WOW! I don't even know where to start. I have really missed you girls. I'm sorry for not being around, I have not been doing so well and I think it's only getting worse, I'm going to talk to my doctor next week. So after everything it got even worse after I took the meds to abort the twins after the hospital messed up, only 1 of them passed thru the other got stuck. I was in extreme pain and taken back to emergency and was re admitted to the hospitla for them to make sure everythign passed. I returned to work on December 5th, it has been tough, tons of people wondering where I've been and asking questions. I was doing okish. But then christmas came knocking and I have been a mess, I cry all the time and I am just sad. William and I decided to remember our babies and added 2 lil angel ornaments to our tree that we will place there every year.
Login tonight to the forum was very very hard for me, I started reading adn crying a lot. I just wanted it sooo bad , you girls know that and have been there for someone to just take it away from you . TRULY SUCKS!!!! I have been going back adn forth lately I feel liek it's my fault I just wish I would never have gone in for the pain in my side and just dealt with it...
So where do I go from here? We have stopped trying. I am actually going to be having gastric bypass surgery. (gastric sleeve) within the next few months which will majorly help with my infertility. There is a 6 year waiting list so I had lost hope on that but after onyl 3 months I got a call... Someone out there cares I guess. So weare going to wait until after my surgery and then we will try again. Downside is I have to wait atleast 18 months to try. So in meantime as no date has been set we are not trying but not preventing either. If god truly thinks it is the best time for us it will happen.
Becky I want to see that baby bump woman!!! And congrats greenie on getting your early ultrasound!
How is everyone doing? I look forward to updates!
Lots of Love,
Nat
xox