Christian ladies TTC, we can encourage one another.

[beckysprayer]

Most of you know I went to see the Obstetrics Physician who deals with high blood pressure yesterday, and this is what happened…

As soon as I got to the place, I tried to just relax and enjoy the scenery outside the window, but nope..didn't work. So they weighed me and did my BP and that darn BP machine at the Doctor's office got the best of me...lol! My BP was 145/89. They directed me towards the doctor’s office and had me wait for the doc to come in. All of a sudden, my hands started to feel all clammy and I started to get nervous...I mean, this guy has the power right now to say, "We should probably wait for you to do IVF until we make sure your BP is consistently in the normal range." We discussed my medical history and he believes it's mainly passed from my family, but there are things I could do to help it...eat right, exercise..etc. He looked at my labs and previous medical records and said other than infertility, endometriosis and high blood pressure...I'm pretty healthy (gold star for me)

He said the medication I'm on is good, but there is a better one for when I become pregnant, I told him, "Yes, I like what you said..when you become pregnant" He said he sees nothing in my history that could prevent a pregnancy or me moving forward in this process....Can I get an AMEN?!? He asked me when I wanted to start the IVF process and I said...NOW! hahaha! Then I had to share what the Lord did for us, so I told him God blessed hubby and I with this opportunity of having great insurance coverage and he was amazed, he said that was GREAT coverage. I want to be sure to always give God the glory for what He has done.

I told him I wanted to start right away since I've been waiting over 5 years and he said, "no problem, I'm going to fax over the clearance paperwork to your physician right now" WOOHOO!!!

So guess who called the IVF clinic this morning and scheduled her next appointment??? THIS GIRL!!!

I go in for a IVF cycle review on the 29th.

I'm so happy for you! This is wonderful news and I cannot wait to hear how the next steps go. And they scheduled you in so soon! God is so good. And I'm sure He is please and honored that you give Him the glory whenever possible. You are a true role model for us!

So sorry to hear you're sick, Sarah! The flu that's going around right now is a nasty one - praying you're feeling better soon!



DH and I have finally shared with our church home group that we are TTC. I was hesitant at first because we are the only couple in our group with no children. It was a surprise to me when we went to share it that he had already let the beans spill at his Men's Fraternity group that morning. I guess the more people praying for us, the better, but I really didn't want a TON of people to know. No need to add the pressure of, "So... you two have any announcements, yet?!" to the mix.

I've been feeling really discouraged about myself recently, but having a good cry this morning and having DH pray over me has helped a lot. It's a good thing I ran myself dry of tears early because we found out our "firstborn" (almsot-8 y/o boxer dog) has metastatic lymphoma this afternoon.

Oh goodness, don't I sound like a ball of sunshine?! On a positive note, this evening DH was named head baseball coach for the team he's been assistant coaching for the past 2 years. I'm looking forward to getting a "Mrs Coach" jacket!

I'm so sorry to hear about your beloved dog. I found out my cat has cancer a few months ago, but he has been doing alright with the medication. I cried so much when I found out, fur babies are such a special part of our lives. Can the vet do anything for you dog or is it an aggressive cancer?

And that is exciting about your husband being named head coach. Soon you will have a little slugger of your own!

 

[beckysprayer]

Becky- praying for you. What's happening??? Hugs.

Sarah- thanking God for this opportunity He has given you and for your amazing witness to your dr! wow!!! Thanks for being a great example to the rest of us!!! Praying for a child for you and for each of you on here as well as thanking God for the children God has already provided some of you.

AF came on Tuesday night. I had a bit of a cry just before as it hurts. My closest friend told me last night about a woman she knew who knows someone who just got pregnant after ttc for 13 years. My friend talked about how hard that must've been for this woman. I just nodded politely while hurting deep inside. My friend doesn't know we've been ttc for 2 years. But, perhaps God used her to encourage me to not give up? I don't know. God's will is perfect and I need to trust Him. That doesn't mean I don't have to deny my feelings. Yes, I hurt and I cry out to Jesus- He can handle our complaints, our hurts. He loves us and His will is perfect.

Many hugs to all of you as we all struggle through this journey. May God be glorified in our suffering as well as in our joys.

I'm so sorry AF came for you. That is always one of the worst days, but it just means you are one month closer to holding your little one.

AFM, I had that one bout of brown blood yesterday and then another light brown spot this afternoon. It's still just brown and not a whole lot so I am really trying to remain optimistic. I tend to be a huge worrywart so that's easier said than done for me, but I can truly feel all of your prayers so thank you VERY much. It definitely means a lot to me. I've been feeling terribly nauseated still so that gives me some hope. Sounds weird to be happy over such a thing, but we find hope in the smallest of things!

Thanks so much for all of your prayers and kind words. It helps more than you know!

 

[LoveandSeven]

Hello there ladies,

I'm wondering if any of you can help me come to some sort of conclusion concerning my situation..

My Fiance and I happily found out we were expecting in December, after months of trying for our first bub. I went through a tough few weeks of bad cramping and spotting which frightened me so much that I didn't want to get out of bed for days on end. Only for us to lose our precious baby on the 14th of January through m/c at close to 8 weeks.

Being absolutely heartbroken, we then came to find out that my younger sister in law who lives with us, and already has a one year old, is once again pregnant. And she too, was around 8 weeks along last time they checked.

Knowing that everything in our life happens for a reason that God intended, I ask you lovely women, what do you believe my lesson will be now? I really don't know how I will handle watching her belly grow at the rate that mine was going to grow, watching her baby be born into the world, very close to when mine was going to be born.. I'm trying to figure out why I will be tortured seeing these things right in front of me? That way I can at least have something in my mind that says the entire process is worth it somehow.

 

[Godsjewel]

Hello there ladies,

I'm wondering if any of you can help me come to some sort of conclusion concerning my situation..

My Fiance and I happily found out we were expecting in December, after months of trying for our first bub. I went through a tough few weeks of bad cramping and spotting which frightened me so much that I didn't want to get out of bed for days on end. Only for us to lose our precious baby on the 14th of January through m/c at close to 8 weeks.

Being absolutely heartbroken, we then came to find out that my younger sister in law who lives with us, and already has a one year old, is once again pregnant. And she too, was around 8 weeks along last time they checked.

Knowing that everything in our life happens for a reason that God intended, I ask you lovely women, what do you believe my lesson will be now? I really don't know how I will handle watching her belly grow at the rate that mine was going to grow, watching her baby be born into the world, very close to when mine was going to be born.. I'm trying to figure out why I will be tortured seeing these things right in front of me? That way I can at least have something in my mind that says the entire process is worth it somehow.

First of all, I’m very sorry to hear about your angel, I can’t even imagine the pain and heartache you felt going through that time in your life.

Believe me when I say, God is good and He will NEVER leave you or forsake you and wants nothing more than to comfort you with His love and peace. I don’t have all the answers, but I do know that when we go through various trials, God wants nothing more than for us to put our trust in Him. You may not see what you are going through now to be helpful to you, but God sees the bigger picture. We never know what is just around the corner, it may be that God has something else planned for you at this time.

This all leads to my favorite scripture that has helped me through so much….

All things work together for good, to those who love God and are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28

Maybe during this time you and your Fiance can focus on each other and getting ready for your wedding day. I know that can be an exciting time in a girl’s life and will also help take your mind off your current situation.

 

[Godsjewel]

The hand of the LORD was upon me, and He brought me out by the Spirit of the LORD and set me down in the middle of the valley; and it was full of bones. He caused me to pass among them round about, and behold, there were very many on the surface of the valley; and lo, they were very dry.

He said to me, "Son of man, can these bones live?" And I answered, "O Lord GOD, You know."

Again He said to me, "Prophesy over these bones and say to them, 'O dry bones, hear the word of the LORD.'

“Thus says the Lord GOD to these bones, 'Behold, I will cause breath to enter you that you may come to life. I will put sinews on you, make flesh grow back on you, cover you with skin and put breath in you that you may come alive; and you will know that I am the LORD.'"

Ezekiel 37:1-5

Has infertility dried up the joy in your life so that you feel like nothing more than a pile of dry bones? I’m not talking about just feeling tired of the struggle. Not just heartsick when you walk into a room of women talking about their labor pains. I’m talking about a jumbled mess of remains of formerly alive, vibrant people! Not people who could be revived with a glass of water, or even those who had recently passed away, but those whose lifeless bodies have baked in the hot, dry sun so long that they had decomposed into nothing more than a pile of dry bones.

Are you dry bones? Avoid people? Don’t read your Bible? Have you stopped praying? Have you seen your spiritual life become like a pile of dry bones as you’ve trudged the journey of infertility for too many years?

If so, I have good news for you. Dry bones are beginning to rattle! The breath of God still blows in the Valley of Dry Bones.

In this vision, Ezekiel begins to hear rattling. The dead, dry bones are beginning to come together as flesh and skin begin to cover them once again. The breath of God blew on them and these dead, dry bodies sprung to life again. God raised them up and created an exceedingly great army of those whose heartaches had diminished them to nothing more than a valley full of very dead, very dry bones.

Why would God have allowed the people in this vision to die, dry up and clutter a valley with such morbid décor? If He was going to bring them back to life anyway, why would He allow them to die in the first place? Why would He allow infertility in your life? Why not lead these people—and you—on a holy detour around the tragedy that obviously befell them?

The answer is found in 37:13: “Then you will know that I am the LORD, when I have opened your graves and caused you to come up out of your graves, My people.”

God can raise you up from the devastation of infertility, breathe His Spirit into you and cause you to be a part of an exceedingly great army. You didn’t realize it, but you are actually in basic training. Imagine how infertility can be part of the testimony of your life. A child born after an impossible medical diagnosis is give to his/her mother is testament that God is the giver of life. A childless couple thriving despite the unmet desire for a child demonstrates unflinching faith in an unseen God. This valley you find yourself in today is a chapter in the story of you. Your life can be encouragement to those who travel down infertility path behind you.

Trust God in this valley. Trust that He will restore life to dead, dry bones.

-Beth Forbus

 

[BRK06]

"Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see." Hebrews 11:1 (NIV)

Last year I had emergency surgery on my ears. And while the pain went away, there is still a really loud, constant ringing in my left ear.

Because of this ringing, I've had many sleepless nights. But one night in particular proved to be more than I thought I could handle. The screeching in my ear reached an all time high and not even medication helped. My throat tightened as frustration of this situation threatened to spill out in a million tears. I could feel myself slipping over a terrifying edge ... that edge where hopelessness steps into the moment and you feel too weak to resist it.

I whispered, "I'm slipping God. I can't stand this another minute. Much less five more minutes. Or five more hours. Seriously God. I can't. I'm trying to be brave. I've begged for Your healing. And I truly believe You are healing me. But I'm freaking out. And I'm so sorry if 'freaking' is a bad word — I'm still on the fence about that one. But God, I feel myself falling and I can't figure out what to grab onto."

This is where faith gets awfully messy, isn't it?

Faith.

Most days, I'm like a little kid on the swing going higher and higher without fear. I know the swing will hold me. I know the chains are secure. I'm bold. Assured. Confident.

That night though, I was terrified of the swing. The chains felt more like unraveling threads with a screaming me dangling at the end. My faith felt small.

But my faith was right in front of me. And when one falls, out of instinct they grab onto whatever is right in front of them.

And I just want you to know that even small faith is completely able to hold you. It held me that night. Through the minutes and hours I didn't think I could press on.

I started recounting all the ways God made sure my faith was front and center for this slip. I thought about the ways I'd seen His hand even in the previous days.

Recounting His faithfulness secured the chains. Showed me I wasn't dangling by a thread out on my own.

One of those ways was discovering my husband's sound machine is a gift. That crazy sound machine has aggravated the stink out of me for years. But when put on the rain setting, it helps soothe the screeching in my ear.

Without having told my pastor about my ear, he sent me a text saying he was praying for me and God had put 1 Kings 18:41-46 on his heart.

And what are those verses about?

Rain. The sound of a heavy rain.

A rain that happens in between two vastly different displays of faith in Elijah's life. One minute he's swinging with great faith so bold and secure he calls fire down from heaven.

Then only a few verses later he's dangling by a thread as he runs and hides in a cave.

The Lord comes to Elijah in a gentle whisper and shows him what to do at the end of that thread. "Go back the way you came." (1 Kings 19:15a NIV)

God was saying, "Backtrack and remember all the places I've been faithful in your life. And know with assurance. And boldness. And confidence. I AM. I AM the same faithful God."

So, I let these words slip into my soul. I turn up the sound of rain. I grab onto my faith right in front of me. And discover, I am held by the great I AM. I guess I just wanted to be that friend today who reminds you, no matter what you're going through — the same is true for you.

Dear Lord, thank You for being so faithful, even when it feels like things are slipping away. Help me today as I let Your promises and truth sink deep into my heart. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

Power Verse:
1 Samuel 12:24, "But be sure to fear the Lord and serve Him faithfully with all your heart; consider what great things He has done for you." (NIV)

-Lysa TerKeurst

 

[Mattsgirl]

Hey Becky I just wanted to pop in and let you know that there are six or seven ladies in the small group that I'm in that have been spotting or straight up bleed almost the whole time since finding out that they are pregnant. Almost all of them are in second tri now or are gonna be in a week or so. They have beautiful scans of their babies and have heard or seen the heartbeat. It could be as simple as an irritated cervix or an infection of some kind. I would try really hard not to worry. ( I know you can try all you want but its probably not gonna happen) But just wanted to give you some hope that its not necessarily worst case scenario. Also just remember that the Lord loves you and that sweet little angle of yours. God Bless, I pray everything works out great for you and you have that little baby in your arms soon.

 

[musiegirl]

"The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;"

Lamentations 3:25

I struggle with this every day. Seeking HIM above all else of this world. At this moment, I am so consumed with becoming pregnant and bringing our lonesome duo into a wonderful family that I forget He needs to become my daily consumption! I'm glad to know there is encouragement to be found with other ladies who are going through the same struggle!

 

[Godsjewel]

"The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;"

Lamentations 3:25

I struggle with this every day. Seeking HIM above all else of this world. At this moment, I am so consumed with becoming pregnant and bringing our lonesome duo into a wonderful family that I forget He needs to become my daily consumption! I'm glad to know there is encouragement to be found with other ladies who are going through the same struggle!

Welcome So glad you've joined us!

Yes, it's crazy how many things in our daily lives can distract us from seeking Him. He is wonderful and faithful no matter what our circumstances.

 

[VGibs]

Hello there ladies,

I'm wondering if any of you can help me come to some sort of conclusion concerning my situation..

My Fiance and I happily found out we were expecting in December, after months of trying for our first bub. I went through a tough few weeks of bad cramping and spotting which frightened me so much that I didn't want to get out of bed for days on end. Only for us to lose our precious baby on the 14th of January through m/c at close to 8 weeks.

Being absolutely heartbroken, we then came to find out that my younger sister in law who lives with us, and already has a one year old, is once again pregnant. And she too, was around 8 weeks along last time they checked.

Knowing that everything in our life happens for a reason that God intended, I ask you lovely women, what do you believe my lesson will be now? I really don't know how I will handle watching her belly grow at the rate that mine was going to grow, watching her baby be born into the world, very close to when mine was going to be born.. I'm trying to figure out why I will be tortured seeing these things right in front of me? That way I can at least have something in my mind that says the entire process is worth it somehow.

I don't know how much help I can be...but I was on the opposite side of this kind of situation. My SIL *whom I don't speak to anymore* got pregnant with a married man. She smoked, had unprotected sex with random men, did drugs, and drank alcohol while she was pregnant. Her baby was stillborn one week before his due date. Needless to say, her family was devastated. And when I became pregnant they completely distanced themselves from me. They wanted nothing to do with me. They said that it hurt to bad when they lost Baby P and they didn't want to get "attached" to my baby. And didn't want to get their hopes up. I felt like I was being punished for the way their daughter had acted during her pregnancy and I was suffering her mistakes. Not only that but she would sob every time she saw me and would cry uncontrollably every time anyone asked her about my pregnancy. So I felt like no one was allowed to talk about my baby in case her feelings were hurt. It put a huge rift in our family and caused a lot of hurt and heartache. I just wanted people to be happy and excited for us.

I know in my heart that you would never treat your SIL the way that I was treated. But always keep in mind that despite your pain and grief, that baby will be a part of your family. And love doesn't divide, it multiplies. And when you do become pregnant again you will have someone to give you advice, and always have someone on hand to ask questions. I'm not sure what your lesson may be, but I know you will find out soon.

 

[HisGrace]

Becky - So glad you are feeling better. I experienced the same spotting as you. The only difference is I didn't have the reassuring morning sickness. I accepted that I would miscarry and began praying that God would give me strength to deal with another miscarriage. I was in total shock when I went in for my ultrasound and saw a beating heart. I have a bump buddy that had spotting too. Her doctor said it was basically a pocket of old blood was trapped in her cervix (he described the cervix like a toilet paper roll sealed at both ends only a lot smaller) that needed to eventually work its way out. I believe that's what I had and I continued to spot until I was 14weeks. Being pregnant after a miscarriage is so scary and when things aren't perfect it gets even scarier but God has us covered. Regardless of the outcome He will comfort us. I believe all is well with you and your precious baby.

 

[xxx_faithful]

Hello there ladies,

I'm wondering if any of you can help me come to some sort of conclusion concerning my situation..

My Fiance and I happily found out we were expecting in December, after months of trying for our first bub. I went through a tough few weeks of bad cramping and spotting which frightened me so much that I didn't want to get out of bed for days on end. Only for us to lose our precious baby on the 14th of January through m/c at close to 8 weeks.

Being absolutely heartbroken, we then came to find out that my younger sister in law who lives with us, and already has a one year old, is once again pregnant. And she too, was around 8 weeks along last time they checked.

Knowing that everything in our life happens for a reason that God intended, I ask you lovely women, what do you believe my lesson will be now? I really don't know how I will handle watching her belly grow at the rate that mine was going to grow, watching her baby be born into the world, very close to when mine was going to be born.. I'm trying to figure out why I will be tortured seeing these things right in front of me? That way I can at least have something in my mind that says the entire process is worth it somehow.

I just felt like the Lord spoke these words to me, 'If i put you in a comfortable situation, i would expect you to feel comfortable. But it is when i put you in a challenging, that i want to see you rise.'

So often we feel that when we are placed in situations that are in our ability to handle, we are able to conquer the mission, to pass the test. But that is far from where God wants us to stay. Unfortunately we live in a world that is unjust, that is unfair and sometimes we have no choice but to stand, be the strong person we don't feel inside and stride ahead. Our heart and mind may not necessarily be inspired to be brave and to show happiness to those around us, but soon enough, God sees that we are trying, and allows our body to catch up with our mind, so that we are intentionally doing good in his eyes.

Now i'm not speaking from someone who hasn't got a clue what your going through, infact the situation you are enduring was infact mine mid last year...

My SIL (as lovely as she can be) found out we were pregnant at the same time as her (she announced it alot sooner then we did) and it wasnt long before she told me exactly how she felt about our pregnancy. 'I should of waited a year until she had all the attention' 'I should of pre-warned her that we were trying' 'She wanted to be the only person in the family with a baby' etc. It did more then hurt, i was heartbroken. We miscarried a week later.

I'm not a quick learner, I learnt the hard way. I told my husband we couldn't see them anymore, had endless amount of arguments, i couldnt deal with the loss. I put our m/c before my SIL, before my marriage, and before God. I had nothing else left emotionally, that one day i went to her house and left my bitterness at her door.

I was that determined to rid my body of resentment i did everything my heart did not want to do.
- I looked after her baby during the night the first week she was born
- (Im a child's photographer as a second job) so i took her post baby photo's inc her maternity
- I prepare meals for throughout the weeks after the birth

Everything i didnt want to do, i did. For the grace of God. I knew the more i pressed on, the more resentment left my body and i was able to deal with my grief, knowing 'This was a difficult situation for me, God wanted me to rise above it'

I pray that God will use you during your pain, that you will break through the hurt of seeing her belly grow & watching her progress. So that you will be able to see what yGod has in store for you, knowing heartedly that he is looking out for you, even if you do not feel or see it.

XXX

 

[beckysprayer]

Hello there ladies,

I'm wondering if any of you can help me come to some sort of conclusion concerning my situation..

My Fiance and I happily found out we were expecting in December, after months of trying for our first bub. I went through a tough few weeks of bad cramping and spotting which frightened me so much that I didn't want to get out of bed for days on end. Only for us to lose our precious baby on the 14th of January through m/c at close to 8 weeks.

Being absolutely heartbroken, we then came to find out that my younger sister in law who lives with us, and already has a one year old, is once again pregnant. And she too, was around 8 weeks along last time they checked.

Knowing that everything in our life happens for a reason that God intended, I ask you lovely women, what do you believe my lesson will be now? I really don't know how I will handle watching her belly grow at the rate that mine was going to grow, watching her baby be born into the world, very close to when mine was going to be born.. I'm trying to figure out why I will be tortured seeing these things right in front of me? That way I can at least have something in my mind that says the entire process is worth it somehow.

I'm so sorry to hear this! I had a miscarriage recently and know just how painful it is. Time is the only thing that will heal the pain and the Lord will help you through this time showing you His love every step of the way. I know there is nothing I can say to make you feel better now, but know that your Father loves you very much and that I am praying for you.

 

[beckysprayer]

I am feeling much better and definitely more optimistic today and I know that is because of you wonderful ladies. Your prayers and stories really helped. I even called and made my first doctor's appointment, which I was putting off in case the worst happened. It's not for another three weeks(!), but I feel safe in the Lord's hands.

I had another thing of spotting today, but it was lighter in color and there was less of it. The weird part is this happens at the same time every day, how strange! I think like HisGrace mentioned maybe there was a pocket of blood trapped and walking around for lunch helped it get loose. That's my story anyway

 

[QueenKingfish]

Thanks for your prayers and kind words, ladies! Our Maximus seems to be going downhill quickly. From what I can gather from DH & my human medical knowledge, physical exams of Max several times a day, and reading I've done, we are looking at aggressive Stage V metastatic lymphoma.

For the past few weeks, his appetite has waned - we thought he was eating stuff when he was outside (both of our dogs tend to eat anything we have planted back there). He's really lethargic, been drinking excessively (and the requisite frequent urination to go along with it), had a couple bouts of vomitting last week, the lymphnodes in his neck, his right ear and in the "pit" of one of his arms are all swollen to the size of golf balls or larger and he has tumors popping up all over his body - this morning's new find was one 4cm long on top of his spine. There are a couple different treatment options, but with it being this far progressed, they would just be delaying the inevitable at a cost we really can't afford - especially when we're revamping the budget for our little slugger who will soon be on the way.

I've got a great family friend who has offered to cremate him free of charge when we put him down. We also put the call in today to our vet to get his advice on if that time should be sooner, while he's not in pain yet, rather than later (He and his wife just got a 4-week-old foster baby - it may take him a day to get back to us haha).

Though this "Job Time" (LOVE THAT TERM!) is super crappy, I see God's glory in all of this. I just have to keep that in mind. I also have to keep in mind that I'll be with Donald Duck in 2 weeks and have my Mrs. Coach jacket a couple weeks after that!


Sarah - Check your boxer for lumps every now and again, apparently they're VERY prone to lymphoma, but if caught early it's very treatable. YAY FOR AGREEMENTS AND APPOINTMENS!!!! PRAISE GOD!

Becky - Hallelujah! I'm so glad your little bean is sticking!

 

[No Doubt]

Becky so glad to hear you're feeling better!

Queen, sorry your pup is going downhill so fast. We want all the time in the world with them and when something comes so quickly I know it's hard to take in. If it helps any, a coworker of mine has rotts which are prone to cancer and she's had to put a couple down in the past. She always puts them down before the pain sets in so they don't suffer too much. I know it's hard, but something to consider. I think I would do the same. If treatment won't help, you don't him suffering for nothing. How old is he?

 

[Godsjewel]

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.
Psalm 147:3

It is an unfortunate reality that when an infertile woman finally conceives, only to have the much-desired baby is lost to miscarriage or stillbirth, the devastation of her heart defies description. The heartbreak is often misunderstood, and consolation comes in well-meaning but inappropriate condolences such as “Oh honey, you’re young! You can always have another one!”

Surely there is no sorrow so great as the death of a baby. You cannot believe that what started out as the most wonderful, exciting experience of your life has left you heart-sick and confounded. If you are at the point of falling apart, may I suggest a soft landing spot? As you fall, fall into the arms of God. They're loving arms, strong enough to hold you and they'll catch you every single time!

If anyone has ever known what it feels like to lose a child to death, God knows. Remember that His Child died too! God, the Father, stood heavy hearted on the precipice of Glory and watched as His Baby died. He understands when your heart cries out that your baby didn’t deserve to die—His didn’t either.

God knows your heartache. He understands your fear. He stands ready to bring peace and healing to you. This same God, this grieving Father, loves you, will bear the burden of your grief, and will lovingly bind your wounds. If you feel that no one understands your hurt and your pain, cry out to God.

He understands.

-Beth Forbus

 

[QueenKingfish]

Queen, sorry your pup is going downhill so fast. We want all the time in the world with them and when something comes so quickly I know it's hard to take in. If it helps any, a coworker of mine has rotts which are prone to cancer and she's had to put a couple down in the past. She always puts them down before the pain sets in so they don't suffer too much. I know it's hard, but something to consider. I think I would do the same. If treatment won't help, you don't him suffering for nothing. How old is he?

He's 8, which is in the later years for boxers. Just got back from the vet. Biopsy confirmed our fears. We took the option of putting him on prednisone, which will put him into a remission for 3-6 months, giving him a chance to gain some weight back, for the lymphnodes to shrink a bit (allowing him to bark & do his happy howl again) and help him feel like his old self until the time comes to put him down. We were prepared to put him down in the next week if the news was any worse, but thankfully we can put that off until we get back from vacation and don't have to worry about our sweet house sitter having to deal with an incredibly sick dog while we're gone.

Thanks so much for all of the encouragement and prayers, ladies! This situation has been a nice escape from my mind being so intently focused on babies and pregnancy. I had some spotting yesterday (CD 9) which is really unusual. Thinking it may have been some leftover from AF knocked loose from BD - but at first I was tripping out thinking I'd O'd early or O'd again really late in my last cycle and was implanting.

Hope everyone else is doing well!

 

[No Doubt]

Glad to here of a good outcome queen. That will give you guys more time with him and hopefully he can get back to himself and enjoy this time!

 

[Godsjewel]

Hi All!

I don't usually get on here on the weekends, but just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you and praying for you.

Hope you are all enjoying this beautiful day the Lord has made