Don't be daft, we all have our own pain to carry, makes us appreciate the good things that happen doesn't it? I was actually planning on stopping TTC for a while as I hadn't given myself enough time to grieve and my anxiety was getting outof control, and whilst I was waiting for AF so I could start taking the pill I got the BFP lol, everything happens for a reason I believe and as painful as your miscarriages were is was most likely mother nature showing you the baby wasn't compatible with life. I bled a lot from week 5 to 15 and it turns out m baby wasn't compatible with life and had several problems with him, so think I was trying to miscarry as your body just knows when something isn't right.
I'm going to be laughing at you when you're complaining of nausea lol xx