Christian ladies TTC, we can encourage one another.

[genesismarie]

hello ladies,
...... well i went over to my moms house after school today my son woke up from a nap and was crying uncontrollably and my mom was trying to sooth him and i hated her for it i got so angry and depressed and i was mad aat my son as bad as it sounds because hes only two but i was mad at him for allowing her to sooth him.
i really dont know how to conquer this trail and storm im going through. and i really dont understand why every time i conquer a trail and storm i just enter onee again its like problem after problem i never get any rest or joy. sometimes im angry at god. lately i havnt been going to church. its like all of a sudden i dont want to go. i went to sundays ago and ijust didnt feel the connection im use to feeling. the joy i use to get from just being in the lords house. thats all gone now i dont know how to get out of this ever sinking hole im in. i just get deeper and deeper into depression and anger and sometimes i wonder "where are you god?'' because i dont feel comforted i dont feel loved and i dont feel his presence. i just dont know where to go from here

 

[beckysprayer]

hi ladies been reading this thread and love the fellowship and support your giving each other so id love to join in.
right now im really struggling with anger and depression due to my first child being adopted to my mom now im am ttc after this "lost" and am really struggling with my faith. ive only been a christian for a little over a year so i guess you can say im not as strong. ive been through alot in my life and have lost alot of things including my first child so now i am trying to get a second chance at being a mother and raising a child the christian way.

respectfully,
Genesis Marie

Welcome Genesis! I'm so sorry to hear about our son being with your mother now, but do not let these trials make you weary. God has great things in store for you

Hi ladies! Could you keep my auntie in your prayers? She got gangrene in her legs and on Thursday is going to have one of them amputated below the knee. It's been rough on her, but she's trusting that God has a plan in all this.
Thanks Ladies! I hope you're all having a blessed weekend

Praying for your auntie! This must be so hard, but I will be praying that the Lord gives her strength and fills her with His love during this time.

 

[beckysprayer]

Thanks for all of your prayers this weekend! I fully miscarried this weekend and am now starting my first cycle post miscarriage. I'm so thankful I don't need a D&C and that it all happened on the weekend God is good!

annnddd I can start TTC again in one month

 

[genesismarie]

Thanks for all of your prayers this weekend! I fully miscarried this weekend and am now starting my first cycle post miscarriage. I'm so thankful I don't need a D&C and that it all happened on the weekend God is good!

annnddd I can start TTC again in one month

good luck becky and thanks for the welcome

 

[Godsjewel]

hello ladies,
...... well i went over to my moms house after school today my son woke up from a nap and was crying uncontrollably and my mom was trying to sooth him and i hated her for it i got so angry and depressed and i was mad aat my son as bad as it sounds because hes only two but i was mad at him for allowing her to sooth him.
i really dont know how to conquer this trail and storm im going through. and i really dont understand why every time i conquer a trail and storm i just enter onee again its like problem after problem i never get any rest or joy. sometimes im angry at god. lately i havnt been going to church. its like all of a sudden i dont want to go. i went to sundays ago and ijust didnt feel the connection im use to feeling. the joy i use to get from just being in the lords house. thats all gone now i dont know how to get out of this ever sinking hole im in. i just get deeper and deeper into depression and anger and sometimes i wonder "where are you god?'' because i dont feel comforted i dont feel loved and i dont feel his presence. i just dont know where to go from here

Hi Dear

I don’t know your whole situation, but I do know we serve a mighty God that can bring peace and comfort to you through any circumstance.

Funny thing is, being a Christian doesn’t exempt us from going through trials, God’s word says…I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world. John 16:33

Please don’t stop going to church, it doesn’t matter how you are feeling…the enemy will try to keep you from people of God and that’s definitely a place where you need to be, not only because God wants us to be in fellowship with His followers, but because you need to get fed spiritually. There are times I didn’t feel like going to church, but ended up going anyways…and when I did, it seemed like the message the Pastor was preaching was just for me.

God is here and has His arms stretched wide open to receive you in. He is a good and faithful God, give all your cares and worries to Him and He will do far more than you could ever imagine.

Be blessed and looking forward to good things to come for your life.

 

[Godsjewel]

I had a lunch date planned with a friend, and in an unusual happening, I arrived several minutes early. Rather than going in the restaurant to wait, I decided to stay in my car and sing along with the worship music I had playing. I love having an enthusiastic solo-concert with myself!

As I sang along with the radio, I noticed several little sparrows hopping along the ground in the empty parking space beside me. They would snatch some crumbs from the ground and fly into the tree planted nearby. Some would jump into the grass and then back to the ground for a tasty treat. A couple seemed to be in a competition of sorts, seeing who could gather the most bugs the fastest.

I was totally wrapped up in this little circus of feathered entertainers when the Lord brought a Scripture to my mind: Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. (Matthew 10:29-30) In that moment, it really dawned on me how God watches over me . I may not see Him. I may not sense His presence. But He watches over me, protecting me, guiding me. Those little birds had no idea I was sitting in my car that day. They certainly didn’t know that I delighted in what they were doing. How could they? However, just because they didn’t understand didn’t make me vanish or change what I was doing.

Friend, God is intimately aware of the struggle you face with infertility. He knows every time your heart breaks over a failed cycle. If He cares enough about you to number the hairs on your head, don’t you know that He’s numbered how many negative pregnancy tests you’ve thrown away, and how many times you’ve had to sit through someone else’s baby showers? Even if you can’t sense His presence, He’s there. Your struggle matters. Heaven hasn’t turned a deaf ear to your cries for a child. He hears you. He’s watching and working on your behalf. You’re not in this struggle alone.

-Author Unknown

 

[genesismarie]

hello ladies,
...... well i went over to my moms house after school today my son woke up from a nap and was crying uncontrollably and my mom was trying to sooth him and i hated her for it i got so angry and depressed and i was mad aat my son as bad as it sounds because hes only two but i was mad at him for allowing her to sooth him.
i really dont know how to conquer this trail and storm im going through. and i really dont understand why every time i conquer a trail and storm i just enter onee again its like problem after problem i never get any rest or joy. sometimes im angry at god. lately i havnt been going to church. its like all of a sudden i dont want to go. i went to sundays ago and ijust didnt feel the connection im use to feeling. the joy i use to get from just being in the lords house. thats all gone now i dont know how to get out of this ever sinking hole im in. i just get deeper and deeper into depression and anger and sometimes i wonder "where are you god?'' because i dont feel comforted i dont feel loved and i dont feel his presence. i just dont know where to go from here

Hi Dear

I don’t know your whole situation, but I do know we serve a mighty God that can bring peace and comfort to you through any circumstance.

Funny thing is, being a Christian doesn’t exempt us from going through trials, God’s word says…I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world. John 16:33

Please don’t stop going to church, it doesn’t matter how you are feeling…the enemy will try to keep you from people of God and that’s definitely a place where you need to be, not only because God wants us to be in fellowship with His followers, but because you need to get fed spiritually. There are times I didn’t feel like going to church, but ended up going anyways…and when I did, it seemed like the message the Pastor was preaching was just for me.

God is here and has His arms stretched wide open to receive you in. He is a good and faithful God, give all your cares and worries to Him and He will do far more than you could ever imagine.

Be blessed and looking forward to good things to come for your life.

thank you sarah for sharing that verse i really needed to hear that.

 

[BRK06]

hello ladies,
...... well i went over to my moms house after school today my son woke up from a nap and was crying uncontrollably and my mom was trying to sooth him and i hated her for it i got so angry and depressed and i was mad aat my son as bad as it sounds because hes only two but i was mad at him for allowing her to sooth him.
i really dont know how to conquer this trail and storm im going through. and i really dont understand why every time i conquer a trail and storm i just enter onee again its like problem after problem i never get any rest or joy. sometimes im angry at god. lately i havnt been going to church. its like all of a sudden i dont want to go. i went to sundays ago and ijust didnt feel the connection im use to feeling. the joy i use to get from just being in the lords house. thats all gone now i dont know how to get out of this ever sinking hole im in. i just get deeper and deeper into depression and anger and sometimes i wonder "where are you god?'' because i dont feel comforted i dont feel loved and i dont feel his presence. i just dont know where to go from here

I'm sorry you are going through this

All I can say to you, not knowing you that well yet, but feeling your pain, as I struggle at times too, trust in the Lord. He is really all we have. He understands you're hurting. God does not put things in our lives that we can not handle without giving us strength and He puts people in our lives to help us get through it. He alone knows how this will end. We are only able to see a small part of the big picture of His plan right now, and sometimes it doesn't make any sense at all! Trust in him, and if you let him, he will show you the way out of this and eventually will reveal the purpose for this time of pain and heartache.

We are here to listen, but God is too! He knows what you are feeling already... Talk to Him in prayer. Tell Him all your fears and frustrations. Ask Him for the strength to get you through. Also, there is absolutely no shame in asking for help! As a family in Christ, if one of our own is down and struggling, we are meant to help them and bring them back up

I'm praying for you Sweetie

 

[genesismarie]

I'm sorry you are going through this

All I can say to you, not knowing you that well yet, but feeling your pain, as I struggle at times too, trust in the Lord. He is really all we have. He understands you're hurting. God does not put things in our lives that we can not handle without giving us strength and He puts people in our lives to help us get through it. He alone knows how this will end. We are only able to see a small part of the big picture of His plan right now, and sometimes it doesn't make any sense at all! Trust in him, and if you let him, he will show you the way out of this and eventually will reveal the purpose for this time of pain and heartache.

We are here to listen, but God is too! He knows what you are feeling already... Talk to Him in prayer. Tell Him all your fears and frustrations. Ask Him for the strength to get you through. Also, there is absolutely no shame in asking for help! As a family in Christ, if one of our own is down and struggling, we are meant to help them and bring them back up

I'm praying for you Sweetie

thank you kim
i guess i do need to open up more communication with the lord lately it seems like im unconsciously avoiding him because im so angry and dont know how to deal with it

 

[Heather11]

Hello my loves I am so sorry it has been so long since I have checked in. Life has been crazy and with things on the TTC not going well I often step away from the computer in fear I am going to become totally obsessed! I hope that everybody is doing wonderfully xoxoxo

Hey Sis! I was wondering how you were doing. Good to hear from you How are you holding up?

I am hanging in there! I am so busy with my new job which is great. I have been trying not to be too upset with TTC but at times it can be overwhelming. It seems like every time I turn around somebody new is pregnant and it can be frustrating. I am trying to keep my head up!

So I have been temping and during most month it is clear that I am not ovulating every month. However I went to see a specialist to start talking about testing and such and he seems to think that my temps look fine. However if your compare them with ANY charts on line it is clear I don't have any spikes?! So I am super annoyed with that too. ARGH!!! hahaha

How are things with you and your journey?!

 

[beckysprayer]

Heather, are you a light sleeper? I wake up frequently in the night and toss and turn often so my charts always looked crazy and never had a definite bump after ovulation, but I always got a positive opk and I did conceive so I know I ovulate. Maybe the same happens to you? One thing I noticed is I toss and turn at night much more after ovulation than I do before, which is why my temps were always messed up. I also anticipate my alarm going off and I often wake up 30-60 minutes before that time and just relax in bed with my eyes closed until the alarm does go off, which also affects my temps.

 

[Godsjewel]

“Hello, my name is Alison and I am a planner.”

At home, I plan all my meals in advance. I strategize how to best accomplish household tasks efficiently. At work, as a teacher, I have most of my lessons planned at least a week in advance. In June, I photocopy things I will need in September. When we take vacations, I spend months researching the best places to go and to stay.

On some level, I think if I plan something, I have control of the outcome. If something goes wrong, it must have been poor planning! If something goes well, I pat myself on the back for my foresight and organization. However, not all of my plans succeed.

Two years ago, my husband and I planned to have a baby. We knew it might not happen right away but we hoped it might! I planned where I would be in 9 months. I planned finances for living on less income. When we didn’t get pregnant in the first six months, I was heart- broken but I reassured myself that up to one year is normal. The one year mark also went past and then came the label “infertility”. I became aware how easily my plans could be thwarted! I would plan and, 28 days later, that plan would fall apart.

This second year, I have been slowly letting go of my plans. The reality of how little I can control has been seeping in to my thinking. This morning I was sitting on my porch when a verse struck me.

“The Lord of hosts has sworn saying, ‘Surely, just as I have intended so it has happened and just as I have planned so it will stand...For the Lord of hosts has planned, and who can frustrate it?’” Isaiah 14:24, 27

It struck me that the Lord is a planner too! I can just hear Him saying, “Hi, my name is the LORD, and I am a planner.” If the Lord is a planner, and I am made in His image, then it makes sense that I am a planner. It also means being a planner isn’t a bad thing.

At just that moment, the voices of a little girl and her father, drifted towards me from a different part of the complex. I couldn’t see them, but the girl’s high pitched, young voice was crystal clear. She kept saying, “Look at what I’m doing! Look at what I’M DOING!” She got louder and louder. I could hear her father responding warmly.

I realized that I am like that little girl. I am focused on what I am doing. God, my Father, listens patiently waiting for me to understand that I’ve got it all backwards. Rather than being focused on what I’m doing, I should be crying out, “Look at what You’re doing…Look at what YOU’RE DOING!” What God is doing, is planning good things for me. He is planning for me, so all I have to do is watch His plans unfold. I don’t need to worry that His plans will be thwarted. He is the Ultimate Planner, I can trust in Him.

--Alison W

 

[genesismarie]

sarah that was very moving thank you for sharing that. it really spoke to me.

 

[Shellvz]

“Hello, my name is Alison and I am a planner.”

At home, I plan all my meals in advance. I strategize how to best accomplish household tasks efficiently. At work, as a teacher, I have most of my lessons planned at least a week in advance. In June, I photocopy things I will need in September. When we take vacations, I spend months researching the best places to go and to stay.

On some level, I think if I plan something, I have control of the outcome. If something goes wrong, it must have been poor planning! If something goes well, I pat myself on the back for my foresight and organization. However, not all of my plans succeed.

Two years ago, my husband and I planned to have a baby. We knew it might not happen right away but we hoped it might! I planned where I would be in 9 months. I planned finances for living on less income. When we didn’t get pregnant in the first six months, I was heart- broken but I reassured myself that up to one year is normal. The one year mark also went past and then came the label “infertility”. I became aware how easily my plans could be thwarted! I would plan and, 28 days later, that plan would fall apart.

This second year, I have been slowly letting go of my plans. The reality of how little I can control has been seeping in to my thinking. This morning I was sitting on my porch when a verse struck me.

“The Lord of hosts has sworn saying, ‘Surely, just as I have intended so it has happened and just as I have planned so it will stand...For the Lord of hosts has planned, and who can frustrate it?’” Isaiah 14:24, 27

It struck me that the Lord is a planner too! I can just hear Him saying, “Hi, my name is the LORD, and I am a planner.” If the Lord is a planner, and I am made in His image, then it makes sense that I am a planner. It also means being a planner isn’t a bad thing.

At just that moment, the voices of a little girl and her father, drifted towards me from a different part of the complex. I couldn’t see them, but the girl’s high pitched, young voice was crystal clear. She kept saying, “Look at what I’m doing! Look at what I’M DOING!” She got louder and louder. I could hear her father responding warmly.

I realized that I am like that little girl. I am focused on what I am doing. God, my Father, listens patiently waiting for me to understand that I’ve got it all backwards. Rather than being focused on what I’m doing, I should be crying out, “Look at what You’re doing…Look at what YOU’RE DOING!” What God is doing, is planning good things for me. He is planning for me, so all I have to do is watch His plans unfold. I don’t need to worry that His plans will be thwarted. He is the Ultimate Planner, I can trust in Him.

--Alison W

As a fellow planner this was very insightful

 

[Shellvz]

Yesterday, I began my fertility tests (blood test and internal ultrasound).

The Dr who did the ultrasound was excellent. She talked me through it - explaining as she went.

She said my uterus was a good shape, it moved well and showed no signs of scar tissue or endometriosis. My ovaries looked good and the lining was nice and thin for CD3.

She counted the follicles in the ovaries and measured one at 8mm.

However, she did find a fibroid attached to the uterus. Not the stalk kind as it moved with the uterus. It measured about 3cm. She thought it may have been there a long time and thought it wasn't necessary to remove as it wasn't affecting me. She didn't think this would prevent pregnancies as it was in the wrong spot to do so.

In general, she was happy with what she saw and I was happy that it wasn't as embarrassing, uncomfortable or painful as I imagined.

So now I wait till Wed for my blood test results and official ultrasound results from my GP.

Has anyone else had any experience with fibroids?

 

[HisGrace]

I have five fibroids. My RE said they shouldn't prevent pregnancy so she didn't recommend I get them removed. One grew during my pregnancy and my old ob/gym said I should get them taken out. When I got my new ob/gyn (in the same practice) she recommended that I stick with what my RE recommended. If we aren't able to get pregnant again by October we will go back to the RE and see what she recommends, but the fibroids didn't prevent me from getting pregnant before and they weren't the cause of my miscarriage so i really don't think removal is necessary for me. Plus I want to have a vaginal birth and that's not an option if I get the fibroids removed. The way I see it, God has done much more with much less (or worse off) so I am believing that He will make this happen for us or show me that surgery is the path he has for us.

 

[Godsjewel]

I pray you are all feeling God’s loving arms wrapped around you today

I really feel led to tell you what has been going on with me lately…

You ever feel God tugging on your heart about something and you start to question God? Five years ago I had a best friend at work named Monica. Her and I were pretty much joined at the hip. I was able to tell her about God and she started to attend church with me. Things were good in our friendship for the first couple of months, but then things got a little weird. She was very protective of me and would try to tell me what I should do. I started to feel very uncomfortable around her and we got into a disagreement over something and ended up not speaking to each other. I haven’t spoken to her in a little over 2 years and it was always uncomfortable when I would see her at her desk or pass her by in the hall.

For the past week or so she has been on my mind. I had been praying about what God wanted me to do and until a couple of days ago, I finally figured it out. Of course I was nervous at first and thought maybe it wasn’t God and I was just going to forget about it and not reach out to her, but God is persistent and I want to follow His will.

At first, I thought she came to mind because maybe she was going through some things in her life and God just placed her on my heart to pray for her and her family, but once I did, I still didn’t feel a release. I kept wondering what was going on and the word “forgiveness” came to mind. I start work earlier than she does and started to pray that God would give me the right words to say. So yesterday I went ahead and sent her an email, because I’m way to emotional to do this in person, plus that let me write out everything I wanted to say. I apologized for letting all these years go by without reconciliation and gave her some scriptures to encourage her. She ended up calling me and also apologized for how she had been. She said that the email couldn’t of come at a better time, she had been going through some things in her life and really needed to hear that.

Praise God that I didn’t let that opportunity go by, God is good and I felt the release after we had spoken. Lately, I have been hearing on the radio and through my devotions about forgiveness. I believe some of us may still be in this waiting place because God wants to do a work in and through us. Maybe you, like me, have some unforgiveness in your heart. If so, I challenge you today to make it right...don’t let pride stand in the way of your blessings.

In my case, He wanted my heart to be pure and it was slightly darkened because I still had unresolved issues and unforgiveness in my heart towards Monica. Thankfully in life we get second chances and I’m so blessed that Monica and I are able to start fresh in our friendship. I know God has a plan in this and I can already see that He wants to use me to encourage her through the tough time in her life that she is going through. He always has a plan!

After I had spoken to Monica and asked for forgiveness I was listening to Pastor Paula White at my desk and this statement blew me away…

“You have to have life in order to give life, you can’t give out of lack, you can’t give what you don’t have. So you can’t give life when you’re living beneath the baseline, you have to have life in order to give life. That’s why He says prosper and then reproduce. You reproduce after your own kind, that’s why God does a work in you, so that He can do a work through you because you will produce what you carry. That’s why Hannah couldn’t have children until she got the bitterness and the contamination out of her because God loved her too much to leave her the same. So He gets all the junk out of you so you can produce out of the purity because God doesn’t want you having children that are some kind of deformity that they aren’t produced out of the love and the pureness of God. So God keeps working in you to work through you.”

What I get from that is that God wants to purify us before blessing us with our children. He wants us to be in the place where we are doing His will and in His time we will be blessed.

Thank you Lord for loving us too much to leave us the same!

Love you all!

Sarah
Godsjewel

 

[genesismarie]

That’s why Hannah couldn’t have children until she got the bitterness and the contamination out of her because God loved her too much to leave her the same

hi sarah,
this blew me away.
this morning i woke up angry like i have for the past couple of month and im ashamed to admit i have been taking this out on my soon to be husband in the form of yelling about the house not being clean as soon as i woke up. you guys know a little bit about our situation with our son being adopted to my mother. so this morning i wake up angry again and follow the ritual of yelling at my fiancee about the house being dirty i start to clean up and i started to take down all the pictures of my son from all over my house and hide them on a shelf in my closet my fiancee says to me " the problem is not me and the problem is not the house being dirty your just angry and very BITTER look what you did to all our sons pictures" so i came over to moms and told her what he said and she agreed with him. yes the house is dirty but its not why im waking up angry my fiancee is not the reason i'm angry. its because im bitter about the situation with my son. i spoke to a friend in christ just yesterday and told me that i needed to forgive myself. that i had forgiveness towards myself.
thank you for posting this

 

[Godsjewel]

That’s why Hannah couldn’t have children until she got the bitterness and the contamination out of her because God loved her too much to leave her the same

hi sarah,
this blew me away.
this morning i woke up angry like i have for the past couple of month and im ashamed to admit i have been taking this out on my soon to be husband in the form of yelling about the house not being clean as soon as i woke up. you guys know a little bit about our situation with our son being adopted to my mother. so this morning i wake up angry again and follow the ritual of yelling at my fiancee about the house being dirty i start to clean up and i started to take down all the pictures of my son from all over my house and hide them on a shelf in my closet my fiancee says to me " the problem is not me and the problem is not the house being dirty your just angry and very BITTER look what you did to all our sons pictures" so i came over to moms and told her what he said and she agreed with him. yes the house is dirty but its not why im waking up angry my fiancee is not the reason i'm angry. its because im bitter about the situation with my son. i spoke to a friend in christ just yesterday and told me that i needed to forgive myself. that i had forgiveness towards myself.
thank you for posting this

Praise God, I'm so glad my situation has helped you see what was going on in your life.

 

[genesismarie]

Praise God, I'm so glad my situation has helped you see what was going on in your life.

what im wondering is how do i truly forgive myself for me i can forgive others but im not really clear on forgiving myself. this is a new thing for me