Well me and my husband have been trying to have "fun game night"(we are both gamers) since the mc in which we drink and play games or whatever to have a good time, but it seems I can't show hardly any emotion or even talk about the mc at all without the assistance of alcohol. My hubby thinks it is because of a severe trauma I suffered 4yrs ago and I have blocked my emotions until I drink. But at the same time I feel I need to let all these feelings out, while he is saying he just wants to have a good night where we just have fun and don't have to have a serious discusion. I want the same thing...but I just don't know what to do. I really enjoy drinking with my hubby at home and doing whatever but now I am afraid I am scaring him away from it because of the discussions that usually come up when we do have a drinking night. Plus I have had the urge to drink more lately(not to get wasted or tore up or even really drunk, just tipsy so I can relax and just go with the flow, but it seems I have no one I can sit down and drink with and talk about these things that I trust. I just don't know what to do. Sorry so long.