Christian ladies TTC, we can encourage one another.

[Godsjewel]

xxx_faithful- CONGRATULATIONS!! I will be praying for a healthy pregnancy for you.

I have been hanging over in the starting clomid thread, I started a 50 mg dose yesterday. Please pray for me, I had a job interview today and go for another one on Monday. I am hoping that one of these will end in a job offer, I would really like to move into a full time job. Thanks in advance for your prayers

You are in my prayers Hun. Believe that God is going to open doors and you will get the job that is perfect for you

 

[BRK06]

BRK06 - Your a sweety! thanks for checking up on me i feel so special teehee. At first i was a little scared to write on here today(you will soon know why) but since you girls have been like breath to me, encouraging me with your stories, verses, quotes, sympathy and love. It wouldn’t feel right not to share with you! And well infact, I need your prayers. Some days I didn’t think I could make it through, one of you girls said the right thing, shared a link or simply made me feel like I wasn’t alone. You all are infact the only people that know - yep even my hubby doesn't know as of yet.

Last night my Acupuncturist reminded me with a text to go and test so she could recommend some chinese herbs to prevent a further m/c. I was sitting down staring at the stick, when normally if it's 1 line i would get up impatiently and pretend i never tested at all to prevent myself from getting down. But something told me to sit and wait. So i waited. And waited. And eventually I got my BFP! I lifted my head to God and praised him once again, walking out to the kitchen chirpy as my husband was making us g/f homemade pizza.

It was this time last year I first became pregnant. I didn’t know how long it would take for me to be pregnant again after I miscarried, oh how I begged and begged for this day to come again, but to be honest I am terrified to say the least. I am going to wait it out for another few weeks to have my 12 week scan.
I will tell my husband the good news soon but not just yet. I thought I would share with you a poem I wrote recently.

I love you all and may we never stop asking God for our inner most desires of our heart.

X

Yay!!! Thank you Lord for Bec's gift! Congrats Hun, I'm happy for you! A very H&H 9 months to you

 

[BRK06]

xxx_faithful- CONGRATULATIONS!! I will be praying for a healthy pregnancy for you.

I have been hanging over in the starting clomid thread, I started a 50 mg dose yesterday. Please pray for me, I had a job interview today and go for another one on Monday. I am hoping that one of these will end in a job offer, I would really like to move into a full time job. Thanks in advance for your prayers

Praying for you, Sis!

 

[minimoocow]

Woohoo! Congratulations on your long awaiting bfp! This is brief as I'm on my phone and at work but really wanted to post. Thanks also for your story - it really spoke to me x

 

[Godsjewel]

...David said to his servants, "Is the child dead?" And they said, "He is dead."
So David arose from the ground, washed, anointed himself, and changed his clothes; and he came into the house of the LORD and worshiped.
2 Samuel 12:19-20

Do not allow yourself to think that the men and women who occupy the pages of Scripture had easy, problem-free lives. Many found sorrow to be constant companions. Others knew the profound effect of mourning. So many sacrificed their bodies and their lives to carry the gospel. Thank God for those people! Because of the lives they lived we can learn priceless lessons to guide us through the struggles we face, such as infertility and loss.

Let’s briefly look at David, an amazing, flawed man who loved God with all his heart. David entered into an affair with a married woman and she became pregnant. Because David was king, he could pretty much do whatever he wanted to do. Since he couldn’t figure out a way to hide the sin he had committed, he decided to have his mistress’ husband murdered. Wow! What a biblical hero! David married his pregnant mistress, only to face the death of their baby early in their marriage.

Just as if it were you, David’s heart was shattered when his tiny baby succumbed to death. For seven long days, he cried and prayed and begged God to change His holy mind and not take the life of his baby, but to no avail. David laid on floor, deflated by grief you may have faced yourself. It is at this point that we join this story.

David has prayed. The baby died. What does David do now?

So David arose from the ground, washed, anointed himself, and changed his clothes; and he came into the house of the LORD and worshiped.

There is no doubt that David didn’t do things right every time. He made some big mistakes. However, there is something about David that we could all mimic. When he messed up, he admitted it to God, fell on his face and repented, and got his relationship with God back on track again. Even though his relationship with God was restored, David still had to face the death of his baby. It may have been easy for David to get mad and turn his back on God. After all, he made things right with God again. Why didn’t God make things right with his baby and allow him to survive? These are answers we cannot know this side of eternity. All we can do is look at David’s actions following the baby’s death. Rather than turn his back on God, David got up, anointed himself, changed out of his mournful clothes and went to the house of the Lord to worship.

How could David worship? It must have meant that he really didn’t love the baby. After all, it’s existence was nothing more than proof that David sinned, right? Wrong. Why would he weep for seven days straight if his heart strings had not been wrapped tightly around the baby’s little fingers? David loved this baby, and David was hurting. But David knew that God was still God and that circumstances could not change God’s worthiness to be praised. Not even the death of his baby. David worshipped through his devastation. He worshipped through tears. I believe that when worship mingles with tears of suffering, God is pleased and worship is accepted as a sweet fragrance. When you worship through your struggles, the very act of lifting your praise to the same God who allows the heartache to come signifies your faith in His plan, whether you understand His ways or not. What a beautiful offering.

As you think back over the lessons we have learned this week, why not commit to following in the footsteps of these champions of faith?

• Hannah worshipped God before her baby was born.

• Shadrach, Meschach and Abednego worshipped God whether He answered their prayer the way they wanted Him to or not.

• Habakkuk kicked up his heels with joy because of the goodness of God, even when everything around him was going wrong.

• Paul and Silas worshipped God during their struggles in sight of others around them. The lives of the people around them were changed.

• David didn’t let hurt and sorrow stop him from worshipping.

 

[beckysprayer]

Has anyone ever tried juicing? I've been through enough meds and want to try something natural. I just bought a juicer and a book called The Juicing Bible it has recipes for endometriosis, infertility and all sorts of other stuff. I thought why not, it will help me get in shape and possible help with fertility, that's a great combo. Plus hubby is going to do it with me, we are going to do a 10 day juicing fast for our spiritual and physical health. I am looking forward to seeing the benefits from it. We got inspired from my in-laws who told us to watch a documentary on Netflix called Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead. It's about a man who has this rare disease and figured that by juicing all natural stuff, that he may be able to heal the inside of his body. He was on the fast for 60 days and when he started he weighed about 320lbs I believe and was on around 13 medications. After the fast he lost around 90 lbs and is off all meds. You can look it up online and watch it there as well I believe. Just something else to help us along this journey.

I've read a lot about it, all really good things, but I've never taken the plunge and done it. You'll have to let me know how it turns out! Only good things can come from this, I think.

I haven't heard that documentary, but I want to watch it know!

BRK06 - Your a sweety! thanks for checking up on me i feel so special teehee. At first i was a little scared to write on here today(you will soon know why) but since you girls have been like breath to me, encouraging me with your stories, verses, quotes, sympathy and love. It wouldn’t feel right not to share with you! And well infact, I need your prayers. Some days I didn’t think I could make it through, one of you girls said the right thing, shared a link or simply made me feel like I wasn’t alone. You all are infact the only people that know - yep even my hubby doesn't know as of yet.

Last night my Acupuncturist reminded me with a text to go and test so she could recommend some chinese herbs to prevent a further m/c. I was sitting down staring at the stick, when normally if it's 1 line i would get up impatiently and pretend i never tested at all to prevent myself from getting down. But something told me to sit and wait. So i waited. And waited. And eventually I got my BFP! I lifted my head to God and praised him once again, walking out to the kitchen chirpy as my husband was making us g/f homemade pizza.

It was this time last year I first became pregnant. I didn’t know how long it would take for me to be pregnant again after I miscarried, oh how I begged and begged for this day to come again, but to be honest I am terrified to say the least. I am going to wait it out for another few weeks to have my 12 week scan.
I will tell my husband the good news soon but not just yet. I thought I would share with you a poem I wrote recently.

I love you all and may we never stop asking God for our inner most desires of our heart.

X

Praise the Lord!! I'm so happy for you and I'm praying for a happy and healthy nine months!

xxx_faithful- CONGRATULATIONS!! I will be praying for a healthy pregnancy for you.

I have been hanging over in the starting clomid thread, I started a 50 mg dose yesterday. Please pray for me, I had a job interview today and go for another one on Monday. I am hoping that one of these will end in a job offer, I would really like to move into a full time job. Thanks in advance for your prayers

Praying for your job interviews!

 

[beckysprayer]

I got some time alone so I took a test this morning and it was a BFP. I can't believe it! I started shaking when I saw that and am just so excited. The second line showed up before the control line, hoping that means it's a strong little one inside.

Thank You, Jesus, for this precious gift!

 

[Praying4bump]

Hi Ladies,

It’s been a while since I posted on this thread but I have been lurking. I was struggling spiritually, not getting pregnant was my source of frustration with Jesus. I’ve been saved for 14 years, most of my adolescent years and all of my adult life. I’ve never expected that God was going to make life easier and I never expected that my all my prayers would get answered the way I wanted or as fast as I would like. I’ve always tried to use bad things or struggles to get closer to him rather then get angry and turn away. Last year June, we decided to start TTC, what do you know, that very month I started experiencing horrible pain in my ovaries and bad AF type cramps almost every day. I started having frequent UTI’s which also included blood and clots in my urine , which I never had before, TMI ALERT – horrible painful bowel movements, and exaggerated pregnancy symptoms, nausea, vomiting, fatigue, high temps, etc. At least one cyst ruptured causing my pelvic to get inflamed and an infection.

We started the journey of trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I was fortunate enough most of my life, I never really had any health issues (besides an occasional cold, flu, etc). I went to the ER a couple times, I had a CT scan, a Uroscopy, got prescribed different antibiotics. I was seeing my OBGYN every 6 weeks for an ultrasound because I had cyst but he wasn’t really telling me anything or comforting me. The day of my 3rd ultrasound, I walked out of the office and called another OBGYN and scheduled an appt. A week later he, on the first visit, he did an ultrasound but didn’t charge my insurance for it so that he can see what was going on. He explained the type of cyst that I had and he suggested BC for a month or two. A month later , the cysts were gone but I was still having excruciating pain. He suspected that I had endo. I was sad and disappointed but I wasn’t scared because I have a sister with endo and after she had 2 laps she became too fertile (lol). Though I cried, I was so grateful to God that we knew what the issue was. A month and a half later we had the lap and I was diagnosed with severe endo and my ob told us to try for six months on our own and if it didn’t happen, he will refer us to a specialist. We are on month 4. The scary thing is that sometimes I think I feel the endo growing back.

Keep in mind that we started in June 2011, as if the health issues weren’t discouraging enough, 4 close family members got pregnant after we started trying. 1 was an “accident” and 3 got pregnant within 3 months. 3 of the babies are beautiful and healthy and the 4th will be here shortly. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy for all of them with all my heart and I prayed all the time for them to have a healthy happy 9 months and delivery, which they all have thus far.

My struggle was with the fact that I had this desire for something that didn’t seem like it is supposed to be for me. I questioned my faith and God’s existence…that was the hardest part because I have never questioned my faith and I was so ashamed for doing so. I stopped reading my bible daily, I stopped reading morning messages about God. I even justified not going to church because I just wanted to be mad enough that God would hear me (Lol). I wanted to force him into submission, sad huh! Thank God he doesn’t give up on us!! God made me realize that throughout this process of ttc, he was giving me what I had already believed and feared…that I was infertile. The strongest, oldest fear for me since I was about 18 years old was that I would not be able to get pregnant and have a baby. I even convinced myself that I would be just as happy adopting (I still want to one day). I didn’t expect to have this overwhelming desire to also have a child that is part of me and my husband, the desire to feel a life growing inside me. Even before this process begin, I had more faith in not getting pregnant then in what God can do, what he did for Sarah, Rebekah and Rachel.

I understand now that I must work on my faith in him and trust his timing and let go of my fears. I’d love to end this testimony stating that I’m pregnant but I’m not (lol). As much as I want to get pregnant, I don’t want God to reward my faithlessness and fear. AF is due today and I’m okay with that. I wanted to share my testimony. I know it will happen when he feels the time is right. Lord, I pray that you continue to use my struggles to get closer to you so that I can better serve you all the days of my life. AMEN.

Baby dust ladies!!! I'm praying for you!!

 

[Godsjewel]

I got some time alone so I took a test this morning and it was a BFP. I can't believe it! I started shaking when I saw that and am just so excited. The second line showed up before the control line, hoping that means it's a strong little one inside.

Thank You, Jesus, for this precious gift!

YAY!!! Thank you Jesus!

I'm so glad that I am sharing this wonderful journey with you and will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers.

Lord, you are awesome and you show it everyday in the lives of these ladies!

 

[Godsjewel]

Hi Ladies,

It’s been a while since I posted on this thread but I have been lurking. I was struggling spiritually, not getting pregnant was my source of frustration with Jesus. I’ve been saved for 14 years, most of my adolescent years and all of my adult life. I’ve never expected that God was going to make life easier and I never expected that my all my prayers would get answered the way I wanted or as fast as I would like. I’ve always tried to use bad things or struggles to get closer to him rather then get angry and turn away. Last year June, we decided to start TTC, what do you know, that very month I started experiencing horrible pain in my ovaries and bad AF type cramps almost every day. I started having frequent UTI’s which also included blood and clots in my urine , which I never had before, TMI ALERT – horrible painful bowel movements, and exaggerated pregnancy symptoms, nausea, vomiting, fatigue, high temps, etc. At least one cyst ruptured causing my pelvic to get inflamed and an infection.

We started the journey of trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I was fortunate enough most of my life, I never really had any health issues (besides an occasional cold, flu, etc). I went to the ER a couple times, I had a CT scan, a Uroscopy, got prescribed different antibiotics. I was seeing my OBGYN every 6 weeks for an ultrasound because I had cyst but he wasn’t really telling me anything or comforting me. The day of my 3rd ultrasound, I walked out of the office and called another OBGYN and scheduled an appt. A week later he, on the first visit, he did an ultrasound but didn’t charge my insurance for it so that he can see what was going on. He explained the type of cyst that I had and he suggested BC for a month or two. A month later , the cysts were gone but I was still having excruciating pain. He suspected that I had endo. I was sad and disappointed but I wasn’t scared because I have a sister with endo and after she had 2 laps she became too fertile (lol). Though I cried, I was so grateful to God that we knew what the issue was. A month and a half later we had the lap and I was diagnosed with severe endo and my ob told us to try for six months on our own and if it didn’t happen, he will refer us to a specialist. We are on month 4. The scary thing is that sometimes I think I feel the endo growing back.

Keep in mind that we started in June 2011, as if the health issues weren’t discouraging enough, 4 close family members got pregnant after we started trying. 1 was an “accident” and 3 got pregnant within 3 months. 3 of the babies are beautiful and healthy and the 4th will be here shortly. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy for all of them with all my heart and I prayed all the time for them to have a healthy happy 9 months and delivery, which they all have thus far.

My struggle was with the fact that I had this desire for something that didn’t seem like it is supposed to be for me. I questioned my faith and God’s existence…that was the hardest part because I have never questioned my faith and I was so ashamed for doing so. I stopped reading my bible daily, I stopped reading morning messages about God. I even justified not going to church because I just wanted to be mad enough that God would hear me (Lol). I wanted to force him into submission, sad huh! Thank God he doesn’t give up on us!! God made me realize that throughout this process of ttc, he was giving me what I had already believed and feared…that I was infertile. The strongest, oldest fear for me since I was about 18 years old was that I would not be able to get pregnant and have a baby. I even convinced myself that I would be just as happy adopting (I still want to one day). I didn’t expect to have this overwhelming desire to also have a child that is part of me and my husband, the desire to feel a life growing inside me. Even before this process begin, I had more faith in not getting pregnant then in what God can do, what he did for Sarah, Rebekah and Rachel.

I understand now that I must work on my faith in him and trust his timing and let go of my fears. I’d love to end this testimony stating that I’m pregnant but I’m not (lol). As much as I want to get pregnant, I don’t want God to reward my faithlessness and fear. AF is due today and I’m okay with that. I wanted to share my testimony. I know it will happen when he feels the time is right. Lord, I pray that you continue to use my struggles to get closer to you so that I can better serve you all the days of my life. AMEN.

Baby dust ladies!!! I'm praying for you!!

You are so precious hun! Thank you for not being afraid to share your story with us and I’m sure most of us have been in your shoes.

I too have endometriosis and had a lap done 2 years ago and another last October. I had moderate endo and this last time the doctor was very optimistic saying he got all the endo, scar tissue and cysts and I was all cleaned up and didn’t see a reason why I wouldn’t get pregnant within the next couple of months after the surgery. Like you, I wish I could announce I was pregnant, but I am currently on my 9 month after surgery and on my period.

God has a plan that we can’t see and one day, when it’s revealed to us, we are going to rejoice in His perfect timing.

Know we are all here for you and it’s ok to go through the ups and downs of ttc, we are human and have hearts that yearn to be a mother and that will sometimes drive us crazy. Keep your faith in the Father and all things will work for good.

 

[InChristAlone]

This short story was inspired by a baby book I was given and began to write in, though felt saddened of the thought of rubbing away what I had previously written in days of full anticipation and excitement. It felt like I would be erasing the only memories I had, erasing her as if she was never here at all and didn't matter. When the truth is, she was just as much of a person as you and I. With her tiny heartbeat that once beated inside my tummy, she will be remembered always.

My Short Story

After miscarrying at 10.5wks, to what would have been my first, it was important that we tried again for a baby pretty much straight away. After hesitantly listening to my sisters advice, "You need to respect your body with what it has just gone through. Show it love, give it time to heal." From those words alone I knew I had to painfully refocus my attention back on myself, and begin along the path of self-healing. Little did I know I began the path of self-discovery.

I tried everything from colonics to detoxes, eliminating diets to exchanging my much loved high impact cardio classes to gentle swimming, steam rooms and meditation. For the next several months it was as if I had went into my own hand made, self-inflicted man cave and only came up for air when I felt it was completely necessary. I refrained from seeing certain friends, mums with toddlers, babies, anyone that was remotely close to trying for one! I washed all my vegies with vinegar, took supplements to decrease copper toxicity from water pipes, and even went as far as seeing a psychologist to a spiritualist. You name it, I had tried it.

I would reminisce over and over each month how far along I would be, the size my belly would of been, when it would of begun to kick. Being around people would continually remind me of what I just went through, and if they didn’t ask me how I felt, I would soon remind them. I felt like it took 5 whole months of crying out to God, asking God, and back to crying out to God at why I had to go through this. It was as if I felt I had gone through so much in my life already God couldn't possibly allow anything more to happen to me. He knew I was a genuinely good person, went out of my way to help those in need, and spent my entire life from a child devoted to him. But at the end of the day I’ve learnt, it wasn’t if I deserved it or not, it wasn’t if I had done something wrong in his eyes, it wasn’t down to his love for me. But what he wanted me to learn .. what he wanted to show me.

After the tantrums, the tears, and the self-indulged pity, one thing I know for sure was God never and I mean never left my side. Right after the first initial ache in my abdomen, he placed an immense, an indescribable blanket of love that covered my entire body from the top of my head to the tip of my purple coloured toes. Never in my life have I felt so much of his love through the deepest of pain. It was un-denying that he loved me.

I remember lying on my back on the shower floor with boiling shower water beaming down on my stomach, which was by then the only thing that numbed the pain of my cervix bone feeling like it was breaking. Lying there whilst water began to rise up around me, I was oblivious to realise what was clogging the drain was that which was leaving my body.

To this day I don't know if I can say I fully understand the reasons for his ways or his un-willingness to interfere and save my potential loss. But what a very wise friend once said to me is, "Sometimes you won't always know at the time the reason why things happen, but just accept that one day you will."

God has shaped me, tested me, taught me, tried me, convicted me. He has comforted me, protected me, cleansed me, purified me, cherished me.

I stand here again before my father with a blessing in my womb. I do not know what the days will bring me, nor have I learnt that I want to. But if there's any way I should stand, is it’s through the strength, courage and comfort of the one that knows me best.
Our father is the creator of love. May we never doubt his love through the tears. His love is intangible, unchangeable, everlasting.

xxx_faithful

Thank you so much for sharing this, you are awesome! I'm so inspired by your strength and faithfulness. Bless you and breaking off any sense of worry for you in Jesus name, Holy Spirit bring your supernatural peace that she may know your touch at this special time in her life. I just pray joy, happiness and blessings for you xx

 

[InChristAlone]

I got some time alone so I took a test this morning and it was a BFP. I can't believe it! I started shaking when I saw that and am just so excited. The second line showed up before the control line, hoping that means it's a strong little one inside.

Thank You, Jesus, for this precious gift!

Yay!! Congratulations! Praise you God! Praying big blessings for you and joy at this special time xx

 

[InChristAlone]

Hi Ladies,

It’s been a while since I posted on this thread but I have been lurking. I was struggling spiritually, not getting pregnant was my source of frustration with Jesus. I’ve been saved for 14 years, most of my adolescent years and all of my adult life. I’ve never expected that God was going to make life easier and I never expected that my all my prayers would get answered the way I wanted or as fast as I would like. I’ve always tried to use bad things or struggles to get closer to him rather then get angry and turn away. Last year June, we decided to start TTC, what do you know, that very month I started experiencing horrible pain in my ovaries and bad AF type cramps almost every day. I started having frequent UTI’s which also included blood and clots in my urine , which I never had before, TMI ALERT – horrible painful bowel movements, and exaggerated pregnancy symptoms, nausea, vomiting, fatigue, high temps, etc. At least one cyst ruptured causing my pelvic to get inflamed and an infection.

We started the journey of trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I was fortunate enough most of my life, I never really had any health issues (besides an occasional cold, flu, etc). I went to the ER a couple times, I had a CT scan, a Uroscopy, got prescribed different antibiotics. I was seeing my OBGYN every 6 weeks for an ultrasound because I had cyst but he wasn’t really telling me anything or comforting me. The day of my 3rd ultrasound, I walked out of the office and called another OBGYN and scheduled an appt. A week later he, on the first visit, he did an ultrasound but didn’t charge my insurance for it so that he can see what was going on. He explained the type of cyst that I had and he suggested BC for a month or two. A month later , the cysts were gone but I was still having excruciating pain. He suspected that I had endo. I was sad and disappointed but I wasn’t scared because I have a sister with endo and after she had 2 laps she became too fertile (lol). Though I cried, I was so grateful to God that we knew what the issue was. A month and a half later we had the lap and I was diagnosed with severe endo and my ob told us to try for six months on our own and if it didn’t happen, he will refer us to a specialist. We are on month 4. The scary thing is that sometimes I think I feel the endo growing back.

Keep in mind that we started in June 2011, as if the health issues weren’t discouraging enough, 4 close family members got pregnant after we started trying. 1 was an “accident” and 3 got pregnant within 3 months. 3 of the babies are beautiful and healthy and the 4th will be here shortly. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy for all of them with all my heart and I prayed all the time for them to have a healthy happy 9 months and delivery, which they all have thus far.

My struggle was with the fact that I had this desire for something that didn’t seem like it is supposed to be for me. I questioned my faith and God’s existence…that was the hardest part because I have never questioned my faith and I was so ashamed for doing so. I stopped reading my bible daily, I stopped reading morning messages about God. I even justified not going to church because I just wanted to be mad enough that God would hear me (Lol). I wanted to force him into submission, sad huh! Thank God he doesn’t give up on us!! God made me realize that throughout this process of ttc, he was giving me what I had already believed and feared…that I was infertile. The strongest, oldest fear for me since I was about 18 years old was that I would not be able to get pregnant and have a baby. I even convinced myself that I would be just as happy adopting (I still want to one day). I didn’t expect to have this overwhelming desire to also have a child that is part of me and my husband, the desire to feel a life growing inside me. Even before this process begin, I had more faith in not getting pregnant then in what God can do, what he did for Sarah, Rebekah and Rachel.

I understand now that I must work on my faith in him and trust his timing and let go of my fears. I’d love to end this testimony stating that I’m pregnant but I’m not (lol). As much as I want to get pregnant, I don’t want God to reward my faithlessness and fear. AF is due today and I’m okay with that. I wanted to share my testimony. I know it will happen when he feels the time is right. Lord, I pray that you continue to use my struggles to get closer to you so that I can better serve you all the days of my life. AMEN.

Baby dust ladies!!! I'm praying for you!!

Wow thank you so much for sharing your story and for your honesty. I guess we don't always understand why things do & don't happen, but at the heart of it is laying it down and handing it to God - really easily said, and not so easily done! I think that the journey that you've been on and how you have used it to get closer to Him is so awesome. Thank you so much for sharing and praying big blessings for you and that you would just know so much His hand on your life, I pray protection over that sense of closeness that in the hard times, He is still right by your side. You're so precious to Him and He loves you so much. Big blessings & thanks for blessing me with your story & sharing your experience xx

 

[BRK06]

I got some time alone so I took a test this morning and it was a BFP. I can't believe it! I started shaking when I saw that and am just so excited. The second line showed up before the control line, hoping that means it's a strong little one inside.

Thank You, Jesus, for this precious gift!

Wow!!! The Lord is pouring His blessings upon us this month! Thank you Jesus!

Congrats Sweetie!! I'm so glad you've gotten your BFP! A VERY H&H 9 months to you

 

[PrincessBree]

I got some time alone so I took a test this morning and it was a BFP. I can't believe it! I started shaking when I saw that and am just so excited. The second line showed up before the control line, hoping that means it's a strong little one inside.

Thank You, Jesus, for this precious gift!

congratulations hun I pray the Lord will bless you and the baby and the entire pregnancy xxx

 

[PrincessBree]

BRK06 - Your a sweety! thanks for checking up on me i feel so special teehee. At first i was a little scared to write on here today(you will soon know why) but since you girls have been like breath to me, encouraging me with your stories, verses, quotes, sympathy and love. It wouldn’t feel right not to share with you! And well infact, I need your prayers. Some days I didn’t think I could make it through, one of you girls said the right thing, shared a link or simply made me feel like I wasn’t alone. You all are infact the only people that know - yep even my hubby doesn't know as of yet.

Last night my Acupuncturist reminded me with a text to go and test so she could recommend some chinese herbs to prevent a further m/c. I was sitting down staring at the stick, when normally if it's 1 line i would get up impatiently and pretend i never tested at all to prevent myself from getting down. But something told me to sit and wait. So i waited. And waited. And eventually I got my BFP! I lifted my head to God and praised him once again, walking out to the kitchen chirpy as my husband was making us g/f homemade pizza.

It was this time last year I first became pregnant. I didn’t know how long it would take for me to be pregnant again after I miscarried, oh how I begged and begged for this day to come again, but to be honest I am terrified to say the least. I am going to wait it out for another few weeks to have my 12 week scan.
I will tell my husband the good news soon but not just yet. I thought I would share with you a poem I wrote recently.

I love you all and may we never stop asking God for our inner most desires of our heart.

X

Awww yay I had been watching your posts and the symptoms you had been describing thinking YEP this is it!!!I am so happy for you hun God bless your 9 months xxxx

 

[BRK06]

Hi Ladies,

It’s been a while since I posted on this thread but I have been lurking. I was struggling spiritually, not getting pregnant was my source of frustration with Jesus. I’ve been saved for 14 years, most of my adolescent years and all of my adult life. I’ve never expected that God was going to make life easier and I never expected that my all my prayers would get answered the way I wanted or as fast as I would like. I’ve always tried to use bad things or struggles to get closer to him rather then get angry and turn away. Last year June, we decided to start TTC, what do you know, that very month I started experiencing horrible pain in my ovaries and bad AF type cramps almost every day. I started having frequent UTI’s which also included blood and clots in my urine , which I never had before, TMI ALERT – horrible painful bowel movements, and exaggerated pregnancy symptoms, nausea, vomiting, fatigue, high temps, etc. At least one cyst ruptured causing my pelvic to get inflamed and an infection.

We started the journey of trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I was fortunate enough most of my life, I never really had any health issues (besides an occasional cold, flu, etc). I went to the ER a couple times, I had a CT scan, a Uroscopy, got prescribed different antibiotics. I was seeing my OBGYN every 6 weeks for an ultrasound because I had cyst but he wasn’t really telling me anything or comforting me. The day of my 3rd ultrasound, I walked out of the office and called another OBGYN and scheduled an appt. A week later he, on the first visit, he did an ultrasound but didn’t charge my insurance for it so that he can see what was going on. He explained the type of cyst that I had and he suggested BC for a month or two. A month later , the cysts were gone but I was still having excruciating pain. He suspected that I had endo. I was sad and disappointed but I wasn’t scared because I have a sister with endo and after she had 2 laps she became too fertile (lol). Though I cried, I was so grateful to God that we knew what the issue was. A month and a half later we had the lap and I was diagnosed with severe endo and my ob told us to try for six months on our own and if it didn’t happen, he will refer us to a specialist. We are on month 4. The scary thing is that sometimes I think I feel the endo growing back.

Keep in mind that we started in June 2011, as if the health issues weren’t discouraging enough, 4 close family members got pregnant after we started trying. 1 was an “accident” and 3 got pregnant within 3 months. 3 of the babies are beautiful and healthy and the 4th will be here shortly. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy for all of them with all my heart and I prayed all the time for them to have a healthy happy 9 months and delivery, which they all have thus far.

My struggle was with the fact that I had this desire for something that didn’t seem like it is supposed to be for me. I questioned my faith and God’s existence…that was the hardest part because I have never questioned my faith and I was so ashamed for doing so. I stopped reading my bible daily, I stopped reading morning messages about God. I even justified not going to church because I just wanted to be mad enough that God would hear me (Lol). I wanted to force him into submission, sad huh! Thank God he doesn’t give up on us!! God made me realize that throughout this process of ttc, he was giving me what I had already believed and feared…that I was infertile. The strongest, oldest fear for me since I was about 18 years old was that I would not be able to get pregnant and have a baby. I even convinced myself that I would be just as happy adopting (I still want to one day). I didn’t expect to have this overwhelming desire to also have a child that is part of me and my husband, the desire to feel a life growing inside me. Even before this process begin, I had more faith in not getting pregnant then in what God can do, what he did for Sarah, Rebekah and Rachel.

I understand now that I must work on my faith in him and trust his timing and let go of my fears. I’d love to end this testimony stating that I’m pregnant but I’m not (lol). As much as I want to get pregnant, I don’t want God to reward my faithlessness and fear. AF is due today and I’m okay with that. I wanted to share my testimony. I know it will happen when he feels the time is right. Lord, I pray that you continue to use my struggles to get closer to you so that I can better serve you all the days of my life. AMEN.

Baby dust ladies!!! I'm praying for you!!

Welcome back Sis! Thank you for sharing your testimony I'll pray for you and the healing of your body. Nothing is impossible for the Great Physician!! We have to rest in Him and trust that He has this all figured out. It's not always the easiest thing, but He makes it worth it

 

[BRK06]

One day Jesus is looking within some leaves and could not find any fruit on a fig tree, for the fruit appears the same time as the leaves do on a fig tree. Jesus then SPOKE to the fig tree out loud, for The Bible tells us that the disciples heard Him. *Next Jesus and the disciples go to the temple and then in the evening they leave the City. *The Bible then tells us, “In the morning, as they went along, they saw the fig tree withered from the roots. 21 Peter remembered and said to Jesus, "Rabbi, look! *The fig tree you cursed has withered!" *22 "HAVE FAITH IN GOD," Jesus answered. *23 "I tell you the truth, if anyone SAYS to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and DOES NOT DOUBT IN HIS HEART BUT BELIEVES that what he SAYS will happen, it WILL BE DONE for him. 24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, BELIEVE THAT YOU HAVE RECEIVED IT, and IT WILL BE yours.” (Mark 11:20-24)

Jesus speaks to this tree, this object and the disciples hear it. *So, Jesus spoke out loud to an OBJECT and told it what to do. *Then what happened? *TIME! *He spoke to the tree and then the next morning they are all walking by the tree again. *Now, Jesus did NOT spend all night after He spoke to that tree and doubt or worry if what He said to the object was going to happen or not. *And when He spoke at first, you could not see that anything had happened, His Words were working from THE INSIDE OUT! *When we speak to an object or situation what God says we can, and WAIT and let TIME do its thing, we will eventually see our Words of Faith were working all the time. *Our Faith will make a demand on that object or situation to change, if we do not stop and begin speaking AGAINST our Words of Faith that we’ve already spoken! *

When Peter said, "Rabbi, look! *The fig tree you cursed has withered!" *Jesus took that opportunity and very moment to teach His students, and what was the subject? *"HAVE FAITH IN GOD," Jesus answered.” *Jesus did not say, Well, Peter I wanted to show you some gardening tips! *OR Peter, that was good you noticed that we are traveling on the right way by the fig tree. *NO! *Jesus was using what the disciples had seen as a teaching tool to show them How To Have Faith In God For Something! *Jesus was showing them and us that we must SPEAK what we BELIEVE and have NO DOUBT and then we shall have what we SAY! *And Jesus said, IF ANYONE would do this it would work for them! *Will all the Anyone’s please say, Amen! * Church, it is time for us to begin speaking to our circumstances what God says, and not doubt and believe what we say WILL COME TO PASS! *It is time for us to learn and master The HAVE FAITH IN GOD Lesson! *It’s our time Church to exercise the teaching that Jesus was instructing His first disciples that day long ago. *We, His present disciples are the ones in His Class now and like that day with the fig tree the subject He wants us to learn is to . . . HAVE FAITH IN GOD!
-Jamie Carte

Scripture of the Day: *“The next day as they were leaving Bethany, Jesus was hungry. *13 Seeing in the distance a fig tree in leaf, he went to find out if it had any fruit. *When he reached it, he found nothing but leaves, because it was not the season for figs. 14 Then he said to the tree, "May no one ever eat fruit from you again." *And his disciples heard him say it.” - Mark 11:12-14 (NIV)


On a humorous note, this story in Mark always makes me laugh! I know how my hubby gets kind of cranky when he is really hungry and I get the mental image of Jesus (with his hungry bear man-side coming out) throwing His hands in the air, as if to say, "Ok! Fine! Be that way... I'll just take care of you!" hahaha Poor Fig tree...

 

[HisGrace]

Praise God for the BFPs! He is faithful! I am so happy for the both of you. I pray His protection over you and your babies. May His angels encamp around you so that you don't even scratch your foot on a rock. I am so happy for you both.

 

[Godsjewel]

One day Jesus is looking within some leaves and could not find any fruit on a fig tree, for the fruit appears the same time as the leaves do on a fig tree. Jesus then SPOKE to the fig tree out loud, for The Bible tells us that the disciples heard Him. *Next Jesus and the disciples go to the temple and then in the evening they leave the City. *The Bible then tells us, “In the morning, as they went along, they saw the fig tree withered from the roots. 21 Peter remembered and said to Jesus, "Rabbi, look! *The fig tree you cursed has withered!" *22 "HAVE FAITH IN GOD," Jesus answered. *23 "I tell you the truth, if anyone SAYS to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and DOES NOT DOUBT IN HIS HEART BUT BELIEVES that what he SAYS will happen, it WILL BE DONE for him. 24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, BELIEVE THAT YOU HAVE RECEIVED IT, and IT WILL BE yours.” (Mark 11:20-24)

Jesus speaks to this tree, this object and the disciples hear it. *So, Jesus spoke out loud to an OBJECT and told it what to do. *Then what happened? *TIME! *He spoke to the tree and then the next morning they are all walking by the tree again. *Now, Jesus did NOT spend all night after He spoke to that tree and doubt or worry if what He said to the object was going to happen or not. *And when He spoke at first, you could not see that anything had happened, His Words were working from THE INSIDE OUT! *When we speak to an object or situation what God says we can, and WAIT and let TIME do its thing, we will eventually see our Words of Faith were working all the time. *Our Faith will make a demand on that object or situation to change, if we do not stop and begin speaking AGAINST our Words of Faith that we’ve already spoken! *

When Peter said, "Rabbi, look! *The fig tree you cursed has withered!" *Jesus took that opportunity and very moment to teach His students, and what was the subject? *"HAVE FAITH IN GOD," Jesus answered.” *Jesus did not say, Well, Peter I wanted to show you some gardening tips! *OR Peter, that was good you noticed that we are traveling on the right way by the fig tree. *NO! *Jesus was using what the disciples had seen as a teaching tool to show them How To Have Faith In God For Something! *Jesus was showing them and us that we must SPEAK what we BELIEVE and have NO DOUBT and then we shall have what we SAY! *And Jesus said, IF ANYONE would do this it would work for them! *Will all the Anyone’s please say, Amen! * Church, it is time for us to begin speaking to our circumstances what God says, and not doubt and believe what we say WILL COME TO PASS! *It is time for us to learn and master The HAVE FAITH IN GOD Lesson! *It’s our time Church to exercise the teaching that Jesus was instructing His first disciples that day long ago. *We, His present disciples are the ones in His Class now and like that day with the fig tree the subject He wants us to learn is to . . . HAVE FAITH IN GOD!
-Jamie Carte

Scripture of the Day: *“The next day as they were leaving Bethany, Jesus was hungry. *13 Seeing in the distance a fig tree in leaf, he went to find out if it had any fruit. *When he reached it, he found nothing but leaves, because it was not the season for figs. 14 Then he said to the tree, "May no one ever eat fruit from you again." *And his disciples heard him say it.” - Mark 11:12-14 (NIV)


On a humorous note, this story in Mark always makes me laugh! I know how my hubby gets kind of cranky when he is really hungry and I get the mental image of Jesus (with his hungry bear man-side coming out) throwing His hands in the air, as if to say, "Ok! Fine! Be that way... I'll just take care of you!" hahaha Poor Fig tree...

AMEN!!!

Body be healed and concieve!!!