Drazic<3
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Hey girls,
I'm not sure what I'm trying to say really. I had a horrible birth experience. Well, I didn't give birth to my girl really. As time goes on, I am not getting better at excepting it, but worse. I dream about it, think about it and relive it all the time. I used to be able to talk about it but now just the thought of it makes me want to run away. I can't forgive myself for it all going so wrong, but I should just be happy my sweet girl is here and fine which makes me feel all the more guilty.
I did ask for a de-brief but endless calls and chase-ups and nearly 7 months on I'm still being fobbed off. To be honest, I don't think I'm strong enough to do it now anyway.
Is this normal? Why can't I just accept I failed and move on with my beautiful family?
I'm not sure what I'm trying to say really. I had a horrible birth experience. Well, I didn't give birth to my girl really. As time goes on, I am not getting better at excepting it, but worse. I dream about it, think about it and relive it all the time. I used to be able to talk about it but now just the thought of it makes me want to run away. I can't forgive myself for it all going so wrong, but I should just be happy my sweet girl is here and fine which makes me feel all the more guilty.
I did ask for a de-brief but endless calls and chase-ups and nearly 7 months on I'm still being fobbed off. To be honest, I don't think I'm strong enough to do it now anyway.
Is this normal? Why can't I just accept I failed and move on with my beautiful family?