Alley I'm really sorry it's taken this long and the chlomid didn't work AND that you had to have 4 teeth pulled out on your anniversary. It's pretty sucky over here too, thanks for sharing the shit with me lol. I've just posted this on another thread and I'll tell you about it too. I'm at my witts end and fed up.
I know you guys may think this is crazy but I'm sick of the yo-yoing with my weight and I firmly believe my hormones and fertility aren't working because of it. So I'm fixing it in a more permanent way. I'm getting gastric sleeved on Jan 19th. I was in tears last week, called in sick from work, home alone, couldnt sleep, face full of spots, not ovulating, feeling fat. My thyroid isn't working, I'm probably not producing melatonin, my arthritis is killing me (we've been skiing alot) and I'm going to have to go get bone spurs scraped off my L knee by my orthopedic surgeon (R knee was done in 2011). So I booked in with a top surgeon in Mexico and my flights.
I was in shock the whole day with my decision and didn't want to tell ANYBODY. Thinking up stories I could tell my hubbie etc. Then I realised, this is going to benefit him, I know he'll be supportive and I broke down and told him. I'm not ever going to tell anybody else, this is for me and I think people would make off the cuff negative judgements to me. I just feel like if I don't do something soon I will not ever have kids. I've tried everything under the sun other than being able to control my weight, I have to get down to a regular BMI (hovers between 26-31). I have worked out like crazy, ran 5km races, been to a bariatrics clinic since 2007 and not been able to get a handle on my overall weight. My goal weight is between 135-145 and the lowest I've been able to get down to was in 2007 @ 165.
The statistics of negatives with the gastric sleeve are shockingly low, the statistics of people loosing weight and keeping it off are amazingly high. They cut your stomach in half which gives you less room to stuff yourself and removes the center that makes the ghrelin hormone (the hunger pangs). It's different than a gastric bypass which can produce dumping and malnutrition. It's about forced portion control and removing the hunger feedback loop to your brain. I really enjoy sports of all kinds but the extra weight makes my knees groan everytime I do something. It's not going to be an easy fix by any means but I'm looking forward to a slimmer more fertile me, and hopefully my hormones will start working too.
I haven't been able to talk to anybody about this, it's pretty radical, I'm terrified and I still can't believe the path I've put myself on!
pretty worried....
