Depressed

[Azaleecw]

Hello here's little introduction my name is Azalee Pratt I'm 25 and I have been trying to well not preventing getting pregnant for the six years I've been with my husband. In September 2013 my husband and I decided we were ready to start a family. I went to see a local OB/GYN who was great her name was Dr. well is Dr. working. I was severely obese and dr. working advised my husband and I that it would not be Wise to become pregnant at the weight I was. She recommended I have weight-loss surgery. I did so on October 22, 2013. The day of surgery I started my period which I haven't had a period in almost 2 years well regularly. A year later October 22, 2014 I had dropped 110 pounds I am now healthy and was advised by my GYN that I could carry a healthy pregnancy. But in October I had a month-long Menstruation. I have been regular for a full year and I was ecstatic I finally felt that my husband and I could conceive. When I saw my GYN she ordered lab work and in ultrasound pelvic ultrasound we found out I had PC OS. She then put me on 500 mg of Metfodmin b.i.d. And 50 mg of Clomid starting day three of my cycle for five days. Well month number one. Went by and I didn't end up pregnant I called my Gyn and requested that my Metformin be increased, so she increased me to 850 mg b.i.d. totaling 1700 mg daily. And continuing the 50 mg of Clomid. I'm now on month threeand kind of hesitant and down on myself because I'm doubting I'm pregnant yet again. I want nothing more in the world than to be a mommy and my husband wants nothing more in the world than to be a daddy; but at this point I'm nothing but depressed. I know I need to be patient that technically you should give it a year before seeing a specialist. With my insurance and fertility is not a covered benefit which means I pay out-of-pocket. Living in Nevada sparks Nevada there's only one in fertility clinic. And let me tell you the cost just upfront it's something my husband and I cannot afford. I am hoping that miraculously I get pregnant and I know I'm just being impatient but I feel like I've lost all hope. I see all these people around me most fit to be parents becoming pregnant, And deep down I'm happy for them but at first it's like my feelings are hurt and I know that selfish. Then I have those people around me that are just not fit to be parents that are selfish and put themselves before the children which is not right and I can't help but be so so so angry at these people. I think to myself why is it so easy for them to get pregnant and I'm the one struggling my husband and I would make great parents. Another thing that's on my mind but has any rush to get pregnant is I didn't grow up with my mother and I only met my father when I was 18. My grandparents on my mother side raised me from the age of a toddler until I was 18 so they were my parents. Without them I don't know where I would have ended up and I know for a fact I wouldn't of been as great of a person as I am. So I I feel like I'm rushed because my grandparents are older and I want them to meet my Children to get the chance to love my children and I'm scared that if I need to see a specialist and things are prolonged that won't happen. I go into see my Gyn on the 26th of this month I'm hoping she increases my Metformin two 1000 mg b.i.d. totaling 2000 mg daily and increases my Clomid to 100 mg starting cycle day three for five days I think with the higher medication doses trying to conceive would be more successful well at least I hope. I don't know how to stay positive and I don't know how to not be depressed this is the most important thing to me and I feel helpless.my husband and I are finally at a point financially where we are comfortable having a child we are finally in a home that has a room for nursery and has a backyard to play and have space to raise a child we both have reliable safe cars that would fit a car seat and be safe on the road to transport a child and we both have so much love in our hearts for a child. I know there's adoption and fostering which one day I plan to do but it's not the same. My husband is the last generation of his name so I'm hoping that when we do become pregnant (here's me being positive) we have a boy. I joined this for him and this website to try to talk to people who can relate to me. So far I'm the only one in my family who is ever had to work at trying to conceive same as on my husband side. It's difficult and I don't really have anybody who can relate. So if anybody has any words of positivity or encouragement please please send them my way and if there's anyone out there who is religious I know you don't know me but please keep me in your prayers. Thank you for your time, much love Azalee!

 

[Lirpa11]

Hi, good luck on your journey and welcome!

I just wanted to pop in and say my best friend conceived naturally and she has pcos. She was on metformin for insulin resistance but nothing else, so it can happen!

I have also been diagnosed with pcos and I am now expecting our first, however we went through ivf as DH has a low count which made it even more difficult to conceive naturally.

If you're worried about how long it may take, you could always get you DHs semen analysis done? It's not as expensive as other tests and can set your mind at ease so you know it would happen soon enough.

I was in the same boat that doctors would not see me after 6 months of TTC and no luck. Then after 10 months AF just up and stopped for two months, then no AF for three months so they started looking into me after I went to the doctors bawling my eyes out. No AF meant no ovulation, and not being able to TTC. If all seems regular with you I wouldn't stress. It can easily take up to 12 months for a healthy couple to get pregnant. I know that doesn't make the waiting any easier, we waited 17 months and it was a very difficult journey.

Some advice I would say, is focus on the good things YOU TWO have that others don't. Like a strong healthy supportive relationship, financially stable, nice house, reliable cars,plenty of food, bills paid etc. that's what helped me get through. I know some people had that baby that we wanted so desperately , but we were also blessed in so many other ways that they were not.

I'm sure you will make great parents when it happens. Good luck and I hope it happens soon praying for you xx

 

[Azaleecw]

Thank you for your kind words ��