Confused, upset, angry and still 4 days to go!!

[Tasha16]

Hello Ladies...

I am also in my 2ww... with 4 days to go!! I'm trying my hardest not to POAS early.. like I always do!! I admit.. I'm a POAS addict!!

I took about a month off from this site.. I found that I was stressing way too much over it. My entire month was consumed with waiting to ovulate.. then the 2ww... symptom spotting.. or lack of symptom spotting!! ugh!!

This 2ww period hasnt been as difficult as others.. I've been trying to take a different approach mentally on this whole ttc business... it has been tough!!

I am still temping.. but stopped the CBFM.. the sticks were too darn expensive!! I didn't even tell hubby when I was ovulating.. I just surprised him with a baby dance a few times.. he didnt even know. I totally stopped stressing over the whole.. bd should be done every other day.. etc.. if it happens.. it happens.

I'm already feeling out of the game this month...as i have ZERO symptoms.. other than a few cramps.. like fricken AF is gonna arrive... and ready for AF to arrive so I can get back on track for Feb. It will be month 7 of ttc... I really didn't think it would take this long!

Wow... thanks for listening ladies.. I didn't realize I wrote so much.. I guess I needed to vent.. considering I was away for about a month!!

Take care everyone.. and sending baby dust your way!!

p.s... I know I said i wasnt gonna test... but.. I think i'm going to give in tomorrow 9dpo and test with fmu!! ugh!!! No willpower!! I'm gonna try to hold off and wait until AF arrives.. it's always a waste of money!


baby dust.. baby dust.. baby dust!!

hey hun did u give in n do a test? I know what u mean tho im rubbish at waiting, my af isnt due till the 7th n it seems 2 b taking forever 2 get there x

 

[AnnetteCali]

Tasha16...

Ya.. I gave in and took a test yesterday .. and it wasn't even with FMU!! What a waste of a test because it was a bfn! I'm due to get AF either thurs or Fri... no signs yet. My BBT chart did something weird today.. it dropped below the coverline... I doubt it's an implantation dip because it seems implantation should have taken place day 6.. I dont know???

Any input ladies? I WILL NOT test again until Friday he he.. I am going to try to keep myself distracted till then.

I feel I'm out this month.. so i'm treating myself to a cup of coffee this morning... instead of having a big pity party after my BFN... i'm gonna have a cup of coffee as my reward! lol... I stopped coffee two months ago.. and started drinking green tea... in hopes it would increase my fertility... hhmmm... so much for that! lol..

How is everyone else doing in their 2WW?!

 

[SpudsMama]

How is my 2ww going? Really really slow lol, I'm so bored!

Hardly any symptoms except for the odd bit of ferning and some very occasional AF cramps... not due until Friday or Saturday...

I want a !!!!!!!!!!!! lol

Baby dust to everyone xx

 

[Tasha16]

aww bless huni it may just b early days. Im dying 2 test lol i just wanna if im in or out x

 

[AnnetteCali]

I've sorta already prepared myself to be out this month..... that way i wont get my hopes up. I've had months where I convinced myself that I was pregnant.. or still had a chance that month.. just to get a visit from AF. ugh!! Soo... if I look at it this way... it makes it a bit less sad for me when I get my monthly visitor!

I'm already geared up for next month!! Hang in there ladies!!

 

[Rachael1981]

I'm 11dpo and AF is due Friday/Saturday.

I feel out this month too So much so I've even already stocked on Tampax ready for AF

Good luck to everyone x

 

[SpudsMama]

omg I'm really bad for that... I always forget to buy more pads during the 2ww because I'm so preoccupied with af NOT showing up... then obviously I come on and start to panic that I've got no protection... every single month without fail lol!

must go out later to stock up so I don't forget

xx

 

[Rachael1981]

Good idea. I figured if I'm prepared then with a but of luck I'll be wrong and she won't show x

 

[Tasha16]

well i gave in this morning and tested n im none the wiser lol. Looked like bfn then i held it up 2 window 4 day light n thought i could c a really really faint line, so god knows lol prob just convinced myself there was a line x x

 

[SpudsMama]

lol I feel like testing (and that's rare for me, I usually just sit and wait for AF)... I'm soooo bored!

10 dpo today and got a temp of 97.58... no idea if that's high or low seeing as that's my very first official temp Does anyone know if that tends to be high, low or average for most women??

No saliva ferning, stuffy nose this morning but ok now, no AF cramps for the first time in about four days, had a super squishy high cervix this morning, very restless sleep for the second night in a row, very bloated, got heavy tender boobs and slightly sore nipples. Not that I'm symptom spotting or anything

2 or 3 days to go!

Baby dust to all xx

 

[AnnetteCali]

TTC Sept 2010... it's difficult to tell whether or not your temp is low, medium, or high... especially if this is your first temp. Every woman is different.. and sometimes every cycle is different. I've been temping for 2 months now... and my chart this month doesnt really match up with last months chart.

I'm still trying to hold off on taking a test because I feel AF is knocking at the door.. I got a little bit of light brown spotting this morning... so.. I think that was AF making a visit... although.. nothing else. I keep running to the bathroom to check... but nada. A part of me keeps hoping that it was "implantation spotting".. but that's just me grasping for any little symptom!!

I'm gonna hold off on testing because it will be a total waste of $5... so if I don't get AF by tomorrow morning.. then maybe i'll break out the first response test!

Good luck ladies.. keep me posted!!

 

[SpudsMama]

Well you're only 10 dpo, so the timing would be right for implantation spotting xx

 

[AnnetteCali]

Prob not TTC.. I have a 10 day lp... so.. according to my chart and last months chart.. I'm right on track to get AF.. I decided to just to log today as AF starting... I am beating her to the punch!!!

If it changes ... and I don't get a visit.. but i'm pretty sure I will.. as I keep going to the bathroom every five minutes to wipe.. and check.. lol....

Off to a new month for me.. I'm a little concerned though.. because my LP this cycle was only 9 .. according to FF.

I can't schedule to see an infertility specialist until a year of ttc.. I should have just lied to my doc on when i started ttc! lol..

Good luck everyone!!!

 

[SpudsMama]

How long have you been trying? That must be crap

My LP alternates every month from 12 days to 13 days lol... bring on Sunday when I can say I'm officially late... not that it will happen

xx

 

[AnnetteCali]

Hopefully it will happen for you TTC!! I hope I didn't sound too negative in my last post.. I'm just trying to take a new approach of being less optimistic about a baby... expecting the worst.. hoping for the best Some months I can get myself all worked up.. thinking i'm pregnant.. and it's such a disappointment when I get a visit from AF. So.. i'm trying to prepare myself for AF to arrive.. and if she doesn't.. it's a great bonus!!

I have been ttc for 7 months now.. I did not think it would be this difficult. The first few months I went crazy with ovulation sticks... the fertility monitor... etc.. and nada. Then I dropped the sticks.. and went with temping.. it's much cheaper. Temping has shed some light on my cycles.. although.. i must say I'm a bit discouraged about this cycle.. especially since my lp was only 9.. and my cycle was short. Hopefully that was the cause of it.. who knows! This is all so confusing at times.. if I read into tooo much I will just stress myself out!

I took about a month break from this site because I found I was getting too stressed... all month long I had ttc on my mind!! Every second of the day... I would check emails on my phone.... etc. It was too much. So this month I took a different approach... what I thought would be a less stressful approach... I didn't even tell my hubby when I was ovulating.. I just made sure I was extra sexy on those days! lol...

So... I plan to do the same.. I'll probably take a break until the end of my 2ww again.. I find that's much easier for me.. rather than lingering in the forums for an entire month.. I drive myself crazy!

Enough about me.. back to you!! Your LP looks good.. they say anything 10 and above is good... so I would say you are just fine How long have you been ttc?

 

[SpudsMama]

Oh that sounds hard :/ I see what you mean though about not getting your hopes up, I try to do it every month now, because after I didn't get pregnant on my first two months of trying I went downhill fast!

I've been trying since September, with a break from TTC over December because I ovulated over Christmas... couldn't arrange anything with the donor obviously on Christmas Day lol! So this is my 4th official cycle of trying, but it's been 5 months. It's hard in a situation like mine, because you literally only get one chance per cycle, two at the very most if you're lucky. But it can't be helped

xx

 

[Tasha16]

I'm sure it will happen for you both. Annette I know what you mean though about thinking about it all the time and getting stressed, I really don't think it helps. The last time I got pregnant I took the more relaxed approach and didn't worry about it and got pregnant within a month Xx

 

[SpudsMama]

Just been looking at my chart and it looks quite good for implantation... I had 3 days (7,8 and 9 dpo) of mild AF like cramps which haven't come back since. Also looked back through my other cycles charts and nothing like that before. That also links in with the time I had ferning again on my scope at 8 dpo. Ordered some internet cheapies from eBay which will arrive tomorrow morning! I never get excited about testing lol!

Desperately trying to keep my hopes down, but it's not working very well today

Good luck to everyone else xx

 

[Rachael1981]

Good luck! Sounding promising!

 

[Tasha16]

looking good 4 u then. I mite test again 2mora, my boobs r extremely sore again n look much fuller x