Disco Derail! - TTCAL/PAL Discussion and Support!

[Allie84]

I had a really traumatizing experience with Alistair yesterday and I'm having a hard time getting over it.

I just got home and we've spent the day in airports and travelling so maybe I'm just weary and emotional, but here's what happened:

Yesterday morning after my crappy trip I was on my way to see my friend which is a 2 hour drive. I was about 40 minutes out of town and had to put on gas. Alistair was asleep but I wanted to go in and get a water, so I put on the gas to fill up the tank and carried Alistair inside in his carrier, fast asleep. When I got back out to the car I was still holding Alistiar in his carrier and I went to pull out of the gas nozzle. It got suck!!!! Gas was spewing everywhere and it I aimed it away from Alsiair but as it was out of control for a second it got him in his carrier. It was all over me. The smell was overpowering. I put him in the car and someone that worked there mentioned there was an urgent care/walk in clinic in town. I was worried it may have gotten in his eyes or he may have swallowed it, but he was acting normal and didn't cry, but I'm just really careful. I went in there thinking they would just look him over but the doctor came right out and said drive stright to the emergency room!!

I had to drive 40 minutes back into town and to the ER, again thinking it would be simple and they would tell me I was overreacting and it would be pretty simple. Intead they got really serious and freaked me out. They took it as a hazmat situation and made me enter through these showers/gas chamber areas. THey wouldn't let me hold Alistiar and two men got into Hazmat gear (bright yellow suits, masks) and they stripped Alistair down and put him in a basket and scrubbed him down while he was screaming. He was so upset he was puking and I couldn't touch him because I wasn't 'sterile.' I could do nothing as he looked at me and criend and the look on his face is haunting me. They rinsed his eyes out for ages and it freaked me the fuck out as well as him. I was singing to him and trying to keep him calm but I couldn't even touch him. It was ages before I got to hold him and wrap him in blankets. He cuddled right in, shaking, and fell right asleep. The doctor came in and said he'd be fine because if he'd swallowed a significant amount he'd be really ill by now. They did a chest xray in case of pulmonary irritation but he was fine. We were there for 5 hours.

I eventually got up to see my friend at like 830 pm. It was a fittingly crappy way to end my crappy vacation. But I'm just so upset at what I put him through. IT was an accident, but it was my fault. And since he was fine, I feel like I over reacted (as usual) bringing him in and then I made it worse by putting him through the Hazmat thing. Maybe I'm overreacting, but what if he's traumatized for life or something? I've never seen him get so upset he threw up...and I couldn't even touch him...

 

[heart tree]

Oh my GOD Allie!!! First off, massive hugs to you and Alistair. You did not overreact! You absolutely did the right thing. What if something was wrong with him and you didn't do anything about it? You would have never forgiven yourself. I see nothing in that story that was your fault. Those pumps are supposed to have safety latches that turn off automatically. It is the fault of the gas station, not you sweetie. I'm practically in tears having read this. I'm shaken by it. I can't begin to imagine how you are feeling. Thank god you are both ok! That's the take away from this. You are both fine. Don't question what you could have done differently. You weren't prepared for something like this to happen. Accidents are just that. Accidents. You aren't to blame. Please get lots of snuggles in with him. It will help heal you.

 

[heart tree]

Hi Amy and Nato!

Will catch up more later after MIL leaves.

 

[heart tree]

Oh and Allie, Alistair won't be traumatized for life. If you abandoned him, that would be a life altering event. But this alone won't do it. He got snuggles from you afterward. That's what he'll imprint in his mind. I honestly think it will stay in your mind longer than his.

 

[Sassy_TTC]

Oh allie that sounds horrific, I'm so so sorry you both had to go through that! Amanda is right it was no well your fault and you did the right thing by taking him to be checked! Him being checked over would have been a lot less traumactic than if he had if got seriously sick! You are an amazing mummy, it was an accident, please don't beat yourself up over it.x

 

[Sparkly]

OMG Allie, that sounds horrendous I'm surprised given the seriousness that they just let your drive all over town looking for help You did not overreact at all, and I'm sure that Alistair is fine after his Mummy cuddles. xx

 

[NatoPMT]

Oh and Allie, Alistair won't be traumatized for life. If you abandoned him, that would be a life altering event. But this alone won't do it. He got snuggles from you afterward. That's what he'll imprint in his mind. I honestly think it will stay in your mind longer than his.

i completely agree with this - how horrible events leave their marks is by how the baby was cared for by their mummy and how he was comforted when he got to you, and the love you showed him is more important in that respect than the fear he mightve felt at the time. Babies are resilient, but need love and consistent care to be resilient.

i gotta say, im pretty shocked at the procedure of treating and cleaning him - I know he needed to be treated but was what they did completely necessary? It sounds like what happened to ET when the authorities discovered an alien... He's a little boy!!!! Im sure they have their reasons and its done for a purpose but the need for sterility etc...hmm

 

[LucyJ]

Oh Allie you poor thing that sounds horrendous. You didnt overreact and please dont blame yourself it was an accident. Alistair wont be traumastised by it all he'll remember is that mummy was there to cuddle him and keep him safe. Babies are resiliant and remember the love and care they are given which Alistair has lots and lots of on. You are a fantastic mummy just remember that and give your little man lots of snuggles.

 

[Jaymes]

Oh Allie! Hugs. I agree wholeheartedly with all the others.

 

[Sassy_TTC]

Wow jaymes, how did you get so pregnant so quickly?
How you feeling?xx

 

[Jaymes]

I'm good, exhausted, but good. I have 32 days until I go in to have this boy. He'll be full term in 10 days... Everyone has been asking if I'm ready for this to be over, and I usually just smile and say no... I'll miss being pregnant. This is the absolute LAST time for us, so I am trying to savor every moment.

I know I don't post much anymore. I do read and think of you guys a lot!

 

[Sassy_TTC]

Ahhh wow that's so soon, he'll be in your arns before you know it. Any names yet?

I miss being pregnant too

 

[Jaymes]

Yes, he has a name, but DH is very tight lipped about it... Honestly it's been kind of fun not knowing. The kids call him TBD. He's very active all the time. I love to sit and watch my belly. He rolls all the time so it looks like an alien is about to burst through. LOL

 

[Sassy_TTC]

Ahhh you should video it! Wow you let dh pick the name? Good for you.x

 

[yogi77]

OMG Allie that sounds horrible, I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Sounds crazy!! Like all of the others said, you didn't overreact in any way, anyone would have done the same!

 

[vickyd]

Hey ladies!!!

First of all Allie oh my god how scary!!! To answer Nato on the overreacting of the docs, actually they did not overreact at all. Gasoline is highly toxic and labeled T4 which is the highest ranking of toxicity in the industry. This is the reason why they now dont have employees pumping your gas and its all self service, to limit exposure. So the doctors were very correct in taking all these measures. You did great by taking him in and im sure he wont remember a thing.

I spent a great week in Paris. The conference was quite interesting but the best part was that it was a mini holiday for me and Alex. We spent alot of quality time together and had some great food and wine. I ate way too much cheese and foie gras (Nato and Hearty dont hate me lol!!!) and came back with a couple nasty pounds added to my thighs! Paris is sooooo expensive, im so glad it was all expenses paid! A small espresso was like 4 euro and a small bottled water was like 3 euro!! They must make alot of money over there to be able to go out.

One thing that is nagging at me is that i was ovulating while there and we werent very careful (blame the wine) and im scared i might be preggo...Im scared cause of all the unpasturised cheese i ate, the pates, the rare fillets and the very rare tartare i had several times. God i hope im not up the duff!!!!

 

[Sassy_TTC]

Paris sounds amazing, glad you and Alex got to spend some quality time together and that it was all expenses paid!

Ahhh, don't worry sweets, if you did fall preggo it would have been way to early to affect bubba. Wow how romantic if you had concerned, you'd have to call baby Paris.x

 

[LucyJ]

Vicky glad you had a good time and it was all expenses paid. Must of been lovely to have some time away with Alex. I think you'll be alright as anything you would of eaten would be to early to effect lo if you were pregnant try not to worry.

 

[hoping:)]

Lucy- it sounds like you had a lovely Friday hanging with your boys. I always do that… go shopping with the intention of picking up something specific but end up with some things for Penny instead. I’m sure there is nothing to worry about with Ben’s weight. Like you said he is happy and healthy and may just be on the petite side for the time being. It sounds like he is a good little eater

Sassy- nothing down the toilet yet. Now we have to make sure all the bathroom doors are closed so hopefully no more toilet incidents

Allie-Oh my gosh! I completely agree with what the other girls said. I can’t believe the traumatizing event you and Alistair had to go through. They way you described it sounds horrifying and you did the right thing taking him in to the ER… you can never be to cautious when it comes to things like that. Like Amanda said, they are supposed to have safety latches on the pumps so please don’t blame yourself. I’m really glad you are both ok

I’m glad you guys enjoyed the Gymboree class. I really like that place much better than the Little Gym. Penny loved the parachute but cried when we put them on the bouncy log.

Jaymes- you are so close! I’m glad you are trying to savor every moment. Are the kids getting excited to meet their little brother? So cute they call him TBD

Vicky- your trip to Paris sounds heavenly. I’m sure it is a spectacular place to have some alone time with your hubby. I too had a mini pregnancy scare when I couldn’t locate my IUD strings and had an iffy pregnancy test. If you are preggo I’m sure all that unfriendly baby food will be fine since you would still be so early on and the baby would be getting nutrients from the yolk sac at this point

AFM- we had a relaxing weekend hanging around the house. Penny helped me put away dishes yesterday and would drop all the silverware in the appropriate drawers (with my guidance) but if I handed her one of her baby spoons she would lick it before putting it away.

I leave to go to North Carolina in a few days and I am already dreading being away from Tim and Penny. I hope my time there flies by.

 

[Allie84]

Thanks everyone! I feel better reading your comments (as usual). It was hard being there alone....I wished Alex were there! He's good in situations like that. It puts some perspective on how I'm prone to complaining about him a lot. Alistair is back at daycare this morning and that makes me a little sad as it was wonderful being with him 24/7 for a week! But, I know it's good to get him back into his routine.


What's bringing you to North Carolina, Amber? Sounds kind of exciting! I'm sure your time will fly by...I find that any time I'm away from home, it flies by! Penny helping you out with dishes sounds so adorable btw!!

Vicky, Paris sounds amazing!! And all expenses paid!! Get you!! That's so cool. I'm glad you had some romance as well....how can you not, in Paris?! As the others have said, no worries whatsoever if you fell pregnant as the baby isn't affected by anything you do right now...he/she would just be a little fertilized egg right about now. Oooh, I hope you are pregnant (if you hope you're pregnant lol).

Jaymes, you're a bigger person than I am, I could NEVER put 100% trust in anyone else to name my baby, even Alex lol! It is kind of exciting to wait and see though, I bet. You are getting so close!!!