YellowCrayon
My and my gorgeous fiance
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Hi all,
I hope you don't mind me jumping in without saying hello on other threads first, but I've been waiting so long to talk about this, I couldn't stop myself! So here goes...I'm 33, and I'm engaged to a wonderful man. We're getting married in November and I know he wants kids just as much as I do, so that's fantastic.
A while ago, I was having problems with the pill after nearly fifteen years of being on it (lots of breakthrough bleeding and feeling terrible) so I came off of it for six months. We didn't use any other contraception on a "if it happens, it happens" basis. But nothing did. Now, with the wedding so close, I've gone back on it. This is the first month, and I got my period on Saturday. It was extremely light and much more brown in colour than red, which led me to hope that it's implantation bleeding. There's nothing in my pants, just when I wipe. I've been feeling quite nauseous recently - even getting up in the night to throw up - and my period pains have been nothing like they normally are. No stomach cramps, and only cramping back pain that lasts for half an hour or so, then goes away. But my boobs feel and look fine, which people generally seem to be saying is the one thing that nearly all pregnancies have in common. So is it even worth spending the money on a pregnancy test given that I've JUST gone back on the pill, or am I just full of wishful thinking?
EDIT - Just did a test, which came back negative. Even squinting at it and holding it under other lights couldn't make it look even a bit positive. So I guess I'll start a new packet of the pill on Tuesday, and hold out till November when we can start trying. *sigh* Feeling a bit down now. Thanks so much for all your good wishes though... END OF EDIT
I'm so worried that we won't ever have kids. I want them so desperately, but I'm just so scared. My fiance was married to another woman for ten years before me, and even though they never used contraception, she didn't fall pregnant. Two years later after they split, she had a baby with another man. Granted, she had problems with PCOS and fibroids which were only operated on AFTER she split with my fiance, and she was also exceedingly overweight while with my fiance - she lost 70lbs after they split. But in ten years, NOTHING happened. Now we've gone six months without anything happening, I'm truely fearful we might not be able to have children. The thought of never being pregnant just kills me inside. I know the time is not right for us to start trying now, and we should wait until after the wedding, for monetary reasons as much as anything else, but the waiting is appalling. I can't talk about it more with my fiance, as we have agreed and I agree with out decision, but it would be great to chat with other people who are waiting and scared.
Thanks!
I hope you don't mind me jumping in without saying hello on other threads first, but I've been waiting so long to talk about this, I couldn't stop myself! So here goes...I'm 33, and I'm engaged to a wonderful man. We're getting married in November and I know he wants kids just as much as I do, so that's fantastic.
A while ago, I was having problems with the pill after nearly fifteen years of being on it (lots of breakthrough bleeding and feeling terrible) so I came off of it for six months. We didn't use any other contraception on a "if it happens, it happens" basis. But nothing did. Now, with the wedding so close, I've gone back on it. This is the first month, and I got my period on Saturday. It was extremely light and much more brown in colour than red, which led me to hope that it's implantation bleeding. There's nothing in my pants, just when I wipe. I've been feeling quite nauseous recently - even getting up in the night to throw up - and my period pains have been nothing like they normally are. No stomach cramps, and only cramping back pain that lasts for half an hour or so, then goes away. But my boobs feel and look fine, which people generally seem to be saying is the one thing that nearly all pregnancies have in common. So is it even worth spending the money on a pregnancy test given that I've JUST gone back on the pill, or am I just full of wishful thinking?
EDIT - Just did a test, which came back negative. Even squinting at it and holding it under other lights couldn't make it look even a bit positive. So I guess I'll start a new packet of the pill on Tuesday, and hold out till November when we can start trying. *sigh* Feeling a bit down now. Thanks so much for all your good wishes though... END OF EDIT
I'm so worried that we won't ever have kids. I want them so desperately, but I'm just so scared. My fiance was married to another woman for ten years before me, and even though they never used contraception, she didn't fall pregnant. Two years later after they split, she had a baby with another man. Granted, she had problems with PCOS and fibroids which were only operated on AFTER she split with my fiance, and she was also exceedingly overweight while with my fiance - she lost 70lbs after they split. But in ten years, NOTHING happened. Now we've gone six months without anything happening, I'm truely fearful we might not be able to have children. The thought of never being pregnant just kills me inside. I know the time is not right for us to start trying now, and we should wait until after the wedding, for monetary reasons as much as anything else, but the waiting is appalling. I can't talk about it more with my fiance, as we have agreed and I agree with out decision, but it would be great to chat with other people who are waiting and scared.
Thanks!
for me. Sigh. I guess we'll just wait until November when we can "officially" start trying. The waiting is horrific though! I looking forward to starting to try almost more than I am for my wedding.
next Christmas! 
