Hi ladies,
As we continue using this forum as a way to vent our fuze, to share our heartache and to come together for advice, comfort and fellowship.
More often then not we express our hurts and our WHY'S in this forum but not our triumphs. As this is a forum of LTTTC ladies, there are few that receive their BFP to continue using this forum based on it's relevance.
I refuse to be one of those woman that forget their story. Forget their testimony from God regarding their miracle baby. I choose to remind myself everyday. I choose to remind myself of my heartache, to remind myself of my daily gratitude towards God for remembering me. We tend to forget when we're in the midst of our pain, if God remembers us. I can't count how many times i thought he had forgotten me. That my prayers were going unanswered. That people around me were being blessed time and time again with another successful pregnancy, some that weren't even been trying a 1/4 of the time i had spent. While i couldn't even enable my body to ovulate, let along menstruate on it's own.
Im not too sure what it was that enabled me to be able to hold onto my pregnancy this time around,
i don't think i could put my finger on what worked. Whether it was my herbalist, or my acupuncturist, or perhaps it was, for the first time in 3 yrs my ability to let go of the GRIEF and the CONTROL i had over my infertility.
I will never know why it took me so long, or why it takes other woman longer. But i will say this.. I never doubted God's ability to do what he was created to do. Create life.
You see that is what God excels at, that is his finest hour. Creating life is what he does best. So what is there to doubt?
I come here today with a different state of heart. A heart of a prayer that has been answered. A 'why' that has been heard, and a heart that has been moved. I don't ask but urge you all to keep pressing on
keep holding onto his cloak and asking him to reveal himself to you.
When i look into my baby girls eyes.. being 13 weeks old now. I am reminded of God's love, God's grace & his ability to create life from a womb that could not.
xxx
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