Blythe, thanks. yesterday I was just too depressed and angry to say anything, I did not feel this bad before, suddenly I just felt like I cant be miserable on my own anymore I have enough misery to share with many people and I wanted to do something violent to make smb else suffer for a change, than just to be on receiving end all the time. I knew this would pass so I just went out and cried it all out for a few hours, could not care less about people staring at me. I know I should be grateful for having a good cycle, very little pre AF spotting, my results are OK but nothing matters cos I am not pregnant and I will be 38 soon. I think at some point endorphins kicked in from the walking exercise and I started feeling a bit better, went home and made dinner. still pretty upset though... the usual
got my results back, it's good news for me and bad new for DH. 6 months of hormonal treatment and very little alcohol and his results are actually worse than before. WTF!!! count is below 5 million and morphology 1%. no wonder I am not getting pregnant, we do not stand a chance. I do not know how he is going to motivate himself to carry on without alcohol when it did not make any difference. I can try and get him to take vitamins blaming his poor results on the fact he has not been taking any but deep down I know it was not the issue.
My results are OK, FSH got down to 11.8!! so it was worth it playing with the private blood tests and waiting for a bit longer before doing the real thing, my estrogen went up a bit more on that day and suppressed FSH even further so I am now officially below the threshold of 12.5.
My AMH is 13.41 – the highest I have seen (not surprisingly considering the amounts of Vit D I was taking, about 10,000 daily for a few days before taking the test). it may not be accurate but at least I feel we have a chance to get IVF funding now.
My TSH also got down to 3.08 from 3.78, not ideal but at least it's fluctuating rather than just going up. It's still higher than they like but maybe my spotting was not related to thyroid?
The only problem is the MCHC is quite low which may indicate iron deficiency or anaemia. I guess I need to start taking more iron this cycle. I would still like to repeat my FSH this cycle to see what's going on and check my estrogen in case I have a cyst.
we cant TTC this cycle cos I am supposed to have an HSG type test to check my uterus and cervix. begging DH to take me abroad for a week to get me through my birthday