clomid club

[Helena_]

This is my third round of Clomid. The first was 50mg and didn't work , the second was 100mg and did work. I don't know if the first should count of not but, whatever. It's really hard, especially this cycle. CD 14 and still no pos opk when last cycle I got one at cd 13. I know you can ovulate at different times each month but it's still really tough and disheartening. I wish this was as easy as they make it out to be. Clomid turns me into a wreck. I get so depressed and I really can't stand it. I've been thinking lately of just stopping everything. I wish I could ntnp but I don't ovulate on my own and after 2 years of ttc (some ntnp, some timed sex, some with opks etc) I just can't imagine throwing in the towel now. I just don’t know what I would do with myself. I clearly need a new hobby. I'm young and should be fertile but I'm not and that makes me feel like a failure. I feel like everything I've always wanted is unattainable. What did any of us do to deserve this? Infertility is a horrible thing that I would never wish on my worst enemy. I just need a damn win so I can relax a little. Last cycle we timed bding for every other day and every day following positive opk. It was perfect and it didn't work. I wasn't surprised it didn’t work because I keep trying to remind myself that it won’t work on the first shot. We (well, most of us) don't ovulate on our own so considering that we have only been ovulating for 1,2 or 3 cycles with a 20 or so percent chance each cycle, well it's the same as someone who does ovulate on their own and trying for two cycles and getting pissed off it hasn’t worked. I keep trying to remind myself of this but it's still really hard because the fact of it is that we have been trying for more than 3 cycles. This month I just don't care. I've only bd three times this month so far. I will bd like crazy once I get my positive opk but I just needed a breather this cycle and hopefully the semi-more relaxed approach will help me gain the courage and strength to give it all I've got for next cycle. I always say 'if there is a next cycle' but I whole-heartedly believe that there will be a next cycle and right now I'm pretty much just waiting for af to get here with some sex along the way. I keep hoping that Clomid will be my miracle drug but I'm losing hope day by day. Clomid is really a horrible drug- it gives you all this hope but also all these mood swings and when it doesn't work for a few tries all that hope gets slashed. I'm really beginning to hate it.

 

[Helena_]

I get bloods done on days 12 and 21 to check estrogen and progestone levels which to be honest aren't great considering I'm on fertility drugs,(far lower than other clomid girls on here) but still high enough that they wont consider upping the dose any time soon. The limits of normal are far larger down here in New Zealand. I wouldn't say no to 100mg

What are your levels? Mine are lower but still say I ovulated. They are much lower than what everyone says their doctor wants to see with Clomid but for whatever reason my doctor isn't concerned with this and won't up my dose because I did ovulate. Agh

 

[trying hard]

I'm so sorry you are feeling crappy. Infertility is such a horrible rolercoaster ride at times huh.
I'm feeling sorry for myself today too so big

My first cycle:

day 12 est 691
day 21 pro 32.4


2nd cycle

day 12 est 1034
day 21 pro 37.4



what were your levels??????????

 

[Helena_]

My prog at day 21 (6dpo) was 8. I think we may have different measurements, though

 

[trying hard]

mine are measured in nmol/L
your in the US ?

 

[Lisa92881]

I'm so sorry you are feeling crappy. Infertility is such a horrible rolercoaster ride at times huh.
I'm feeling sorry for myself today too so big

My first cycle:

day 12 est 691
day 21 pro 32.4


2nd cycle

day 12 est 1034
day 21 pro 37.4



what were your levels??????????

I'll jump on the "feeling sorry for yourself" bandwagon. It's just one of those days!!!

 

[Helena_]

You know, I actually have no idea. My doctor is kind of crap about all of this. She said half of the work wasn't in yet...no idea what else they tested for. She didn't even want to do the blood work but I requested it. I'm ok with her being hands off because it's easier for me but it would be nice to know what's going on. She said that after a year she'll refer me to a fs. I don't really know what else she'll do other than clomid and surely I can't take that for a year...

 

[trying hard]

My prog at day 21 (6dpo) was 8. I think we may have different measurements, though

so that would be 25.8 in nmol/L which isn't all that great but was also taken 6 days earlier than it should and I don't know what they are supposed to raise each day.

 

[trying hard]

why did they do the test on day 21 if you had only just Oed?

 

[Helena_]

here's they take it at 7dpo. and mine was taken at 6dpo.

 

[trying hard]

sorry totally read that wrong, so yours are somewhat close to mine then. probably below average for somebody on clomid but above the accepted lower limit

 

[Helena_]

yeah the doctor said that if I'm ovulating then I don't need a higher dose. Ugh whatever. Someone I'm friends with had lower progesterone than me and she just got her bfp, so there's hope!

 

[ebony2010]

I know I don't post here very often but I do lurk and I just read your post about feeling so low about clomid. I totally understand where you are all coming from. We are "unexplained" and I thought clomid would guarantee my bfp plus a bigger chance of twins so we wouldn't have to go through the ttc crap again. I'm on cycle 6 of clomid and this is probably my last cycle of it. They make out clomid is this wonder drug where you just pop a pill and you're instantly pregnant. They don't tell you how awful the side effects can be and what a mess you will feel with your emotions.

Anyway I just wanted you ladies to know I'm here and you're not alone. xxx

 

[charbaby]

I have been ttc for a year now,have pcos waiting to get an appointment to see a f/s not sure when that will be, an old friend of mine has gave me some chlomid that she had when ttc her children (she had twins in the end) back a few years ago, I am just wondering what people on here would do,
A... take it and hope for the best
B... chuck it in the bin??

 

[Euronova]

I would say don't take it without medical supervision but then some GP give it like sweets to women (my GP wanted to give it to me without any prior tests) whereas my FS insisted that OH had an SA, and i had a HSG before we could take it. In the end my tests were normal so really it would have ended up all the same.
It worked for us on the first cycle, if it's the lowest 50mg dose I would be tempted to give it a go!

 

[charbaby]

I would say don't take it without medical supervision but then some GP give it like sweets to women (my GP wanted to give it to me without any prior tests) whereas my FS insisted that OH had an SA, and i had a HSG before we could take it. In the end my tests were normal so really it would have ended up all the same.
It worked for us on the first cycle, if it's the lowest 50mg dose I would be tempted to give it a go!

I have pcos, and so does my friend and she thinks this is what i will be prescribed anyway, o/h has already had SA that has come back all good, It is 50mg dose, but anyways i have to wait for a period before i can start it (thats if i choose to) so on average im waiting around 2 n half to 3 months for AF, and last one was only a few weeks ago so i have a while to decide what to do
Thank you for your reply xx

 

[Monalissa]

Big to everyone who is feeling down right now.

I am also feeling very disheartened and sad. It's CD 19 and I still have not detected my surge. I've been testing twice a day since CD 10 and have not had the same O pains that I did last month, just some occasional alternating sharp pains and AF type cramps.

I think I may pursue the HSG the second opinion referred me for next cycle (if AF ever comes ) and then try to see a FS. I really don't like taking meds without any monitoring and the situation I'm in now is exactly why. It's giving me so much anxiety not knowing what is going on.

 

[TryinFor1]

I have been ttc for a year now,have pcos waiting to get an appointment to see a f/s not sure when that will be, an old friend of mine has gave me some chlomid that she had when ttc her children (she had twins in the end) back a few years ago, I am just wondering what people on here would do,
A... take it and hope for the best
B... chuck it in the bin??

My OBGYN gave it to me like candy without any further testing besides blood test. I took three cycles and got pregnant on my third.

If I were you and my friend gave it to me, I would take it. Lol. If you bought it online I wouldnt because that would be too scary. but if it is from a pharmacy I say WTH. Good luck with what you decide.

 

[FloridaGirl21]

^^I agree with Tryin, I didn't have any testing and got pregnant on the 2nd cycle, but wouldn't want to purchase it off the internet.. Too scary for me!! I would use a friend's though, if you knew it came from a pharmacy

 

[charbaby]

Well i think i might just go for it then
Well as soon as the witch decides to turn up again! xx