Chinese Accupuncture

[kits]

I just want to say I love you very much ladies & I do pray for you.

A million

 

[Briss]

Blythe, it's so hard when people close to you just do not get it, they can be so hurtful most likely even without realising it.

Thank you. I will definitely check her website properly. I looked briefly at her advice on food and it seems like she is against milk? what does it mean "manifesting your baby"? I mean practically what is it that you do?

I just got my FSH results and they are terrible. FSH of 14.2 with estradinol of 431!! super high, with such levels my real FSH is much higher than 14. I am quite shocked. last time I had such high estradinol levels on CD3 it was due to a cyst so quite possible I cant even do IVF right now because of a cyst. but last year with such high estradinol levels my FSH was suppressed to 8, not 14.2!! This is just devastating, it's actually getting much worse with every month. it's going to be another super short cycle. I do feel like crying of complete hopelessness.

 

[Blythe]

Briss - i have just emailed fiona and asked whether her techniques could help with someone who has elevated FSH levels. I will let you know what she says.....and i have asked her how much she charges for the sessions.

these stats change from month to month....my e2 was 259 when i started my LP at the beginning of the year and then cancelled due to cyst at which point my e2 levels were nearly 1172...one cycle later the cyst was still there but only 1cm so they went ahead with SP. They never actually took bloods to check which is a bit crap. Anyhow, please please please don't get too upset. I know you have had one thing after another to deal with and its just too much but i really want you to keep focused on the future and keep on going. IT WILL HAPPEN AND YOU WILL BE HAPPY

the manifesting stuff was a bit much for me....you know the whole trying to see yourself holding your baby and imaging how it feels, what they smell like etc etc.....i simply cannot put myself in the picture...i just observe it feeling very sad. i don't want to say too much else about the techniques she is using as a lot of it involves writing stuff down...the first things that come to mind and then she uses the answers to base the exercises on. I really do think it would help you.

i have to say that i am finding it difficult to fit the exercises in as i have no time at the moment with work stuff but I'm going to give it as much as and when i can.

what i love about her is that she is just not interested in my excuses or my reasons for it not happening...she seems quite certain that her techniques will help me become pregnant.

 

[Blythe]

i just got the reply...

Regarding your friend, her situation is not uncommon and I have facilitated other women in similar positions. The course is not for everyone so it would be best I have a 30 minute consultation with her to see if she is an ideal fit for the course.

Here is a link to my course rates:

https://www.imsublime.co.uk/fertility-centre-fertility-course

 

[Blythe]

Actually the fees are much steeper than i thought they would be.....still i would recommend the consultation.

i also have the dvd which cost £60 but it is very good....you get 60s mins free Skype with her if you buy the dvd

 

[Briss]

Blythe, thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words, somehow it makes me feel so much more positive.

re the manifesting thing, I actually did something similar in the past but it only works when you have a real chance to get pregnant. when you know it's unlikely going to happen it's a torture. I may do that during IVF cycle cos again, I feel we have a chance at pregnancy but while TTC naturally it's just too much. 30 minute consultation sounds perfect. Do you need to like her on facebook to get the free consultation when you buy her DVD? I really cant share any TTC related stuff on facebook. I may get her yoga DVD but then again I have so many already if I only I practiced any of them… Do you like her DVD? The prices are WOW but again I would not mind paying if I knew this would help us but obviously no matter how great my body is it cannot fix low sperm count so I wonder if it would be better to spend this money on natural IVF in Germany

Did you ask her about Distant Energy Field Healing? it sounds interesting actually https://www.energyfieldhealing.com/yourhealingsession.htm. Things have been so bad for me and for so long, maybe it's not a coincidence maybe I have some kind of energy flaw or something?

from what I know estrogen levels on CD3 should not be more than 200 (in a natural cycle). Mine are always on the upper side but when I had my last FSH checked with my FS before she referred me for the IVF mine was 8. I did ask her about my estrogen levels and they were 430! she said it's obvious that low FSH is not real cos it's being suppressed by very high estrogen level but she referred me anyway. I also had a scan at Create and they found this cyst on my left side which disappeared after a few cycles but I am pretty sure it was the cyst that was producing so much estrogen. Now my situation is just so much worse: very high estrogen and even higher FSH. Dr E says my high FSH is not an issue for IVF cos he thinks my ovaries are fine and will respond to synthetic FSH during stims. I really hope he is right.

re milk, I've been thinking what I changed in the last few months that could have an effect on my FSH and early O and one other thing that came to mind was milk actually. I started drinking much more whole milk than before. I wonder if this could have any bearing

re coffee, I need to find it in me to seriously cut down on coffee, just do not know how. it's a straggle every morning and in the end I lose every single time. I guess if I knew that we are starting IVF I'd have more motivation cos I know we may have a chance here so I need to give it my all, as things currently stand I just feel it's all hopeless so why bother one cappuccino is not going to make a difference to our TTC but it makes a huge difference to my happiness.

I am having this terrible headache since yesterday, similar to what I had last month minus the vomiting. I think this headache at the start of my cycle is somehow related to high FSH but cannot explain it.

 

[alison29]

Blythe I buy into the manifesting ideas. I do think you have to have "a vision" of what you want before you get it. I don't know what mental block I am throwing up. I do feel better and more joyful when i visualize and meditate. It is fun dreaming about it. BTW they have some really cute black and white maternity stuff and old navy (see that is the dreaming part that makes me do that lol) Plus someone blogged about it so i had to check it. When you are 9 months pregnant it seems black and white are safe colors. or you may look like an easter egg.

Don't forget Briss you have been doing the herbs too just being the devils advocate here. I cringed about the dairy thing i went to Blythes ladies site and read about it although i have read if before it's easy to "forget". I have been enjoying lactaid and string cheese daily, the whole milk is too good.

 

[Blythe]

just a quick one....dont bother with the FB like. I no longer have an account and explained that to her so its no bother.

 

[Blythe]

Briss - whats that little L for on your chart for today? I have been eating lots of ice lollies and cold drinks....and tuna and tonight i am going to have some peas. I am wondering if perhaps my new anti-fertility diet be the winning formula. I will report back.

i also have a reiki session booked for sunday morning. I am in some serious need of something....something i just was not getting from acu and herbs. Having said that when i was doing the acu and herbs my nails were long but when i stopped i bit them all off...again i will report back!


Alison - hello your post about manifesting is so positive. I wish i could be a bit more like you....i used to feel excited about TTC and enjoy thinking about how things were going to be. Each month i would check to see what the due date would be and start planning how i would tell boss, arrange maternity leave etc.....

It should be an exciting process but I'm afraid i just lost it around the 2 year mark. I want badly to manifest certain things in my life but indulging in these fantasies brings me no joy. I explained this to Fiona [yoga teacher] and she said i effectively needed reprogramming and so we started on some exercises to help with that...and it has.

i really do want to do it though...i have some time off work this week and intend to try again!

Kits - hello hope you are feeling well and no more scares

 

[Blythe]

I brought one of these....

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Babystart-...06960747&sr=8-1-spell&keywords=fertily+saliva

i know when i ovulate but it is interesting seeing the ferning starting to develop.

 

[Briss]

L is for low reading on my cbfm. Low again this morning. I used to love a few lows cos that would mean my 3-4 highs will start later and later ovulation. Now I only get one high so its all messed up. Am off to a wedding will reply properly tomorrow

 

[alison29]

Can't wait to hear bout reiki...I loved ACU felt energized and relaxed just so much time and $$. Blythe that sucks about your nails. Extra iron and rubber gloves for cleaning r helping. People with great nails must get out of dish duty. Don't forget it takes 6 months to regrow a set of nails. I think they are a great indicator of nutritional well being along with hair and skin. Any one ever get eczema? I don't have bad its just irritating and a sign something is amiss.

My good friends baby shower is soon . I am jealous and so sad for her all at once. Her baby will be seriously I'll in nicu for many weeks. I can't imagine that. My work friend is moving up to gonal f next iui..plenty of progress all around.

 

[alison29]

Can't wait to hear bout reiki...I loved ACU felt energized and relaxed just so much time and $$. Blythe that sucks about your nails. Extra iron and rubber gloves for cleaning r helping. People with great nails must get out of dish duty. Don't forget it takes 6 months to regrow a set of nails. I think they are a great indicator of nutritional well being along with hair and skin. Any one ever get eczema? I don't have bad its just irritating and a sign something is amiss.

My good friends baby shower is soon . I am jealous and so sad for her all at once. Her baby will be seriously I'll in nicu for many weeks. I can't imagine that. My work friend is moving up to gonal f next iui..plenty of progress all around.

 

[somedayisnow]

Blythe and alison29, I too am trying to manifest my pregnancy and baby. I do think there's something to visualizing one's wants and needs. I also have a mantra I say out loud (which can get weird if I'm in public ) any time I have a negative thought about the outcome of my journey. I say my name and then recite, "...you are going to get pregnant, you're going to have a healthy pregnancy, you're going to have a healthy baby, and you're going to raise a healthy child." For me this completely annihilates those thoughts and keeps them from entering the atmosphere.

I had the strangest experience at acu yesterday. He once again put a bunch of needles in my scalp as well as other areas (forehead, hands, abdomen, ankles) and I was so uncomfortable. My scalp was in pain to the point where I was about to call the doctor back into the room to remove them when suddenly I hit the deepest relaxation point I've experienced so far at acu. I mean, I hadn't a care in the world, my mind stopped racing, all pain and discomfort stopped, and I was able to just be.

For the longest time I kept hearing about people falling asleep on the table but I've never been close to that. I'm just too high strung. BUT yesterday, I felt like I was floating and if my appointment had lasted 5 minutes longer I would have been on the table. My doctor said that I hit Nirvana. I like Nirvana.

 

[Briss]

somedayisnow, I like your mantra! You had an amazing acu experience. I sometimes feel very relaxed and feel like i can fall asleep but never do.

Blythe, that Ovulation Microscope sounds like fun. interesting how ovulation means so many changes throughout your body. I am being faithful to my cbfm for the time being still low but I am going to be depressed if I see a peak tomorrow with no highs in between. I am totally with you on anti-fertility diet. how was your reiki session?

alison, I decided to cut down on milk for a little while. My hormones are not quite right and oestrogen is weird and I read that milk can contain hormones. I think it's probably a US issue but just in case. I may change my mind cos I think herbs are more powerful than milk really and I do love milk...

afm, I was about to complain about my "luck" but then decided to turn it around and look at it positively. Basically at that wedding everything was great except that we somehow ended up at the "pregnant" table. I mean honestly, there was about 12-15 tables and there was 6 couples at our table and 3 huge bumps!! the bride does not know anything about our TTC business and there were mainly couples at the wedding but all bumps were at my table I was upset about it last night but reading your posts decided it was a sign, a positive sign of good things to come. I prefer to think that there is only one explanation why I ended up at the pregnant table is cos I belong there, I will be pregnant very soon

 

[Blythe]

Briss - thats the spirit!! I believe very much that you will be pregnant soon and i cannot wait to come on here and read about it!!

I am back from my reiki treatment and i really liked the woman who did it. It was far more relaxing that acu and i will wait to see how the next few days pan out in terms of how i feel/respond to the treatment.

many years ago i did the level 1 reiki training which means i can do it on myself and on others although i cannot remember what i am meant to do, other than place hands on bits of my body. I will do some internet research and maybe start trying to do it on myself before i go to sleep. I am hoping for some kind of energetic shift as i have been so stuck and i am determined to change the way i see things.
I am off work this week so will do yoga 3 times and some of the mental exercises i agreed with fiona so hoping by the end of the week i will have pulled myself out of the hole and can start thinking optimistically again about becoming pregnant.

i do like my new gadget but i have a rough idea of when i ovulate...this month i am checking cervix, doing fern test and using OPKs and DH is still doing herbs and having acu specifically for fertility....bless him!!

Somedayisnow - i have been indulging too much recently in dark thoughts and i am determined to turn things around. Words are so powerful and the constant internal chatter is exhausting...i am consiously examining some of my repetitive thoughts around TTC and changing the words and replacing the crap things with good positive things. Its hard work and slow but it is working. Your acu appt sounds fab

Alison - Have you got eczema? i sometimes have really aggravated skin around my creases [knees and arm] which is eczema like...i also used to have asthma and i believe the two were connected. Im afraid i know very little about it though.

 

[somedayisnow]

Briss, the first thing I thought when I read that you were assigned to sit at the pregnant table was that you were being given a sign that your turn is coming. Full disclosure: I'm usually a glass half empty kind of person, which I'm doing my best to change, but the universe was obviously trying to get a message to you and I'm happy that you were able to see it, hear it and feel it.

Blythe, the dark thoughts are a constant battle of mine but I know from past experience that I need to fight back with even more forceful positivity. That's why I voice my affirmations. My next mini project is to create a vision board and hang it in my bedroom as another constant reminder to keep my eye on the prize. On another note: I really need to research reiki. What I know about it could fit into a thimble.

 

[alison29]

Someday I love your mantra will try it out
It could be a sign from the universe being at that table with all those bumps: your timeis soon.

 

[alison29]

Yay I have some eczema on foot and scalp..its itchy and flaky gross

 

[somedayisnow]

So my acu wanted to extend my 25 day cycle to 28 days and so far it's working. Today is CD28 but if I don't get AF tomorrow, I may just freak out a little...a lot.