I am so happy to see your wonderful news Sarah!
I was at a low point this morning, a lot has hit me emotionally and I've been feeling like God has forgotten me or isn't hearing my desperate cries for a baby and I've spent all morning in tears (been hit by some BFPs very close to me ) and I came on here specifially to come to this thread and your post was the first I saw.
God's plan for us will come to pass in His timing if we can just trust Him. Such amazing news and I'm so happy for you!
Just wanted to leave you all with two scriptures and some thoughts I've had about them. I hope they bless you as much as they blessed me.
The first is in Psalms 139v13 says For You created my inmost being; You knit me together in my mothers womb. .. God HIMSELF knit us together, He knit your little baby together. With fingertips that flung stars into space, He knit us together. The contrast of a God so big He used His fingertips to fling the stars to space, compared to the thought of God knitting us together in our mother's wombs... That amazes me! God is capable of anything, our situations are not too big for God, but rather our God is too big for our situations! I know it's hard and we sometimes can't see beyond our pain but we must remind ourselves that we have a God who makes the impossible, possible!
The second verse is this:
Matthew 10v30 - "Even the very hairs on your head are numbered." - Something that is probably, to us, the most useless bit of information about us.. Have you ever met a person who asks how many hairs are on your head? Do we care? Something that is so insignificant to us, is SIGNIFICANT to God, because it's about us. God loves you and cares for you THAT MUCH that He knows the exact number of hairs on your head. If He cares about something that to us, is so insignificant, imagine how much He cares about what we're feeling, our struggles, our heartfelt desires, our painful ache to be mothers (and fathers). God CARES. Cast all your burdens upon the Lord and know that God has compassion on us.
Bless you all.
x
Thanks sweetie! It was a long journey, but was worth the wait.
I sat down with Taylor months ago and was talking to her about faith and that we have to trust and believe that God has everything worked out for the good.
I told her that when I was younger, my plan was to get married, buy a house with a white picket fence and have 2 children, a boy and a girl...my life didn't turn out that way. Never in my life did I think I was going to marry a man who already had a child (Taylor), which means God had a better plan for me then I did for myself.
I told her that I wasn't sure if God was ever going to bless us with a baby and maybe she was going to be our only child, but we can still hold on to faith, especially if we have that desire in our heart. I also told her that if and when it happens, it will be in His perfect timing. I explained it to her like this...
"Would I be a good mom if every night before bedtime you asked me if you could have ice cream and I always said yes and let you eat as much ice cream as you wanted?" She said no and I asked why...she said, "because I would get a big tummy ache and not feel good". Same with God, He isn't going to give us something just because we want it or feel we need it. When it's the right time, He will bless you. It may be in a couple of months or a couple of years and when I was in the waiting time I could picture Him looking at me thinking, "I can't wait to give you your precious gift, just be patient a little longer".
My pregnancy happened at the perfect time, my husband and I are more in love now then ever and Taylor is old enough to help around the house and when the baby arrives. Plus, it was nice to be able to help raise Taylor without any other distractions around. Her birth mom isn't around, so I know God allowed us to have this special bonding time with one another. I have been in her life since she was 3 and she has lived with hubby and I full time for 6 years. She will be 11 this year when her brother or sister is born.
God is good and continue to focus on the many blessings He gives you daily and thank Him for giving you that precious child at the perfect time. God had not forgotten you, He loves and cares about you deeply and that's why He is waiting for the perfect time to present you with your baby.