Counting day by day

[croydongirl]

I have spent WAY too much time on here the last few days trying to see if I can find a definite yes or now about whether this bean is going to stick. I got a faint BFP at 11dpo and today am officially 4w.

I have lost my last 2 pregnancies at almost 5w and almost 6w so it is no longer exciting to get the 2 lines on the test, it is the start of a waiting game.

I can obsess over my temps and cringe in fear when they take a nose dive, only to breathe a little easier if they begin to rise slightly the next day.

I can find hope in reading a post on light bleeding that turns out to be nothing, and then run to the bathroom with severe cramping convinced AF is coming.

It's too much. All I know is that my life, and the life of this little one is in the hands of God. I pray that this will work but for today I am thankful I get to experience what it is like to be 4 weeks pregnant aware that some people never know what that is like.

So today I am thankful. Choosing not to be fearful and let that steal my joy. I have no control over tomorrow so I'll take it one day at a time and count each day as a blessing.

 

[dannyboygirl]

Amen sister....Many blessings to a sticky bean..

 

[Gemie]

 

[Babybear1985]

good luck sweetie....to be honest im exactly the same at the minute just taking each day at a time and grateful ive even got to 6 weeks...big hugs and kisses xx

 

[SPN1304]

I have spent WAY too much time on here the last few days trying to see if I can find a definite yes or now about whether this bean is going to stick. I got a faint BFP at 11dpo and today am officially 4w.

I have lost my last 2 pregnancies at almost 5w and almost 6w so it is no longer exciting to get the 2 lines on the test, it is the start of a waiting game.

I can obsess over my temps and cringe in fear when they take a nose dive, only to breathe a little easier if they begin to rise slightly the next day.

I can find hope in reading a post on light bleeding that turns out to be nothing, and then run to the bathroom with severe cramping convinced AF is coming.

It's too much. All I know is that my life, and the life of this little one is in the hands of God. I pray that this will work but for today I am thankful I get to experience what it is like to be 4 weeks pregnant aware that some people never know what that is like.

So today I am thankful. Choosing not to be fearful and let that steal my joy. I have no control over tomorrow so I'll take it one day at a time and count each day as a blessing.

I am feeling just the same! I have my fingers crossed this one sticks for you xxx

 

[croydongirl]

Yesterday was a complete test of faith. I had woken up in the middle of Wednesday night with severe cramping and then was just waiting for the bleeding to start, but praying I fell back asleep.

Woke yesterday with constant strong cramps, and then had a little diluted brown watery spotting once in the afternoon and once in the evening. Convinced I was about to start bleeding and thiswould all be over.

But thismorning, temp remains high, no more spotting and cramps faded.

Keep thinking about the story in the Bible when the women has so much faith that she just reached out to touch Jesus's robe trusting that it would heal her, and stop her bleeding. Trying to draw close to God today and know what it means to find that faith and reach out to him for healing.

Today we celebrate 4w 2days!

 

[bernina]

Hi croydonogirl, and congratulations on your BFP.

Your fears and worries are shared by so many on this board and I know this is a very anxious and trying time.

I have also suffered 2 mc prior to this pregnancy and I wanted to ask if you have discussed progesterone supplements with your doctor. If you feel comfortable I would call the office soon and see if they can get you a prescription. There are no side effects (other than being messy) and they can help a pregnancy to stick that otherwise would not have due to a hormonal deficiency in the mother. Many women on this board are taking them (including me). I just wanted to see if you were aware of this option.

Best of luck and I'm praying for a very sticky bean and a happy and healthy 9 mos for you.

 

[thepurlqueen]

croydongirl

I will be praying for you and your little babe.

 

[Peril]

I think you are taking a great approach to this. I am 13 weeks today, and still taking it one day at a time... i don't think i will be looking any further ahead than the day i am on until i have the baby in my arms!

✿*ﾟ‘ﾟ･✿ HUGS ✿*ﾟ‘ﾟ*✿

 

[croydongirl]

Hi croydonogirl, and congratulations on your BFP.

Your fears and worries are shared by so many on this board and I know this is a very anxious and trying time.

I have also suffered 2 mc prior to this pregnancy and I wanted to ask if you have discussed progesterone supplements with your doctor. If you feel comfortable I would call the office soon and see if they can get you a prescription. There are no side effects (other than being messy) and they can help a pregnancy to stick that otherwise would not have due to a hormonal deficiency in the mother. Many women on this board are taking them (including me). I just wanted to see if you were aware of this option.

Best of luck and I'm praying for a very sticky bean and a happy and healthy 9 mos for you.

My doctor doesn't like to prescribe progesterone because it can hold a pregnancy which is not viable and then it becomes harder to m/c naturally. I am trying to do what I can on my own so my friend who is a midwife suggested a natural progesterone cream and I found a good one with a pretty high amount of Progesterone in it. I am getting my blood tests on Monday and follow up on Wednesday so by Monday night I will know my P levels and if they are still low even with the P cream I am using I can get a prescription with that.

I am also taking baby aspirin just because I have heard that is another 'could help can't hurt' option.

Had a little bit more spotting this morning but nothing major. Still praying.

Thanks so much ladies

 

[Crazy4Emily]

Prayers for you. and big big I think your faith will definitely keep you calm and centered the next few weeks. Best wishes!

 

[welshmummy2be]

been through the same as you (first i miscarried at 6 weeks not knowing and the second time i miscarried at 8+4) so this is the furthest i have gone and to be honnest with you im finding it hard to enjoy as im worried so much....my faith is in god however and what he decides im sure will be the best for me x x x

 

[Neateye]

Huge

Your gratefullness & faith so touched my heart, you are a wonderful example to us.
Saying a prayer for you and your LO. Stick beanie STICK!!!
Lotsa luv...

 

[Littlebabyf]

This has really helped me - thank you x

 

[spacegirl]

Croydongirl,

Throw away your thermometer! It's not good for you to worry (obssess) over temp changes each day. It will just stress you out and will be bad for you and your baby.

I hope everything works out for you this time. Just take it easy and visualise a positive outcome!

 

[Blu10]

I understand how you feel, I mc in march at 5+4, I am now 10+5 and hoping bubs is ok! It's such an anxious time but I don't keep testing or temping, what will be will be. I think after a loss it's virtually impossible to enjoy first tri but you have to be positive until
you have reason not to be otherwise you will drive yourself insane. Good luck, positive thinking and sticky baby dust coming your way xxx