Breathe in....breathe out...breathe in..

[Braven05]

K just went to the doctor to talk about my crazy cycles since stopping BC. AF is here (kinda) and I'm thinking it may be all messed up is because of the pressure and stress I've been putting on myself to conceive. I think I need to chill out. Hopefully I will ovulate in a couple of weeks, try again and then chill until December when we can start trying properly again. Hopefully the time passed and the weight loss (I'm working on) will help little miss witch get regular again. Took blood work to test my hormones as well as thyroid, etc. Hopefully everything will come back normal but he told me to call him next week so we will see. Time to chilllll....maybe telling myself we're officially switched from TTC to NTNP will help take the pressure off. I just want it so bad, its so hard not to stress about it. Deep breath...okay.

 

[portablechick]

Hi Braven!
Good luck with the switching off! I've tried but always without success! BC leaves alot of girls with wacky cycles - myself included! Hopefully ur blood results will all come out fine and the peace of mind will allow to enjoy the fun side of ttc.
U can find loads of info on here to help with regulating cycles. Currently i'm using bit b complex and a herb called agnus castus - i just had ovulation confirmed this month!!

Good luck with everything

 

[lisaf]

I could never switch off and pretend we weren't trying unless we stopped having sex completely.
I did find acupuncture to be a HUGE help with my stress though. I was totally on the edge of losing it completely before that... and it helped me to manage my anxiety better.

 

[Braven05]

Well fortunately I don't really have a choice anyways. Between October and December I HAVE to because I cannot give birth in the middle of the summer. I am a Camp Director...the whole point of my job is to be there in the summer, lol. September is pushing it even...so I really do have to try not to BD around the fertile times...I'm not going to lose my job if it happens on accident, but I really shouldn't be trying

 

[lisaf]

AW I'd say screw them! Lol... as you said it can happen accidentally, what business is it of theirs if you were trying or not! I had reasons I should have waited... I didn't, STILL didn't get pregnant but at least I know I didn't 'miss' my chance. But I was totally crazy/anxious for it too and worried that I'd regret taking a break. Never really did so I can't say if I would have regretted it.

But then again... an excuse that was strong enough to keep me from going TTC crazy would have been kind of nice too.

 

[Braven05]

lol, yeah thats part of it too. I AM worried what my boss wil say even if it happens in June, but I'm not worrying about it too much, she can get over it...but I really am going to put forth a little effort at least until late November...not that I want to take a break...and is a little scary that if I take a break and those two months were the months it *might* have happened...but ah well. One more month...crossing my fingers it happens this month. And OMG....this is the AF from HELL. Cramps are TERRIBLE. Man.

 

[lisaf]

Its a cruel trick of nature to make the PMS hormones happen right when you face the disappointment of another failed cycle.

Hang in there, hope you are happy with whichever choice you make about NTNP etc.

Hey... the fact that I DIDNT skip any months and still didn't get my BFP on any of the months I 'should' have skipped might help reassure you that you're not going to 'miss' your chance

 

[Braven05]

lol, it is evil. Not cool at all. Sad about not being successful this month, happy that my cycle isn't so long anymore, and pissed that I'm in so much pain. Grrr....and thanks, that does help a little...but I'll never know either way lol Hoping my doctor has good things to say about my hormones when I call him next week and maybe in the meantime when I'm NTNP I'll lose some weight and that will help too!

 

[lisaf]

Best of luck! Hope you get your BFP either during or right after the break!

(and heck, lol.. you could wait until your EDD would be September, well after the summer programs.. then get put on bed rest, lol.. just no telling what will happen)

 

[Sweet_Alida]

So true! Nature has her own agenda and schedule for us all! Good Luck and keep breathing. If NTNP is what you need to do for your own personal reasons I say go for it, but it is hard to just not think about it! Every month you will still hope to see that second line no matter how hard you try to ignore the urge to POAS! Good Luck I hope you get your when it's right for you.

 

[Braven05]

Haha, you're definitely right, especially since I turned into a poas madwoman! ah well, we'll see what happens I guess! Thanks!

 

[AndreaFlorida]

I just bought me some cheapies I hope they work LOL...have you ever used Wondfro? I hope these work....

 

[lisaf]

I had great luck with the 10miu Wondfo brand!!!