I'm hoping somebody will be able to help me with this one. My cousin and his wife are due their first baby any time now. They have been having trouble ttc for 5 years and have had many treatments. They know the full details of what happened to me. The problem is that i will be expected (by the whole family) to go and visit them and see the new baby when its born but i just cant do this. I am happy for them really but it will upset me so so much to see them with a baby when i long for one of my own. How do i not go without being thought of so badly by everyone? Any ideas?