Might not be the best way hun, but at least your not alone with it now. I talk to El about my labour alot. There is still so much in my head, so much happened, and he doesn't mind talking about it but it freaks him out too as it was a trauma for us both.
Bumped into a different HV today, I left a message on my HV's phone and apparently she is really worried about me and has contacted SCBU on my behalf. So worried she doesn't even know Melody wasn't in SCBU so why she has contacted them I have no idea. Apparently I will hear about a debrief soon and she wants to see me. Somehow I have made her realise something is wrong, I didn't say anything different, I think I did sound a bit desperate and pathetic though! Still haven't made the Drs appointment but going to try again tomorrow.