Christian ladies TTC, we can encourage one another.

[PrincessBree]

For those of us actively TTC and are feeling consumed with thoughts of TTC, throughout your day when the issue comes into your mind, don't spend time worrying; spend time handing the issue over to God.

Hi dear
That can be easier said than done sometimes, but that's exactly what we need to do.

Oh, I know. I came across this and it blessed me so I decided to share it. I meant no harm. I know you and a few others are no longer actively trying. I meant that for those of us that are still actively trying and struggling with it. I came across it and thought this is exactly what I need to do instead of trying to fight the feelings myself. Im sorry if I offended you or anyone else. I honestly meant no harm. I pray you all stay blessed. Take care.

O hunni we know you didnt mean any harm! xx Im working on taking every thought captive into the obedience of Christ myself!!xx

 

[Heather11]

The part I bolded hits home so hard. I feel so alone in this journey and I thought my friends would be there for me and yet it seems like some of them are no where to be found.....are they letting me down or am I expecting too much of them?! These days it seems maybe a little of both!

And that's exactly why I love this thread, because I know you all are here for me, to encourage me. It's hard to rely on our friends when they can't understand our struggle and I find the best thing to do is go to God with all your cares, worries and anxieties and He will bring a peace that passes all understanding.

Exactly and I have been trying my hardest to continue to let my worries and fears go and let life happen as God has planned for me! I am a stubborn girl and sometimes it is hard!

 

[Godsjewel]

For those of us actively TTC and are feeling consumed with thoughts of TTC, throughout your day when the issue comes into your mind, don't spend time worrying; spend time handing the issue over to God.

Hi dear
That can be easier said than done sometimes, but that's exactly what we need to do.

Oh, I know. I came across this and it blessed me so I decided to share it. I meant no harm. I know you and a few others are no longer actively trying. I meant that for those of us that are still actively trying and struggling with it. I came across it and thought this is exactly what I need to do instead of trying to fight the feelings myself. Im sorry if I offended you or anyone else. I honestly meant no harm. I pray you all stay blessed. Take care.

No offense taken sweetheart Even though i have stopped actively trying, I still have those struggles, so it was good for me to read too

 

[Godsjewel]

Out of Control

24 And behold, there arose a great storm on the sea, so that the boat was being covered with the waves; but Jesus Himself was asleep.
25 And they came to Him and woke Him, saying, "Save us, Lord; we are perishing!"
26 He said to them, "Why are you afraid, you men of little faith?" Then He got up and rebuked the winds and the sea, and it became perfectly calm.
Matthew 8:24-26

For the residents of my home state, recent days have marked the anniversaries of Hurricanes Katrina and Gustav and arrival of Hurricane Isaac. Although most people do all they can to prepare for a hurricane, there are just some elements of the storms that are simply out of their control. They cannot control where the hurricane will make landfall--if it does at all, nor can they control how strong the winds gust. They cannot determine how many inches of rain will fall or whose home may lose a roof. The strength of these storms is simply out of man’s control.

Whether or not you’ve ever been in the path of a hurricane, you undoubtedly find yourself feeling out of control as you face the storm of infertility. So much of your desire to have a child is out of your control. When to have a baby is not up to you, and even how your child is conceived may not happen the way you have always dreamed. You always thought it would happen with romantic music and candle light on a special weekend getaway, but the doctor says it will have to be in a cold, sterile laboratory. You wanted things kept between you and your spouse, but everyone at work knows because you’ve had to take so much time off for treatment. All the dreams you’ve had of presenting your parents with the first grandchild are morphing into something else, because your younger sister is about to give birth ahead of you. Infertility can make your emotions feel as out of control as a category 5 hurricane!

There was a day recorded in Scripture when Jesus sailed on the Sea of Galilee with His disciples. A massive storm rose and the disciples were terrified. (I imagine a lot of Louisiana residents could relate about now!) Water was splashing over the sides of the boat, and the men knew they were going to drown. I can just see them! Eyes wide with terror, these life-toughened men yelling orders at one another as they replayed their last encounters with the ones they loved. The storm was fierce and it was out of their control. No matter what they did, the water kept pounding them. No matter how they had prepared, the wind kept howling, and the boat kept rocking. It didn’t matter that they had followed Jesus, or that they were the best sailors around, they thought they were going to die. The storm they faced that night was out of their control.

But it was not out of Jesus’ control.

You see, right in the middle of this storm, while all the disciples were frantically bailing water out of the boat, it dawned on someone that Jesus wasn’t helping. Why? Because Jesus was asleep. That’s right! He was snoring! Jesus literally laid down in the stern of the ship and took a nap. He was worried because He was in full control. The disciples woke Him, and with much anxiety cried out “Don’t you care? Don’t you care that we’re dying?” (Don’t you love that Scripture just says “they” woke Him? No names listed here!) Scripture tells us that Jesus simply got up, rebuked the storm, and everything became perfectly calm. The storm that petrified the disciples had to obey even the spoken word of the Word, and winds and waves instantly became as calm as glass. Instantly under the control of the Master. The storm was under His control.

Infertility may not be under your control, but it is totally, perfectly under Jesus’ control. You can trust His loving control. You do not have to fear infertility’s effects on your life, on your marriage. Infertility is under the control of your Master. Listen to Him. Rely on Him. Follow His commands. Allow infertility to be a tool He uses to teach you, to reach you, to change you. It’s okay that infertility is not under your control, because it is totally under God’s control. Even when you feel like the disciples felt that day, and you wonder if the storm you are facing is going to be the destruction of you, cry out to Jesus, and allow Him to rescue you. Let Him work through the storm of infertility and bring you to a deeper understanding of what He can do through the difficulties you face

 

[Praying4bump]

Hi Ladies,

I wanted to share this with you all. I know the day will come when the Lord blesses me with a child and I know the day will come when I will quote verses 27 -28. God is good!

1 Samuel 1
1 There was a certain man from Ramathaim, a Zuphite[a] from the hill country of Ephraim, whose name was Elkanah son of Jeroham, the son of Elihu, the son of Tohu, the son of Zuph, an Ephraimite. 2 He had two wives; one was called Hannah and the other Peninnah. Peninnah had children, but Hannah had none.
3 Year after year this man went up from his town to worship and sacrifice to the Lord Almighty at Shiloh, where Hophni and Phinehas, the two sons of Eli, were priests of the Lord. 4 Whenever the day came for Elkanah to sacrifice, he would give portions of the meat to his wife Peninnah and to all her sons and daughters. 5 But to Hannah he gave a double portion because he loved her, and the Lord had closed her womb. 6 Because the Lord had closed Hannah’s womb, her rival kept provoking her in order to irritate her. 7 This went on year after year. Whenever Hannah went up to the house of the Lord, her rival provoked her till she wept and would not eat. 8 Her husband Elkanah would say to her, “Hannah, why are you weeping? Why don’t you eat? Why are you downhearted? Don’t I mean more to you than ten sons?”
9 Once when they had finished eating and drinking in Shiloh, Hannah stood up. Now Eli the priest was sitting on his chair by the doorpost of the Lord’s house. 10 In her deep anguish Hannah prayed to the Lord, weeping bitterly. 11 And she made a vow, saying, “Lord Almighty, if you will only look on your servant’s misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the Lord for all the days of his life, and no razor will ever be used on his head.”
12 As she kept on praying to the Lord, Eli observed her mouth. 13 Hannah was praying in her heart, and her lips were moving but her voice was not heard. Eli thought she was drunk 14 and said to her, “How long are you going to stay drunk? Put away your wine.”
15 “Not so, my lord,” Hannah replied, “I am a woman who is deeply troubled. I have not been drinking wine or beer; I was pouring out my soul to the Lord. 16 Do not take your servant for a wicked woman; I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief.”
17 Eli answered, “Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him.”
18 She said, “May your servant find favor in your eyes.” Then she went her way and ate something, and her face was no longer downcast.
19 Early the next morning they arose and worshiped before the Lord and then went back to their home at Ramah. Elkanah made love to his wife Hannah, and the Lord remembered her. 20 So in the course of time Hannah became pregnant and gave birth to a son. She named him Samuel, saying, “Because I asked the Lord for him.”
21 When her husband Elkanah went up with all his family to offer the annual sacrifice to the Lord and to fulfill his vow, 22 Hannah did not go. She said to her husband, “After the boy is weaned, I will take him and present him before the Lord, and he will live there always.”[c]
23 “Do what seems best to you,” her husband Elkanah told her. “Stay here until you have weaned him; only may the Lord make good his[d] word.” So the woman stayed at home and nursed her son until she had weaned him.
24 After he was weaned, she took the boy with her, young as he was, along with a three-year-old bull,[e] an ephah[f] of flour and a skin of wine, and brought him to the house of the Lord at Shiloh. 25 When the bull had been sacrificed, they brought the boy to Eli, 26 and she said to him, “Pardon me, my lord. As surely as you live, I am the woman who stood here beside you praying to the Lord. 27 I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him. 28 So now I give him to the Lord. For his whole life he will be given over to the Lord.” And he worshiped the Lord there.

 

[Godsjewel]

Hi Ladies,

I wanted to share this with you all. I know the day will come when the Lord blesses me with a child and I know the day will come when I will quote verses 27 -28. God is good!

1 Samuel 1
1 There was a certain man from Ramathaim, a Zuphite[a] from the hill country of Ephraim, whose name was Elkanah son of Jeroham, the son of Elihu, the son of Tohu, the son of Zuph, an Ephraimite. 2 He had two wives; one was called Hannah and the other Peninnah. Peninnah had children, but Hannah had none.
3 Year after year this man went up from his town to worship and sacrifice to the Lord Almighty at Shiloh, where Hophni and Phinehas, the two sons of Eli, were priests of the Lord. 4 Whenever the day came for Elkanah to sacrifice, he would give portions of the meat to his wife Peninnah and to all her sons and daughters. 5 But to Hannah he gave a double portion because he loved her, and the Lord had closed her womb. 6 Because the Lord had closed Hannah’s womb, her rival kept provoking her in order to irritate her. 7 This went on year after year. Whenever Hannah went up to the house of the Lord, her rival provoked her till she wept and would not eat. 8 Her husband Elkanah would say to her, “Hannah, why are you weeping? Why don’t you eat? Why are you downhearted? Don’t I mean more to you than ten sons?”
9 Once when they had finished eating and drinking in Shiloh, Hannah stood up. Now Eli the priest was sitting on his chair by the doorpost of the Lord’s house. 10 In her deep anguish Hannah prayed to the Lord, weeping bitterly. 11 And she made a vow, saying, “Lord Almighty, if you will only look on your servant’s misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the Lord for all the days of his life, and no razor will ever be used on his head.”
12 As she kept on praying to the Lord, Eli observed her mouth. 13 Hannah was praying in her heart, and her lips were moving but her voice was not heard. Eli thought she was drunk 14 and said to her, “How long are you going to stay drunk? Put away your wine.”
15 “Not so, my lord,” Hannah replied, “I am a woman who is deeply troubled. I have not been drinking wine or beer; I was pouring out my soul to the Lord. 16 Do not take your servant for a wicked woman; I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief.”
17 Eli answered, “Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him.”
18 She said, “May your servant find favor in your eyes.” Then she went her way and ate something, and her face was no longer downcast.
19 Early the next morning they arose and worshiped before the Lord and then went back to their home at Ramah. Elkanah made love to his wife Hannah, and the Lord remembered her. 20 So in the course of time Hannah became pregnant and gave birth to a son. She named him Samuel, saying, “Because I asked the Lord for him.”
21 When her husband Elkanah went up with all his family to offer the annual sacrifice to the Lord and to fulfill his vow, 22 Hannah did not go. She said to her husband, “After the boy is weaned, I will take him and present him before the Lord, and he will live there always.”[c]
23 “Do what seems best to you,” her husband Elkanah told her. “Stay here until you have weaned him; only may the Lord make good his[d] word.” So the woman stayed at home and nursed her son until she had weaned him.
24 After he was weaned, she took the boy with her, young as he was, along with a three-year-old bull,[e] an ephah[f] of flour and a skin of wine, and brought him to the house of the Lord at Shiloh. 25 When the bull had been sacrificed, they brought the boy to Eli, 26 and she said to him, “Pardon me, my lord. As surely as you live, I am the woman who stood here beside you praying to the Lord. 27 I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him. 28 So now I give him to the Lord. For his whole life he will be given over to the Lord.” And he worshiped the Lord there.

AMEN! I stand in agreement with you!

 

[HisGrace]

I was just studying my Bible and came across this verse. It really blessed me and will help me to get over my miscarriage. I think it can help out others that have miscarried and those who keep going cycles without a bfp.

Isaiah 43:18-19 says, "Forget about what's happened. Don't keep going over old history. Be alert, be present. I'm about to do something brand new. It's bursting out, don't you see it?"

So forget about last cycle and all the other bfn's you've seen month after month. Go into this cycle with a new attitude, a renewed spirit. God is bringing life to this thread! Praise God!

Looks like I'll get to put this new attitude into practice now. I got my bfp yesterday and my past miscarriage keeps popping up in my mind. But I am casting down those thoughts and trying to forget the past by giving it all to Him.

 

[Godsjewel]

I was just studying my Bible and came across this verse. It really blessed me and will help me to get over my miscarriage. I think it can help out others that have miscarried and those who keep going cycles without a bfp.

Isaiah 43:18-19 says, "Forget about what's happened. Don't keep going over old history. Be alert, be present. I'm about to do something brand new. It's bursting out, don't you see it?"

So forget about last cycle and all the other bfn's you've seen month after month. Go into this cycle with a new attitude, a renewed spirit. God is bringing life to this thread! Praise God!

Looks like I'll get to put this new attitude into practice now. I got my bfp yesterday and my past miscarriage keeps popping up in my mind. But I am casting down those thoughts and trying to forget the past by giving it all to Him.

WHAT?!?!?! and you waited this long to tell us...

I'm super excited for you sweetheart

I pray for a healthy and happy pregnancy.

 

[Praying4bump]

Congrats his grace. Praying for a h & h 9mos!!

 

[No Doubt]

I was just studying my Bible and came across this verse. It really blessed me and will help me to get over my miscarriage. I think it can help out others that have miscarried and those who keep going cycles without a bfp.

Isaiah 43:18-19 says, "Forget about what's happened. Don't keep going over old history. Be alert, be present. I'm about to do something brand new. It's bursting out, don't you see it?"

So forget about last cycle and all the other bfn's you've seen month after month. Go into this cycle with a new attitude, a renewed spirit. God is bringing life to this thread! Praise God!

Looks like I'll get to put this new attitude into practice now. I got my bfp yesterday and my past miscarriage keeps popping up in my mind. But I am casting down those thoughts and trying to forget the past by giving it all to Him.

Congrats hun!

 

[HisGrace]

I was just studying my Bible and came across this verse. It really blessed me and will help me to get over my miscarriage. I think it can help out others that have miscarried and those who keep going cycles without a bfp.

Isaiah 43:18-19 says, "Forget about what's happened. Don't keep going over old history. Be alert, be present. I'm about to do something brand new. It's bursting out, don't you see it?"

So forget about last cycle and all the other bfn's you've seen month after month. Go into this cycle with a new attitude, a renewed spirit. God is bringing life to this thread! Praise God!

Looks like I'll get to put this new attitude into practice now. I got my bfp yesterday and my past miscarriage keeps popping up in my mind. But I am casting down those thoughts and trying to forget the past by giving it all to Him.

WHAT?!?!?! and you waited this long to tell us...

I'm super excited for you sweetheart

I pray for a healthy and happy pregnancy.

LOL. It hasn't even been 24 hours. Thanks for the well wishes and your prayers.

 

[beckysprayer]

I was just studying my Bible and came across this verse. It really blessed me and will help me to get over my miscarriage. I think it can help out others that have miscarried and those who keep going cycles without a bfp.

Isaiah 43:18-19 says, "Forget about what's happened. Don't keep going over old history. Be alert, be present. I'm about to do something brand new. It's bursting out, don't you see it?"

So forget about last cycle and all the other bfn's you've seen month after month. Go into this cycle with a new attitude, a renewed spirit. God is bringing life to this thread! Praise God!

Looks like I'll get to put this new attitude into practice now. I got my bfp yesterday and my past miscarriage keeps popping up in my mind. But I am casting down those thoughts and trying to forget the past by giving it all to Him.

Congrats!! I'm so happy for you! Praying this is a healthy little baby who will grow like a weed and have a strong heart.

 

[Godsjewel]

Grief is obvious when you consider the loss of a precious baby. It is easy to understand how your heart can be torn into when a doctor delivers the devastating news that your baby has not survived. Most people can at least offer condolences in a situation such as this. However, few people understand the grief that accompanies infertility.

When you try unsuccessfully to conceive a child, your grieving process begins anew every 28 days. You grieve the child that could have been conceived that month. You grieve the loss of celebrations with the baby you would have given birth to, had you gotten pregnant that month. If the grief of primary infertility is misunderstood, how much more is the grief of secondary infertility misunderstood! As with any loss, there is definitely grief with infertility.

So what do we do with this grief? Do we deny it and try to pretend that it doesn’t affect us? Are we weak because we grieve a baby that has never existed? What does God expect us to do with this grief that He is allowing us to go through? Does He care about it? Will He stop it?

Scripture has much to say about grief and actually helps us to define it as a process, rather than a one-time event. Grief is something that we must walk through. There is no way that we can process grief in one day, in one experience. We must walk through the stages of grief and learn every painful lesson she has to teach us. However, God has promised to walk with us through every excruciating step. Lo, I am with you always (Matthew 28:20), Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted (Matthew 5:4), God, who comforts the depressed...(2 Corinthians 7:6).

Whether your grief is from losing a baby you held in your heart so much longer than in your body, or from loving a baby that has yet to be conceived, you can rest assured that God promises that you can survive through His strength. I can do everything through him who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13) The darkest days of your grief are no match for the strength of the God who loves you enough to offer His Son as a sacrifice for you. He is enough to pull you through the deepest sorrow that grief throws at you. Even if your heart is enveloped in mind-numbing grief over another miscarriage or another failed procedure, the devastation you feel today will not last forever. Weeping may last for the night, But a shout of joy comes in the morning! (Psalm 30:5)

So walk through valley of grief. Learn the lessons laid out before you. Shed the tears you need to. Lean on the Good Shepherd who promises to never leave you or forsake you. Tell Him how it hurts. Eventually you’ll see that morning is coming and your grief is lessening. You will survive the grief you feel.

 

[Godsjewel]

For whatever was written in earlier times was written for our instruction, so that through perseverance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope. Romans 15:4

The Bible, written thousands of years ago by men inspired by God Himself, was given to you for powerful purposes. 2 Timothy 3:16-17 says All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness; so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work. The Word of God is given to you to teach you, to train you, even to correct you when you are wrong. It teaches you how to handle difficult days, how to lean on God when you feel weak, how to celebrate when you finally get that positive pregnancy test.

But the Bible was written so long ago! It doesn’t apply to me and my struggle today! Not so, friend! Do you realize that the truths of Scripture are just as real and just as powerful for you today as they were when the ink was still wet when the patriarchs scribbled the words on their scrolls? Romans 15:4 tells us For whatever was written in earlier times was written for our instruction, so that through perseverance and the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope. The authority of Scripture has no expiration date! The same God who spoke to Abraham and encouraged him and Sarah through their years of waiting for a child, still encourages you today. The same God who stood with Hannah as she wept in the temple, stands with you as you weep, and still promises to be with you always (Matthew 28:20)

You can remind God of His every promise! The promises recorded in Scripture are promises made to you as well. “God you promised to be with me, to never leave me or forsake me. I need You today. I cannot tell my husband that the IUI failed again unless I know You are with me.” “God, you promised that I can do all things through You because You give me strength. Thank You for Your strength today.” In John 14:27, Jesus says " Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.” If you are fearful over what your future holds, or you are afraid of what the doctor is going to tell you, remind your heart of what Jesus says. He gives you His peace when you are afraid. Even infertility is no match for the peace given by the Prince of Peace!

Perhaps you’ve never realized how very relevant Scripture is to your infertility struggle. It’s pages are full of men and women just like you who cried out to God for a baby. Time after time we see God intervene in families who were consumed with baby hunger, and we see Him work and move in miraculous ways. We are reminded today that the power and the authority of Scripture has not be weakened by time.

God bless you as you persevere and search the Scriptures for encouragement in your journey!

 

[Godsjewel]

Happy Friday!

I pray you all are enjoying this beautiful day the Lord has made.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone

 

[Praying4bump]

Happy Friday!

I pray you all are enjoying this beautiful day the Lord has made.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone

Thanks you too!

 

[me222]

So what’s been going on with you ladies lately?

I sadly had a little breakdown on my birthday …I was really hoping that I was going to be blessed with a BFP, but instead got AF. I fell on my knees before the Lord in tears telling Him I can’t do this anymore and that I want more than anything to completely give it all to Him. I don’t want to go month to month thinking of ttc and all that other stuff, I want to keep my eyes on Jesus and be the best wife to my hubby and best mom to Taylor I can be. It’s hard sometimes to give it all to God and it feels like most of the time I do…it’s just those times where I try to grab hold of it again and try to do all I can to make it happen… and I can’t… I need to leave it in the hands of our Heavenly Father. I will no longer see a fertility specialist, take meds, do IUI’s, or track my ovulation. I want to be free of this and I know God will get the glory the day I am blessed with a child.

As for the doctors visit, she did a physical exam and said my ovaries and uterus feel fine and she doesn’t know why I’m spotting and having lower ab pain and since this is the first month that this has been happening, she wants me to wait a couple more cycles to see if it happens again. She said it could possibly be the endometriosis coming back. I asked if we should do an ultrasound to make sure and she said there was no need since she didn’t feel anything abnormal. I’m just praying that all these symptoms disappear and that my body will start to function the way God intended it to.

I’m so looking forward to hearing praise reports soon.

Praying for you, Sarah. That God will continue to comfort and guide you and provide children for you. Hugs.

 

[me222]

Grief is obvious when you consider the loss of a precious baby. It is easy to understand how your heart can be torn into when a doctor delivers the devastating news that your baby has not survived. Most people can at least offer condolences in a situation such as this. However, few people understand the grief that accompanies infertility.

When you try unsuccessfully to conceive a child, your grieving process begins anew every 28 days. You grieve the child that could have been conceived that month. You grieve the loss of celebrations with the baby you would have given birth to, had you gotten pregnant that month. If the grief of primary infertility is misunderstood, how much more is the grief of secondary infertility misunderstood! As with any loss, there is definitely grief with infertility.

So what do we do with this grief? Do we deny it and try to pretend that it doesn’t affect us? Are we weak because we grieve a baby that has never existed? What does God expect us to do with this grief that He is allowing us to go through? Does He care about it? Will He stop it?

Scripture has much to say about grief and actually helps us to define it as a process, rather than a one-time event. Grief is something that we must walk through. There is no way that we can process grief in one day, in one experience. We must walk through the stages of grief and learn every painful lesson she has to teach us. However, God has promised to walk with us through every excruciating step. Lo, I am with you always (Matthew 28:20), Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted (Matthew 5:4), God, who comforts the depressed...(2 Corinthians 7:6).

Whether your grief is from losing a baby you held in your heart so much longer than in your body, or from loving a baby that has yet to be conceived, you can rest assured that God promises that you can survive through His strength. I can do everything through him who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13) The darkest days of your grief are no match for the strength of the God who loves you enough to offer His Son as a sacrifice for you. He is enough to pull you through the deepest sorrow that grief throws at you. Even if your heart is enveloped in mind-numbing grief over another miscarriage or another failed procedure, the devastation you feel today will not last forever. Weeping may last for the night, But a shout of joy comes in the morning! (Psalm 30:5)

So walk through valley of grief. Learn the lessons laid out before you. Shed the tears you need to. Lean on the Good Shepherd who promises to never leave you or forsake you. Tell Him how it hurts. Eventually you’ll see that morning is coming and your grief is lessening. You will survive the grief you feel.

Hi Sarah - thanks for posting this! Sometimes we can feel guilty for grieving about that child that could have been conceived (or maybe it's just me?). We think "I shouldn't be so upset.. because (insert reason..e.g: worse things happen to people, I just need to be happy in God and not upset etc.). God doesn't want us to deny our emotions - but to give them to Him. And I was thinking with the last bit where it says : "So walk though valley of grief.." it reminds me of Psalm 23. Regardless of what we're going through, He is with us. He is guiding us through our journeys in life. And - when it feels so unbearable and SO overwhelming..He will carry us. He wants us to pour out our hearts to Him. He doesn't want us to bottle our emotions and think that because we're Christians, we're not allowed to be angry or upset. He created us and knows our emotions.
Keep pouring them out to Jesus, girls. He will walk with us and carry us.
"He takes me to lush pastures, he leads me to refreshing water. He restores my strength. He leads me down the right paths for the sake of his reputation. 23:4 Even when I must walk through the darkest valley, I fear no danger, for you are with me;your rod and your staff reassure me" - Psalm 23:2-4.

HisGrace- congratulations! Praying for a great pregnancy for you. Hugs.

 

[stevens2010]

I also want to thank you for posting about grief. I've been struggling big time the past week, with my emotions and I've found myself breaking down in tears almost every day throughout the day! It feels like an outpouring of emotion that's built up, rather than sadness over my situation if that makes sense?

I was in church yesterday and listening to the worship as the team finished their song and I nearly crumbled. I feel so full of tears, like I need to have a really good clean out.

A couple of other things have happened and I don't know that they mean anything, but I'd like to think they do.

I was praying about 5 weeks ago in church about DH and I having a baby and I kept asking God when? When is it our turn? When will I see beautiful lines? And almost straightaway in my head was APRIL. I counted the months ahead and realised there were 8. It stuck in my head. Later that same day, my sister announced she was pregnant and due in April. I would like to think my Father in Heaven was "fore-warning" me of her announcement. There'd been a few signs that she was pregnant and I already knew in my heart but I didn't know she'd done a test and confirmed it til that day. My heart broke and I fell apart. I went on with round 4 of Clomid, praying to God I'd be bump buddies with my sister. We're so close in our relationship and I desperately wanted to be on this journey with her.

Anyways, just before starting round 4 (while expecting a bfp from round 3!) I prayed again. God, when will it be our turn? I'm begging, crying out Lord, please bless us with a baby. I desperately want to be a mother, my heart aches, longing and waiting to finally tell my husband that he's going to be a daddy. In my head flashed ROUND 5. I heard it again, ROUND 5. I replied with Lord, I'm not yet on round 4. Shall I write it off? Have a break? No answer. I decided to go full steam with round 4, trying just as hard as the round before it. I was calm when my period arrived. Inside I could feel emotions bubbling away, anger, disappointment, hurt, heartbreak, GRIEF, jealousy, bitterness... And I feel ready to explode with tears. I remembered ROUND 5 and here I am, CD5 on round 5. It may be nothing, may well have been my sub-conscious answering me with round5. But it could be God's voice. I'm praying it's God, trying to trust that it is and I'm going to do my best to relax and enjoy the month with my husband. It's strange that my feelings don't feel like they're about our situation. I don't feel sad. I don't feel depressed. I wonder if my body needs to clear out the last 2 years of all those feelings so that I can have a pure body for round 5. Ready to receive a child, our gift from God.

I could be wrong... But something in me just feels that I've gotta have a spring clean of my emotions and the build up from the last 2 years.

Pray for me ladies, I'm trying to make sense of things and I feel very overwhelmed.

Oh and before I forget. Randomly flicking through my husband's profile on a social networking site and I came across a conversation between him and his best friend. His BF is not a christian but believes there is a God. He knows my DH and I are trying for a baby and he told DH he would pray for us. Unbeknown to me at the time, DH's BF actually went into his local church, sat down and prayed to God that he would bless us with a child. It brought me to tears. His friend commented "I don't know why, but September is in my head."

Say we fall pregnant this cycle, our child would be conceived this month, in September!

I'm praying Lord that this is Your direct word, given to us in preparation for what we're about to be given. But if it is NOT, we are still trusting in Your perfect timing. Lord strengthen us and help us to listen for Your guidance and Your direction. Our lives are not our own, we are adopted to You and we commit our situation to You, we hand over control and desires to You. Thank You Father that You are sufficient. Amen.

 

[Heather.1987]

Subscribing. My name is heather ttc #1, cycle #3, cd20, 1dpo.