Christian ladies TTC, we can encourage one another.

[Godsjewel]

Good morning ladies! Thanks for the warm welcome, and happy belated birthday Sarah!

It seems the only time I've had lately is when I'm going somewhere and have to use my phone, but I didn't want to stay away for too long. A little about me...I'm 26, will be 27 next month, hubby is 27, and we've been ttc for 2 years this month. Everything always checks out with us, although hubbs has a low sperm count, its not so low that it should really cause any problems. I was diagnosed with pcos about 7 years ago, but everything looks good so I'm not even sure that I ever had that. No real tests like u/s or anything were done then, so I really have nothing to go off of but the doctors word at that time. I've pretty much tried everything but ivf and now I'm trying what I should have tried two years ago. Its like that saying, when you like you have nothing else left you realize all you ever needed was God in the first place. Tough lesson, but I got it, lol. So for now I'm enjoying my hubbs and myself and the time we have before little people start to outnumber us, lol, and building a closet relationship with God. For so long I asked Him to grow my faith in Him and while I wish this wasn't the way, I will definitely say there probably isn't a greater tool. I'm thankful through it all and trust in Gods timing and His will for I know it is perfect. I know we will be parents soon, and right now I'm just exercising another lesson He has taught me through this chapter in my life...patience!

Hope you all are having a wonderfully blessed day!

AMEN!!! Welcome hun, my name is Sarah and I'm so glad you joined us. Thanks for taking the time to share a little bit about yourself

I have been on this ttc journey for 5 years. I was diagnosed with endometriosis and have had two laparoscopic surgeries to have it taken out. The doctors can't understand why I haven't become pregnant and have now put is in the 5% of people who have unexplained infertility. That bothered me for a second when I heard that, but then I serve a mighty God who can do far more than I could think or imagine. He is the ultimate physician and I trust in Him and His word. Like you said, it's all about trusting in His timing.

I love your positive attitude, that's how God wants us to be during this waiting time. I believe He has a purpose for us in this journey and I pray God continues to give us the strength every day to make it through.

 

[Godsjewel]

“I want to tell you this but I don’t…”

We are at the church listening to missionaries share of the vision and purpose they have from
the Lord. At the break, a dear friend comes to see me. She continues…

“John and Laurie are pregnant. It’s still early, only 8 weeks. But I wanted you to know.”

Laurie, not a close friend, but someone who I know had surgery on her uterus and worried she
might have trouble getting pregnant. She was able to conceive right away?

I hear myself reply, “You don’t have to worry about telling me things. I’m glad for them.”

I’m not lying. One part of me is glad for them. I’m glad they are pregnant and don’t have to endure the struggle of infertility. Babies are a blessing of the Lord.

The sessions resume. As the two young girls speak, former youth of mine, I pay attention and try to focus. At the end, I smile and hug friends and leave looking perfectly normal and happy. In the car, my husband notices I am quiet…a sure sign I am upset.

In my head comparisons are rolling. First, I think about the two young missionaries. I start to think that my own vision is too small. I’m not doing enough for the Lord. Everyone else has a calling, but what about me? All I’m doing is small things. I’m feeling more and more upset. Then I let myself think about Laurie and John. I think about how she had a reason to think she might not conceive, whereas my infertility is unexplained. I start to feel things aren’t fair. How is that, two hours ago I was doing so well with my struggle with infertility and feeling so strong. How can I be reeling again so soon?

For the rest of the evening, I am withdrawn. I try to explain to my husband a bit of what I’m feeling. He looks concerned and sympathetic. He tries his best to understand. The comparisons keep on rolling and I feel skittish crying out to the Lord in my head. My husband goes to sleep but I am restless. I get up and try writing to a friend. As I am writing, a picture flashes into my head. I feel a jolt of understanding.

The week before, we returned from visiting my husband’s Amish relatives in Indiana. I was fascinated by how they maintained the simplicity of older times. While I was there, I had my first buggy ride. I sat next to one of my husband’s elderly cousins, Enos, as he gave me a tour of the farms. The pony trotted along in front of us, looking straight ahead. Even if others passed us, the horse didn’t notice. He had on blinders. This was the image the Lord gave me…a pony wearing blinders!

I quickly look up blinders online.

“Blinders keep the horse’s eye focused on what is ahead, rather than what is at the side or behind.”

“It keeps the horse from becoming distracted or scared.”

Immediately, it becomes clear! I need to put on blinders! I need to stop looking at what had gone wrong behind me. I need to stop looking beside me at what God was doing in the lives of others. When I compared my situation with others, I lost sight of all God had done for me. I thought more about what He hadn’t done. If I could focus straight ahead I wouldn’t become distracted or scared by what was going on around me. I finally feel peace and go straight to sleep.

“Watch your step, and the road will stretch out smooth before you. Look neither right nor left, leave evil in the dust.” Proverbs 4:27 (the Message)

~Alison W.

 

[Praying4bump]

Happy belated bday Sarah.

Welcome new ladies.

Sarah, thank you so much for sharing that. Your faith is encouraging.

 

[No Doubt]

I love Sarah's laughter godsjewel! I get the emails and they are always so encouraging.

 

[Godsjewel]

I was listening to Dr. Charles Stanley this morning and this jumped out at me.

God's promises are true.

The Lord will give you the desires of your heart when you delight in Him (Ps. 37:4).

If God is more important to you than anyone or anything else, He will grant your desires.

It's when we surrender ourselves and our will to God and let Him take control of our lives, thoughts and actions...then He will grant your hearts desires.

Don't let ttc become a god in your life, give it all to Him and in due time He will bless you.

 

[No Doubt]

So ladies here is my little nugget of inspiration for the day. A couple weeks back my pastor was preaching on prayer and this is a quote he took from Bill Hybels "If the prayer is wrong, God says no. If the timing is wrong God says slow. If you are wrong, God says grow. But if the prayer is right, the timing is right, and you are right God says go."

 

[Praying4bump]

So ladies here is my little nugget of inspiration for the day. A couple weeks back my pastor was preaching on prayer and this is a quote he took from Bill Hybels "If the prayer is wrong, God says no. If the timing is wrong God says slow. If you are wrong, God says grow. But if the prayer is right, the timing is right, and you are right God says go."

I love that!

 

[Godsjewel]

All over the country, students of all ages have gathered supplies and headed back to class. How appropriate that you have a homework assignment in today’s Daily Double Portion!

Here it is: Grab a can of hairspray, air freshener, perfume, or any other aerosol and spray a quick blast into the air. Pay close attention to the vapor as it hangs in the air and then vanishes. How long did that vapor last? 10 minutes? Not hardly! A few seconds? 1 or 2? Compare how long that vapor lasted in contrast to the length of time it will take you to read this entire Daily Double Portion. Compare the longevity of the vapor and the 24 hours that make up your day.

You may be wondering what a puff of hairspray or a blast of air freshener has to do with the seemingly never ending struggle you face with infertility. Hold on, friend! You’ve just earned an A+!

In 2 Corinthians 4:17-18, the apostle Paul writes For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

There are times when it seems your struggle with infertility will never end. You wonder if you will ever be a parent or if your unmet desire for a child will go with you to your grave. Since the loss of your baby, you fear that grief will be your life long companion. How can infertility or loss be considered light and momentary troubles?

Consider your struggle with infertility to be like the blast of hairspray you sprayed into the air. It was there for a moment, and then it was gone. When you contrasted the length of time it lingered to the 24 hours in a day, how did it compare? Infertility is a season in your life--a very important season--but a season nonetheless. A day will come when it will be part of your past and not a part of your every waking moment. What a wonderful day! God can work through these troubles to bring you closer and closer to Him. You can learn to trust Him through the babyless months as you seek His will for your life. Learning to trust God when you cannot decipher His plan is a treasure beyond description. What a beautiful example of fixing your eyes on things not seen!

But what if your heartache lies in the realm of loss? Losing a baby doesn’t feel “light” or “momentary” at all. Friend, as painful as your loss is, realize that if you are a child of God, your separation from your child is temporary. In comparison to eternity, the time you are separated by death from your baby will be like that vapor. You sprayed the vapor in the air and in a moment it was gone. The time you are separated from your baby will be like that vapor in comparison to eternity. When you are reunited in Heaven--never to be separated again--your time together and the joy you have will far outweigh your hurt and separation you experience here. This is why Paul says we fix our eyes on what is unseen, on what is eternal. We fix our eyes, we fix our hearts on eternal life.

When you need to be reminded that infertility and grief will not last for an eternity, go blast a puff of hairspray or air freshener. Notice how briefly the vapor remains in the air compared to the rest of your day. Although it is difficult as you walk through these seasons, encourage yourself and do not lose heart. These troubles are achieving an eternal glory that far outweigh them all!

 

[Praying4bump]

Godsjewel, thank you for sharing that. I needed to be reminded that infertility is only for a season.

 

[No Doubt]

Hello ladies, I hope that you all are having a wonderful day. Just wanted to drop by and show everyone some love!

 

[No Doubt]

I got this book From Faith to Faith: A Daily Guide to Victory by Kenneth & Gloria Copeland as a gift and everyday one of them has written a few paragraphs with a story and scripture. Today's was about the sowing seeds through giving and the scripture was Mark 4 1-20. I decided to read on and got to 30-32 which says "Then He said, 'To what shall we liken the kingdom of God? Or with what parable shall we picture it? It is like a mustard seed which, when it is sown on the ground, is maller than all the seeds on earth; but when it is sown, it grows up and becomes greater than all herbs, and shoots out large branches, so that the birds of the air may nest under its shade.' "

For the first time I've actually understood why people say "with faith the size of a mustard seed". I've never really gotten it, but always know that seeds are little, so it must be with "little" faith. This is true, but mustard seeds are not only little, it is the smallest of the group apparently. But even this little tiny seed, the tiniest of the bunch grows bigger than other seeds sown and even big enough for birds to find shade.

I have definately felt my faith slip here or there in this walk with ttc, but I'm so glad to know that even when my stock has been nearly depleted, I serve a God who is able to take the little bit of faith that I have left and work with it, and work with it miraculously at that. I know that my faith has been restored a few times in this walk, and I always seem to find myself "in the shade" once it has been...not worrying or stressing or wondering or even thinking about ttc to be honest.

It also made me stop and think about how I feel guilty for losing faith sometimes or like I'm giving up on God because the situation doesn't happen when/how I want it to. But these verses make me think that God already knew that would happen which is why before our faith even slips He lets us know that even a tiny bit of faith can still "move mountains". I love it when I come across scripture that provides confirmation, and makes me feel like God planned for me and all my mess already so I can relax and know He's taking care of it. I know this is the case, but it's nice to be reminded of it. To know that my little bit of faith can move mountains is a faith builder in itself for me. Imagine what could be done with faith the size of a watermelon!

This really encouraged me today, and I hope it did the same for someone else. And remember that when your faith starts to slip God already knew that would happen, and God already planned for that, and it only takes a little bit. Allow that to build your faith back up in Him.

 

[Godsjewel]

I got this book From Faith to Faith: A Daily Guide to Victory by Kenneth & Gloria Copeland as a gift and everyday one of them has written a few paragraphs with a story and scripture. Today's was about the sowing seeds through giving and the scripture was Mark 4 1-20. I decided to read on and got to 30-32 which says "Then He said, 'To what shall we liken the kingdom of God? Or with what parable shall we picture it? It is like a mustard seed which, when it is sown on the ground, is maller than all the seeds on earth; but when it is sown, it grows up and becomes greater than all herbs, and shoots out large branches, so that the birds of the air may nest under its shade.' "

For the first time I've actually understood why people say "with faith the size of a mustard seed". I've never really gotten it, but always know that seeds are little, so it must be with "little" faith. This is true, but mustard seeds are not only little, it is the smallest of the group apparently. But even this little tiny seed, the tiniest of the bunch grows bigger than other seeds sown and even big enough for birds to find shade.

I have definately felt my faith slip here or there in this walk with ttc, but I'm so glad to know that even when my stock has been nearly depleted, I serve a God who is able to take the little bit of faith that I have left and work with it, and work with it miraculously at that. I know that my faith has been restored a few times in this walk, and I always seem to find myself "in the shade" once it has been...not worrying or stressing or wondering or even thinking about ttc to be honest.

It also made me stop and think about how I feel guilty for losing faith sometimes or like I'm giving up on God because the situation doesn't happen when/how I want it to. But these verses make me think that God already knew that would happen which is why before our faith even slips He lets us know that even a tiny bit of faith can still "move mountains". I love it when I come across scripture that provides confirmation, and makes me feel like God planned for me and all my mess already so I can relax and know He's taking care of it. I know this is the case, but it's nice to be reminded of it. To know that my little bit of faith can move mountains is a faith builder in itself for me. Imagine what could be done with faith the size of a watermelon!

This really encouraged me today, and I hope it did the same for someone else. And remember that when your faith starts to slip God already knew that would happen, and God already planned for that, and it only takes a little bit. Allow that to build your faith back up in Him.

Amen sis, thanks for sharing

I was reading this scripture last week and was so encouraged by it as well. It's crazy how easily our faith can be shaken at times, but we need to remember that God will never give us more than we can handle and He is going to see us through this journey every step of the way.

 

[Godsjewel]

God Says You Can Trust in Me

Our money says “In God We Trust” but it is hard to trust when everything seems to be caving in around us. Nothing looks like it will turn out right. At times there is no evidence that God is even with us so how can we trust in Him during calamitous times? In reality, we can sometimes not even trust our eyes…but if there is anything in this universe you can trust, it is God Almighty. It is the invisible hand that is placed in ours that never lets go. Like a parent holding their child‘s hand, God is securely caring for us, never letting us slip or fall:

Isaiah 41:13 “For I am the LORD your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, do not fear; I will help you.”

Proverbs 28:26 “Those who trust in themselves are fools, but those who walk in wisdom are kept safe.”

Jeremiah 17:5-7 “This is what the LORD says: “Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who draws strength from mere flesh and whose heart turns away from the LORD. That person will be like a bush in the wastelands; they will not see prosperity when it comes. They will dwell in the parched places of the desert, in a salt land where no one lives. “But blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.”

Psalm 32:7 “You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance.”

Jeremiah 32:27 “I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?”

Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”

Psalm 36:7 “How priceless is your unfailing love, O God! People take refuge in the shadow of your wings.”

2 Corinthians 1:20 “For no matter how many promises God has made, they are “Yes” in Christ. And so through him the “Amen” is spoken by us to the glory of God.”

2 Peter 1:4a “Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature.”

1 Chronicles 28:20 “David also said to Solomon his son, “Be strong and courageous, and do the work. Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD God, my God, is with you. He will not fail you or forsake you until all the work for the service of the temple of the LORD is finished.”

 

[Godsjewel]

Distractions

Have you ever noticed that anytime you decide to spend time with God that something or someone gets in the way? Your crazy friend (we all have them) calls to tell you how her kids are making her nuts, or your cousin emails you her latest sonogram picture. Or perhaps you start your period again, and realize that your long sought after dream of pregnancy will have to wait for at least another month. All this happens just when you settle down with your Bible to find a few precious moments of quiet time alone with God. Instead of a few moments of peace with the Prince of Peace, you’re sobbing into your pillow again. Your mind isn’t on the goodness of God. It’s on the emptiness of your womb.

Satan’s primary battlefield is your mind. He would love to bombard your mind with so many distractions that you forget to focus on the realities of who God is. Just when you determine to walk in the truth that God is for you and not against you, Satan will remind you of how many of your school classmates have had babies, and many are pregnant with their second, yet you have none. He’ll whisper to your heart, “Does that sound like God is for you?” Don’t allow him to distract you with lies! Remember that Satan is the father of lies, and he uses them well.

People around us can cause distractions to your worship as well. People can be stupid sometimes! Plain and simple! They can say and do hurtful things that leave us scratching our heads in confusion. Why did she say that? Why did they do that? What did I do to deserve this? Anger starts to build and we get distracted from our worship again. “She knows better than that! She knows it just about kills me every time I hear her tell about her labor and delivery! She knows it rips my heart out! Why can’t she understand how hard this is for me? Why doesn’t she care about me more?” It really does seem like those around us should know better, doesn’t it? It seems like those who have loved us our entire lives should understand the hurts we carry, but so often they don’t. Friends and family members somehow can’t see inside our hearts and see the burdens and scars our hearts bear.

Infertility consumes us. It overwhelms every part of us. It infiltrates our emotions, our relationships, our finances, our intimacies. It becomes so much a part of so much of who we are. Without realizing it, we begin to expect people around us to understand what it’s like to be infertile. We long for understanding that we cannot even verbalize. I wonder if we are not holding people to a standard that only God Himself can meet? When we do so, we become distracted and shift our focus away from a perfect God and onto imperfect people.

If you find yourself angry or frustrated today, perhaps you have become distracted. Perhaps you have shifted your gaze away from a perfect God to imperfect people. It’s easy to do, isn’t it? Why not make a conscious choice to shift your gaze and your affections back to our perfect God. Look on Him. Tell Him how amazing He is. Talk about His wonders and His deeds. If you don’t know what to say, flip your bible open to the Psalms. David wrote many of the Psalms and he had quite a way with words! He’ll help you get started! Before long, you may find praise pouring from your own tongue.

Infertility is a lot of things. It is a physical, emotional, relational and financial crisis in a young couple’s life. It is an anvil on which many marriages are strengthened and some are destroyed. It is definitely a time of spiritual maturity. It can also be a huge distraction to prayer and worship. Don’t allow infertility to stand in the way of worshipping the God who gave His Baby for you. Instead, let it be the vehicle that carries you to the God who loves you, who has amazing plans for your life, and who rejoices over you with singing.

 

[Heather11]

Thank you all for the birthday wishes!

You are all a blessing to me and I'm looking forward to seeing what God is going to do in all of our lives.

I am a little late, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

 

[Godsjewel]

“For He satisfies the longing soul,
And fills the hungry soul with goodness.”
Psalm 107:9

I’ve battled my weight ever since I was a teenager. Others members of my family are overweight and suffer from a variety of health problems as a result. I don’t want to be like that. I want to eat “normally” and in a way that pleases God. So I have begun a new bible study called, “A Woman of Moderation–Breaking The Chains of Poor Eating Habits.” It’s a Dee Brestin bible study and I highly recommend it for anyone who struggles to get their appetite under control.

One of the main themes of this study is learning to distinguish between physical hunger and “soul” hunger. All of us have within us a deep hunger for God, however, we often choose to satisfy that hunger with other things such as food, activities, work, etc. None of those things are bad, but if we are running to those things to “get full” instead of running to God, we’ll remain unsatisfied.

When I think back over my life and review my prayer requests, I notice that I’ve always asked for things that I thought would make me happy. “Lord, please bless my husband with a raise or bonus, because if he made this much, I’d be happy and not have to worry about money. Lord, if only I could quit my job, because I want to start a family and be a stay-at-home mom, I’d be happy.”

“If only I had a child Lord, then I’d finally be happy...”

Is my baby hunger really masking a hunger for God? Deuteronomy 8:3 says, “He humbled you and allowed you to hunger, and fed you with manna...” This passage speaks about God allowing the Israelites to hunger while in the desert for forty years. What if God, in His mercy, allowed my infertility, my baby hunger, to bring me closer to Him, to teach me to know what it means to be truly loved by Him and to know how to truly love Him as well?

My husband and I have struggled financially for most of our married life. My husband was self-employed and we ran a carpentry business out of our home. Our business was seasonal at best. People are more likely to do home improvements during “tax refund season” rather than “back to school” or the holiday season. It was either feast or famine. We never knew from one month to the next if we were going to have enough to make ends meet. But over the years, I’ve learned to depend on God for my every need and saw Him work in miraculous ways. Through those trials, I’ve learned to trust God so that no financial snafu thrown at me causes me to flinch. It’s also taught me to be exceedingly thankful for all that we do have: a good home, dependable cars, and a strong marriage.

Would He use my infertility in the same way? He has. The secret to a peaceful and fearless life is to have complete trust and total dependance on the Lord. Infertility has put me in that place of total dependance. Extenuating circumstances have prohibited us from pursuing fertility treatment or adoption. God has put me in the place where I must “be still and know that (He) is God” (Ps. 46:10)

I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with praying for the blessings of God in life whether it’s health, prosperity, or a child. But the blessings themselves don’t satisfy soul hunger. Only our relationship with Him can do that.

~Jamie H.

 

[HisGrace]

I was just studying my Bible and came across this verse. It really blessed me and will help me to get over my miscarriage. I think it can help out others that have miscarried and those who keep going cycles without a bfp.

Isaiah 43:18-19 says, "Forget about what's happened. Don't keep going over old history. Be alert, be present. I'm about to do something brand new. It's bursting out, don't you see it?"

So forget about last cycle and all the other bfn's you've seen month after month. Go into this cycle with a new attitude, a renewed spirit. God is bringing life to this thread! Praise God!

 

[Godsjewel]

I was just studying my Bible and came across this verse. It really blessed me and will help me to get over my miscarriage. I think it can help out others that have miscarried and those who keep going cycles without a bfp.

Isaiah 43:18-19 says, "Forget about what's happened. Don't keep going over old history. Be alert, be present. I'm about to do something brand new. It's bursting out, don't you see it?"

So forget about last cycle and all the other bfn's you've seen month after month. Go into this cycle with a new attitude, a renewed spirit. God is bringing life to this thread! Praise God!

Amen sis, good word!

 

[Godsjewel]

So what’s been going on with you ladies lately?

I sadly had a little breakdown on my birthday …I was really hoping that I was going to be blessed with a BFP, but instead got AF. I fell on my knees before the Lord in tears telling Him I can’t do this anymore and that I want more than anything to completely give it all to Him. I don’t want to go month to month thinking of ttc and all that other stuff, I want to keep my eyes on Jesus and be the best wife to my hubby and best mom to Taylor I can be. It’s hard sometimes to give it all to God and it feels like most of the time I do…it’s just those times where I try to grab hold of it again and try to do all I can to make it happen… and I can’t… I need to leave it in the hands of our Heavenly Father. I will no longer see a fertility specialist, take meds, do IUI’s, or track my ovulation. I want to be free of this and I know God will get the glory the day I am blessed with a child.

As for the doctors visit, she did a physical exam and said my ovaries and uterus feel fine and she doesn’t know why I’m spotting and having lower ab pain and since this is the first month that this has been happening, she wants me to wait a couple more cycles to see if it happens again. She said it could possibly be the endometriosis coming back. I asked if we should do an ultrasound to make sure and she said there was no need since she didn’t feel anything abnormal. I’m just praying that all these symptoms disappear and that my body will start to function the way God intended it to.

I’m so looking forward to hearing praise reports soon.

 

[PrincessBree]

So what’s been going on with you ladies lately?

I sadly had a little breakdown on my birthday …I was really hoping that I was going to be blessed with a BFP, but instead got AF. I fell on my knees before the Lord in tears telling Him I can’t do this anymore and that I want more than anything to completely give it all to Him. I don’t want to go month to month thinking of ttc and all that other stuff, I want to keep my eyes on Jesus and be the best wife to my hubby and best mom to Taylor I can be. It’s hard sometimes to give it all to God and it feels like most of the time I do…it’s just those times where I try to grab hold of it again and try to do all I can to make it happen… and I can’t… I need to leave it in the hands of our Heavenly Father. I will no longer see a fertility specialist, take meds, do IUI’s, or track my ovulation. I want to be free of this and I know God will get the glory the day I am blessed with a child.

As for the doctors visit, she did a physical exam and said my ovaries and uterus feel fine and she doesn’t know why I’m spotting and having lower ab pain and since this is the first month that this has been happening, she wants me to wait a couple more cycles to see if it happens again. She said it could possibly be the endometriosis coming back. I asked if we should do an ultrasound to make sure and she said there was no need since she didn’t feel anything abnormal. I’m just praying that all these symptoms disappear and that my body will start to function the way God intended it to.

I’m so looking forward to hearing praise reports soon.

Thanks for posting this hun it's good to testify in faith about where the Lord has us.

For the last month the Lord has been speaking with me about being content with my life.Not looking at what I don't have but what I do have and giving Him praise for it,daily.I have realised how I base my joy in my circumstances rather than in the Lord Himself.And I continuously keep falling back into that.I guess He has been teaching me that He is enough for me,no matter what my life looks like.No matter how things turn out,no matter if I do or don't have the things which I want,He is trying to prove Himself to be enough for me.

I don't ttc anymore I concluded,like you that if He wants to make me pregnant then He will,because He has done much more with a 16 year old who has sex one time and becomes pregnant on accident (He is the ONLY giver of life).This miracle is on Him!

xx