most seem so insane and ridiculous going back and forth. So thankful to have this place to unload all my feelings. I feel like I’m insane lol

You are not insane at all! I think it’s actually pretty normal to be so worried about what is happening, especially when your tests haven’t been able to give you a clear answer. If tomorrow is 12/13dpo would you take a digi? Or just wait it out ?

We are all insane during the tww, let’s face it! Which makes it normal!

 

[Hevalouaddict]

Congratulations @amaibee!

afm AF has finished but my he had horrible cramps all day. I was so grateful to get to work and into the pool.

 

[Deethehippy]

Oof @Deethehippy i forgot about the IBS. I have a sensitive stomach and the spirulina never upsets it so I hope it won’t bother you if you try it. Good luck this cycle

i want to try and take my mind off the tww, 1/2dpo is like the worst!

Do you take it as capsules, tablets or as a powder/food supplement? Had a quick look and it seems to come in various forms.

 

[Alligator]

You are not insane at all! I think it’s actually pretty normal to be so worried about what is happening, especially when your tests haven’t been able to give you a clear answer. If tomorrow is 12/13dpo would you take a digi? Or just wait it out ?

We are all insane during the tww, let’s face it! Which makes it normal!

That’s true! I feel extra insane this time haha. I hate those faint lines.
I think if I don’t get a positive tomorrow (or I get another faint squinter) I’ll just wait until Friday or Saturday to test. I had a 15day lp last cycle (estimated since I wasn’t temping but based off OPKs). If it’s the same this month AF would be due Saturday, assuming I’m 11dpo today.

I can’t help but now have this feeling that I’m out. It’s either trying to protect myself and prepare for the worst or maybe just going back and forth again between being excited. In the back of my head I can’t get over those faint lines but I also feel like they should be a bit darker by now.

 

[Deethehippy]

Just been wasting time googling and seeing other positive lines at 11dpo and I feel super down! I could even be 12dpo which makes it that much more unlikely. Feeling a tad crampy today too and worried AF will be here in a few days. She’s due Saturday-Monday, depending. Feeling really out today despite those earlier tests. I took a clear blue and don’t see a single thing (3 hour hold mind you).

I know I most seem so insane and ridiculous going back and forth. So thankful to have this place to unload all my feelings. I feel like I’m insane lol

You're not insane at all, it's just so hard not knowing for sure what is going on. You should see some of the things I have googled in the past! Some women don't get a BFP until after AF was due and some pregnancies are slow in rising so there could still be a chance for you. I really hope that tomorrow brings you an answer..hang in there xx

 

[doggylover]

That’s true! I feel extra insane this time haha. I hate those faint lines.
I think if I don’t get a positive tomorrow (or I get another faint squinter) I’ll just wait until Friday or Saturday to test. I had a 15day lp last cycle (estimated since I wasn’t temping but based off OPKs). If it’s the same this month AF would be due Saturday, assuming I’m 11dpo today.

I can’t help but now have this feeling that I’m out. It’s either trying to protect myself and prepare for the worst or maybe just going back and forth again between being excited. In the back of my head I can’t get over those faint lines but I also feel like they should be a bit darker by now.

I always say it’s head vs heart in the tww. Your head is saying be sensible, be cautious and realistic. And your heart is doing the total opposite and leading you astray We all rationally know we shouldn’t get excited during the tww, but TTC, and pregnancy, don’t have any basis in rational thought. It’s too emotional! So we battle with ourselves until we’ve exhausted ourselves by swinging bc back and forth.

and that’s without the extra stress of the uncertain tests you’ve had.

 

[Bevziibubble]

@Alligator Not insane at all. It is difficult being in limbo

 

[MrsKatie]

@Alligator the feelings are just all over the place aren’t they. Hugs and good luck.

@Deethehippy i take capsules cause they’re so easy, but I’m a weirdo who can swallow like 25 vitamins at once with one swing of water.

 

[Mummafrog]

Alli - I have made myself utterly crazy before too and I'm sure I will again. It's so hard. I'm afraid I really have no faith in FRER's as they've broken my heart in the past with really convincing pink lines. Just want to be honest.
But I'm hoping so hard for you that this is it and you get that magical clear line tomorrow

I've decided even though I'm not bleeding yet I'm going to try 5 days of soy isoflavones to try and jump start an ovulation. First dose was today. Pray for me that this works because I'm going out of my mind waiting and I hate that I'm making my intended parents wait even though there are lots of other lovely surrogates ready to go. They say I'm the only one they want which is so sweet but the guilt of not being able to TTC is rubbish

 

[Alligator]

@Alligator Not insane at all. It is difficult being in limbo

Thank you! Big hugs

@Alligator the feelings are just all over the place aren’t they. Hugs and good luck.

@Deethehippy i take capsules cause they’re so easy, but I’m a weirdo who can swallow like 25 vitamins at once with one swing of water.

Oh yes all over the map in the tww! Thank you.

Alli - I have made myself utterly crazy before too and I'm sure I will again. It's so hard. I'm afraid I really have no faith in FRER's as they've broken my heart in the past with really convincing pink lines. Just want to be honest.
But I'm hoping so hard for you that this is it and you get that magical clear line tomorrow

I've decided even though I'm not bleeding yet I'm going to try 5 days of soy isoflavones to try and jump start an ovulation. First dose was today. Pray for me that this works because I'm going out of my mind waiting and I hate that I'm making my intended parents wait even though there are lots of other lovely surrogates ready to go. They say I'm the only one they want which is so sweet but the guilt of not being able to TTC is rubbish

I am wondering about the FRER. If we aren’t successful and af shows I’m not even going to buy any. I’ll stock up on cheapies but only use those until I get a line, I can’t afford it financially or emotionally hahah.

You're not insane at all, it's just so hard not knowing for sure what is going on. You should see some of the things I have googled in the past! Some women don't get a BFP until after AF was due and some pregnancies are slow in rising so there could still be a chance for you. I really hope that tomorrow brings you an answer..hang in there xx

Thanks so much! You’re right. Could be still in it but I find it better to center myself a bit and prepare for the worst case!

I always say it’s head vs heart in the tww. Your head is saying be sensible, be cautious and realistic. And your heart is doing the total opposite and leading you astray We all rationally know we shouldn’t get excited during the tww, but TTC, and pregnancy, don’t have any basis in rational thought. It’s too emotional! So we battle with ourselves until we’ve exhausted ourselves by swinging bc back and forth.

and that’s without the extra stress of the uncertain tests you’ve had.

gosh you’re so right! It’s head vs heart. And the uncertainty of the tests makes me mad. Crazy some women just get pregnant without all this stress and fuss lol!

Thank you all you’ve made me feel better! I have decided if we aren’t successful this cycle I’ll do EPO to increase my fertile Cm and perhaps use pressed (it worked for conceiving our daughter). It helps to have ideas and a plan for next cycle just in case. My temp is still way up which is good. And my resting heart rate is increasing slowly too. It usually drops around when AF starts

 

[aymz1983]

Hope everyone is doing ok today.

@Alligator fingers crossed you get a darker line soon ,I've read so may posts on here where lines didn't show properly on FRERs but they were definitely pregnant so you're not out yet

@Mummafrog I don't know what soy is supposed to do but here's hoping it does what you hope!

@Deethehippy sorry to hear you're having such a hard time with AF, I echo the sentiments of speaking to Dr if it's out of the ordinary for you. Hope you feel better with it soon

4dpo and I'm feeling fed up today. I didn't sleep brilliantly last night as my teenage daughter crawled into bed and woke me up due to a spider incident in her room . So I was awake for a while and just on and off generally. I've ended up feeling very tired this evening and have been all emotional with OH which is unusual I guess.. I tend not to get emotional for another week yet. Chalking it down to tiredness.

I dreamt last night that I was trying to take a pg test even though it was early. I was having to hide it from my mum, who saw what I was holding. I don't think I ever got to take it, mores the pity...could have been a premonition of the result lol.

Not taking any symptoms seriously as at this stage it is neither here nor there. My boobs do feel slightly more sore but not sore (if that makes sense) than usual though....they usually only do so a few days before AF and they have been like this since O.

Urg. Days are going so slowly! I have my Fitbit on and making sure I remember to check my rhr too....just in case...

 

[Deethehippy]

@Alligator the feelings are just all over the place aren’t they. Hugs and good luck.

@Deethehippy i take capsules cause they’re so easy, but I’m a weirdo who can swallow like 25 vitamins at once with one swing of water.

Heheh that made me laugh because I do the same with all my concoctions in the morning too! I'll be sure to consider the capsules then after I've researched them a bit..thank you again for the suggestion.

 

[Alligator]

Just over here staring at my tests
Thoughts?

 

[MrsKatie]

@Alligator i still say BFP and today’s looks darker. FX for progression tomorrow!

I am having thick sticky cm and mild cramping. 1 or 2 dpo so I know it’s meaningless. Wish I could just forget about it for the next 8 days until I’m home, I’m going to drive myself insane!

 

[Alligator]

@Alligator i still say BFP and today’s looks darker. FX for progression tomorrow!

I am having thick sticky cm and mild cramping. 1 or 2 dpo so I know it’s meaningless. Wish I could just forget about it for the next 8 days until I’m home, I’m going to drive myself insane!

I love love love your positivity. Thank you! I agree it looks darker, I'm glad it's not just me. Fx fx fx for testing tomorrow. If I get any progression I'll feel better about calling it! I hate those early days just after O when you start tuning in to every little symptom!

 

[KitteyKat2010]

So I went to wipe around lunchtime today, and noticed some "watery" clear cm and I had some cramping. I have about 10 HPT's lieing around, I might just take one in the AM and see what happens I'll only be about 10 DPO, considering I'm using the day I had "brown spotting" and cramping, as my ovulation day! I guess we will see.....

 

[Alligator]

So I went to wipe around lunchtime today, and noticed some "watery" clear cm and I had some cramping. I have about 10 HPT's lieing around, I might just take one in the AM and see what happens I'll only be about 10 DPO, considering I'm using the day I had "brown spotting" and cramping, as my ovulation day! I guess we will see.....

Good luck! Keep us posted is clear CM a sign of bfp? I've only ever had creamy with my daughter and my miscarriage! I suppose everyone is different and if it's unusual for you definitely worth looking into.