Disco Derail! - TTCAL/PAL Discussion and Support!

[LucyJ]

Those pictures were amazing thanks for the distraction. They are just checking the hcg levels I think they expect them to be on the low side to show that the pregnany isn't viable or I'm lossing the pregnancy I dont know what to expect to be honest. The results should be back tomorrow I've been told to ring in the afternoon I think to give the dr time to check them but I may ring in the morining in the hope they've been looked at, what is the chance they will tell me the number even if the dr hasnt looked at them yet?

 

[heart tree]

Ah Luce, I wish I had some words of advice. Oh my love, I wish you could know one way or the other. This waiting is just not fair. I'm so sorry you are going through this. Can't it ever be simple?

Jenny, I've had similar thoughts. I've sometimes wondered if I was a murderer in a past life and am now getting the grief I inflicted on other people. It would explain my fascination with serial killers on TV. In reality though, I don't think it has anything to do with it. It just sometimes makes it easier to find a reason for all of this senseless loss we've endured.

Mel, too true, Vicky is going to have to watch out for her girl showing her tush in years to come!

Nato, those pictures are amazing. I want a framed one of the red ribbon. It is beautiful! Nature at it's finest.

 

[msarkozi]

I am wondering if the little one takes after her mama at all????? Vicky, do you like showing your tush too????

 

[heart tree]

Vicky, I wish I could tell you that you will stop worrying once you have your girl, but I'm afraid the worry just continues, even when they become adults. You are just going to need to find a way to deal with it. Especially when she is showing her bum to boys!

Lucy, don't forget that one round of numbers doesn't give that much information. Remember how upset Vicky was with her numbers as she thought they were too low. We kept telling her that one set of numbers doesn't give enough information. I hope they plan to take another round of bloods to see if they are rising.

 

[vickyd]

I am wondering if the little one takes after her mama at all????? Vicky, do you like showing your tush too????

Not the way it looks now thats for sure!!!!!
When i was doing my PHd i did some bar work on the side and im roud to say i was voted best ass out of 20 female staff!!!! sigh....

 

[msarkozi]

too funny

 

[prgirl_cesca]

Ahhh hello cazz bump!

Jenny - vicky is absolutely right you did what you had to do out of love for your child. You cannot feel guilty about that.

Vicky - so glad the scan went well. You need to stop focusing on every negative though and try and get a pic of your little girl!! I know it's hard though.

Lucy - I hope this is a lovely christmas present for you xxxx

I fell over today at work I slipped on a wet floor outside when I was rushing around because it's so busy at work. I didn't fall on my bum though but kind of did a backwards Matrix style crab pose and got my hand on the floor and pushed myself back up. The underside of my bump and my leg were aching so much. Luckily I had a MW appointment about an hour later and baby seems fine but was hiding so the heartbeat sounded very faint and 'far away' but she said it was just low in my pelvis which is where I know it likes to lie. My hips and back hurt now so just resting. I can't wait for xmas to be over, it is just impossible to slow down at work when it is so busy and I am so professional I don't like to let the team down. Scary stuff though.

 

[msarkozi]

sorry to hear of your fall Cesca! I read in my pregnancy book last week that you don't need to worry about a fall as much, because it will take something serious like a car accident type of force to harm the baby. It said the baby is well protected in our stomachs, and even a fall on our belly won't harm the baby. It's so hard to not worry though. I would probably be freaking out and running to get checked if I ever slipped!

 

[vickyd]

Cesca hun try and take it easy a bit! Can you not delegate the running around work to someone else?

 

[heart tree]

Cesca, I'm glad you are ok. That sounds super scary!

 

[NatoPMT]

is it inappropriate if i say baby's got back?

Vic, did you have any counselling after Elektra? Its completely normal to be anxious, but it might help to have some strategies to cope - Cognitive Behaviour Therapy might be a short term solution to help you stay calm during the pregnancy. You are strong though Vic, you can do this

Lucy I wouldnt put any gravity on a hcg espec as i dont think you are late for af either at that mo? they can be as low as 5 and things still be viable, not unusually so either.

Ouch Cesca, well done for upside down ninja landings though. Did they say why your back hurts? did you just over stretch it or jar it? your ligaments mightve softened a bit to. Hope youre feeling better soon

those photos are so so beautiful. im gonna look at them again

 

[heart tree]

is it inappropriate if i say baby's got back?

Inappropriate? Maybe.
Funny? Definitely.

 

[vickyd]

No Nato i didnt have any counselling after Electra. I wanted to but to be honest i couldnt afford it and still cant. I did have cognitive behavior therapy for a few years after uni so i just tried to work through it on my own. I think for the most part i manage but sometimes i feel overwhelmed and just shut down.

I think Baby got back will be my lo's song!!!!

 

[LucyJ]

Cesca sorry to hear about your fall glad you had a mw appointment and little one is alright. Try and take it easy if you can and definitely rest tonight.

Hearty I so wish it could be simple but can't imagaine what that would feel like. Hopefully I will sleep tonight the only problem I have with sleeping is it felt good last night but all I dreamt about were babies giving birth, holding my baby, steve and I at home with our baby our families around us then you wake up and realise its not real and dont know when it will be real and yet despite everything I still have hope I'm bit scared I'm setting myself up for a massive slap in the face.

Got lots to do tomorrow as going home to my parents tomorrow when steve finishes work so will have plenty to occupy me while waiting for results they better be in tomorrow.

 

[vickyd]

Luce they should be in tomorrow, these tests dont take long at all

 

[LucyJ]

Nato AF is due tomorrow

 

[cazza22]

Luce I just wanted to say that I had horrendous cramping at the beggining of this pregnancy babe like until 7 weeks it was scary as shit, I always thought my period wad coming I even had back ache. It's eased off now bug I still have the occasional days where I'm achey/crampy down there. I just thought I'd share that because I know how scary it is having them feelings. I'm praying do hard that this spotting u had was just implantation bleed babe! And pray for good numbers tomorrow .

Jenny I'm sorry ur going through theses thoughts and feelings Hun I can't imagine what ur going through

cesca sorry about ur fall babes ooouucchh xx

Meggles I only have sassy on fb, I've never put my real name on here just coz I like having this as my little bubble where nobody in my personal life knows if that makes sense? I probs sound like a right weirdo lol! I'll pm u my name so u can add me if u want baby doll? That goes for any of you lovelys if u want to add me on FB pm me ok xxx lov you all xxx Caz xxx

 

[msarkozi]

Luce, you can always do another pregnancy test tomorrow too and for the next little bit to see what's happening with those lines. Just don't use expensive ones, otherwise that is definitely not cheap to do!! I am hoping those are great numbers for you tomorrow.

 

[NatoPMT]

Sorry for spelling Electra's name incorrectly.

and yeay I suggested the baby's theme tune

Sounds like you are using some of the techniques that you were taught before, very useful skill that is. If its overwhelming, you can talk to us too if that might help

 

[heart tree]

Lucy, I think hope is the only thing that keeps us all going. Even if we do get a massive slap in the face later. I think we need to have some hope in order to keep moving forward in this journey. Those dreams sound so familiar. I know them too well. I hope your sleep tonight will be a little more restful. Try to dream about Christian Bale. He's always a good distraction!