Cycle 1 day 1. Who's with me? *update* It's a girl! Congrats baby_bray!!!

[MightyMom]

Gratuitous use of Christmas icons!!

Merry Christmas Ladies!

 

[menb]

Merry Christmas all!!!!!!

 

[BERDC99]

Merry Christmas all!!!!!!

How are you and the twins?

 

[menb]

Hey Berdc!
We're great! Just feeling blessed to be able to be home with them for these next 2 weeks--hoping for some milestones!

I missed their 4 month checkup with vaccines cuz they had colds that week. They did see the doc, but he didn't wanna do their shots until they were well. That coincided with me going back to work and the busyness began. So, we have an appointment on Friday for their 4mo shots and then we'll see what the doc wants to do for their 6mo shots since they will be 5months 1 week on Friday.

Kaylani is pulling up to sit and she also pulls up to stand a lot. Bernard David is just beginning to pull up. I wish the physical therapist would have never told me not to buy the Bumbo seats. I feel like they'd be sitting up by now if thry had them. I know not to compare, but my friend whose baby boy is 11 days older just started sitting unassisted this week. He was a full term 40weeker so he's actually almost 8 weeks older than them.

They were both about 12 1/2 pounds at 4mo visit, so hopefully they are about 13-14 pounds now. K is blowing bubbles, spitting and making zerbert sounds with her mouth. She loves it! B is talking away! He 'talks' almost every waking moment. He also LOVES to smile and laugh!

They bring us so much joy--it's truly amazing!

How is Olivia doing? She's getting so big!

 

[BERDC99]

Hey Berdc!
We're great! Just feeling blessed to be able to be home with them for these next 2 weeks--hoping for some milestones!

I missed their 4 month checkup with vaccines cuz they had colds that week. They did see the doc, but he didn't wanna do their shots until they were well. That coincided with me going back to work and the busyness began. So, we have an appointment on Friday for their 4mo shots and then we'll see what the doc wants to do for their 6mo shots since they will be 5months 1 week on Friday.

Kaylani is pulling up to sit and she also pulls up to stand a lot. Bernard David is just beginning to pull up. I wish the physical therapist would have never told me not to buy the Bumbo seats. I feel like they'd be sitting up by now if thry had them. I know not to compare, but my friend whose baby boy is 11 days older just started sitting unassisted this week. He was a full term 40weeker so he's actually almost 8 weeks older than them.

They were both about 12 1/2 pounds at 4mo visit, so hopefully they are about 13-14 pounds now. K is blowing bubbles, spitting and making zerbert sounds with her mouth. She loves it! B is talking away! He 'talks' almost every waking moment. He also LOVES to smile and laugh!

They bring us so much joy--it's truly amazing!

How is Olivia doing? She's getting so big!

Sounds like they are doing great!

Olivia is doing great. We go to the doctor on the 7th for her six month shots. I would say she is close to 15-1/2 pounds now. She is starting to sit up on her own. She holds her self up for about 30 seconds then falls over. She rolls over from front to back but has no interest in rolling back to front.

Dont compare your babies to any other. all develop at different rates and no two will ever be the same. I have a friend that also had a premie baby that is 7 months old now and he is just now starting to sit up on his own.

So, how long till you try for another....ha ha!

I will be laid off from my job January 11th. I am looking forward to getting to spend time with Olivia and watching her grow. I am now really to worried about finding another job right now. I am just going to take it day by day and wish for the best.

 

[mailcmm]

Menb... Sounds like he twins are doing fabulous.

Berdc... I hope you find something as well. I can't imagine how scary that must be. Hopefully it won't take you long. I would start agresssively searching now though be in 2013 the launch of The affordable health care is going to put more people out of work. Especially in the service sector.i have many many friends who's bosses have already announced cuts. Our economy is really bad. Hopefully it will turn around soon. Do I remember that you do hair? Could you maybe start a mobile hair business? You know go to them. Maybe get a portfolio to wedding planners. Just a thought. I always look for ways to work for my self.


As for me... As if things couldn't get more uncomfortable I have 5 external hemorrhoids. No they are not doing anything about it. Did give me some cream but it doesn't work. I am in agony and spent most of yesterday crying. I have to go to the bathroom but won't because I am scared and don't want to eat. Finn really needs to come now so this can clea up. It's the really bad pressure from him that caused this as I haven't had any constipation. So terribly depressed.

 

[moter98]

Oh no mail! I've had them since 20 weeks but not that bad. Try cryotherapy, it is the only thing that works for me. (Apply ice) I actually bought this device called Anuice and it has saved me lots of pain. Will take a few days to shrink them but it will give relief. Apply twice a day for 8-10 minutes at a time.

 

[colta]

Well... as I'm assuming ya'll have figured, AF is here.

And it's awful! Every month seems to get worse and worse. I have unbelievable cramping and terribly heavy bleeding/tissue/the whole shebang... and it's been getting worse and worse.
I'm beginning to wonder if maybe I have endometriosis and I think it's high time I've gotten checked out.
God almighty it's bad, the pain is unbearable... I spent all of my day in a scalding hot tub, pumped up on pain meds and things are just starting to reach a tolerable level.
I'm just so fed up... me and DH, despite not actively trying for a while... have been having unprotected sex for almost a year and a half. It's been almost another year since I last conceived.... I seriously think something is wrong.

I'm going tomorrow (providing the blizzard we're in lets up) or the following Monday to a local clinic and getting referred to an obstetrician... I can't handle this type of pain and disappointment every month....

Okay, I'm done.... sorry for the rant. Colta out

 

[moter98]

So sorry Colta. After a year and a half of trying it must be very hard on you. I think it would be a good idea to go and and find out if there is something that drs can do to help you along. Hope it all gets sorted soon

 

[mailcmm]

After I posted I called back to the dr because the pain got way worse. They got me in this afternoon. I have to have surgery in the am. One of the hemmoroids is thrombosed. Luckily they are just going to lance it but I am nervous as I have never experienced this before. Dr took one look and gasped. Lol in just 48 hrs I managed to get the worst case of hemmoroids in my life. They said its the pressure of my ginormous hitchhiker. So I go for nst and midwife apt in the am followed by the surgeon. Hoping dr just sends me o l&d and they can take care of my problem during birth. Lol I am not that lucky though. Anyway, trying to stay positive but really really at the end of my tether. Please god let my water break!

Colta... So glad you are going to dr. After all this time you really need to. Please keep us posted all the way through. Hoping they find something so you have an answer.

 

[MightyMom]

Oh Colta, I'm sorry. I really think that getting checked is a good idea. Endometriosis is not the only possibility and it would be great if the doctor can diagnose you so that at least you can feel better.

Mail: I think you should explain to the doctor in the am that the reason you got the hemmorhoids was the baby and that surgery will not work since it will only come back again with the baby still there plus there may be some complications straining while giving birth and basically you would just feel better if they would do a c-section. I really think that at this point it's best for both of you. Finn is full term now, so it's not a risk to either of you if he is delivered now. You poor thing, this has been a horrendous week!

 

[mailcmm]

I wish mighty. Midwife I talked to yesterday said that they won't do anything and made me the apt today to see a nurse practitioner. She said that the hemmoroids are thrombosed and can not wait. She tried to get me into the surgeon today. They are only going to lance it and know that I will get more with delivery, but she is worried it will burst if they don't do something. That being said according to the midwife a csection isn't something they do due to hemmoroids. My dr is on vacation and I am seeing the midwife tomorrow so I doubt I will get another answer. Luckily my apt with her is first so I am praying she will say lets do this but I highly doubt it. Right now I am in so much pain that I just don't care. All I really want is some sleep.

 

[menb]

Oh Mail! This has been a rough 3rd Trimester! Ugh...I sure do hope your appointments today go in your favor. Finn is ready, you are ready, I just hope the NP does something. Surgery on them is just a band aid. Hoping for the best!

Colta, I'm so glad you've decided to go in. I know you mentioned the wait and all the other annoyances with your doctors and such, but it's time to get this looked into. I can't recall--do you also have PCOS? I'm just trying to think of what cod be causing all this! Ugh...keep us posted! We care!

 

[colta]

Mail - Hopefully they realize that you being in this much pain and discomfort is in no way better for you or Finn. Hopefully they give you what they want... be strong mama!

Thanks for all the support ladies... to be honest, I've kind of been avoiding this for a while. I just kept hoping that the next month would be the month and that I wouldn't need to find out something horrible about my fertility.
At any rate, we're still in the middle of a blizzard, so I can't get to the clinic today... but I'll be going Monday morning.
I'm starting to realize that maybe what I go through with AF really isn't the norm, like I've been telling myself. I hope this isn't tmi, but when I say I hemorrhage, I mean it. I have to wear two pads at all time, and I go through 3-4 (so 6-8) sets a day. I'm in pain in the worst way... pain killers all day, every day for 5-6 days. Crazy back pain... it's awful.

Menb - I don't think it's PCOS simply because I seem to be ovulating every month and have pretty consistent cycles... I've been going through a lot of the different things and endo seems the most likely. Pretty sure my mom had it too...

 

[MightyMom]

Endo is not a fertility death sentence. They can remove excess tissue with surgery giving you a window to getting pregnant. But it does get worse with age, so the sooner the better. I'm thinking there could be other explainations though with such heavy AFs.

 

[mailcmm]

I am just popping in to try and rant thru my drug induced fog. Apology now for anything wierd lol. Omg I will never ever ever ever ever ever do that again. I am in 50 times more pain then this am. Midwives won't speak to me an surgeon says he can't give me anything more for pain. By the time we got home and the lidocaine wore off I was in hysterics. Poor dh started calling drs like mad and almost called 911. They finally called in some pain meds and phenergen which they said would essentially act like alcohol and make the Vicodin stronger but safe for baby. Still in utter agony but so loopy I hardly care. Terrible day. They did schedule to induce me starting the 3rd so Finn should be here on the 4th the latest.

 

[moter98]

ice mail! i promise it will help, it will shrink them and also numb the area. you can even just use a moon shaped ice cube wrapped around a thin towel. it's not the most dignified thing to do, but i promise that it works!!

 

[mailcmm]

I will try tomorrow. Not much to shrink. He lanced it. The shot of lidocaine hurt way bad then nothing. I came out so happy only to get home to the lidocaine wearing off. Sad part when he came into the room said he was gonna check it and schedule me to come back cause he didn't want to do anything at 38 wks. Looks says this is one of the badder ones I've seen we need to lance it. Promises me instant relief. Then gets in there and says t the nurse more lidocaine I didn't think there would be an internal component. Then to me sweetie you have yourself a really large and bad hemorrhoid. The clot was almost 2". On the upside I have dilated to 2 and am 50%. Here's to hoping I don't need to go till Thursday. Lol

 

[moter98]

yeah, i have heard that the surgery for hemmoroids is way more painful than the hemorrhoid itself. though with one that large what else were you to do!
hey, you are almost there then. 2cm, woohoo! finn will be here in no time and it will all have been worth it.

 

[MightyMom]

Oh sweetie I am so so so sorry! That sounds WRETCHED. I hope that it all does progress rather rapidly for you!! Maybe you'll have New Year's Eve baby and you get to write off the whole year for taxes? I really hope you find some relief soon.