My Name is Phyllis... I am ( GodsJewels Mom ( Sarah)
I am encouraged by this blog avenue as I have seen not only my daughter being and encouragement to you , but that YOU ALL are an encouragement to her as well!
I too am not a stranger to pain and suffering...I know one thing and NO ONE can tell me different...GOD IS GOOD AND GOD IS FAITHFUL!!!
God has delivered me from heartache of a abusive home... ( Concerning my dad) I came to know Jesus at the age of 25... He delivered me from drugs, alcohol, and being my own boss! LOL My husband soon came to Jesus NOT because I did anything or preached at him , but merely walking the talk...
1 Peter 3:1 Wives, in the same way submit yourselves to your own husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, ...(We need a "Tude Check for sure! ) LOL..... So important we walk worthy of the call that Christ died for.. NO not saying perfect.. But we need to be aware daily of where we are at...
Sooo one day at Church after listening to the "Forgiveness Message" I knew GOD was speaking to my heart to forgive my dad..... SHEESH!! LOL......
But as I heard God's word being preached and seeking the word on my own that if I don't forgive I WILL NOT BE FORGIVEN!!!! Whoa!!! I head the Pastor say... Maybe you can call the person you are holding UNforgiveness about.. Maybe a card, a letter... If they passed maybe a letter then burn it up and let it go...... Maybe you need to go to the person face to face....
Well....................... I thought ... Maybe I can write him a CARD!!! Ya that sounds great!!!! Hmmmm but deep down in my heart... I knew I had to FACE him... The words that came to my heart were... ( Dad forgive me for holding UNforgiveness against you. ) I thought GOD really? Umm do you recall he was the abuser here? HELLO?????? In my heart I heard... YOU ARE THE LIGHT.. YOU ARE THE ONE HOLDING UNFORGIVNESS.... Ahhhh OK ., got it!!! So we headed out to Vallejo... and I said to my Dad before anything I need to ask you to forgive me for holding unforgivness against you for all these years...He cried and I cried.. I was FREE...But for the next 30yrs or so nothing changed on his end.,. He was all for his new wife and her kids and her grandkids....But I kept my heart free and moved on.. I called him and keep the bridge open...
Heartaches start...
1. Lost a child at 41/2 months into my pregnancy..
2. My only Sibling takes his life due to depression and being on anti dep medication that causes suicidal thoughts.
3. My Mother gets cancer and passes away. (MY Precious MOM was the best!!)
4. My estranged Father wants ME....MOI to be his caretaker!!! Seriously GOD?
I did NOT want to take care of my Dad after all those years of his still dissing me! I mean don't get me wrong, I did forgive him, but it was so much easier at a distance ya know? lol..... Well, he said ask your husband because I have NO ONE to care of me... I was soooooooooooo tempted to say.. Ahh So what happened to your step daughters??? YOU gave them everything.. where are they NOW? ...What have YOU done for me? What have you done for us when we were little? Where were you when I had YOUR 2 grandkids??? When your Son had 3 of your grandkids? Where were you when we needed help? You just abandoned us, you forgot you had KIDS? Grandkids? YET...... You took care of a strangers kids and grandkids and YOU want ME to take care of YOU???????? My heart said... well, you did forgive him right???? Ummmm.......LOL.... So I asked my husband and he said, well, what do you think the right thing to do is??? ( Was hoping he would say NO!) LOL .... Well, I told him my heart says... I forgave him.. and with forgivness there is mercy and grace just like Jesus did for me while I was yet a sinner Jesus died for me...... UNDESERVED FAVOR OF GOD!!!!! Soooo there it is... my answer!!! He has been with us 5 yrs.. easy? NO!!! God still had work to do in both of us.... I can honestly say NOW we are BOTH free.. my Dad finally "OWNED UP" to it.. and we both are at peace and good and healed!!! Thank you Jesus!
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I still believe in Romans 8:28
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.
2 Cor 1:4
He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.
I will not leave you comfortless; I will come to you." John 14:18
"Strengthen ye the weak hands, and confirm the feeble knees." Isaiah 35:3
We all need encouragement from time to time. Sometimes, like David, we just need to "command" our own soul to "be encouraged." However, at times we need a little help outside of ourselves. This may be in simply spending time with God, or in His Word. At other times, what we really need is a shoulder to cry on. We "comfort others with the comfort wherewith we ourselves have been comforted of God," Paul says. And "the hand cannot say to the foot, I have no need of thee." We need each other.
Thus, God has provided for all our needs in:: (1) Scripture; (2) prayer; and (3) the Body of Christ.
In God'z LOVE,

Phyllis