Beanonorder
Mom and expecting #2
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Scooby - thats great news!!
expatttc - I know exactly how you feel! We had a good day yesterday where Ellie seemed full and napped well, but then she ended up waking up every 2 hours or less last night and I had to keep feeding her even thought I wasn't sure if she was hungry but nothing else settled her. I was low because of this in the morning. She's used to getting a nice full meal when she wakes up and it took me an hour (!) to put her down for a nap just now. I feel horrible that she probably isn't getting enough and am thinking about quitting breastfeeding. My nipples are red,bruised and blistered from her pulling and fussing the last week. I'm working so hard to make enough milk for her and its killing me physically and emotionally that I'm not enough for her. My sister keeps giving me advice and telling me I'm not eating right (basically that it's my fault my supply is low... she had an oversupply and she weights 90 lbs and barely eats.) but I'm definitely eating properly...I'm even gaining weight.
beanonorder - I've been feeling bad about myself too. It doesn't help that my inlaws told me I look "fat" and "not good" last month. I tried to work out during one of her naps yesterday and couldn't even do 1 sit up. The worst part is I'm going to be a bridesmaid in an indian wedding in 2 months and save to wear a sari (shows part of my stomach). ugh.
Ah sigh - your in laws suck for that! I originally started doing a few sit ups ups while Amber played on her play mat next to me. Just persevere!
As for bf, I get your feelings. I felt like such a failure when I found out Amber had lost so much weight! It killed me having to introduce formula. But it was for the best and I'm fine with it. Don't give up bf! If you have to just top up with some formula. That way Ellie is still getting the good stuff but also a little extra to gain properly. And use the shields - from experience they really help!!