OMG the internet just ate my REALLY long post! I'm so mad! Here's the abridged version:
IST - I feel exactly the same as you regarding ttc. I love the newborn and infant stage and would love to have another, but feel guilty taking away from the time and attention that Camden gets. But then I think about how important my siblings have been to me especially during childhood, and I feel guilty for considering NOT having another one. I'm so conflicted.
So yesterday I started really freaking out...I really think Camden has hip dysplasia. She is walking with a limp - it looks like her entire left leg is rotated outwards. At first I thought she was just waddling because she was a new walker, but it's getting worse and much more noticable recently. Also when I lay her down on her back with her feet flat on the floor and knees up the left knee looks lower than the right, as if one leg is longer than the other. These are all signs of dysplasia. We had her hips ultrasounded when she was nearly 4 months because the pediatrician noticed she had loose ligaments, but at that time they said her hips were perfect. I thought that was the end of it, but now that I've done more research I see that things can change. I'm so scared she'll have to have surgery and be in one of those huge spica casts for months. Can you imagine imobilizing a toddler who loves to walk/run/play all the time? We have an appointment scheduled for monday with a pediatrician, and if they don't offer x-rays I will request them. I just can't take "she'll grow out of it" as an answer, especially when treatment options are limited after age 2. I'm so scared!!
Here's a video I took of her at the park yesterday, she was very tired by this point so the limp is quite noticable.
https://youtu.be/qOpg6FEx6V4