Christian ladies TTC, we can encourage one another.

[uwa_amanda]

Hi all, how are we all doing this week? Fill us all in on how your going emotionally xx

Hi my dear

I'm struggling a little bit...I keep thinking about where I would be at in my pregnancy. I would be 13 weeks and would probably have passed the nausea and not so fun stuff and would have let the rest of the world know we were pregnant.

I just get a little sad at times

I feel like if I'm blessed with another pregnancy, I won't be able to live in complete joy with the fear of how it's going to turn out. Will I only be able to relax once I have a baby in my arms?

This miscarriage really threw me for a loop. I never thought this would happen. I thought my trust and faith in God during my years of ttc was going to be enough to bring a healthy baby into my life.

I really pray that no one else has to go through this journey in their life. It's hard because there is nothing you could do to stop if from happening. You go from having one of the best days of your life hearing you're pregnant to being devastated months later finding out your child is gone.

I'm tired, tired of thinking of what could have been, tired of wondering if this is ever going to work for me, tired of going to the fertility docs and all the injections and ultrasounds....just tired.

I'm praying for you sis.

 

[Heather11]

Congratulations Heather! Happy and healthy 9 months to you.

Thank you!

 

[VGibs]

Hi all, how are we all doing this week? Fill us all in on how your going emotionally xx

Hi my dear

I'm struggling a little bit...I keep thinking about where I would be at in my pregnancy. I would be 13 weeks and would probably have passed the nausea and not so fun stuff and would have let the rest of the world know we were pregnant.

I just get a little sad at times

I feel like if I'm blessed with another pregnancy, I won't be able to live in complete joy with the fear of how it's going to turn out. Will I only be able to relax once I have a baby in my arms?

This miscarriage really threw me for a loop. I never thought this would happen. I thought my trust and faith in God during my years of ttc was going to be enough to bring a healthy baby into my life.

I really pray that no one else has to go through this journey in their life. It's hard because there is nothing you could do to stop if from happening. You go from having one of the best days of your life hearing you're pregnant to being devastated months later finding out your child is gone.

I'm tired, tired of thinking of what could have been, tired of wondering if this is ever going to work for me, tired of going to the fertility docs and all the injections and ultrasounds....just tired.

Your despair is so normal and completely justified. Sadly, TTCAL is so much harder and so much scarier. And nothing anyone says or does can calm your fears or heal your worry. But you are not alone. Being a miscarriage and stillbirth Mom, I never feel safe while pregnant. Its a very lonely and time consuming feeling. I have seen God work miracles in others lives, for instance. My friend G who is now pregnant with twin girls after trying for 13 years, having 4 miscarriages, and 3 IVF rounds. She never gave up hope. I pray you find the strength to endure.

 

[No Doubt]

Just listening to the radio and the song "let go and let God have His way" came on. Afterwards the pastor came on and gave a brief description of what the song means. He said it means just what it says. He said whatever it is that you fo going through to let go and let God. All you can do is what you can do and you trust God to do what you can't do. He said you can't trace Gods hand but you can trust his heart, you may not know what God is up to, but trust God that He is working it out.

It was then said if you're gonna worry don't pray, but if you're gonna pray don't worry. Once you give it to God, leave it there and let God take care of if. I hope this encourages someone today.

 

[Godsjewel]

Jana’s Story

A Hummingbird Caught in a Web

Jana and her husband, Bryan, fully understand what it is like to desire a child so strongly. They struggled with infertility for many years, followed by the devastating losses of three babies. However, through these trials, they have come to know God and trust Him in ways they never could have otherwise. They are now the very grateful parents of a beautiful 13 year old girl. Jana shares part of her story with us today.

I have a wonderful family with two sisters I adore. They stood by me through the many years of trying to have a baby, and also through the losses of our three children. While we were grieving the loss of our first child, my sister, Rhonda, told me how God ministered to her.

It was time for spring cleaning. Rhonda went out under her carport and as she looked up she saw a hummingbird caught in the mechanisms of the garage door. The terrified little bird couldn’t figure its way out of the garage. Being the animal lover she is, she stopped her work and began trying to find a way to help the bird find her freedom again. She kept saying aloud, “Just fly down a little and you can get out!” As she tried to coax the little bird out, she looked up and noticed a thick, strong spider web hanging from the ceiling. The exhausted, confused bird flew into the web and got tangled up.

Rhonda walked underneath the struggling bird and held her hand up. “I’ll catch you! I’ll catch you, little hummingbird. Just stop struggling. I’ll catch you!” She knew if anybody in her neighborhood drove by and saw her talking to herself this way in her garage, they’d have her committed for sure. She took her broom and lifted it up to the tangled web that had become the little bird’s captor, and gently touched the bird. This was just enough to nudge the bird free from the tangles of the web. She finally stopped struggling and fell into Rhonda’s hand. As the bird landed in Rhonda’s hand, God revealed to her the answer she had been seeking to a problem she and her family were facing. Stop struggling, Rhonda! I’ll catch you!

Rhonda knew we were hurting so from the loss of our son. We continued to try to conceive again, only to lose another child, and then another. We were so confused and hurting, and didn’t know which way to turn. When Rhonda shared this story with me, it was like a light went off in my head. I prayed, “God, I am that hummingbird!” I was doing everything that I could do. We were going to doctors and taking their advice, but we were trying to do things our way. We had to do things God’s way and let Him catch us in His hands.

In our struggle and weakness, we got tangled in a web of despair and frustration. Until we stopped struggling, and we laid our desires in God’s hands we got more and more tangled in our web. We finally said to Him “God, we want whatever You have for us. If Your plan includes no children, please give us the strength to walk that road.” It was without a doubt, the hardest prayer I had ever prayed. But I meant what I prayed. “If I never have a child, I will worship You. I will serve You. I will do Your will, whatever that will is.”

When we stopped that struggle and we fell into His hands, I think that’s when God said, “Okay. She’s ready. She’s in complete trust.” That’s when I learned what complete trust is all about.

 

[ProfWife]

The hummingbird example is exactly where I am right now. I'm having any hard time today between seeking medical treatment and just letting God do what He will. I keep wanting to just say "whatever. I'm just going to BD with hubs and whatever happens, happens" but there's this strong tug towards "everything you're showing right now indicates a medical problem. Shouldn't you consult a doctor regarding medical problems?"

I'm so confused I'm in tears right now because I just flat out don't know what to do anymore. Are we supposed to get treatment and seek a doctor's care or should we just do nothing and assume that if we don't get pregnant God put the desire there to never be fulfilled?

Hurting badly today...

 

[No Doubt]

The hummingbird example is exactly where I am right now. I'm having any hard time today between seeking medical treatment and just letting God do what He will. I keep wanting to just say "whatever. I'm just going to BD with hubs and whatever happens, happens" but there's this strong tug towards "everything you're showing right now indicates a medical problem. Shouldn't you consult a doctor regarding medical problems?"

I'm so confused I'm in tears right now because I just flat out don't know what to do anymore. Are we supposed to get treatment and seek a doctor's care or should we just do nothing and assume that if we don't get pregnant God put the desire there to never be fulfilled?

Hurting badly today...

Pro when reading this all I could think was be still. Sometimes when you don't know what to do, just dont do anything. I think we always try so hard to wrap our brains around something thinking "there just has to be" when really there isn't. It may seem like something just has to be an issue, when really there's not. It may just take time. I felt the same way when ttc, like there just had to be something wrong, like my pcos had to be getting in the way, or my weight was still a factor even though I'd lost a considerable amount, or hubbs low sperm count was the reason, even though "it only takes one". So we tried so much, spent so much, cried so much, pondered so much. Eventually I just didn't know what to di anymore, so I did nothing. I loved my husband and whenever the mood struck we enjoyed each other. Its easy to feel like tour being pulled in the direction of we have to do something when things don't happen according to the how they normally do let nature tell it. But you have to remember that you are not a child if nature. You are a child if God, and when you signed up for that you decided to trust God in everything. So if you don't know what to do, trust God and do nothing. He'll do whatever it is that needs to be done. You don't know what to do, but He does.

 

[Godsjewel]

Pro when reading this all I could think was be still. Sometimes when you don't know what to do, just dont do anything. I think we always try so hard to wrap our brains around something thinking "there just has to be" when really there isn't. It may seem like something just has to be an issue, when really there's not. It may just take time. I felt the same way when ttc, like there just had to be something wrong, like my pcos had to be getting in the way, or my weight was still a factor even though I'd lost a considerable amount, or hubbs low sperm count was the reason, even though "it only takes one". So we tried so much, spent so much, cried so much, pondered so much. Eventually I just didn't know what to di anymore, so I did nothing. I loved my husband and whenever the mood struck we enjoyed each other. Its easy to feel like tour being pulled in the direction of we have to do something when things don't happen according to the how they normally do let nature tell it. But you have to remember that you are not a child if nature. You are a child if God, and when you signed up for that you decided to trust God in everything. So if you don't know what to do, trust God and do nothing. He'll do whatever it is that needs to be done. You don't know what to do, but He does.

I couldn't of said it better

 

[Godsjewel]

The hummingbird example is exactly where I am right now. I'm having any hard time today between seeking medical treatment and just letting God do what He will. I keep wanting to just say "whatever. I'm just going to BD with hubs and whatever happens, happens" but there's this strong tug towards "everything you're showing right now indicates a medical problem. Shouldn't you consult a doctor regarding medical problems?"

I'm so confused I'm in tears right now because I just flat out don't know what to do anymore. Are we supposed to get treatment and seek a doctor's care or should we just do nothing and assume that if we don't get pregnant God put the desire there to never be fulfilled?

Hurting badly today...

I was at that point last September on my birthday, I cried out to God and didn't know what to do anymore. I told myself that was it and I wasn't going to pursue medical help or try any longer, if it was meant to be, God would have to intervene.

Two months later we got my husband’s benefit package stating the coverage of IVF treatment. We prayed and felt peace about moving forward with the it. For a couple of years the doctors would recommend IVF, but at that time I would always tell them, "No thanks, we could buy a car with as much as that costs" or "I would have to win the lottery to be able to afford that". I believe with all my heart that it was a gift from God.

Give it all to God, tell him how you are feeling and then sit still and let Him minister to you.

Praying for you hun

 

[ProfWife]

Thanks ladies. My whole life I've always felt like if there was an obstacle it was something God wanted me to overcome through Him. This...I just can't explain. I don't know why it was so easy to just pray and trust when my father was in a coma after his heart failed...or during his cancer...or during my mom's cancer. But at those points the doctors were doing something...or were at least monitoring something. Here...I'm stuck. I feel like no one listens (doc won't even give me my images from an ultrasound earlier this year).

If I'm fine...I want the doctor to tell me WHY I'm fine. I'm okay with it taking time, but I want to know that clinically I'm actually okay. It seems that rather than that happening I'm confronted with some new issue that they claim they told me on the phone but never actually told me. If there is really nothing to fix...I want someone to clear me. I'd rather that than actually have something wrong with me.

The other thing is that what if God does want to use something or someone and I'm so busy being stubborn about doing nothing else that somehow I miss it. I guess that's always been a huge fear of mine. I know God doesn't have a "plan b"... So can I get in the way of his plan A?

Normally I'm only like this when I'm on AF. I don't know what is going on with me this week. I'm at school still...really can't afford to be a sobby mess here. Only one person even knows I'm TTC here...

 

[No Doubt]

Pro, you can't mess up God's plan. God knows the plans He has for you. But you can get in your own way. You can over think something to the point where you begin to torture yourself. I know I've been there. Last year, right around this time actually I had the hugest breakdown of my life. Like you I cried out to God, but I cried out in anger. I told him seeing how He wasn't going to bless me with a child, then take away my yearning for one. It's amazing what God will do!

I never wanted children. I never wanted to get married. I was happy living my life the way it was, which really wasn't that great. But somewhere along the line things changed. I became ok with marriage. Then almost a year into my marriage after trying to push my husband away thinking he would do like every other man in my life and leave or hurt me, I realized he wasn't going anywhere and I became ok with having children.

You see God always knew that I would be a wife and mother, even when I didn't. And I was getting in my own way. The fact that I wanted kids after all of that only told me that God placed that yearning in my heart. And if He placed it there, don't you think He would allow it to come to fruition? But it was taking too long for me and I was tired of hurting so I told Him to take it away. I broke down bad. Hubbs wouldn't let me go to work for a couple days. But God wouldn't take it away. I/We had to go through some things to get to where we needed to be in order for God to use us like He wanted to as parents. I truly believe that.

I don't know what God has planned for you, but I do believe that God is doing a work in you. He's molding you right now, so don't lose faith. You said it was easy pray when it was your family. Do you think perhaps it's harder for you to believe because it's you this time...because you're the one "dealing with something" or "going through it" right now? I always find it easier to pray for someone else and believe in an outcome than I do for myself.

As for your doctor, maybe you should think about a new one. My specialist would always just say everything looks good. No explanation of anything. So I told them I wanted a copy of my records. They can't keep it from you. Come to find out I had a huge cyst and a fibroid. Neither of which played a part in anything fertility related, but like you said, I'd like to know these things. And that cyst was a huge problem with pain and my regular docs were none to pleased about the poor monitoring. Just tell them you want a copy of your records, you may have to pay for them. And this way you'll have them if you do decide to switch doctors.

And don't worry about being a sobby mess...I do that all the time at work, lol.

 

[Godsjewel]

“Restlessness and impatience change nothing except our peace and joy. Peace does not dwell in outward things, but in the heart prepared to wait trustfully and quietly on Him who has all things safely in His hands.” ― Elisabeth Elliot

 

[Godsjewel]

I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.
John 10:10

Whether or not God grants you a child is not for me to say. Whether He blesses your womb and gives you a biological child or if He answers your desire with an adopted child, either way is a magnificent blessing unparalleled in man’s abilities. But what seems so impossible to those of us struggling with infertility, God can bless you with a happy, fulfilled, complete life even without children.

The fact that not everyone who desires a child and tries to have children actually has children is often the hardest part of our struggle. Perhaps you have stared medical science and your fertile friends and relatives in the face and said, “I will succeed!” You have stood toe to toe with heartache and you continue to fight with the bravery of a mighty warrior. But for some, there comes a time to lay down your weapons and rest in the arms of a Savior who loves you and who truly understands baby hunger.

If childlessness is the path you are walking, rest in the knowledge that John 10:10 never once said, “I’ve come that they might have life and have it more abundantly when they have children”. I think it’s just as important to see what is missing in Scripture as it is to see what is there. Aren’t you glad that God didn’t accidentally leave that phrase out? He can—and He will—grant you life more abundantly—even without children—if you will allow Him to do so.

The only prerequisite to a more abundant life is life in Christ Himself. He has already done the work for you to provide this abundant life He has promised you. There are so many promises from a God with a perfect track record. He will not—He cannot—fail you. It’s simply not in His character.

-Beth Forbus

 

[MummyWant2be]

Pro, you can't mess up God's plan. God knows the plans He has for you. But you can get in your own way. You can over think something to the point where you begin to torture yourself. I know I've been there. Last year, right around this time actually I had the hugest breakdown of my life. Like you I cried out to God, but I cried out in anger. I told him seeing how He wasn't going to bless me with a child, then take away my yearning for one. It's amazing what God will do!

I never wanted children. I never wanted to get married. I was happy living my life the way it was, which really wasn't that great. But somewhere along the line things changed. I became ok with marriage. Then almost a year into my marriage after trying to push my husband away thinking he would do like every other man in my life and leave or hurt me, I realized he wasn't going anywhere and I became ok with having children.

You see God always knew that I would be a wife and mother, even when I didn't. And I was getting in my own way. The fact that I wanted kids after all of that only told me that God placed that yearning in my heart. And if He placed it there, don't you think He would allow it to come to fruition? But it was taking too long for me and I was tired of hurting so I told Him to take it away. I broke down bad. Hubbs wouldn't let me go to work for a couple days. But God wouldn't take it away. I/We had to go through some things to get to where we needed to be in order for God to use us like He wanted to as parents. I truly believe that.

I don't know what God has planned for you, but I do believe that God is doing a work in you. He's molding you right now, so don't lose faith. You said it was easy pray when it was your family. Do you think perhaps it's harder for you to believe because it's you this time...because you're the one "dealing with something" or "going through it" right now? I always find it easier to pray for someone else and believe in an outcome than I do for myself.

As for your doctor, maybe you should think about a new one. My specialist would always just say everything looks good. No explanation of anything. So I told them I wanted a copy of my records. They can't keep it from you. Come to find out I had a huge cyst and a fibroid. Neither of which played a part in anything fertility related, but like you said, I'd like to know these things. And that cyst was a huge problem with pain and my regular docs were none to pleased about the poor monitoring. Just tell them you want a copy of your records, you may have to pay for them. And this way you'll have them if you do decide to switch doctors.

And don't worry about being a sobby mess...I do that all the time at work, lol.

Thank you so much for this.

I'm such a mess and I came online today,thinking of you guys on this thread.

I'm in such a bad space right now,my cloose friend asked me to organise her babyshower for her and my cousin is pregnant with a baby boy..some how I feel as if my prayers are being ignored.it hurts coz I'm losing my faith,I'm starting to think God has turned his back against me,I always ask him to lead me and show me the right path,but month after month I always have a Af right on time.my doc now precribed clomid for 3months,dis was my first try and Bang Af right on time,honestly,I'm losing hope and its scary,I reaaly don't know what to do anymore.

Oh and next month marks one year since my MC maybe that's where all these emotions are coming from.please do keep me in your prayers.

 

[Heather11]

“Restlessness and impatience change nothing except our peace and joy. Peace does not dwell in outward things, but in the heart prepared to wait trustfully and quietly on Him who has all things safely in His hands.” ― Elisabeth Elliot

I LOVE this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you so much for sharing!

 

[xxx_faithful]

Pro, you can't mess up God's plan. God knows the plans He has for you. But you can get in your own way. You can over think something to the point where you begin to torture yourself. I know I've been there. Last year, right around this time actually I had the hugest breakdown of my life. Like you I cried out to God, but I cried out in anger. I told him seeing how He wasn't going to bless me with a child, then take away my yearning for one. It's amazing what God will do!

I never wanted children. I never wanted to get married. I was happy living my life the way it was, which really wasn't that great. But somewhere along the line things changed. I became ok with marriage. Then almost a year into my marriage after trying to push my husband away thinking he would do like every other man in my life and leave or hurt me, I realized he wasn't going anywhere and I became ok with having children.

You see God always knew that I would be a wife and mother, even when I didn't. And I was getting in my own way. The fact that I wanted kids after all of that only told me that God placed that yearning in my heart. And if He placed it there, don't you think He would allow it to come to fruition? But it was taking too long for me and I was tired of hurting so I told Him to take it away. I broke down bad. Hubbs wouldn't let me go to work for a couple days. But God wouldn't take it away. I/We had to go through some things to get to where we needed to be in order for God to use us like He wanted to as parents. I truly believe that.

I don't know what God has planned for you, but I do believe that God is doing a work in you. He's molding you right now, so don't lose faith. You said it was easy pray when it was your family. Do you think perhaps it's harder for you to believe because it's you this time...because you're the one "dealing with something" or "going through it" right now? I always find it easier to pray for someone else and believe in an outcome than I do for myself.

As for your doctor, maybe you should think about a new one. My specialist would always just say everything looks good. No explanation of anything. So I told them I wanted a copy of my records. They can't keep it from you. Come to find out I had a huge cyst and a fibroid. Neither of which played a part in anything fertility related, but like you said, I'd like to know these things. And that cyst was a huge problem with pain and my regular docs were none to pleased about the poor monitoring. Just tell them you want a copy of your records, you may have to pay for them. And this way you'll have them if you do decide to switch doctors.

And don't worry about being a sobby mess...I do that all the time at work, lol.

No Doubt,

You are an incredible woman of God. Thankyou for sharing this with us all, we constantly need to be reminded of our infallible God and his love for us. Better yet, we constantly need encouragement from each-others testimonies and personal experiences to further develop our connection and strength.

Please keep sharing your revelations as you continue your walk with God.

Bless
x

 

[xxx_faithful]

I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.
John 10:10

Whether or not God grants you a child is not for me to say. Whether He blesses your womb and gives you a biological child or if He answers your desire with an adopted child, either way is a magnificent blessing unparalleled in man’s abilities. But what seems so impossible to those of us struggling with infertility, God can bless you with a happy, fulfilled, complete life even without children.

The fact that not everyone who desires a child and tries to have children actually has children is often the hardest part of our struggle. Perhaps you have stared medical science and your fertile friends and relatives in the face and said, “I will succeed!” You have stood toe to toe with heartache and you continue to fight with the bravery of a mighty warrior. But for some, there comes a time to lay down your weapons and rest in the arms of a Savior who loves you and who truly understands baby hunger.

If childlessness is the path you are walking, rest in the knowledge that John 10:10 never once said, “I’ve come that they might have life and have it more abundantly when they have children”. I think it’s just as important to see what is missing in Scripture as it is to see what is there. Aren’t you glad that God didn’t accidentally leave that phrase out? He can—and He will—grant you life more abundantly—even without children—if you will allow Him to do so.

The only prerequisite to a more abundant life is life in Christ Himself. He has already done the work for you to provide this abundant life He has promised you. There are so many promises from a God with a perfect track record. He will not—He cannot—fail you. It’s simply not in His character.

-Beth Forbus

You make me cry and cry and cry!!! The wisdom that comes from your mouth and the resources you stumble across that continually encourage us is your gift from God, Sar. WE love you because of it

WOW what an incredible message! I hands down agree with every word. Children do not define you. A husband does not define you. A house, a degree, a status. NOTHING defines you but the bare soul that is within. You can spend your whole life arguing with God, once we receive this or that, that it will fulfill us. But no, we just continue wanting and seeking more. Until we realise that it is HIM that we seek.

>>> "He will not—He cannot—fail you. It’s simply not in His character. <<<

Love this! Amen sister xxx

 

[Godsjewel]

Based on the story of Jacob and Rachel
Genesis 30


Jake walked up the sidewalk to the door of their townhouse, worn out from another incredibly hectic day at the office. He had fought so many mental wrestling matches today that his strength was sapped and all he wanted to do was collapse in his recliner and watch TV. As his key turned in the door, he heard her weeping. Again. He used to burst through the door when he’d hear her crying, sweep her into his arms and with his heart pounding as though it would burst through his neatly starched dress shirt, pull her face close to his to see what tragic event had befallen them. This time, he simply took a deep breath, steadied himself for the torrent of tears sure to flood the foyer, and stepped inside.

“Who is it this time?” he asked as he flipped through today’s pile of bills from the fertility clinic, not knowing if he really wanted to know.

“My sister!” she screamed. “She’s pregnant. Again!” Between heaving sobs and hurling tissues, pieces of Riley’s heart broke and fell to the ground. Again. “She doesn’t even take care of the ones she already has! I know I would be a better mother than she is! When is it going to be my turn?”

With fists balls up and her face distorted from too many episodes of jealous rage, Riley seethed as she looked at Jake and said “If I had to have some kind of disease, why did it have to be infertility? Why couldn’t it be cancer instead? I could live with a painful, chronic disease, but how am I supposed to live the rest of my life without a baby?”

The verbal wrestling match went on and on. “What do you want me to do, Riley? What do you want me to do?” Jake had reached his boiling point. “I’m doing everything I can to get you pregnant! I know you’ve been poked and prodded more times than you care to remember, but I’ve been to the doctors too! I’m not God! I can’t decide who has a baby and who doesn’t! I’m doing the best I can!” Jake threw the pile of bills on the credenza and stormed out.

The fights were getting more heated and more frequent. How would their marriage survive infertility? Jake didn’t know, but he knew he loved her. He loved her more than any woman he had ever known. He wrestled with how to support Riley through the babyless months they faced, and how-and when-to encourage her to move on to other dreams.

Eventually, Riley stopped crying, and Jake stopped seething. Children came, although not in the way they had planned. A house full of boys--some adopted, some biological. It was more than they’d dreamed in the dark days. Jake hoped that having children would be enough to settle the jealousy and discontent in Riley’s heart, but motherhood simply was not enough. She had battles she had to face within herself, whether anyone called her “Mom” or not. Her struggles showed in her children, that’s for sure. But somehow, Jake knew God would make great men of their boys. He knew God would be faithful to bless their boys and make a difference in the world through them.

Jake and Rachel had their struggles. They had wrestled with each other and with God. But one thing remained true. God proved faithful, time and again and used imperfect people to bring about His perfect plan.

-Beth Forbus

 

[No Doubt]

Ladies I don't know if you remember me saying I was interviewing for a position a while back, well I didn't get it. But I interviewed for another position that I wanted more yesterday and felt that suited me better and I didn't get that one! God is so good! So many blessings!

 

[markswife10]

Congrats Heather!!! I just saw you got your BFP!!! Happy and healthy 9 months to you!